The town beside the sewage river is full of dilapidated houses. Walking along the streets of abandoned factories, you can see the street lamps that have been in disrepair and the dirty garbage bags blown up by the night wind.
"Yo, yo, look who I saw, weird Severus, wearing his weird clothes." A little boy wearing a three-piece suit pointed at Snape and laughed with several children around him.
laugh it out.
Snape pursed his lips, carried his schoolbag, and walked around the corner in silence.
"Hey, hey, don't leave." The group of children rushed out.
"You're kidding, Severus, we were joking." The little boy said sincerely, "Can we make friends?"
Snape was stunned for a moment, his eyes lit up, and he looked up at him.
"Listen, although you are not good at studies and have a bad personality, you are cool enough and we need friends like you." The little boy put his hand on his companion's shoulder and looked at Snape with a smile.
There is a party tomorrow night, how about you come too."
Snape's heart was moved, and he looked at this group of people with some hope, "I..."
"Hahahaha." The little boy suddenly laughed, "The premise is..."
"The premise is that you have to wear normal clothes, hahaha."
"..."
Is this humiliation? But they look very enthusiastic. Is this mockery? But they seem to really want to invite me.
Snape looked down at his clothes, finally remained silent for a long time, and walked past him with his lips pursed.
His mind was in chaos and he didn't know what he was thinking.
Finally, he came to the deepest corner of the alley, a house with a weird attic.
Looking up, the attic made of various pieces of broken wood is really weird. It looks like a witch's crooked hat. Such a house will not look out of place in this alley, because there are random buildings everywhere.
trace.
This place is so dilapidated that no one is willing to come and take care of it anymore.
Opening the door, he walked through the cramped groceries to the stairs leading upstairs. Just as Snape was about to go upstairs, he heard his parents arguing again.
He was silent for a long time, then pulled out a delicate-looking chair from the pile of groceries and curled up on it.
These chairs not only witnessed the glory of this city decades ago, but also witnessed the peak of my father's career, the famous Tobia Snape home merchant.
"Magic! Magic! You only know magic all day long!" My father's roar was full of drunkenness. "Back then, my business was just a little bit worse. Why didn't I see you use magic to help me?"
Then came the mother's sobs, "No, no, Tobias, the magic I learned is not for this. What you are talking about is black magic, and it is not allowed."
"Haha." My father sneered, "If you are not allowed, as long as you are good and follow the rules, you deserve to live in such a wretched place and endure such a wretched life!"
"You're like this, you might as well not know magic! It's a joke, you're just like this, you're a witch! What kind of bad magic did you learn!"
"No!" the mother screamed, "Don't tear up my magic book, Tobias, I know you are drunk, don't do this."
Wow.
I don’t know what happened again, it was the sound of broken glass.
His father's roar, his mother's sobs, and the dim light coming from the stairs made Snape, who was curled up in his chair, feel even more trapped in darkness.
Unknowingly, he fell asleep like this.
No one has time to care about him. In the adult world there are only quarrels, quarrels, and quarrels.
Finally, as a ray of sunlight shone in through the window, passing through the gaps between the randomly piled groceries, it reflected on Snape's face.
He woke up.
He hugged his legs blankly, his mind going blank.
Soon, there was a sound from upstairs, the stairs creaked, and my father walked down carrying a heavy carpenter's box.
"Hey kid, do you like magic?"
Snape shook his head.
"very good."
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After hastily eating the bread that his mother had hurriedly made with magic, Snape looked at his mother's red eyes and was silent for a long time.
He couldn't understand the world of adults. They obviously had such different worldviews. Yes, witches and Muggles seemed to be people from two different worlds. They quarreled every day, and either his father broke his mother's gobstone chessboard or her mother got excited. Releasing magic hurts the father.
In this way, he can barely maintain a family.
They were so unsuitable and so in love that one day they were even discussing whether to have another child while they were still young.
Snape couldn't understand the brain circuits of adults.
Today is the weekend, and he came to the park a little glumly.
"Did they quarrel again?" asked a cute little girl.
Snape raised his head in astonishment and smiled. This was the only smile he had in the past two days, and his smile was particularly bright, "Lily."
Lily Yinwansi, a little girl from the same town, has a good family background, but she never dislikes herself because of her background.
Getting along with Lily was a ray of light in his gloomy childhood, so relaxing and so happy.
Lily would tell him about the strange abilities that happened to her, and Snape would reassure her that it was a magical riot, and then use the few words he heard from his mother to tell the beauty of the wizarding world in an exaggerated tone.
"Do you like magic?"
"certainly!"
"Me too!" Snape laughed.
But happiness is always short-lived.
Penny appeared, this jealous and mean woman, jumped out from behind the tree.
"Are you wearing your mother's clothes?"
This woman's words were always so harsh and harsh, which deeply hurt Snape's heart. He looked at Lily with some fear, hoping that she wouldn't think so too.
Although this is true, yes, his family is poor, so he just wears his mother's old clothes.
Lily's eyes were full of her sister, and she didn't notice Snape's pain at all.
She was always like this, especially caring about this sister. And this sister was always like this. Whenever she appeared, she would think of saying something to hurt Snape, so many times the good times would end unhappily.
Snape looked at the world sadly, filled with anger in his heart.
Wow~
The branch fell and hit Penny on the shoulder. She staggered back a few steps and started crying.
