In the old dormitory, in the stained mirror, five or six-year-old Lin Mo stood there.
There was a calmness and coldness on his childish face that was not for his age.
Outside the mirror, Lin Mo was still crying.
In the mirror and outside the mirror, it was as if there were two completely different people with the same height and appearance, doing completely different actions.
"Brother, you have to help me. The fat tigers from Building 3 and others have joined forces to bully me!"
Five-year-old Lin Mo's voice was tender and full of grievance.
At this time, 'Lin Mo' in the mirror shook his head.
"I don't care, you have the ability to fight back." It was also a child's voice, but the voice was calm.
"You are my brother, I am being bullied, and you don't care?"
"I just said, don't care, just don't care."
"Then I'll tell dad about you."
"You dare!"
"You see if I dare, I'll go right now."
"Okay, okay, I'll help you, but only this time."
"Hey, thank you brother!"
If someone saw this scene at this time, they would find that from beginning to end, it was five-year-old Lin Mo talking to himself in the mirror...
Sometimes he cries, and sometimes he looks calm again.
Someone might find it interesting.
But if you look carefully, you will feel scary.
This is definitely not something a five-year-old child can play.
The screen changes.
In a small alley, a few children across the street who were older than Lin Mo were lying on the ground crying.
Some of these children were already in the first grade of elementary school, but they were all beaten to tears by Lin Mo.
"Listen carefully, if you bully my brother again, I will pull out all your teeth in an instant." Lin Mo threatened fiercely, and a chubby child opposite covered his red face and bravely asked: "Who is your brother?"
"Lin Mo!"
Lin Mo left after saying that.
It's quite a bit waving your sleeves, not taking away a trace of the wind and lightness of the clouds.
Anyway, the children who were beaten to the ground by him were stunned.
From then on, whenever he saw Lin Mo from a distance, he would take a detour.
In the old alleys, beside the alleys, along the river banks, and on the willow trees, cicadas chirp and birds sing; the spring wind, the autumn rain, and the scorching summer sun.
Lin Mo’s childhood memories were left here.
He lost his mother when he was a child, and his father raised him all by himself.
But Lin Mo didn't feel that he was unhappy.
Maybe it's because, growing up, I had my brother as my playmate.
Chat with him, play with him, if he is bullied, he will have his brother to stand up for him, and most importantly, his brother will not compete with him for delicious food.
Simple, ordinary, and full of childlike innocence.
This was Lin Mo's childhood.
"Xiao Mo, please remember not to tell dad about my affairs."
Lin Mo was leaning on the big willow tree at the entrance of the alley, almost half-lying with his eyes closed, holding a willow branch in his mouth, feeling the rustle of the willow leaves in the wind, feeling Seeing the warmth of the sun falling on his face through the gaps between the leaves, this was the most comfortable and comfortable moment for him and his brother.
The big willow tree is their secret base.
Of course, climbing trees has always been my brother's forte. After all, this location is nearly three meters above the ground, which is not too low. Lin Mo wouldn't be able to climb up by himself.
"Brother, why don't you let dad know you exist?" Five-year-old Lin Mo didn't quite understand this. He didn't even have the heart to think about why his brother was different from other people's brothers.
Except for himself, no one knows about his brother's existence.
Of course, the reason is not only because his brother is in the same body as him, but also because his brother never lets Lin Mo tell his existence.
Even my father can't talk about it.
As for why, my brother never said anything, and Lin Mo didn't say anything when asked.
"Brother, tell me another story." Lin Mo likes to listen to stories. Other children's mothers and fathers tell stories before going to bed, but Lin Mo doesn't.
But he has an older brother.
"Xiao Mo, what do you want to hear?"
"Let's make a big fuss in Heaven. You haven't finished speaking last time. I really like Zhu Bajie."
"OK."
A child's voice sounded from the branch of a tree, telling a story that only the two brothers could hear.
The screen changes again.
dark night.
It was quiet outside the old building, and occasionally someone would ride a bicycle passing under the streetlight.
Although the street lights are dim, there are always some moths and other flying insects around.
In the old building, Lin Mo was sleeping soundly.
But soon, he frowned and breathed rapidly, as if he was experiencing a terrible nightmare.
In a dream.
Lin Mo hid under the bed. He was very scared, so he covered his face with his little hands, but he was one of those addicted to food, and he still wanted to see it.
What he wanted to see was a ghost outside.
The house in the dream is very strange. Only a small part of the area can be seen outside, and most of it is pitch black.
Just in the darkness, stood a figure.
That's a ghost.
It exudes a unique cold and rancid smell.
Lin Mo didn't say that the other party was a ghost, it was his brother who said it. At this time, his brother was negotiating with the ghost.
