I told myself, I have to believe in the wind! I have to believe that he loves me, maybe he just doesn’t like children, just like he said, he just hates people to share my love, it must be like this! It must be like this!
That's it! I must believe him! I believe that his kindness to me and his love for me are not fake! I believe that his gentleness and deep affection come from the sincerity! I believe that the words he said when he was in a coma are sincere!
But why is my heart so empty? Why am I so scared? I try to tell myself to believe him, but why does my heart refuse to trust him anymore?
Why? Why? Why do you do this to me? Why? Why? Why do you want me to lose the right to be a mother? Why? Why? Why do you lie to me again and again? I believe you so much! I believe you so much!
Why? Why? You want to punish me in this way? I didn't do anything to feel sorry for you! I didn't!
I am just an ordinary woman. I only want the love, family affection, and friendship that an ordinary woman dreams of. I only want to love someone well, form my own small family well, and take good care of and love my husband-in-law and my own children. But why?
Why do you want to deprive me of even this little dream?
I love you so much! I love you so much! How can you bear it? How can you be so cruel? Chu Fengyang, I hate you! I hate you!
I swept all the tea sets on the table to the ground, threw the phoenix crown heavily on the ground, and stepped on the red wedding dress under my feet. The color of the wedding dress was as red as blood, just like the liquid flowing in my heart, those
The red color swayed before my eyes, so dazzling and ironic, it seemed to be mocking my wishful thinking, mocking me for being just an inconspicuous little sparrow, but dreaming of flying up a branch and turning into a phoenix.
He took out the jade bracelet engraved with the word "Feng Yang" on his hand and wanted to throw it to the ground, but he couldn't let it go, no matter what. Is this the symbol of Feng's wife?
Why am I still so reluctant to let go? Why? Why am I still reluctant to let go when he treats me like this? Why am I so spineless? Why am I so weak?
Why do I still have illusions about him? Do I really have to wait until he tells me personally that his kindness to me, his love for me, and his care and love for me are all fake before I give up?
How could I be so worthless? How could he do this to me? How could he do this? I lay on the table and cried sadly.
"Xiao Nuo, you are looking for me -" The room was in a mess, the wedding dress and phoenix crown were trampled to pieces, broken teacups were everywhere, and tables and chairs were overturned everywhere.
"Xiao Nuo, what...?" Before he could speak, the haggard and pale woman had already thrown herself into his arms and cried loudly.
"Xiao Nuo, what's wrong?" The heartbroken cry ripped through his heart.
"Mei, I hate it so much! I hate it so much!" I burst into tears in Mei's arms, venting my sadness, grievance, and hatred in a steady stream.
"Xiao Nuo - I feel bad when you are like this -" He couldn't help but want to hug the woman in his arms tightly, but was pushed away by the woman in his arms.
"Don't say those sweet words and vows of eternal love! I don't believe it! I don't believe it! Liars! They are all liars! They are all shameless liars!" I burst into tears in grief, tears rolling down like streams.
"Xiao Nuo, stop crying! Tell me, what happened?" He reached out and hugged the woman who was trying to escape. Her grief-stricken, sad and haggard look was like a knife inserted into his heart. It hurt.
I couldn't breathe and the pain was so painful that I lost my mind.
"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu"
"Xiao Nuo, don't cry. I will always be by your side to protect you and won't let others bully you. Don't cry!" Holding the woman tightly in his arms, her tears were like sharp swords in his heart.
It hurts so much when I cut it wildly!
"He lied to me! He lied to me! He said it was a tonic. He said I was weak and the medicine could restore my strength. He lied to me! He lied to me so many times. He lied to me to drink so many medicines! He lied to me.
Lie to me!" Medicine? What medicine? What medicine did he give her?
"He lied to me! That's not a tonic at all! It's Luo Zi Tang! Luo Zi Tang!" Luo Zi Tang? How could he do this to Xiao Nuo? How could he?
"Why? Why? Why did he deprive me of my right to be a mother? Why? Why did he make me infertile for the rest of my life? Why? I love him so much, I love him so much! Why? Why?"
Lifelong infertility? These words were like a thunderbolt hitting Mei on the head, completely blinding him! Lifelong infertility!
How cruel this is to Xiao Nuo! How could he do this? How could he do this to Xiao Nuo? How could the woman he valued as precious as life and swore to protect with his life allow him to ruin her like this?
"I'm going to kill him!" Mei pushed me away and rushed out with a murderous look on his face.
"No! Mei, no!" I rushed up and hugged Mei. My tears fell like broken pearls on his generous back, burning his back and burning his heart.
It hurts... it hurts... he can't breathe...
How could his Rou'er bear such pain?
"Maybe he just doesn't like children, maybe he just doesn't want anyone to share my love, he just, he just loves me too much, really, he just loves me too much, he won't harm me, he definitely won't
of."
Why do I say these words without any confidence in my heart?
"He did this to you? You still..." You still protect him like this! Xiao Nuo, how much do you want to hurt yourself? How much do you want me to feel distressed?
"Really, Mei, really, he just loves me too much and doesn't want multiple children to share my love. It must be like this, Mei, I believe he loves me! Really!" Why did he say that?
You say you believe it, but you lose trust in him in your heart?
"Xiao Nuo——" You love him so much! But he... how could he... how could he! My heart hurts so much that I can't breathe, my heart hurts so much that I can't help myself, my big hands are clenched into fists, and there is a terrifying murderous aura all over my body.
"It must be like this, it must be like this. It doesn't matter if you don't have children. It really doesn't matter. I don't like taking care of children anyway. It's so troublesome to take care of children. Don't you think so, Mei?"
But why do you like babies in other people's arms so much? Why do you envy mothers who hold babies in their arms so much?
How can I believe you, Xiaonuo, why do you hide your tears behind your sad smile? Why do you love him so much, he broke your heart! Why do you still love him so much?