I, the god of sleep, finally had a day when I was so happy that I couldn't sleep. In my memory...
I am very persistent. To use other people's words, I am very persistent.
From middle school to now, I have always liked Lin Tian.
eight years ago
In a debate in middle school, I argued four times for the affirmative, and Lin Tian argued one for the negative.
It is said that there is no acquaintance without fighting. But it seems that it is not an acquaintance, because I only remember him, and he seems to be just an acquaintance with me. But I like him, and I still like him until now.
He was one year older than me at that time, and he was so outstanding. He had a handsome appearance, outstanding talents, excellent grades, and he was also so humorous.
And I am so ordinary. I have no outstanding appearance, no prominent family background, and no extraordinary intelligence. Compared with the beauties around him, I am really the most inconspicuous one.
Fortunately, my eldest brother and he are buddies. We all rent in the same building, and we may not be able to get the moon first if we are close to the water. It is still okay to have more contact. At that time, the most contact was with cooking, and three meals a day.
, I have to be responsible for my eldest brother’s two meals. He used to give me a meal, and then yelled in the corridor: Xiao girl, come down to look for food. Then the eldest brother kept nagging me how I could be so lazy while giving me the meal.
Bring it upstairs.
After he moved in, I changed the image of a landlady in the eyes of my older brother. When it was time to prepare meals, I became diligent and organized everything for them. My elder brother was not moved at all and just said
:Girl Xiao, why are you as diligent as a wasp?
That day, I had the urge to break the moral code and beat my elder brother hard. However, he was here. I had to grit my teeth and correct him: It’s a bee, it’s a bee.
five years ago
Lin Tian was admitted to a top university - University A. That year, I worked very hard to study day and night, study hard and study again. Every day I thought about what if I was admitted to that university and finally walked in Lin Tian with him.
On the avenue. It was so wonderful that in the end I wondered if I was suffering from hallucinations.
However, my qualifications, to put it mildly, need to be improved. After a year of hard work, I was only admitted to an ordinary key university - University F. I feel so cold. I blow soap bubbles every day and feel that my
Dreams are like soap bubbles, they blow for a long time and are gone in an instant.
And the seven aunts and eight aunts use this to teach the children, "Did you see, Xiaoxiao has been admitted to a key university? Look how relaxed it is now. If you are admitted to the exam in the future, you must buy several packs of ** brand washing powder
I'll blow you enough.
A big drop of sweat hung on the back of my head.
My parents are also very happy. They say that their daughter is going to be successful. Our family finally has a female college student, which is more important... I feel dizzy, but I really like my parents' open-minded attitude.
Until my junior year, my required relationship courses were still blank. In fact, it was not true. It should be said that I had signed up but there were no places. Over the years, I have been chasing his back like a dream chaser. Sisters
Xiaohui encouraged me to say it sooner, otherwise I would choke to death sooner or later.
So, two years ago, in the first month of the year, I was walking in the fields in the countryside. I summoned up enough courage to say to him: "I like you, from middle school to now, all the time."
I finally said what I had hidden for 7 years, and I felt relieved, but another, bigger stone hung on the cliff. After waiting for a long time, I only heard him say: "I have a girlfriend, and I want to let her go."
You are disappointed."
Although I was well prepared and he always had a girlfriend by his side, when he heard what he said, the tears of disappointment still fell unconsciously. But I opened my eyes wide and resisted it. I thought, it doesn’t matter, I have big eyes and I can hold them.
Hold on to those few tears.
"I've really decided this time. I really have no chance!" I said to myself. The last time I listened to Xiaohui, she said never give up.
"kindness."
"Then what was your previous impression of me?" I hope it's not a wasp or just a bee.
"A little girl." When I heard this, my heart sank. In his eyes, she was just a little girl.
"Can you... tell me about her?"
"She is my school girl. Her name is Lan Xin and we have been together for a long time. We have a very good relationship."
"..."
"Is there anything else you want to know?"
"..." I understand that if you ask this kind of question too often, others will get bored. I will bear it.
"Then, best wishes to you, and thank you! Will we still be friends in the future?" I think I must have watched too many Korean dramas. In fact, I really want to say. Just be happy and miss me. I hope you don't
regret.
"kindness."
