Dear Agnes, I went abroad to love you. I stayed abroad to love you. I returned home to love you! - Charles Dickens, "David Copperfield"
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Ruochu didn't hesitate too much and answered the phone. After hanging up, he returned to the dining table but did not sit down. "He asked me to meet." Xiaochuan nodded, and he had heard it just now. "Go,
You drank and took a ride. It's not too late now, so I won't see you off."
"You really don't want to go with me?" Ruochu hesitated.
"I'm waiting for you to come back for dinner, or bring Rousseau back with you." Xiaochuan stood up, walked over and put Ruochu's bag in her hand. Go early and come back early to take it to Rousseau for me."
Ruochu just walked out of the door. Xiaochuan sent her to the elevator. As soon as she came into contact with the outdoor air, Ruochu felt that her head was much clearer. She was a little dizzy after drinking just now, so she took a car and rushed to Rousseau.
The designated cafe.
"You are so thin?" This was the first sentence Rousseau said after seeing Ruo Chu. "Aren't you the same?" This was the first sentence Ruo Chu replied. Both of them smiled.
"Milk." Ruochu said to the waiter casually. She had not been sleeping well recently, and it might be another sleepless night.
Rousseau kept staring at Ruochu, and he smelled the smell of alcohol on her body as soon as she came in. "How are you lately?"
"It's still the same." Ruochu smiled. Since he didn't mention the escape from marriage, she didn't want to take the initiative to mention it. In her opinion, although it happened less than a month ago, it seemed like a long, long time ago.
"Xia Tian, are you okay?" I have been busy recently and even forgot about this best friend. Thinking of it like this, Ruochu still feels a little guilty, "I don't know if her illness is completely cured?
"
"You don't have to worry, she's fine." Rousseau looked into Ruochu's eyes and said.
"Oh, that's good. When will you do something good?" Ruochu raised his head, glanced at Rousseau when he said this, and forced a smile.
"We? Let's talk to you first. When will you do it?" Rousseau pretended to be relaxed and leaned back on the sofa, crossing his arms.
"We? We have nothing, there will be nothing." Ruochu lowered her head and said softly. She was still immersed in the emotion just now and couldn't get out.
Rousseau leaned forward and carefully observed Ruochu's expression, his face also covered with a cloud, "Ruoruo, look up at me."
Ruochu reluctantly raised his head, then lowered it again.
"Why are you so unhappy? Is he treating you badly?" Rousseau's tone became urgent.
Ruochu shook his head, "If you speak, Ruoruo, what happened?" Rousseau stretched out a hand and shook Ruochu.
"Forget it, it's nothing, it's all over." Ruochu didn't want to mention it again.
Seeing Ruochu's hesitation, Rousseau stood up and said, "I'll go find him."
"Rousseau, what are you doing?" Ruochu looked up hurriedly, and seeing that Rousseau was really about to leave, he grabbed his lapel with his hand, "Sit down, I'll tell you everything you want to know."
Rousseau frowned, "What happened after I left?"
Ruochu put a hand on his forehead, "It's all over now, why are you still asking about these things? Besides, it has nothing to do with you."
"What do you mean it has nothing to do with me? If I don't do this, will he stand up and admit what happened to you?" After Rousseau said that he knew he had made a mistake and immediately kept silent and lowered his head.
"What? What did you say?" Ruochu heard something in Rousseau's words, and she began to think back to the letter Rousseau left when he left. Wasn't that true?
"You and Xia Tian have nothing, right?" Seeing that Rousseau didn't speak, Ruochu made a bold guess.
Rousseau remained silent.
"You're doing this for us, right?"
"You didn't go looking for Xia Tian during this period, right?"
Rousseau did not answer, but in Ruochu's view, this was acquiescence, "What about Xia Tian? Rousseau, please speak quickly." No contact does not mean that he does not care.
Rousseau smiled bitterly, "Do you think I will fall in love with someone else again?"
"But, but Xia Tian..."
"She is very good. You don't have to worry. We have always been in contact. She also cares about you very much. Let me take care of you."
When Ruochu opened her eyes wide, she felt that her brain was starting to run out of energy.
"Well, it seems I can't hide anything from you. Let me tell you. Where to start?" Rousseau sighed.
Ruochu stared at him closely.
"Ruoruo, if I don't 'break up with each other' first, will you betray our marriage? Tell me first." Rousseau nervously asked Ruochu a question.
Ruochu shook his head firmly without even thinking about it. Rousseau took a deep breath and said, "Just saying this to you, everything I do for you is worth it."
"Tell me again, if I don't create a mess of escaping from marriage first, will Uncle Wu be willing to shoulder everything and admit your relationship?"
Ruochu thought about it for a while, but still shook her head involuntarily, and then she seemed to understand something.
Rousseau nodded, "You should have thought that this matter was discussed between Xia Tian and I. I'm sorry." Ruo Chuyi had mixed feelings for a while and didn't know what to say, "But, you and Xia Tian?"
