When she woke up, Xuan Ningxuan was no longer around. Murong Jingwan was used to Xuan Ningxuan's warmth. She would wake up soon after he left.
"Empress, be careful of catching the cold." Caixia walked into the bedroom and saw Murong Jingwan sitting on the bed wearing only a single coat.
Murong Jingwan turned to look at Caixia and quickly pulled up the brocade quilt to cover her body.
"Empress, are you worried?" Caixia said with a frown, Murong Jingwan's eyebrows couldn't hide the sadness. She knew that Xuan Ningxuan doted on the empress, but she didn't know why the empress was still so worried.
Murong Jingwan buried her head in her knees. She thought she was hiding it well, but Caixia still saw it out. Xuan Ningyi's appearance disturbed her thoughts.
"Caixia, you said it is impossible for one person to fall in love with two people at the same time." Murong Jingwan said dullly. She seemed to be unable to distinguish between her feelings for Xuan Ningxuan and Xuan Ningyi.
Caixia did not answer immediately. She had never loved or been loved, so how could she answer Murong Jingwan's question.
"Queen, although Caixia has never loved anyone, Caixia can be sure that there is nothing wrong with loving someone." Caixia said firmly.
There is nothing wrong with loving one person, but is it the best way to fall in love with two people?
Murong Jingwan slowly raised her head, "Caixia, I'm going to get up."
"Queen, one person can love two people at the same time, but the two people they fall in love with will live in pain forever." Caiyun suddenly walked in and said word by word.
Murong Jingwan looked at Caiyun in panic, and suddenly covered her ears with her hands, telling her not to listen.
"Caiyun, what are you talking about!" Caixia's expression suddenly changed and she glared at Caiyun bitterly.
"Caixia, if you and your Majesty think I made a mistake, I will immediately apologize to your Majesty." Caiyun retorted, but she didn't look apologetic at all.
"Caiyun is right." Murong Jingwan suddenly said bitterly. She was too greedy. But she didn't know how to clarify her feelings for Xuan Ningxuan and Xuan Ningyi.
Caiyun showed a victorious smile towards Caixia and quickly walked to Murong Jingwan's side.
Caixia looked at Caiyun in confusion. Has Caiyun changed? Why since the Queen Mother told them everything, she felt that Caiyun was getting farther and farther away from her, making her more and more confused about herself.
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As usual, Lin Ruihan got up very early every day, and then went to talk to Shui Lian'er. Away from the hustle and bustle of officialdom, this kind of life made him feel comfortable.
Lin Ruihan's hand wiping the tombstone suddenly stopped, and his hands clenched into fists.
"Who!" Lin Ruihan stood up suddenly and turned around. The violent look in his eyes quickly faded after seeing the person clearly.
In addition to shock, there was also surprise in his eyes, "Yi, you...are not dead..."
Xuan Ningyi nodded, he was not dead, but he wished he had died that day.
Lin Ruihan quickly walked to Xuan Ningyi's side, and the two hugged each other tightly. He did not expect that the two brothers would have a chance to meet.
Lin Ruihan's approach allowed Xuan Ningyi to see clearly the name on the tombstone. The name on the tombstone turned out to be Shui Lian'er's name.
"Rui Han, how did Lian'er die?" Xuan Ningyi's eyes flashed with sadness. The death of Shui Lian'er must have been a great blow to Murong Jingwan, who was a relative whom Murong Jingwan regarded as her younger sister.
Lin Ruihan's thoughts drifted to that day, "That day the head of the Tang Sect came to kill us, and Lian'er blocked that man's poison for me."
Looking at Lin Ruihan's sad smile, Xuan Ningyi suddenly realized that Shui Lian'er had fallen in love with Lin Ruihan. They spent so much time together and didn't even notice.
"Ruihan, do you regret it?" Xuan Ningyi asked solemnly. This was also the question he wanted to ask himself. If he gave up Murong Jingwan now, would he regret it in the future? He regretted not taking Murong Jingwan away.
"Regret?" Lin Ruihan murmured, did he regret it? He didn't know, because he had never loved Shui Lian'er, and was only grateful and regretful to Shui Lian'er.
"Yi, I have never loved Shui Lian'er, but I will never love anyone again in the future." Lin Ruihan said word for word. He had planned to guard Shui Lian'er's grave for the rest of his life.
"Ruihan, you always love Wan'er, why don't you go for it?" Xuan Ningyi looked at Lin Ruihan nervously.
Lin Ruihan shook his head quickly. Murong Jingwan didn't love him, so no matter how hard he tried, it would be in vain.
"Yi, the person Jingwan loves is not me, and I will never exist in her eyes." Lin Ruihan responded calmly, sometimes letting go is possession, as long as Murong Jingwan lives a happy life.
I will not exist in her eyes? This sentence repeatedly circled in Xuan Ningyi's mind. Is there any presence of him in Wan'er's eyes? Maybe she will always only have Xuan Ningxuan in her eyes. Even if she is hurt
, there is still only Xuan Ningxuan. But Xuan Ningyi knows that he occupies a place in Murong Jingwan's heart, and she has never forgotten her fourth brother at that time.
Should he let go? Let go like Lin Ruihan. The happy look in Murong Jingwan's eyes last night was the pain in his heart, making him feel even breathing difficult.
"Yi, what's wrong? Did I say something wrong?" Lin Ruihan was afraid of Xuan Ningyi's shoulder and looked at him doubtfully.
Xuan Ningyi came to his senses and shook his head gently. Lin Ruihan was right, he made him understand.
"Yi, have you met Jingwan? She is already the current queen, and Xuan Ningxuan already knows how to cherish Jingwan." Lin Ruihan said calmly, but he never thought that his words hurt Xuan Ning deeply.
Ease of heart.
Xuan Ningyi nodded. It was because he saw her last night that he was so hesitant now.
"Wan'er is living a good life and is very happy." Xuan Ningyi said bitterly. He should be happy for Murong Jingwan, but his heart could never be happy.
Xuan Ningyi's lonely look made Lin Ruihan realize that he had said the wrong thing. He had already known Xuan Ningyi's feelings for Murong Jingwan. If he hadn't loved Murong Jingwan, the current emperor might have been Xuan Ningyi.
"Yi, you must be in Jingwan's heart." Lin Ruihan comforted, if Xuan Ningyi did not exist in their hearts, they would not still be alive.
Xuan Ningyi always knew that he existed in Murong Jingwan's heart, but he didn't know whether he or Xuan Ningxuan was more important in Murong Jingwan's heart.
"Ruihan, do you want to stay here for the rest of your life?" Xuan Ning changed the topic without leaving a trace, he didn't want to think about it anymore.
Lin Ruihan nodded without hesitation, but quickly vetoed and said: "Yi, if you want to take Jingwan out of the palace, I will definitely help you."
Xuan Ningyi looked at Lin Ruihan gratefully. He had just made a decision. If his Wan'er was always happy, he would always look at her from a distance and protect her.
If Xuan Ningxuan hurts her again, he will take Murong Jingwan away from him at all costs.