At this moment, I felt Lin Tian's intolerance. He probably showed a smile that was uglier than crying. He said: "It's late. I'm hungry, so I'll go home and eat first. Haha."
Turning around, my nose was sore and my eyes were red. I just wanted to quickly go through the turn in front of me.
After passing that corner, I thought I would burst into tears, but I didn't. I just sat in the grass and cried silently.
I went home very late that day, fearing that my parents would find something bad.
After a few days of confusion, I felt like I needed something to do, so I wanted to learn to ride a motorcycle.
As a result, the family's precious new car crashed into the family's precious truck. It fell heavily to the ground. The precious new clothes my mother bought for me also had a big gaping hole.
My mother saw so many treasures destroyed in the blink of an eye. As soon as she became impatient, she started to curse. Just when I fell, I felt the pain, and my mother's catalyst. The reservoir lacked embankments, blocking all the treasures.
If I can't stop it, I can confidently allow the Yangtze River to overflow and get out of control.
That day, I made them all cry silly. The second elder came up with a series of compensation strategies. In the past, I would have been even more crazy, but that day I just burst into tears and didn't say anything. Let's take care of ourselves as a family.
Look at him, he looks confused at you. Only I know what's going on.
After returning to school, like all students, I continued to study, worked in a bakery, and tutored. After my wallet was bulging, I went on a trip, ate, drank, and played, then wrote my thesis, found a job, and graduated.
Now I am also working in City B. I hang out with Xiaohui and Dabin. Over time, I am fortunate enough to get to know Zhang Yu, a senior executive of Global and Lin Tian’s best friend. We get along well with each other. I also
I met Lan Xin, a very beautiful person. She graduated from A University and was the daughter of a group. When I met her for the first time, Xiaohui, who had sworn to go to death to support me, could not say a word. I stared.
Looking at that girl, thousands of words only turned into the last sigh - Hey! At least he is more suitable for Lin Tian than me.
At this time, Lin Tian was already a famous jewelry designer. He was as comfortable as a duck in water. He designed many famous jewelry series, including one specially designed for Lan Xin.
Sometimes, I extravagantly hope that he can just be a friend and give me a chain alone on my birthday.
But that day, he and Lan Xin gave me a pink kitty together. I thought that it would be more appropriate to give jewelry to Lan Xin. I was envious, sad, and jealous, but in the end it could only turn into silent blessings.
.Even if we can’t be partners, we are still friends.
Half a month ago, Lin Tian and Lan Xin broke up.
At first, I thought to myself, wow! Has the opportunity arrived? But looking at Lin Tian's decadence, I understood that it was still none of my business.
I've been looking at him like that for a long time, and I can't help but scold him. When did he become so worthless? Just try to save her if you like her, make her happy, and stay with her every day. What's it like?
And he told me--go away.
This is what he always said to us friends. But this time I really took it seriously. I *%￥! Get out of here. Just leave and see who will cook for you. (Although I only know how to cook these days.
Noodles, or in other words, only boiled instant noodles can still be eaten. But I am very motivated and recently started to learn cooking skills.)
Actually, I thought, I couldn't move him. To untie the bell, the person who tied it needs to be tied. So that day, I made an appointment with Lan Xin.
When I made an appointment with Lan Xin, she was with Zhang Yu. I could see that she wasn't very happy either. Although I know that I shouldn't always envy what others get, but should cherish what I have. But I still couldn't help but envy her. How wonderful.
! Just like a princess, she has the love of a prince and the protection of a knight.
I made an appointment with her in a coffee shop, hoping that he would return to Lin Tian. Lin Tian said that he recognized her.
"You like Lin Tian!"
"..." I lowered my head and took a sip of water to make myself look normal and calm.
"Do you still like Lin Tian?" She didn't ask, but said with certainty.
"How did you know that before..." I was surprised: when she said yes, she knew that I also liked him before.
"Lin Tian told me about you."
"He told you?! Well, then you also know that he likes you, so why did he break up?" I won't mention my matter today, the topic is the two of them.
"It has nothing to do with you." She said coldly. She glanced at me and then looked at the sea outside the window.
"Lin Tian is my friend, and it has something to do with me." I don't know why, but I said it very confidently.
