Hiding in a certain time, missing the palm prints of a period of time; hiding in a certain place, missing a person who stood on both the way in and out, who made me care. The image in my heart is racing against the pain in my heart, and I have to run fast.
Don’t let this pain catch up.——Qian Zhongshu
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Ruochu got the key and also accepted Xiaoqing's two-hour cross-examination, but she remained silent. Xiaoqing still didn't want to give up. Finally, a call from Xiaoqing's office rescued Ruochu, but Xiaoqing
She said that she wanted to find her again because she didn't believe that she had changed so much after just leaving the country for a few days. In her words, the original sharp-tongued, lively and upbeat daughter had disappeared. Now she is sitting here.
She was like an old woman in front of her, and she wanted to get it back.
Ruochu had the urge to tell her secrets several times, but she still held back. She also wanted to ask her godmother about her mother and father back then, but in the end she didn't ask. Forget it, she had to know better.
What's the use of multifunctionality?
But in the middle, Xiaoqing accidentally mentioned Xiaochuan's current situation to Ruochu, which really shocked Ruochu. She couldn't imagine what her godmother described about her father. She had never seen him like that.
But she couldn't help but believe in her godmother. She thought he would be happy because he finally got rid of her, at least without any burden. Unexpectedly, he actually cared about her leaving, but that didn't mean anything, right?
She persuaded herself in this way, but before going home, she still went to her and Xiaochuan's original residence. They were waiting behind the pillar where she used to look up downstairs. What she didn't know was that not long ago,
Xiaochuan also waited for her like this here. Although his mood was different, his final purpose was to know whether the other party was okay.
He came back not too late. Ruochu finally saw him from a distance. It was not as exaggerated as his godmother described, but his hair seemed to be longer, and his face was thinner and more prominent. The stubble was already obvious, and it seemed that he had two sides.
The sky was not blowing, so Xiaochuan lowered his head and concentrated on walking. He was carrying a shopping bag from the supermarket. There were only two things in it - instant noodles and wine.
Without allowing Ruochu to take another look, Xiaochuan had already strode in. Ruochu suddenly leaned against the pillar next to him, wanting to cry but without tears.
Just like this, Ruochu told herself, but she could never move her eyes away from that window, which contained too many of her laughter and dreams. Perhaps it was in line with that sentence, all good things are destined not to last long.
, then, let’s say goodbye here, not only saying goodbye to that person, that relationship, and the girl’s Huaichun that has a beginning and an end, but maybe also saying goodbye to all my yearning for beauty and happiness. From now on, no matter what, bear it peacefully,
No more extravagant hopes.
Ruochu chose an early morning to leave after Xia Tian and Rousseau had left. Her luggage was very simple. She just didn't want to say goodbye to anyone. During this period, she had said goodbye to too many things. She didn't dare to look at Rousseau's carrying bag again.
She looked at her eyes with too much content, and could not face Xia Tian's attentiveness and care. If a person received too much help, she would definitely feel uneasy. She was already uneasy, and she didn't want to become more uneasy.
He tidied up the entire room, filled the refrigerator with food, and then left a note to Rousseau and Xia Tian, telling them not to worry and that everything was fine. He dragged the box out and when he felt the sunshine of early spring,
Suddenly there was a feeling of relief.
Ruochu seemed to disappear from everyone's sight. Rousseau and Xia Tian didn't speak to each other that night. Xia Tian understood Rousseau's mood, and Rousseau felt that he had been abandoned by Ruochu, or isolated, but he
Can you just give up?
It took several days for Rousseau to finally figure out Ruochu's activity pattern. He would get up early and do morning exercises, run out of the apartment to a nearby park, spend some time in the park and then run back.
Then maybe I’ll go to a nearby supermarket, maybe not. I’ll spend most of the afternoon at a coffee shop called “Carving Time” three blocks away. In the evening, I’ll sometimes go to a bar or watch a movie in a theater.
Or he wouldn't go anywhere and just shut himself in the room. Rousseau would usually wait until Ruochu's lights were turned off before leaving, because only in this way would he feel at ease.
Rousseau came back very late every day, and Xia Tian just silently warmed him the food prepared in the evening, without asking or saying anything. Rousseau rarely spoke anymore. In this way, the three of them seemed to have fallen into a trap, and God had already prepared it.
The reason why a trap is called a trap is because there is no way to escape and there is no happiness.
Finally one day, when Ruochu came out of the small coffee shop, she noticed the familiar figure standing at the corner. She was startled, and then smiled at him, so he walked back with her.
, the two of them said nothing.
"Come up and sit down, or have a casual meal." When he walked downstairs to the apartment, Ruochu said to Rousseau with a smile. Rousseau was stunned, nodded, and chuckled, "I haven't seen you for a long time.
I laughed, today was really worth it."
Ruochu didn't say anything and just walked ahead. Rousseau hurriedly followed.
Xiaoqing's room was decorated as usual, but it was Rousseau's first time here. Now this is Ruochu's place to stay. It can be seen that she has adapted to the environment here and can move through several rooms with ease.
"Coffee or tea?" Ruochu's first question was, Rousseau said, "I just want you to sit with me."
