Fear of victimization often causes us to suffer greater harm.——Boileau
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When I first woke up, I opened my eyes to see the light blue sky and white clouds on the ceiling instead of the tree crown I usually see, and I immediately realized that this was not my room.
She was alone in the room, still holding Pooh in her arms. After thinking about it carefully, Rousseau sent her downstairs last night. She came up wanting to talk to her daddy about "The Peony Pavilion", but daddy fell asleep.
I didn't want to disturb him. When I was about to go to bed after taking a bath, it started to thunder. I was really scared, so I came to find my daddy.
Ruochu only remembered that he was very scared at the time, and recalled the feeling of his childhood. It was still in Boston, and the sound of thunder woke up Ruochu who was taking a nap. At that time, Qin Nan had something urgent to do, so he thought of taking advantage of Ruochu.
When Chu was taking a nap, he quickly went back. Unexpectedly, thunder suddenly rumbled in the summer sky. Ruochu was not yet four years old at that time. After being awakened by the thunder, he couldn't find Qin Nan anywhere, and the thunder was even louder.
Ruochu was so frightened that she cried and hid under the table. After Qin Nan came back, it took a lot of effort to coax her out.
At that time, there was no timely psychological intervention, so Qin Nan probably did not take this matter to heart at that time, but from then on, Ruo Chu had a shadow. When Qin Nan found out later, he felt sorry for his daughter and wanted to
She took Ruochu to see a psychiatrist but was rejected by Ruochu. Maybe she felt that being afraid of thunder was a shameful thing and was unwilling to mention it.
But whenever there is thunder, Qin Nan will take the initiative to run to accompany Ruochu. Yesterday, Qin Nan was not around, and Ruochu ran to find his father without even thinking about it. He just vaguely felt that he was safe in his arms.
, it was very warm, and I slept very soundly afterwards, without even dreaming. I haven’t slept so soundly and peacefully for a long time.
I looked around and saw that I occupied the entire bed. So where did daddy sleep? He couldn't have gone to his room. Thinking of this, he got up and got out of bed, carrying Winnie back to his room.
Everything was as it was when I left last night. I looked around the living room and kitchen, but I couldn't find any trace of my father. I was wondering where the person had gone when there was a sound on the door, and Xiaochuan opened the door and came in panting in sportswear.
"You're up, why don't you sleep more?" Xiaochuan saw Ruochu standing stupidly in the living room, still wearing cartoon pajamas, and said hello after adjusting his breathing.
"Ah, morning, Daddy..." Ruochu couldn't help but feel embarrassed when she thought of her embarrassment last night, a little afraid that Xiaochuan would laugh at her, and felt uncomfortable all over.
"I haven't been exercising for a long time. It's really hard to exercise all of a sudden. Haha, the air outside is so nice after the rain. It hasn't been so fresh for a long time." Xiaochuan said to himself as he changed out of his sports shoes.
"I'm sorry, Daddy, for disturbing you last night. Did you sleep well?" Ruochu saw Xiaochuan put on his shoes and turned to face him, quickly finding a topic.
"It's okay. It's just that my arms and legs are a bit stiff from sleeping on this sofa. Everything else is fine. How about it, are you okay?" Xiaochuan said with a smile.
"Daddy, do you think I'm useless and worthless?" Ruochu swallowed her saliva and asked with great effort. This was what she was worried about, and it was one of the few things that made her a little small.
A place of inferiority.
"How could it be? This is because we didn't take good care of you. Your mother has been blaming herself for this, but she doesn't blame you. Don't be afraid of anything in the future. Does daddy know?" Xiaochuan came over and hugged Ruochu.
His shoulders relaxed again, "Okay, I'm going to take a shower and make breakfast. You can lie down for a while, and I'll call you." After that, he went back to his room.
Ruochu stood there chewing Xiaochuan's words, and a warm current passed through her heart, and then she suddenly became excited. While her father was taking a bath, she went to make breakfast. She didn't want to be a lazy lady who opened her mouth for food.
Woolen cloth.
"Daddy, what do you think Rousseau and I did last night?" When the two of them were sitting across from each other in the kitchen eating Ruochu's simple sandwich, Ruochu gave in.
Xiaochuan paused for a moment and smiled unnaturally, "How do I know?" He had been struggling with this question all night, but Ruo Chu couldn't help but pick up which pot today.
"Guess? Daddy, hurry up." Ruochu refused, originally wanting to liven up the atmosphere, but why Daddy is so humorless today.
"It's just what men and women should do!" Xiaochuan managed to think of an answer that wasn't boring. Unfortunately, Ruochu didn't understand it right away. After he understood what Xiaochuan meant, his face turned red.
"Daddy, you are so bad, what are you talking nonsense about?" Ruochu threw away the sandwich in his hand, stared at Xiaochuan innocently, and said loudly.
"Ahem..." Xiaochuan chuckled and lowered his head to take a sip of milk, deliberately not looking at Ruochu's surprised expression. "Okay, I can't guess it, tell me."
Ruochu felt energetic again, "Yesterday we watched Mr. Bai's "The Peony Pavilion"."
"Oh?" Xiaochuan raised his head in surprise, "Have you seen Mr. Bai?"
"That's not true." Ruochu told the truth.
"Well, it's a pity, otherwise I could have gone to see him. I haven't seen him for a long time." Xiaochuan also said with a little regret.
