I moved my feet. Although I couldn't exert a lot of strength, I could still walk without any problem. It was still a bit difficult to trot. I got off the carriage. There was also a carriage in front of me, and there were many masked people guarding it.
His entourage.
"Where's my mother?" I asked bravely.
He turned back and looked at me steadily, and I stared back firmly. He came over and put his arm around my waist. I was pushing his hand, and he tightened his grip: "If you want to see your mother, don't move!
"
Thinking about it in front of so many people, he couldn't do anything too outrageous. Stop stroking his hand, I can't bear it!
With a slight movement of his body, he followed him and flew into the woods ahead.
What I saw in front of me confirmed my uneasy premonition. I saw my mother lying on the grass by the roadside covered with dirt and grass clippings. Her face was frighteningly pale, and blood was oozing from the corners of her mouth.
moon.
My heart went blank, what was going on? It didn't mean that the poison had been cured and everything would be fine. So what was in front of me? I shook off the hand that was still around my waist, rushed forward, sat down and helped me up.
Mother cried: "Mother, what's going on with you? What's wrong with you?"
"Shi'er, mother, you're such a fool, you really came back. You shouldn't have come back, you shouldn't have..." Mom grabbed my arm and said helplessly.
"Don't talk so much now, Mom, just hold on, I'll take you to see the doctor." After saying that, he tried to help her up.
"Sir, don't waste your efforts. They have already given me medicine. It's useless. I know my body well."
"Mom, you scared me again. Nothing will happen."
"Son, listen to what mom said. Mom already knows that it was mom who caused you trouble. Mom wanted to run away and tell you not to come, but she didn't want it to end like this. This ahem...cough... is retribution." She said.
His breath became weaker and weaker, and he coughed up a few more mouthfuls of blood.
"Mom, is it for me? You did this for me! It was your son who harmed you again." Why is it like this again, the second brother is like this, Huangfu Zhe is like this, and finally my mother is like this! Why is it like this for me?
Everyone is like this! What a disaster I am!
"No, my dead son, this is retribution, retribution! God, let me live for more than ten years, and with you as my daughter, I can already take care of my mother. Mother cough - cough cough...
.Contented.”
"Nonsense, I haven't properly honored my mother yet. We agreed to go to Taohua Town to live a good life. By the way, didn't you say you wanted to meet Huangfu Zhe if you had the chance? You haven't met him yet!" That kind of loss of life
The feeling of being in my arms came back. I felt waves of fear in my heart.
"Sir, I promise—mother, don't hate the emperor and the others. You must live a good life."
"I don't want it, mother, stop talking, stop talking."
"Stop being naughty, be obedient, cough-cough, agree quickly. Hurry!" My mother grabbed my hand, her knuckles turned white. She held her last breath and said with difficulty...
"Okay! I promise, I will live well." As soon as I finished speaking, my body sank, my hands were empty, and my heart felt empty.
"Mother? Mother!" I didn't shout loudly. Crying meant that she was really gone. I called softly, hoping to hear a little response. However, all I heard was the whistling of the wind.
Mine were just falling raindrops. The gradual coldness in my arms forced me to face the facts before me. I could no longer deceive myself and others, and could no longer suppress the pain in my heart.
"Mom!! Wake up, you can't just abandon Shi'er like this. My second brother is dead, Huangfu Zhe doesn't want me anymore, Shi'er has nothing left, only you, Mom, are left. Don't ignore me..
I won’t be naughty anymore, I won’t scare you anymore, and I will listen to you. Wake up..." I hugged her tightly, desperately feeling the last tenderness on my mother's body, and big raindrops kept falling.
.Do they also feel my despair and my sadness?
You all want me to live a good life, but without my second brother, without Zhe, without my mother, how can I live a good life, God! Why do the grudges here never end? Why do the people around me
People are going to die in front of me one by one... I really have nothing now, I really have lost everything. Am I too greedy? People can't be too greedy. If you are greedy, you will lose more...