Lin Mo didn't know what was said specifically, and couldn't hear it, but thinking about the horror of ghosts, Lin Mo couldn't help but tremble.
In this kind of 'foreign-related' work, it is always the elder brother who comes forward, and Lin Mo is always the one standing behind him.
He didn't feel embarrassed about this.
Lin Mo had nightmares like this where he could see ghosts almost every day. Of course, every time it was his brother who had to negotiate with those scary ghosts.
Lin Mo has become accustomed to it.
Sometimes ghosts are more obedient and will leave on their own after talking for a while.
But sometimes we encounter people who are disobedient.
If this is the case, the elder brother will have a fight with the disobedient ghost, and of course the elder brother will win every time.
So although Lin Mo was afraid, it was nothing more than that. He was not worried.
On the contrary, he also hopes to meet that kind of unreasonable ghost, so that his brother can teach him a lesson.
Watching a fight is definitely more interesting than watching a boring negotiation.
This negotiation did not go well.
Although Lin Mo couldn't hear what his brother said there, he could feel it.
Something is wrong.
But Lin Mo was scared and excited at the same time. If he had to compare, there might be more of the latter.
"Fight, fight."
Under the bed, Lin Mo clenched his fists and looked expectantly at his brother's back outside.
Soon, a strange laughter came from outside.
Accompanied by my brother's scolding.
"Don't be so shameless and get out of here!"
As soon as the voice fell, a pale hand suddenly stretched out from the darkness and dragged his brother into the darkness.
Lin Mo couldn't see it anymore, but he could hear the sound of fighting.
The sound was scary.
After a while, the sound stopped.
My brother is back.
Covered in blood.
Lin Mo hurriedly ran out to help him.
"Won?"
"Nonsense, can I come back if I lose?"
"Brother, why do those ghosts come to us?"
"He's not coming to us, he's coming to you."
"Looking for me? Why, I didn't provoke them."
"It's a crime to have a jade in your possession, do you understand?"
"I don't understand, what do you mean?"
"I don't want to explain to you, I want to take a break, I want to be quiet!"
"Who is Jingjing?"
"..."
Grain ants
The screen changed again.
At this time, Lin Mo looked eleven or twelve years old. He no longer had the childishness he had when he was a little kid, but at this age, he still had his childishness.
This is a physical education class.
The boys have to run four times around the playground.
Lin Mo ran at the back from the beginning.
He is not fat, he is very thin, he can even be called skinny.
After just one lap, I was already exhausted and out of breath.
"Lin Mo, your physical strength is really weak."
"Yes, yes, girls are better than you."
Lin Mo has been hearing similar ridicule from his classmates for several years.
Get used to it.
Originally, at this age, he should be full of vigor, with the strongest physical strength and energy, but at this time, Lin Mo seemed like a sick man, with his physical strength far worse than that of his peers.
That night, my brother announced a big news.
He's leaving.
Lin Mo didn't quite understand what walking meant.
For as long as he can remember, his brother has been with him for twelve years. He has become accustomed to being with his brother, and at that age, he doesn't really understand things like separation.
"Brother, where are you going?" In the dream, Lin Mo was dragging his brother, somewhat unbelievable.
"I don't know if I tell you, so you'd better not ask."
"But why do you want to leave?"
"If I don't leave, you will become a vegetable from now on."
"Vegetative state? Is he the kind of person shown on TV who gets hit by a car and never wakes up?"
"Yeah, so, I have to go."
"But if you leave, I'm scared. What if no one talks to me? Who will tell me stories? If someone bullies me, who will help me find a place? Also, if ghosts come at night, who will help me fight them away? Brother, You can't leave."
In the past, Lin Mo was always making trouble like this.
He knew that as long as he made such a fuss, his brother would definitely give in and accommodate him.
But this time, my brother's attitude was very firm.
No matter what, I have to leave.
It can't be stopped at all.
"Xiao Mo, don't worry. At your current age, you can already completely integrate with that thing. After all, it has been more than ten years. So even if I leave, no ghosts will come to you again. Your physical strength will be strong in the future. You will be like everyone else and you will live a normal life."
"I don't want it, I don't want it!"
"You don't listen to what you say normally, right? Do you believe I will beat you?"
"But, what should I do if I miss you?"
"Look in the mirror. We look the same. When you see yourself in the mirror, you also see me!"
Brother is gone!
Twelve-year-old Lin Mo didn't know where his brother had gone.
But he always remembered what his brother told him, and never mentioned his brother's existence to anyone else. However, people around him found that Lin Mo was much quieter and more withdrawn than before.
But no one cares.
Even dad.
Dad also consulted a doctor about this. The doctor said that the child was almost puberty and it was normal.