"Who is your friend?" She turned around and looked directly at me
"-Okay--friend, fellow countryman, and middle school alumnus." At this point, I collapsed again.
"Oh, really? He won't like you." She sneered, speaking very powerfully. Her tone was sarcastic and natural.
"Yes! He likes you, so let me ask you to do it. You might as well go and see him!" I knew that I was too high-profile and attracted attention. Anyway, it was like this, regardless of the image, I just waited for her answer.
But I looked at her eyes looking straight behind me. I didn’t order anything else. Something was wrong. I slowly turned around! Lin Tian!
He stared at me as if I had done something evil. He said in a cold voice: "Get out!"
When I looked at him, I felt deep pain and my nose was sore.
He's so mean, he's always like this! Just get out of here if you tell me, it's so shameless! I was about to say something.
"Get out!" he almost roared.
"Go away, I know." I yelled and left. I picked up my bag and rushed out of the cafe. I ran all the way to the beach.
At this time, a series of very discordant notes jumped out while being calm and peaceful.
"Lin Tian, you big bastard. You big cabbage, idiot, fool, rotten egg..." Heartless, heartless, stomachless, and intestineless. You think I like it. No, I need to find it.
I went to vent, look for Xiaohui, look for cakes. Without saying anything to kill that iron cock, I wrote the word Xiao Xiao upside down. Where is my mobile phone? It’s over, it’s over. I left it in the coffee shop.
"Have you finished scolding? Are there any other eggs?" A familiar voice sounded from behind.
Looking back, Lin Tianzheng was leaning against the coconut tree, grabbing my mobile phone chain and shaking my precious mobile phone.
"Preserved eggs, salted eggs, fried eggs, tea eggs, braised eggs, hard-boiled eggs, chicken...Give me back my phone!" There was no way, in high school, a senior who was admitted to A University said in a speech that he
Daily recipes. He talked a lot about the benefits of eggs for the brain, and also talked about several ways to make them. I thought I couldn’t solve the problem, and I still can’t eat eggs, so I also ate them. I ate eggs laid in the world.
Say. Sorry, I'm going too far.
Seeing him like that, I'm afraid I don't want to give it back. I don't care about anything else, so I just want to grab it. My salary is not high, just like my height. My mobile phone is my treasure. Of course, my salary is the same, so I'll do it too.
Not tall, I cursed in my heart that damn Lin Tian, why is he so tall when he has nothing to do?
"I'm sorry just now!" He hesitated for a long time and then said suddenly.
I was stunned, smiled nonchalantly, and said, "I know. Why are our brothers and sisters so polite? Give me back your phone first."
In fact, I was thinking to myself: This guy can't help but pick up the pot. If you don't return the phone to me, I'm going to vent it on you, Lin Tian.
At this time, Lin Tian suddenly grabbed my hand and said, "I'm really sorry..."
I looked at Lin Shuang's serious eyes, wondering how serious this guy was. He also kept his hands in the air and said: "Well, don't say sorry all the time, can you be a little creative? It doesn't matter. I'm not the first.
Times. Haha..." Suddenly he didn't know how to face it, so he laughed dryly.
"Be my girlfriend." He seemed to think that if it was abnormal, he should do it more thoroughly. He said it very seriously, not like he was joking.
"Huh?..." I couldn't react for a while, whether it was true or false.
"Oh, are you stupid? Be my girlfriend." Lin Tian looked at me with wide eyes and thought: This girl's reaction speed is so slow.
"Are you serious?" I don't know why. I should be happy at this time. But my nose keeps sore and my eyes are open. Lin Tian hugs me and pats my back.
"Lin Dan, you bastard. Wow~~" I couldn't bear it anymore and lay on top of him, with tears and snot all over him... I don't know if he felt sorry for his Armani, but I didn't care anyway. Vent... Vent to your heart's content
...
After that, it was the same old routine of watching movies and walking around in the park. In fact, I like adventure and traveling. Lin Tian is too busy with work and doesn’t have much time, so I go less often. But with him
That's fine. Haha, I'm a very young woman, but that's how it is in love.
However, later, I finally understood that not everyone can be happy.
That day, I saw the medicine inside Lin Tian's coat. I went to the hospital and asked him that it was medicine specifically for blood cancer patients. That day I stepped forward and punched him, calling him a bastard. I hugged Lin Tian again and was so scared.
