Chapter 108: Forgetting him is too difficult and too painful
Half a month passed in the blink of an eye, but Mengran never got over the shadow of miscarriage. She knelt in front of the Buddha with a frown all day long.
Looking at the back of Mengran who was kneeling in front of the Buddha to pray, the old nun Master Wangchen put the vegetarian food in her hand on the table, shook her head helplessly, walked behind Mengran, and said worriedly: "Donor Meng, you have already knelt down.
It’s been two hours, it’s time to take a rest and have some fast food.”
Hearing this, Mengran slowly opened her beautiful eyes, shook her head towards Master Wangchen and said, "Master, I can't eat it. Please take away the vegetarian food." At the end of her words, she closed her eyes and knelt down to worship.
"Meng Donor! Your body is already weak. If you don't eat on time, I'm afraid you won't be able to support yourself!" Shitai persuaded her earnestly, but the answer she received was still Meng Ran's silence.
Seeing that he couldn't be persuaded, he sighed deeply, took the vegetarian meal and left. Suddenly there was only Mengran left in the house, quiet and lonely.
Although Mengran looked calm on the surface, her heart was in a mess. The more she forced herself to forget that cold and evil emperor, she just couldn't forget it. When she closed her eyes and opened her eyes, it was his face. She knew it clearly in her heart.
He betrayed himself, but he just couldn't hate him. He suddenly felt so useless...
The child was gone, and she no longer had anything to do with him. The heartache came again, and she almost suffocated from the pain. She raised her head, took a deep breath and asked, "Is it God's will? It was God's will that made me see his betrayal.
Will he lose his child again? If it is God’s will, then God wants me to forget him..."
Her hands tightly grasped the kneeling mat, tears welling up in her eyes. She really should forget him. Forgetting him meant forgetting her troubles and heartache...
"Empress..." Suddenly, behind me, I remembered the magnetic voice of my third brother Bingyuan Peak. Mengran stopped crying, covered her racing heart, and slowly turned around. When she saw those familiar gentle and handsome eyes, her tears burst.
It is as unstoppable as a flood from a broken dam.
It was him, the tenderness in those handsome eyes was only shown to her! But...but she no longer had the face to bear his tenderness...his arms no longer belonged to her...
"Consort... aren't you guarding the border? Why are you here all of a sudden?" Yes, he is no longer his third brother, but the consort of Qin Han State, Bingji! His heart feels bitter.
The moment she looked back, the haggard look on her face made him heartbroken. He wanted to rush up and hug her into his arms, but he knew he couldn't. Ever since he chose this path, he could never look back.
Everything in the past is like a passing cloud, and everything seems like a lifetime ago...
The most painful thing in life is to see the one you love deeply sad, but there is nothing you can do about it...
He closed his handsome eyes, adjusted his mood, and finally calmed himself down, then slowly opened his eyes and said calmly: "Empress, I'm afraid I don't know that due to your disappearance, the emperor ordered the ministers to look for you, so he postponed his trip to the border.
time."
"Looking for me?" Mengran smiled self-deprecatingly, then cast a helpless look at Bingji and said, "Then you want to send me back to the palace?"
"Weichen finally rescued you from the cage, how could he send you back again?" The sincere words coupled with the gentle eyes made Mengran look back with heartache.
After a moment of silence, she finally made up her mind and asked, "Why did you save me? Where will you send me?"
"Because you said that I am like your old friend! As for where you will go in the future, it is up to the empress to decide! But no matter where the empress goes, I will protect you!" Don't look over your head, not daring to look at the mop in front of you.
Bai Ying, her weak appearance made him worried. He really hoped that she would stay with him forever, but he knew that that was the most unsafe choice. Because he had too many dangerous plans to implement!
What he meant by these words was to tell her that he wanted her to be free! He smiled slightly sadly, swallowed the tears on his lips, and said softly: "Yes, you are very much like my old friend, but you know who
Is my old friend someone to me?...He was the person I loved most..." It was once upon a time, everything was just like a passing cloud. She once thought that she would only love him in this life, but she never thought that her heart had slowly been...
Another person swallowed it... She suddenly realized that she couldn't control this ice heart at all...
"..." When the unexpected words reached his ears, his heart ached unbearably. What is the past? Has she really forgotten her third brother who loves her deeply? Even if she forgets, he doesn't
He will forget her. In this life, he only has her in his heart! For her, he will not hesitate to violate his mother's last words and the last emperor's last orders! One day, when he wants her to stay with him, he no longer has to worry about the emperor's will.
chase!
"Consort, I want to ask you to promise me to live well and live happily with Princess Miaofu!" He turned his head, looked at the Buddha statue above, and gritted his teeth.
"...Wei Chen has something important to do, so I'm going to leave first." Apart from escaping, he couldn't think of any better way... At the end of the words, he glanced at her thin back affectionately, and fled with heartache and sorrow.
Room. I remember that the words 'live well' were what he said to her before he died. Doesn't she know that he can only live happily if he is with her?
Miaofu? A naughty face suddenly appeared in front of her eyes. She was just a step towards completing her big plan! For her, I could only express my guilt...
I am alone in the house again. It seems that I have always been alone...haven't I already been used to being alone? Why does this feeling of loneliness make me feel so uncomfortable?
Third brother, Bai Moreng... you don't belong to me after all! It's time to set yourself free! Forget these sad loves! Mengran, you can go back to that lonely orphan Mengran! Let everything start again!
She can no longer bear any blow. She plans to leave Qing'an tomorrow, find a place where no one knows her, and live a free and lonely life. That may be the best choice...
The winter night comes unusually early.
In Taoquan Palace, the handsome emperor with a tired look on his face shunned all the palace people and stood alone under the peach blossom tree. Looking at the peach tree with only the remaining red color, his heart ached like death. At this moment, he wished he could shed his painful heart.
Pick it out and crush it...
"Ran'er, where are you? I have been looking for you for seventeen days and five hours! Are you and Xin Yi safe now?..." Thinking of leaving the palace today to find her but failing again, he felt extremely lost.
Closing his eyes, her beautiful and icy face suddenly came to mind. He clenched his fists tightly and dug his nails deeply into his palms, causing blood to flow out, but he could not feel any pain.
I hate myself so much. If I hadn't been careless about this humble servant, I'm afraid Ran'er wouldn't have been pushed into the pool, let alone kidnapped... Who in this Qin Han country can escape the eyes and ears of the shadow guards with his light skills?
What about kidnapping her from the palace?
He has searched almost every corner of the capital, but why is there no news about her?
Suddenly, he opened his handsome eyes, tapped lightly, and lifted up the person who was approaching quietly from behind. When he saw her face, he threw her to the ground and said angrily: "You are so brave, how dare you