"Brother Xiaochuan, thank you for your hard work. This kid loves to pester you." After leaving Ruochu's room, he saw Qin Nan and Qin Bei watching TV in the living room. Qin Nan stood up as soon as he saw him. Xiaochuan
He smiled and waved his hands.
"Do you two want something to drink? I'll get it?"
"Bring us some wine, please? Also, can you lend me your Qinbei for a while?" Xiaochuan's tone was joking, but his expression was sincere.
Qin Nan nodded, and after bringing the wine for them, he returned to his bedroom, leaving room for them to deal with their grievances. Qin Nan made up his mind, even if the two of them fought and their heads were bloody, it would not matter.
It's none of her business.
"Actually, it's nothing for us." Xiaochuan poured a glass of wine for Qin Bei and himself respectively, but his opening remarks were to explain his relationship with Qin Nan to Qin Bei. Such a condescending behavior was something Xiaochuan would never do in his life.
It was a first time. It was not for anything else, but because he didn't want Qin Bei to misunderstand Qin Nan. In the end, everything he did was for her. Xiaochuan couldn't help but sigh secretly.
"What are you talking about? Can I still believe you?" Qin Bei rolled his eyes at Xiaochuan and drank the wine Xiaochuan just handed him.
"I want to apologize to you for not telling you her whereabouts..." Xiaochuan lowered his head and filled Qin Bei's wine glass again.
Qin Bei said nothing.
"I admit that I still have selfish motives..." This time it was Xiaochuan who drank the wine in one gulp. "It just so happened that Qin Nan begged me not to tell you, so I really didn't tell you. However, I spent the whole day
The suffering has never stopped... Haha, am I trying to excuse myself?" Xiaochuan smiled mockingly to himself. He was not asking for Qin Bei's tolerance, but saying the words like this would make him feel much safer.
"Thank you, boss..." Qin Bei suddenly raised his glass and looked up at Xiaochuan. Xiaochuan was stunned when he called him. "Boss" was what Qin Bei called him privately when he was in middle school. Later, in front of others, he
They all call him senior. Qin Bei is the only person in the world who calls him that, and I haven't heard this title for a long time.
Without saying a word, Xiaochuan knocked Qin Bei's wine glass hard, and the two of them raised their heads and fucked in tacit understanding.
After such a glass of wine, both of them seemed to relax, their restraint disappeared, they began to talk more, and the air seemed to flow again. Sometimes you have to admire that the relationship between men is as simple as a few drinks.
After drinking, any misunderstanding can be explained clearly, and any estrangement can be revealed.
"When she was about to give birth, there was no one around, so she called me..." Xiaochuan now recalls his mood when he received the call from Qin Nan, and still feels excited and distressed.
"There's no one there? How could it be?" Qin Bei frowned. Doesn't this stupid woman know how to find a nanny? It's not very dangerous to be alone. If she faints from the pain and causes an accident, then now she and she will be together.
Isn't Ruochu's shadow gone? Thinking of this, I couldn't help but break out in a cold sweat, and opened my eyes wide as I waited for Xiaochuan to continue.
"I found him, but he was sent back to China before giving birth." Xiaochuan said lightly, and Qin Bei was frightened. Xiaochuan thoughtfully poured another glass of wine for Qin Bei.
"It's really hard for her. She carries all the pressure alone, but she never complains. You know how much I wish I could share even a little bit of it for her..." Xiaochuan said quietly, looking very involved.
Qin Bei nodded.
"But, I never had the chance to get close to her life, even if I was by her side, even if God gave me six years to get close to her..." Xiaochuan's voice was slightly trembling, because of the ups and downs of emotions.
He slowed down and looked at Qin Bei calmly, "Do you know why?"
Qin Bei also looked at Xiaochuan, waiting for his answer.
"Because you have never been separated, not even for a minute..." When Xiaochuan said the three words "one minute", he almost gritted his teeth. After saying this, he leaned back on the back of the sofa slumpedly.
I felt relieved and suddenly felt that my whole body felt much lighter.
"I stole these six years from you, Bei. I owe you, but they were the happiest six years of my life, so you don't have to thank me at all. I did it for myself." He lay on his head.
Sitting on the back of the sofa, staring at the ceiling, Xiaochuan's voice suddenly became louder, at least in Qin Bei's consciousness.
"I'm sorry..." Qin Bei gritted his teeth and could only say these three words. Faced with Xiaochuan's magnanimity and magnanimity, the suspicion and complaint he had always felt pierced him, and his face turned red.
Fortunately, I could cover my face with the strength of the wine. I subconsciously went to pour the wine again, and found that the bottle of red wine, which was not full in the first place, could no longer pour out a drop.
"Let's go out to find a drink. We won't come back until we get drunk." Qin Bei suggested.
Xiaochuan sat upright from the sofa. Obviously, this proposal was very suitable for him. "Wait, tell me first, do you still love her?" Xiaochuan's eyes were bright under his sharp eyebrows, which forced Qin Bei to
Can't dodge.
"Love." Qin Bei spit out one word firmly, clearly and forcefully, without any hesitation or hesitation, as if he was announcing, as if Qin Nan would be snatched away by Xiaochuan if he didn't express his stance immediately.
"Okay, as long as you say this, I won't ask about anything else. Remember to treat mother and daughter well, otherwise you'll be sorry for me. Let's go and have a drink." Xiaochuan was also impatient and stood up.
He turned around and knocked on Qin Nan's bedroom door.
"We're leaving." This was the first time the two of them had a face-to-face conversation since they entered this house. Xiaochuan lowered his head and looked at Qin Nan. He hadn't seen her for several months and she was still the same. Now he has a chance.
He looked at her carefully, but it was only for a brief moment.
"Oh, okay, you should go back and rest early. The long flight must be very tiring. When will you return to the United States?"
"I'll go back directly after finishing my work, so I'll say goodbye to you here." Xiaochuan smiled lightly. He was used to smiling when leaving, for the sake of others and for himself.
"Oh, really, then, take care of yourself..." Qin Nan's eyes dimmed a lot in an instant. He came all the way here in such a hurry, but he didn't even have the chance to entertain him properly.
"I know, you too." He waved his hand and turned around to get his bag. Qin Bei was already ready and waiting. Qin Nan sent the two of them to the door. Qin Bei went downstairs to drive first, deliberately giving them to the two of them.
Leave a little space.
"Okay, remember?" Xiaochuan, who had already walked a few steps, turned around and told Qin Nan, and looked at her deeply.
"Yeah, okay." Qin Nan nodded vigorously and smiled.
Xiaochuan walked into the elevator without looking back.
…
I once loved you: love, maybe,
Not completely dead in my soul,
I hope it won't bother you again,
I don't want to make you sad anymore.
I once loved you silently and without hope,
I suffered both from shyness and from jealousy;
I once loved you so sincerely and tenderly,
May God bless you and may another person love you as much as I love you.
"I Used to Love You" - Pushkin
(p.s Because I think this poem fits Xiaochuan’s mood at the moment, and I also like it very much, I can’t help but post them all to share with you. Friends who don’t like to quote, please don’t mind. This poem is as good as this one.