An umbrella appeared above, and a pair of hands put my shoulders, as if to help me up. I knew who it was, so I threw it away.
"Go away, go away, go away! You are satisfied, you are all satisfied!"
"How brave! How dare you confront the emperor?" The scolding stopped midway.
I don’t care about any heaven, earth or emperor. When I came to this time and space, I fought hard as usual. Just like before, I didn’t win anything, but even my relatives were lost one by one. I finally realized that
What is truly the ultimate sadness? No matter how strong or cold the wind or rain is, I am not as disheartened as I am. On the contrary, I wish they would come harder. Maybe in this way I can share the pain in my heart. Maybe in this way, I can feel
Until I'm still alive.
"Miss." Ling'er walked to the front, slowly squatted down, and called softly.
I slowly raised my head to look at her, and then lowered my head. Now I just want to hold my mother here so tightly, and don't think about anything else.
"Miss, you will catch the cold like this. Madam... she won't want to see you." Ling'er also gnawed a little.
"Miss, Madam left something with me."
Is she talking about something that my mother left for me? I slowly stretched out my hand. Linger took my hand with one hand and pulled my mother away from my arms with one hand. I was startled and hurriedly wanted to take it back.
My mother was stopped by someone else.
Seeing Leng Yue taking my mother away, I shouted loudly: "That's my mother, don't touch her!"
I pushed her away and took a few steps back. I couldn't see their expressions clearly in the heavy rain. I yelled: "Am I easy to lie to? You all lied to me, you all lied to me. Why did you all come to lie to me! Why?"
Why! Why..."
I screamed at the top of my lungs, and the trees and people in front of me gradually blurred. As soon as my eyesight went dark, I lost consciousness.
For a long time, I was hot and cold. When I was cold, it was like falling into an ice cellar. When I was hot, I was burning like a fire. And I could only struggle feebly in the hazy darkness. After having splitting headaches again and again, and the sky was spinning, I thought
I shouted, but no sound came out. Everything was so muddy and unclear. The feeling was again
The first time someone gave me medicine, my throat seemed to be blocked by a big stone, and I couldn't swallow it. Then the medicine slowly seeped into my mouth, and I felt a breath going down my neck, and there seemed to be a few gaps in the big stone in my throat.
The decoction flowed down. For a long time, I fell into darkness again.
Faintly, I saw me nestling in my mother's arms under the fiery red maple trees in autumn, feeling soft and warm.
"Sir, how about Mom teaching you how to play the zither?" Mom asked me with a slight smile as she raised her head and played the guzheng.
"Dead sister, the second brother has brought you something good," the second brother, who was still a little childish under the big banyan tree, said happily,
"Shi'er, don't climb so high. Come down quickly..." Under the maple tree, my mother looked at me worriedly on the tree.
"Haha~ Dear sister, what are you doing? My second brother will teach you martial arts." Next to the swing, the second brother's laughter was heard.
"Shi'er, can you really jump over this wall?" My mother looked at the wall of the Qiuye Courtyard, which was less than two meters long, and looked at me suspiciously.
"Sir, where did you fall? Come here and show me. Don't scream. Mom will rub it for you." My mother looked at me, who was in so much pain that I couldn't even open my eyes, and said anxiously.
"Dear sister, although this wine is not strong, it has great stamina. Don't be greedy." The second brother snatched the wine from my hand, his eyes full of concern.
"Dead sister, remember the second brother's gift." The second brother's eyes were cunning.
"Sir, please don't cause trouble when you go outside." Mother held the money bag and told her.
"Keep the dagger!" Huangfu Zhe said with a cold face at that time.
"Sir, where did you get so much silver? Don't tell me again that it was your second brother who gave it to me." My mother took the banknotes I earned back and looked at me with wide eyes.
"Hurt you?" It was still a confused voice.
"My deceased son is like a rainbow in the sky after rain, so beautiful that one can't even guess." After dressing up, my mother looked at me in the mirror and murmured.
"Dead sister, you must have suffered." The second brother who saved me hugged me and said distressedly.
