It's night, the moon is slanting and the stars are sparse.
I was restless over and over again, and suddenly woke up again in the dark night. The sky was already gray, and I found that I finally shed no more tears.
I have been used to this kind of night since I returned to the Prime Minister's Mansion a month ago. I can't sleep well, and the blue color under my eyes is getting thicker and thicker. This is a heart disease, and no amount of bird's nest supplements sent by the two ladies of the Prime Minister's Mansion will help.
After I came back, I hardly said more than ten words. I hid in the house or collapsed on the bed stupidly, as if I had lost my soul.
But in the middle of the night, I would suddenly wake up countless times. I would even sit up without warning, sing, giggle, kick all the quilts out of bed, curl up on the ground, wrap myself up in quilts, and roll on the ground.
Looking at the dawning sky, and tomorrow is almost here again, the pain in my heart should get better with time.
Ning Yuanjue was seriously injured and was already dying when he was sent back to Prince Ning's Mansion. In the past month, I heard that he had not completely recovered, with good times and bad. Prince Ning's Mansion sent a message asking me to visit, but Prime Minister Liu refused and refused.
Rumors have spread that the second young lady Liu Zipei will enter the palace next month, and the emperor will personally ennoble her as a concubine.
I have become so thin that I have lost my shape. Although the injuries on my body and hands have healed under the care of the Prime Minister's doctor, who will treat the wounds on my heart?
Jue, will you be as reluctant to part with those short days as I am?
With tears in my eyes, the surging longing is like a door that can never be closed. My heart aches and even breathing becomes difficult.
There must be happy dust in the air, otherwise why would it hurt so much when I close my eyes?
"Second Miss, you're awake." Li'er and Lu'er walked in softly, looked at me with tears on their faces, looked at each other for a long time, and whispered: "Miss, if you continue like this, I'm afraid that the day will come when you enter the palace.
, no matter how thick the rouge is, it can't cover your haggardness. Miss, this is a good life. Prince Ning and you have no such fate. Besides, only the emperor can match such a delicate lady. Prince Ning is spending time, listen.
explain……"
"Shut up!" He shouted loudly: "Why do you say this? What qualifications do you have!"
"Miss, Li'er deserves to die! Li'er deserves to die!" These two girls, who were spoiled by me, had never seen me reprimanding them like this before. They were so shocked that they fell to their knees on the ground.
Shaking his swollen and painful head, his eyes must have been swollen beyond recognition. Seeing them like this, he couldn't help but feel soft and said: "Don't tell anyone, let me be alone. It's best not to go out and not see anyone."
Come, I want to hide."
They say that what molluscs need most is a shell.
With the sound of rain, I stood in front of the gradually blurred window, holding a carving knife in my hand. I cut my hand several times and watched the blood seep out. I didn't want to touch it. Jue, I will bleed no less than you.
, my love will never be less than yours. Likewise, I am also feeling your pain and suffering.
Ning Yuanjue, no matter what they say or think, I believe in my intuition. Maybe I understand you, I really understand you!
However, they may be right, people who are in love are not necessarily destined to be destined, and there are many love affairs that are destined but not destined.
So, everyone has to say goodbye in the end.
But I don’t even dare to say goodbye, not even to see you for the last time. I am timid and cowardly, maybe because... Hey, love is really too heavy these days.
Forgive me for not being able to take you and me away, Jue. If you want to smile, I like to see your smile. Smiling makes it easier to get through the day.
Maybe it's because I've gotten old in the past month, otherwise why don't I have the energy to hate anyone and have never thought about struggling? Am I too tired?
Putting down the carving knife, Lu'er carefully bandaged my wound and applied medicine. The second lady walked in, looked at me nervously and reproachfully, wanted to say something, opened her mouth several times and swallowed it back.
"Zipei, you look like this. When you get to the palace, the emperor will see you..." Maybe she saw that my face was getting more and more ugly. She paused and seemed to muster up the courage to continue: "What is that boy Ning Yuanjue capable of?"
, in addition to relying on the old prince to get a title, a half-toned prince spends all day in the gentle countryside. You are worried here. As soon as he recovers from illness, he goes to the Moulin Rouge and has a hot relationship with the top brand Ningmiaoyan! You are stupid
, it’s better to enter the palace with peace of mind!”
Mom, I won’t listen to anything you say at this time. Even if he really does this, what I am doing is paying tribute to my love, because I once loved so devoutly, and I still love you now, maybe in this life.
Unforgettable.
Oh, I remembered it all again.
So deeply in love, I have tried to forget countless times but always think of his smile, and think of the sea that changes in a moment.
My mother took stock of the items I had to bring into the palace, and told the two girls one by one what to bring and what I needed.
"Put all these jewelry away, eh? You don't need to bring this hairpin." My mother looked critically at Huici's dirt-stained magnolia hairpin and threw it aside. I walked over, picked up the hairpin, and inserted it into my hair silently.
In her bun, she carefully wiped the carving knife with blood on her scratched hand, put it into her waist, and sat quietly in front of the window.
Tomorrow, tomorrow I will enter the palace. I don’t want to see anyone, not even my fourth brother. I don’t want the people who love me to see me as a human being or a ghost.
"Miss, this umbrella..." Lu'er held the umbrella with the jade on the top broken by me. It had the words "A piece of moon makes the sea" elegantly and elegantly written on it.
I chuckled, should I burn it or return it to the owner?
"Send it to Prince Ning's Mansion. Just say, thank you, Prince, for the umbrella. Miss, I don't need it." Close your eyes, what should I do, Jue, I feel so much pain.