Ah Shui understood the meaning of rejection in this sentence. She slowly put down her hand, took a deep breath, forced a smile, turned back to the room, took out the iron fan from the bottom of the box, and handed it to Ashin's hand:
"Axin, you were the one who held this fan in your hand. See if you can recall anything."
Until this moment, Ah Shui completely gave up on this man who would never belong to him. Although his heart hurt very much, as if it was torn apart, it was better than hearing Ashin say that he would be in pain for the rest of his life.
Turning around, Ah Shui left the woodshed, leaving Ashin alone and staring blankly at the fan in his hand. A very, very familiar feeling came over him, and Ashin's hand touched a bump at the bottom of the fan.
Suddenly, a long sword jumped out.
Then, he opened the fan, and the long sword instantly turned into twelve blades, flashing with a familiar cold light.
Following the surface of the fan, Ashin's eyes unconsciously glanced towards the corner. Three very uncoordinated small characters suddenly appeared on the white fan surface - Xiaobao'er.
Those three words were like a sharp sword, cutting through the mist that had been in her mind layer by layer. After a sharp pain in his head, his eyes gradually became clear.
Suddenly, memories came flooding back.
When I was a child, my round face was charming and smart, like a ripe red apple that made people want to take a bite.
Since that time, a little girl named Leng Changxi has penetrated deeply into his heart.
When they met again, he was lying in a pool of blood in a panic, so she rescued him on a whim and saved his life. From then on, the two of them have been obsessed with each other until now.
Leng Changxi never loved her but fell deeply in love with her. Finally, when he was watching the sunrise as the clouds cleared, he forgot about her.
When all the memories poured into his mind, Ashin, or Chen Shaoxuan to be precise, realized what he had missed these days, and the anxiety and annoyance in his heart also surged up.
He slowly closed his eyes, quietly hiding the self-blame and anxiety in his eyes. His body couldn't help but tremble slightly, and even breathing felt painful.
After a long time, Chen Shaoxuan slowly exhaled and slowly opened his eyes. His eyes were like torches, and a flash of light suddenly appeared.
He put the iron bone fan in his arms properly, arranged the firewood in the woodshed, and then calmly walked out of the woodshed.
Standing in the courtyard, he glanced at Ah Shui's house and saw a figure reflected on the window lattice by the jumping firelight, sobbing and wiping his tears with a handkerchief.
A flash of guilt flashed in Chen Shaoxuan's eyes. Although he had never fallen out of love with Ah Shui, he still owed her a life. Now that he saw her being in ecstasy because of him, he felt a little sorry for her.
So, the footsteps that wanted to leave at night stopped, turned around, landed gently in front of Ah Shui's door, and slowly knocked on her door.
Hearing the noise, Ah Shui hurriedly wiped away her tears and pretended to be calm and asked: "Who is it?"
"Ah Shui, it's me." Chen Shaoxuan's voice was low and slow, but it sounded like a jar of old wine, rich and mellow.
Ah Shui was stunned for a moment, then showed a sad smile, walked slowly to the door, and gently opened the door panel: "Axin, what's the matter?"
Seeing Ah Shui's forced smile, Chen Shaoxuan felt even more guilty.
He looked deeply at Ah Shui, and the apology in his eyes was clearly visible. If Ah Shui didn't understand this, then she would be really stupid.
"Axin, have you remembered..." Ah Shui's voice was low, but there was a hint of despair and fear.
She slowly moved her gaze away from Chen Shaoxuan's face. She did not dare to look at Chen Shaoxuan for fear that she would not be able to hold back the tears in her eyes.
Chen Shaoxuan sighed helplessly and hummed slowly from his throat: "Yes. I remember."
"That, that's great." Ah Shui forced out a smile, but it was uglier than crying, and his voice couldn't help but tremble: "Congratulations on finally getting your memory back."
"Ah Shui, thank you." Chen Shaoxuan always felt that he owed Ah Shui a sincere gratitude. Although he had thanked her before when he lost his memory, at that time, he was not the complete Chen Shaoxuan, but a person without memory.
of Ashin.
Chen Shaoxuan didn't know how much emotion a person could carry in his life. Because he only knew that he could only carry one deep love in his life, and that person was Leng Changxi. Therefore, he was destined to feel sorry for Ah Shui.
He was destined to let down Ah Shui's relationship.
"Axin, it was just a matter of course to save you. Didn't you save me once too? Why are you so polite?" Listening to Chen Shaoxuan's words, Ah Shui's heart was trembling, and he vaguely felt that he was about to lose Chen Shaoxuan.
However, Chen Shaoxuan did not follow Ah Shui's words. Instead, he sighed and said, "Ah Shui, my real name is Chen Shaoxuan."
Ah Shui was shocked when he heard this and couldn't help but tremble slightly. Did his words mean that he was going to completely draw a clear line with himself? Has the Ashin who once smiled tenderly at her disappeared?
Tears finally burst out, and Ah Shui suppressed herself and sobbed quietly.
The self-blame in Chen Shaoxuan's eyes was even stronger, but he knew that long-term pain was not as good as short-term pain, and there were still things that should be said.
So, he pondered for a moment and then spoke slowly: "Ah Shui, do you still remember the woman I told you about that woman who always appears in my mind? When I remembered it, I remembered that she was the woman I had been in love with for more than ten years.
My wife. But now she is trapped in a place that I can’t enter at all..."
It's one thing to hear other people say it, but it's another feeling to hear it from the person involved. At least, Ah Shui's heart was numb with pain at this moment.
She shook her head vigorously and murmured to herself: "Stop talking, stop talking..."
At this moment, there was a soft knock on the door behind Chen Shaoxuan, and he knew it must be the old man without turning around.
Sure enough, the old man walked up behind him silently, sighed heavily, and shouted: "Mr. Chen..."
Mr. Chen's voice showed that his words had long been heard in the old man's ears.
Chen Shaoxuan turned around, bowed his hands to the old man, and said politely: "Liu Bo, thank you for taking care of me these days! Shaoxuan will definitely repay you in the future."
The old man waved his hand and sighed: "There is no need to say anything about repayment. Now that you have remembered what happened in the past, my sixth uncle will not keep you much longer. You can go..."
When Ah Shui heard what the old man said, he cried hysterically. Although he had known it would be like this for a long time, when he really faced it, he realized that it was so painful, it hurt to the bone!
Some pains cannot be borne by others and can only be endured by oneself. Some things can only be understood after experiencing them. When faced with Ah Shui's heart-wrenching cry, Chen Shaoxuan resolutely chose to turn around and leave.
Because his heart is so small that it can only hold Leng Changxi.