Not long ago, I was so brave and desperate to pursue my longing, love was like chasing the wind.
I have also stretched out my hands towards the perfect love in my imagination, but I was always just a little short of catching it.
In fact, what I did is understandable. Almost everyone is chasing their own happiness in life.
They say that a person always looks up to and envies the happiness of others, but when he turns around, he finds that he is being looked up to and envied by others.
I looked around helplessly at the gorgeous ceramics, sparkling jewelry, silky silk, and the favor of the supreme emperor. Then, I should be happy. However, my happiness is often in the eyes of others.
I have to wake up. The road ahead is still long. Escape? Where else can I escape?
His pale, paper-like face made his chin look even more pointed. Huangfu Zhi turned his back to me, holding a wooden figure with only the edges and corners of the figure carved out and looking at it. He sighed, feeling slightly sad again. The wooden figure was originally carved casually.
Just for fun. But what kept popping up in my mind was Ning Yuanjue’s features. I was so heartbroken that I had difficulty breathing, so I threw it aside, never thinking that the two careless girls would take it too.
"Are you just going to look at me speechless like this?" Huangfu Zhi put the wooden figure aside with a bang.
My whole body was shaken. In fact, he didn't knock hard and the sound wasn't loud. I don't know why, but I just felt my head was numb, as if the wooden man was alive...
"What else is there to say? Just like that white jade, it went around in a circle and finally ended up in the hands of the emperor." He tried to make himself smile more naturally, but the corners of his mouth were unbearably bitter.
"Aren't you ready to explain?" Huangfu Zhi sat in front of the bed, staring at me with his bottomless eyes, trying to understand everything about me.
"Your Majesty, I dare to ask you a question." I straightened my body and wanted to stay away from him, but he pulled me closer and I was not allowed to dodge.
His eyes were sharp, and the suffocating feeling of a born king made me dare not look at him. I dodge my eyes uncomfortably and said, "Your Majesty, I would like to ask if you believe me."
Huangfu Zhi was silent.
I raised a smile and shook my head and said, "Your Majesty, since you may not believe what I say, so what's the point. But, Your Majesty, you are the emperor, and as your subject, I dare not hide anything."
"My concubine is indeed the daughter of Prime Minister Liu, and everyone knows that the Moulin Rouge is opened by Liu Zhaoyang, the fourth son of Prime Minister Liu. It is normal for this sister to secretly send something to her brother on weekdays, but she did not expect to offend the emperor." The past events are vividly remembered.
If it could be rewritten, I would not have let Ning Yuanjue encourage his fourth brother to open a brothel.
"So you already knew my identity when we met for the second time." Huangfu Zhi's face was calm, with no expression visible.
He nodded with a smile, and called him a certain young master at that time, and said: "Your Majesty, you were also aware of the situation at that time. It's a knife to shrink your head, and it's a knife to stretch your head out. It's better to pretend to be stupid." I felt a little cold and shivered.
Shivering, Huangfu Zhi thoughtfully pulled up the quilt for me and tucked me in carefully.
He smiled gratefully at him and said, "Your Majesty is a wise king. Zi Pei said this, and I hope he can clearly understand the reason behind it. As for Huangfu Hao, please forgive me. Zi Pei did not know his true identity. At that time, he was with him in the north.
It’s also a necessity together.”
Even though I knew my words were full of flaws, what else could I say?
"Why did you run away?" He took my cold hand and rubbed it gently.
"I...I'm afraid, mainly because I'm afraid that the emperor will find me." I secretly encouraged myself to calm down! I must be calm! It can't be said that I am going to find my lover because of Zijin's pursuit!
But as soon as my words came out, Huangfu Zhi's eyes were covered with a layer of ice, which was frightening. His hand touched my bright wrist like frost and snow. There was a faint pink scar on it, and his eyes flashed.
Unfortunately, it turns out he remembered it.
Suddenly, he thought of the portrait that Xiang Yinong was talking about. He lowered his head and said coyly: "I'm not afraid that the emperor will laugh at my concubine for being stupid. What I was thinking at the time was very simple. I was just afraid that the emperor would issue a notice to the whole country to arrest me when he was angry. When the time comes,
Daddy found out and had to pluck out my skin. So he ran away all the way. He didn’t know where to go anyway. He looked at the brightest stars in the north and followed them. Zipei was no better than her elder sister. She had no rules since she was a child.
Please forgive me for all the disrespect. And oh! Regarding Concubine Jin..."
The following words were all blocked by Huangfu Zhi's lips. After a slight struggle, I gently wrapped my arms around his neck, closed my eyes, and tried my best to trap the tears in my eyes.
His lips were full of domineering and predatory, his strong arms hugged me tightly, and his hands unbuttoned my thin clothes. I felt like my whole body was trembling. I didn't dare to open my eyes and look at him, letting him be there.
He gets everything that belongs to him.
The pain hit me, and I finally couldn't help crying. It hurt, but what hurt was my heart. I thought I had convinced myself, but I shattered my lies before the truth came. I was really a shoddy liar.
You can’t even fool yourself!
He kissed away my tears and coaxed me for a long, long time. This must be the unique tenderness given by an emperor.
Huangfu Zhi hugged me with heavy breathing, as if he wanted to crush me into his body, but I was completely numb. I buried my face in his chest and didn't want him to see my face. I was afraid that he would see it.
No clues.
There are no absolutes in everything. I have fantasized countless times about how wonderful my first night should be, but the reality is so determined and ruthless.
At this time, I even felt cold and scary. How could I be like this? What kind of reward do I want for all my efforts? Lying in Huangfu's hot arms, I whispered and laughed in his ear.
Thinking, even if it is not out of love, I will try my best to be his woman, and don’t dwell on the past too much. Living in the present, you should grasp the present well, maybe Huangfu Zhi really has that much
Love me deeply. He kissed me softly, closed his eyes, and fell asleep.
Looking at his perfect face, I smiled bitterly, rested my head on his shoulder, pressed against his chest to absorb the warmth, and slowly fell asleep.
I dreamed of myself. In the dream, Liu Zipei had a sweet smile, her charm was indescribable, her gauze skirt was flying, her slender waist was twisting, her long hair was like a cloud on her head, and she was walking in Jinjiang with an exquisite incense cage in her hand.