"Little witch, you are really greedy, but even I don't know if I still have a heart. If I do, it can only be yours. Do you understand? Not only are you greedy, you are also cruel, listen.
Come on, don't think about escaping anymore. I won't allow it." Huangfu Zhe had a domineering look on his face and affectionate eyes.
"Idiot! What a fool! How could I ignore you? I will take care of you and protect you in this life. Are you willing?"
"No matter poverty or wealth, sickness or health, or any other reason, I, Huang Fuzhe, love Xiao Si, take care of Xiao Si, respect Xiao Si, accept Xiao Si, and will always be loyal to Xiao Si until the end of my life!" Snow Tianshan
Above, is Huangfu Zhe’s promise.
"Shi'er, I'm going to give you a big surprise when I get back!" That person said with a smile on his face.
The scene changed. What he saw before him was the pale faces of his second brother and his mother, as well as the injuries in Huangfu Zhe's eyes.
"Tell me, why are you doing this to me, why!! My dear, tell me!"
"This is retribution!"
""Secrets of Lu Gong"! Did you come with me just to give this to him! Shi'er, are you...all lies to me?...What...you have, tell me, explain it to me now
listen."
"This is retribution, retribution! God... allowed me to live for more than ten years, and with a daughter like you by my side, I am already taking care of my mother. Mother cough--cough cough...
I am satisfied."
"Dead sister, if the second brother told you from the beginning that he wanted you to leave Huangfu Zhe and be with the second brother, would you agree?"
"It's hard to make a choice, isn't it? God has decided for you now. Go back, go back to Prince Tianzhe's Mansion, go back to Huangfu Zhe."
"Second Brother is already in a lot of pain. You cry and make Second Brother's heart hurt even more. Smile for Second Brother."
"Stop being naughty, be obedient, cough-cough, agree quickly. Hurry!".
"What is that? Tell me! Can't you say it because I am right? My dear, why are you like those women? Why!"
"What a beautiful face, but why are you like those women with a vicious heart?"
"Dead sister, don't cry. Promise my second brother that you will live well."
"Sir, I promise—mother, don't hate the emperor and the others, you have to live a good life..."
"Xiao Shi, I hate you! It's best not to let me see you again!"
All the chaos and chaos rushed over me, making me dizzy. Suddenly everything became quiet, and there seemed to be the sound of water rushing onto the shore.
"Look, is that bitch still alive?" The voice was even colder, full of contempt and disdain.
"I've been in the water for so long and I can't survive. I was so vicious at a young age. Even if I die, I'll be clean."
"It's a disaster that will last for thousands of years. It's a disaster."
"It's your own fault and you won't live!"
"You are a scourge! A scourge!"
"If you do evil to yourself, you will not live! If you do evil to yourself, you will not live!"
"Who said that, I'm not, I'm not!" Is it a disaster or a sin?
But no one answered me, and these words were surrounded everywhere. Surrounded by pale and injured faces, I covered my ears and closed my eyes tightly. I didn’t want to listen or see. But why could I still hear it?
If you arrive, you will still see it.
"Disaster is a disaster. If you do it yourself, you will not survive! Disaster is a disaster. - Haha - you are a disaster -"
I couldn't stand it anymore. With a sound, I suddenly opened my eyes and sat up. I shouted randomly: "I'm not a disaster, I'm not... I have nothing left. Shut up, don't say anything, I
No..." I struggled, trying to get rid of everything.
There was a pair of hands clasping me tightly from behind, and I couldn't wave them away. They were just mechanically mumbling words that I didn't even know. In my confusion, someone said in my ear, "You're not, you're not all gone, you're still there."
There is me, you and me..."
I had no power to struggle, no power to see, no power to hear, no power to think. I just felt that everything in my mind was turbid. The pictures blended together in confusion, and began to blur. It was so blurry that I couldn't see anything. Suddenly, it spread out and turned into black and white feathers.
, as I fell into boundless darkness. Everything was quiet, very quiet. Slowly, I lost consciousness.