Lost the feelings I had been waiting for for so long. When asked why he didn’t say anything, Lin Tian was silent.
"The bread has told you everything. You know it all," he said.
"I already know, you are such a bastard!" You actually kept it from me. It turns out that Cake already knew about it. He went back and asked Xiaohui to fix him.
"I'm sorry, I'm selfish and mean." He sighed and confessed.
What? There is selfishness, but despicableness is over. What's going on?
The great ancients once said: Silence is gold. So, as a part-time worker, I worked hard to guard this only piece of gold.
Seeing that I was silent, he began to tell everything about the recent past.
"...I shouldn't have lied to you or taken advantage of you. I shouldn't have hurt you for Lan Xin." It turns out that there is another level of matter.
After I listened, the corner of my mouth twitched twice. I couldn't utter a word. Sure enough, I said I would die first, but this time it was not him who died, but me. I stared at him with wide eyes. I really wanted to take the last piece of it.
Throw the gold away. It turns out that he wanted to be with me because of Lan Xin. No wonder he was so comforted when he saw Lan Xin and Zhang Yu together last time. It turned out that he had planned it beforehand.
Why is my brain working so well at this time? Heaven and hell are neighbors, so close.
"I'm sorry, Xiaoxiao, I didn't want to hurt you. I can't help it, I don't want Lan Xin to..."
"But you are already hurt. Have you ever liked me?" I haven't recovered yet. He loves Lan Xin! I understand! I just want to keep my lover, but can he do this to me? I just
A big fool, a big foil. I can't even express my love. It's too heavy.
"I'm sorry. I like you just like a brother likes a sister, and I love Lan Xin. I want to see her happy while I'm alive." Lin Tian's back was turned to me, but I could hear his helplessness.
with pain.
I smiled bitterly. It was such an old-fashioned brother-sister relationship, nothing new at all.
I got angry, turned around and left. I spent a day blowing in the wind at the beach, thinking about what was wrong with me and why he wanted to treat me like this. I thought that I wasn't good enough, but he couldn't treat me like this. How many people can do this to me?
I love him so much. In order to make Lan Xin happy and to entrust her to another outstanding man, he dragged me over to act with him. The terrible thing is that I didn’t know anything yet and believed it to be true. I originally thought that I should also
Just like the turbulent sea in front of me, I was venting my dissatisfaction. But my heart seemed to be suppressed by something. It seemed that it was about to explode, but in the end, it couldn't make a single ripple.
When I think back to his words - while alive! Am I going to lose him? Or I never got him. I can't control my sadness. Well, then, I will act out this play with him. I will act out with him.
, to make his princess happy. There is no Cinderella in this world. Even if there is, it has nothing to do with me. This world is like this. Someone must sacrifice. Some people laugh and some cry. Since I can’t laugh anymore
, then it would be nice to have one less person cry. Just think of it as a brother-in-law helping out between friends.
In the evening, I came to the apartment where Lin Tian lived. I took out the key and opened the door. What's funny is that when he gave me the key, it was because we were so-called "boyfriends and girlfriends." But today, I used it to open the door.
Daomen, go and tell him that I will fulfill his love for his princess.
At dusk, the heartbroken man, the setting sun stretched his figure very long, making him look desolate and lonely. But he didn't know that there was an even more lonely figure always standing behind him.
I walked forward slowly and hugged him from behind. I wanted to comfort my lonely heart. It was his and mine. I didn't care about anything anymore.
"Xiaoxiao, have you thought about it. Don't you regret it?" He held my hand and asked.
"I don't regret it. As long as you are by my side now, everything else is not important. After all, we are still friends, right?" I took a deep breath and said. The Buddha said: I don't belong.
Whoever goes to hell will go to hell. Then I will be the greatest foil. I admit it.
"It's not completely hopeless. The bone marrow sample has been submitted... From now on, you can buy better cosmetics and cry like a cat." Lin Tian turned around and wiped away my tears with a smile.
"Are you mistaken?" I looked at Lin Tian who could still speak so easily in the face of these things. I also hoped that I could. "Yes! If there is a chance, there must be a chance."
Actually I didn't wear makeup that day.
I also proposed the subsequent marriage. At first, Lin Tian said that I was crazy and would not go crazy with me.