Ruochu thought for a while, "Then let me cook dinner for you." After that, he went to change clothes and then went to the kitchen.
routing
That’s okay too…
Since Xiaoqing came last time, Xiaochuan has also noticed his decadence, so he has really restrained himself. At least he can eat on time, whether it is takeout or instant noodles, and he can still drink wine, but he will not get drunk until the second time.
He couldn't wake up every day, and his attitude became much calmer when he went to work. He still smoked heavily because he couldn't control it, but he didn't seem to want to control it.
I came back early that day. I soaked the noodles and put them on the coffee table in the living room. Just as I was about to turn on the TV to watch sports news, I suddenly heard someone knocking on the door. Xiaochuan thought it was an illusion or knocking on the door next door, so he didn’t pay attention.
He continued to turn on the TV, but the sound only stopped for a moment and gradually became louder. Xiaochuan's heart tightened suddenly, a huge hope rose in his chest, and he even forgot to open the door.
Finally, he jumped up, rushed to the door in a few steps, controlled his heart that was almost beating, and opened the door with trembling hands. When he saw the person in front of him clearly, the expectation on his face dimmed instantly.
"What? Are you disappointed to see me?" Qin Nan did not miss the subtle changes on Xiaochuan's face. It was obvious that he was waiting for someone, not her.
"Where, you are a rare guest, I can't even invite you. It's just a little messy inside, please come in..." Xiaochuan said embarrassedly.
Qin Nan was not polite and walked in directly. He saw the instant noodles on the table at a glance. He put down his handbag and went straight to the instant noodles. He picked it up and looked around. He confirmed the location of the kitchen and walked over. Xiaochuan didn't have time.
Qin Nan stopped him, and the instant noodles that were ready to be eaten had been thrown into the trash can by Qin Nan.
Xiaochuan sighed.
Qin Nan opened the refrigerator and checked. It was empty. There were only a few scattered boxes of cans and a lot of beer. He closed the refrigerator and opened the cupboard doors one by one. There was nothing. Qin Nan turned around and frowned: "Let's go out to eat. I didn't eat either."
Woolen cloth."
Xiaochuan scratched his head in embarrassment.
Before going out, Qin Nan did not forget to tidy up Xiaochuan's living room, and finally handed a large garbage bag to Xiaochuan before the two went downstairs.
The last time Xiaoqing left Xiaochuan, she went straight to Qin's house. She wanted to find out the ins and outs of the matter, because the party on Ruochu's birthday was fine, but then she went skiing and came back like this. She thought
Qin Nan would know, but unexpectedly, Qin Nan was also surprised after hearing her description, and she didn't know that Ruochu was going to move out and no longer live with Xiaochuan, so Xiaoqing had to guess with Qin Nan, and asked
Qin Nan went to persuade Xiaochuan when she had time, because she knew that Qin Nan's words still had weight in Xiaochuan's heart.
Qin Nan came today not only because she promised Xiaoqing, but she also wanted to know what happened.
She had gone to see Ruochu before, but Ruochu didn't say anything. However, she was quite satisfied with Ruochu's living conditions. Her life was regular and her room was tidy, but her attitude was a bit cold. It didn't matter if Qin Nan felt a little uncomfortable.
To the bottom of my heart, I thought that I wanted to ask her to go home and live there, but she didn't want to and that was why I was being petty. My daughter knew it, and later she gave her a few instructions and stopped forcing her. Since she was an adult, she wanted to
Being independent is not necessarily a bad thing, and she was too tired from work before. Qin Nan secretly felt sorry for her. Now that he knew that she had resigned and had a rest, he followed her and left after a few words.
Then I came here to find Xiaochuan.
"Brother Xiaochuan, I think you can't go on like this anymore. Find me a sister-in-law." Qin Nan said to Xiaochuan after ordering the food.
Xiaochuan smiled and said nothing.
As a result, the meal was extremely silent. Qin Nan felt Xiaochuan's isolation and isolation, so she stopped trying to persuade him. Over the years, she had known his temper, and when she finally said goodbye, she gave her the words Xiaochuan had given her.
He sent it back to Xiaochuan, "It's fine," Qin Nan said.
"Well, thank you." Xiaochuan waved, and Qin Nan rolled up the window and drove away.
The restaurant was not far from his residence, so Xiaochuan strolled back. The night air was very good, and the road was very quiet, because Qin Nan didn't let him drink. His mind was clearer than ever before, and his heart became much calmer. Walking like this
, the consciousness that has been hazy recently has gradually become clearer.
He remembered the question that had always troubled him, whether he regarded Ruo Chu as Qin Nan's substitute, because this sentence had never left him at peace since the moment Ruo Chu was nailed to his heart.
Pain, like a time bomb, he always asked himself, is it really, is it?
But Qin Nan's arrival today finally gave him a basis. If so, why was he disappointed when he opened the door and saw Qin Nan instead of Ruochu? Yes, why was he disappointed?
It turned out that her heart was full of only her, not anyone's shadow, she was her. He finally found the answer. He wanted to tell her, but he couldn't help it. This was his explanation to Ruochu, and also
An explanation to myself, but what happens next? So what if I love her?
Xiaochuan, who had just been excited for a while, felt depressed again. Forget it, let nature take its course. If there was a chance, he would tell her that it would depend on whether God would arrange such an opportunity for them.