"By the way, Ruoruo, you can spend more time with Rousseau in the future. You don't have to hang out with an old man like me all day long." Xiaochuan thought for a while and said again. This was what he was thinking about telling Ruochu last night but didn't know whether he should or not.
If anything, I couldn't hold it in anymore today and felt that I couldn't delay them. After all, this is the age for falling in love.
Ruochu's face suddenly became serious, "Daddy, were you angry because I missed our appointment yesterday?"
"How could it be? Daddy can't be so stingy. Daddy hopes you get married as soon as possible, so I can worry less." Xiaochuan didn't look up when he said this, feeling that he didn't feel calm enough.
If Ruochu didn't say anything, Xiaochuan felt that the atmosphere was a bit depressing: "I'm full." He got up and walked out of the kitchen.
"Daddy..." Ruochu called him from behind.
Xiaochuan stopped.
"Do you hate me?" Ruochu's voice was more serious than ever.
Xiaochuan frowned and said without looking back: "Don't think about it, eat quickly, if you want to go with me."
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Ruochu felt that Xiaochuan's behavior in the morning was strange all day long, but he still didn't know what was wrong. During the meeting in the morning, his behavior was quite normal. When he went to work in the morning, he always had nothing to say, so he mentioned Rousseau.
what does it mean?
I slept late last night and wanted to make myself a cup of coffee to refresh myself in the afternoon. Unfortunately, the pure water in the office was gone and the water changer hadn't come yet, so I got up and went to the tea room.
As soon as I walked to the door, I heard someone talking inside. It happened that one of them mentioned "Sabina". Because Ruochu always wore flat shoes, he walked silently, so he didn't alert the people inside. He heard someone
While talking about himself, Ruochu subconsciously stopped.
"Yes, Humbert is old enough to be her father..."
"Young girls nowadays don't know what to think. They become mistresses at a young age..."
"How can you get a position if you're not a mistress? Do you think the deputy editor-in-chief got this job for free..."
Ruochu already understood what this meant, and she rushed into the tea room in a few steps, startling the two people inside. Ruochu looked at the two people expressionlessly, "Have you finished your work?
Do you still have time to chat here?" His voice was cold.
The two people glanced at each other, perhaps out of guilty conscience, and left the tea room dejectedly under Ruochu's eyes.
Ruochu took a deep breath, tried to control his emotions, opened the upper cabinet to find coffee, and found that the jar had reached the bottom. He closed it bitterly, without pouring the water, and returned to his office weakly with the empty cup.
It turns out that she is such a person in everyone's eyes. It turns out that the recognition she has always wanted from everyone is just a daydream. It turns out that the so-called respect shown by everyone is just a polite courtesy, but secretly she is doing it for everyone.
A person that everyone despises.
If you initially thought that everyone's speculation about her was limited to the fact that she had met the editor-in-chief before and relied on connections to get to her current position, and as long as she worked hard and showed her abilities, the rumors would be self-defeating. But now, it has developed to this point.
It was an unbearable situation that she had never expected.
What makes her most intolerable is that the rumors only hurt her, but now even her father is involved, and she is not just angry.
Lying on the table, he tried to think of the source of the rumor. He remembered that he had met Pei Hua several times when he and his father were working together. Could it be that Ruochu sat up straight and suddenly understood why his father wanted to separate from him in the first place?
At work, it turns out that this is what Daddy is worried about. He is really stupid. Just as he was thinking about it, Xiaochuan asked her to go to his office on MSN.
"Why do you look so bad?" Xiaochuan immediately noticed Ruochu's strangeness.
Ruochu sat on the sofa with a dark face and said nothing.
"What's wrong?" Xiaochuan asked nervously. He had never seen Ruochu so angry before.
Ruochu let out a long sigh, "Daddy, I'm sorry."
"What's the matter?" Xiaochuan got up from his desk and walked to the sofa where Ruochu was sitting. He put his hands in his pockets and looked down at her, feeling a faint sense of uneasiness in his heart.
"They, they said that we have that kind of relationship, which is very ugly." Ruochu said with difficulty.
Xiaochuan's face immediately darkened. What he feared most finally came to pass. Looking at Ruochu's look, he didn't know that his words were definitely not nice to hear.
"Ruoruo..." Xiaochuan called out and didn't know what to say.
Ruochu looked at him blankly.
"How about we make our father-daughter relationship public..." This was the only way Xiaochuan could think of to resolve the rumors.
"No." If Chu was categorical, it would be tantamount to proving that she still got to this position through connections, no matter what the connections were.
"Daddy, what does second wife mean?" Ruochu asked suddenly. She knew it was not a good word, but she had not been bored enough to study the meaning of the word in the ivory tower. It seemed to be a new vocabulary.
"This, this..." Xiaochuan didn't know how to explain.
"Do you mean girlfriend or wife?" Ruochu thought everyone criticized them just because of the big age gap between them.
"No, it's someone other than the wife, similar to... a mistress." Xiaochuan shook his head bitterly and said.
Ruochu bit her lip, "But you don't have a wife?"
Xiaochuan frowned and looked at Ruochu for a while, "Ruoruo, there is a way to make the rumors collapse."
"You and Rousseau should marry." Xiaochuan thought for a while and said with difficulty. This was the best way he could think of.