Based on the principle of great foil, the SWOT analysis concludes:
1. I am mentally prepared.
2. Lin Tian can match up Lan Xin and Tou Zhangyu faster.
3. It became one of my own wishes.
4.!@#$%^%$#^*##.
5.......
After my comprehensive analysis and he had a headache, I thought he had agreed. One day, I said, there was a magazine that said a story about a husband who sent a message to his wife before the tombstone. I laughed.
He said that I will perform well. You have to write me better. When the time comes, I will be a golden tortoise, or a copper one.
Lin Tian also said with a smile: Definitely.
If possible, I hope he never writes. I don’t know how many hospitals I have contacted to find the best hospital to give him the best medical treatment.
For a while, Lin Tian asked me where I got so much money. I said, don’t look down on others. I buy lottery tickets every day, and I finally won the first prize today. Did you know that I am rich now?
In fact, being rich is real. As long as he is around, I feel rich. But I have never won the prize. I borrowed the money from a person. He lent me the money very simply, and I agreed to his conditions very simply.
No one knows about this except me and him.
We all know that Lin Tian does not have much time left, and he has no clue what he is waiting for. Now that we know Lin Tian's last wish, of course we must do our best to help him.
Later, the kid from Ke Bian couldn't stand Xiao Hui's coercion and inducement, and after confessing, Xiao Hui said that I was like a moth to the flame. I said it was to the fire, but the one who held his head high said that I was a phoenix.
I announced the engagement news to a small audience and acted in a few scenes. I couldn't defeat Lin Tian, so I left City A and went to a small town in the south of the Yangtze River.
*****
The rain in the south of the Yangtze River is always so lingering, and the blue-gray sky is covered with a net woven by rain silk. The long years have peeled off layer by layer on the stone walls, and the moss renders the two sides of the river like a carpet. The ancient
Stone bridges, ancient rivers, ancient boats, everything seems so natural.
I walked onto the stone bridge with very light steps, fearing to disturb him in his meditation. Under the bridge, the water was so quiet that I couldn't seem to feel its flow.
"Have you brought it?" Finally, Lin Tian turned to me coldly, his face still so pale.
"Well. The wedding is this Saturday." I handed her the newspaper. The marriage between two major financial groups, the talented man and the beautiful girl were impressive on the paper. This is also the reason why Lin Tian has stayed in the town and never returned.
"Xiao Xiao, she will be happy, right?" The tone was so reluctant and gratifying.
"Well, yes, you will get better too. Lin Tian, you still have me. You still have me..." I hugged him from behind. You don't need to be so cold anymore, I know what you want to do,
I won't let go, I'm so afraid that he will suddenly be gone.
"I'm sorry, Xiaoxiao, I want to see her again."
"You said listen to me, you can't be so selfish. I need you too."
Lan Xin - what a happy person, she has all Lin Tian's thoughts and all his love. But I can't share even a little bit.
"Why are you so stupid? I'm sorry, I want to see her happy... This is what I want to do most in my life. And you deserve better." Lin Tian pulled my hand away. Bright red blood flowed.
Come down.
"Okay, go, go right away, but you promise me not to give up, don't give up. There will be suitable bone marrow, there will be." Seeing Lin Tian, who used to be so healthy and humorous, like this now, I swallowed, and my heart was tangled.
As long as you can be well, nothing else matters except asking me to leave.
When we arrived in City B, Lin Tian and I stood in the corner and watched a wedding of the century. The almost extravagant luxury was something I had never imagined. And the love and pain in Lin Tian’s eyes would never be the same.
I revealed that sometimes, I really envy Lan Xin, not for her family affairs or her beauty, but for the relationship she has with Lin Tian and Zhang Yu, and I can only be a foil for them.
Later, Lin Tian wanted to cancel the wedding. I objected, firmly opposed. Both Xiaohui Kebin and Lin Tian said I was stupid. I said Lin Tian would be fine. I know that I love humblely. I swear, in this life,
Just this once.
Finally, on a rainy day, even as he apologized profusely, God took him away.
Those who have to leave have to leave. I desperately hold his hand that is getting colder. My heart has been broken and my tears have long dried up. It's like there is a rock weighing on my heart and I can't breathe.