"I knew you would ask, and I wasn't afraid to tell you. Xia Tian did indeed love me very much. I thought I would fall in love with her at one time, because when I was at my lowest, you were the one who kept hitting me.
At that time, she kept cheering me up, and I relied on her very much. Of course, she never wanted to let me know, because in her heart, your friendship is the most important. Later, she fell ill because of me..." Rousseau said
When I got here, I took out my cigarette case, but Ruochu didn't stop me.
"It's because of us..." Ruochu said to himself.
"Maybe I am destined to be sorry for her. I can't forget you, so I can't love her now. She said she will wait for the day when I forget you. Ruochu, it's not that I don't want to, but I can't do it now.
As long as you are in my heart, I can't love Xia Tian, because I can't give her complete love, do you understand?" Rousseau ignored Ruochu and continued.
Ruochu leaned against the sofa behind her dejectedly. She didn't know how things suddenly turned out like this, but she completely understood Rousseau's painstaking efforts. If he didn't escape from the engagement, she would never break off the engagement.
If he had not escaped from the marriage, Xiaochuan would not have taken this step anyway. In order to bear the infamy for Rousseau, he admitted that he had messed up their marriage and accepted Ruochu's love. It turned out that all this was Rousseau's arrangement.
And his original intention of doing this was not because of transference, but out of love. He still loved her. For a moment, Ruochu's eyes blurred with tears.
"Ruoruo, I don't know what happened, but just because I love you, I can't just watch you being unhappy and unable to be with the one you love. That's such a painful thing. I deeply understand
I have experienced it, so I can't let you taste that feeling again. Don't cry, listen to me."
"Uncle Wu is an upright person. Before I decided to hand you over to him, I always wanted to make sure whether he loved you as much as I did, or loved you more than me. Later I understood that the way he expresses his love for you is to express his love for you.
Give it to me, he loves you but doesn't want you to be the target of public criticism. From his point of view, I can understand, because he is an elder after all, and he is more concerned about your future happiness. He thinks that I will give you a longer life.
happiness, so he let go. This is his love. Compared with my possession, he chose to give it away. His love is much deeper and heavier than my love for you, so I can make up my mind. In fact, this process is very complicated.
The difficulty is very difficult, so I can better understand his difficulty..."
As Rousseau spoke, he wiped Ruochu's tears with an unused napkin.
"Ruoruo, each of us can only live one life. After that, there will be no more. Even if there is a next life, no one can guarantee that we will meet again. Even if we can meet, will we remember each other after drinking Meng Po soup?
It’s a problem, so live well and have no regrets.”
"I know it must be difficult for you to face everything after I leave, but all roads are like this. There is no road at the beginning. We can pull out the thorns and find a way out, even if the soles of our feet bleed. Since
Once you get here, don’t give up easily.”
"You seem to know a lot." Ruochu finally said something.
Rousseau smiled and scraped Ruochu's nose, "Uncle Wu taught me this. You obviously haven't read all of his books. There is a collection of essays that you haven't read. What I just said are the exact words."
"Yeah?"
"Of course, I have been a fan of his books since I was a child, so I am not ashamed to lose to him, I am proud."
"You have never lost." Ruochu sniffed.
"So, I still have a chance?" Rousseau said hurriedly. Ruochu was startled for a moment, then Rousseau waved his hand, "I'm just kidding."
"Teacher and mistress, how are you? I don't dare to go home yet, for fear of being interrogated, and my grandfather will definitely not be able to spare me." Rousseau went to Xinjiang for a vacation. It is estimated that Ruochu and Xiaochuan will be settled before he comes back.
, I said it was a vacation, but actually I was looking for a place to calm myself down.
"My mother ran away from home, and my father went to look for her. There is no news yet." Having said this, Ruochu sighed deeply.
Rousseau was stunned, "How could this be? Is this why you want to give up?"
"What if I don't give up? My family is about to be ruined, and the relationship between my father and my parents for so many years, if it weren't for me..."
"Ruoruo, you can't think like that..." Rousseau suddenly took Ruochu's hand on the table, "Your mother didn't run away from home, she needs time to accept your affairs. Believe me, wait until she comes back."
Everything will be fine when she comes back. You just need to wait for her to come back. At that time, it will not be too late to give up..."
If Ruochu looked into Rousseau's eyes and chewed on his words, light gradually gathered in her eyes, but did she still dare to hold out hope?
"Ruoruo, if you give up, then my original withdrawal will be meaningless. You can't make me regret it for the rest of my life. You must be happy even for me, do you understand?"
Rousseau increased the strength on his hand and squeezed Ruochu's hand tightly.
After looking at each other for a long time, this was the first person to support her and Xiaochuan with practical actions. The power from outside gave Ruochu courage again.
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There are three chapters in total today, and there are two final chapters. You can read them later.