The annual rings of time begin to turn, and time is like a calendar torn off the wall, page after page. When tearing it off, it is very hard, but soon it will be thrown into an inconspicuous corner, as if it is insignificant.
Life is composed of pages of a calendar. Each page records the joys and sorrows.
There are growing pains and youthful restlessness.
But even though Lin Mo was in high school, he would still remember that summer, on the branch of the old willow tree, his brother told him about Journey to the West. The sunshine that day was very warm, and the rustling sound of the willow leaves was very pleasant.
Lin Mo had never had such a horrible nightmare again.
It seems that it was a long time ago, or even just a child's random thoughts.
There is no time to miss it, it seems to have gone away with the wind.
Life in high school is very fulfilling.
Fragments of memory flashed through Lin Mo's mind bit by bit.
He remembers many of them himself, and some are very unfamiliar. Going through these memories one by one is like a person experiencing his past life again.
Those precious pasts in memory, those important people in memory, laughter and sorrow, experienced it again. As a bystander, Lin Mo had countless emotions in his heart.
The most exciting thing I remember when I was a freshman in high school was a fight with a girl called Liu Jia.
…
Liu Jia is a girl with great character.
The first half of the deleted memory was about my brother, but the second half was actually about Liu Jia.
Character is something you are born with. Even after being tempered by growth, you still can't change it. If you have to say it exists, then all the things that block your character have been worn away, and what's left is the essence.
Just like an iron rod polished with sandpaper, it becomes smooth and smooth from being rough at the beginning.
By luck, Lin Mo and Liu Jia became tablemates from the very beginning.
Because of trivial matters such as who occupied more of the desktop, the two of them escalated from a verbal greeting at the beginning to a date in the woods after class.
Lin Mo didn't expect that this woman would actually dare to come.
He never expected that in his first fight in high school, he would actually lose, and he would lose at the hands of a woman.
What a shame and humiliation.
Later, when he learned that Liu Jia had been practicing martial arts for ten years, Lin Mo realized that he had been cheated.
Therefore, in the first year of high school, Liu Jia gave Lin Mo the impression that she was a cunning and insidious woman.
I have practiced martial arts, but I didn't say it earlier, which is very shameless.
But many times, the sparks and good feelings between men and women are generated in the collision. Lin Mo and Liu Jia obviously fall into this category, although neither of them admitted that they had a good impression of the other at that time.
By the time they were in their second year of high school, the two of them were already like brothers and sisters.
Everyone in the class knows this.
Of course, falling in love too early was definitely a taboo in middle school. Even if everyone knew it, no one would dare to bring it up on the table.
Compared to others in the class, Lin Mo and Liu Jia were much more restrained.
Memories are passing by quickly.
Obviously Liu Jia is definitely a very important person in Lin Mo's life.
And this importance is irreplaceable.
Third grade of high school.
The pressure to study increases sharply.
The school adopts a boarding system for senior high school students. It is said that it is to better allow everyone to devote themselves to learning and devote themselves wholeheartedly.
Of course there is an effect.
Even those who are the worst at studying in the class, in the third grade of high school, they still show their ability to sharpen their guns in battle, and the tip of the gun is polished to a shiny finish.
In Lin Mo's eyes, this memory was not only about Liu Jia, he already had an impression of it. This time after completing the memory and walking through it again, it made him feel like he was living his life again.
It turns out that what the teacher said at that time was true.
Although you may be tired in high school, it is the best experience in your life.
But some people don't make it to graduation.
Mo Wenting's experience overlapped with Lin Mo's memory for a certain period of time.
Of course, this time it is unfolded from Lin Mo's perspective.
From this moment on, the memory no longer had the sunshine and brightness before, and began to become terrifying.
It was a not very clear night and not a single star could be seen in the sky.
Lin Mo and Liu Jia were walking on the campus paths as usual, enjoying a little bit of comfort and relaxation after a day of intense study.
Halfway through the walk, Liu Jia suddenly stopped and pointed at his lips.
Lin Mo understood, and a pig came to eat cabbage.
The pig gnawed very happily, and the cabbage was also very satisfied.
Continuing to walk forward, suddenly, a man rushed out from the grass and hugged Lin Mo tightly.
It's Mo Wenting.
Lin Mo experienced the past again and could feel all his emotions at that time.
At this moment, Lin Mo felt something clearly.
Very strange.
But Lin Mo knew what it was.
fear!
Being hugged by Mo Wenting who suddenly rushed out, I felt frightened and frightened at that moment.
Lin Mo heard this matter mentioned by Liu Jia and Mo Wenting, but this was the first time he looked at it from his own perspective.
Lin Mo didn't care about the details of the matter.
What he cared about was that he actually felt fear.
It's like something that has been stripped away and comes back to you.
"It turns out that I am also a person with fears!"