"Did you do it?"
"No." Snape was a little unconvinced, but he couldn't help but think that maybe this was magic taking revenge on him?
"It's you!" Lily looked very angry, "It's you who hurt her!"
She chased her sister's figure and ran out of the woods, leaving Snape blankly defending, "I didn't..."
There's none?
Snape remembered that one time when his mother was angry, the scissors on the shelf flew out and stabbed his father in the stomach. Magic can really move according to the mind.
He remembered that at that time, his mother cried and used a magical medicine called white moss to treat his father, and begged him not to die.
On the contrary, my father didn't look too angry. He just asked, "Didn't you be able to recover by casting a spell before?"
"That's a counter-spell. It's only effective if it's used when someone is harmed by magic."
Snape remembered that time when his father bled very much and was the closest to death. He grabbed his hand forcefully and ordered like this, "I know you will still want to learn magic in the future. You don't have to lie to me."
.Listen, you must learn magic with counter-curses. This is a damage method with regret medicine, which is much better than firearms."
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Time flies, and in a blink of an eye they are enrolled in Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry.
Snape thought he had finally found a big family that recognized him and had a large number of similar people, but in fact he did not.
The students here are worse than those in the small town. Discrimination is everywhere. Those young men look down on everything like superior people, making him look so ugly, poor, and lonely.
Even if the children in the small town understand the ways of the world, why do the people here become so unscrupulous now that they understand magic?
Especially the students of Gryffindor House, they humiliate themselves without any psychological burden in the name of the conflict between the two houses.
But, finally, Snape was no longer the child who didn't study well.
He is so suitable to be a wizard, and he has shown sufficient talent in herbs, potions, and spells.
Life tells us that if we can't change the world, then change ourselves.
If the world is full of chains of discrimination, the only thing we can do is to climb to the highest level of the chain.
Don't be the one who gets hurt, be the one who hurts others, even if we don't mean any harm.
This is not just a junior school, it is the epitome of the wizarding world. After just a few years from this school, it will be the wizarding world. Snape can see better than anyone else that the fierce competition in life has already begun here.
.
He began to show his excellence without hesitation, and finally, the group at the top of the discrimination chain accepted him.
Take the initiative to recruit him.
Evan Rozier took him to a classroom belonging to the student club in the castle, and he met the senior Lucius Malfoy who was the prefect.
Wilkes held a pile of information in front of him. Bellatrix Black asked him with a smile, "Do you want to see more powerful black magic?"
Of course, I want to be strong.
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The process of learning dark magic is not very pleasant. Although Snape seems to be particularly good at it, he can always easily break through the inherent theories and come up with some novel and interesting spells.
Everyone in the small group was amazed by his wisdom and were happy to bring more magic books from the family to share with him.
This extremely valuable knowledge in the wizarding world can no longer be found anywhere except in the restricted book section of the school library, which seems to be forever out of reach.
This is the best chance to change your life, Snape knows it.
Finally, I relied on my hard work to study, relied on my efforts to bloom my own excellence, and gradually created a look that was needed by others and was valuable, and this was the situation I got.
Gotta cherish it.
Pure-blood supremacy? Okay, you can just say so. Discriminating against Muggles? Okay, anyway, Gryffindor, which has the most Muggle wizards, bullies itself a lot.
Accepting their theory is the price of learning advanced magic.
Anyway, no matter how legitimate a study club or group it is, it's the same, everyone does it, and Snape can accept it.
He only has one request, Lily is a Muggle, but if anyone dares to insult her, don't blame him for turning against him.
Extremes and compromises are actually never two-sided, because they contain dirty politics.
Everyone gave him full respect. After all, he was getting better and better and had quietly moved ahead of these people.
Everyone is smart and knows what judgments to make.
Bloodline theory? That's just a way to maintain privileges, not to make enemies. The smarter you are, the dirtier your mind will be.
Snape saw clearly that as long as the benefits were big enough, letting Lucius marry a Muggle was just a matter of words. As long as the benefits were big enough, do you think he would talk about pure-blood pride?
It's just a big flag, so let's pull it off.
The world is like this, not so dark and not so bright.
Except for the naive Gryffindor.
And it just so happens that Lily is the innocent Gryffindor.
Snape hoped that Lily could understand him, but this was destined to be difficult. Lily was different from him. She was born with a privileged birthright. Even if she was not a wizard, she would still be a proud little princess when she returned. She didn't care that much about magic.
Yes, don’t think that only purebloods discriminate against Muggles, Muggles even discriminate against the entire wizarding community.
Thinking about these wizards who seem to live in the last century, it can be said to be very polite than calling them primitive people, freaks, and monsters.
ps: Petunia's husband is this kind of person. He is just a small middle-class executive, and his life is better than that of the oldest pure-blood family, except that there are not a few elves in the family as slaves. But slaves, Doesn't it make people despise this kind of primitive life even more?
And all these all-round differences...
It seems like the beginning of all nightmares.
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When that day came, James and a group of people surrounded Snape, hung him upside down with the upside-down golden clock he invented, and took off his pants in front of countless people in the school...
Snape became furious and cursed a very humiliating 'Mudblood'.
Lily became so angry that she cursed a very humiliating "snot-nosed man".
Snotty, snotty, these are the words of the Gryffindor gang to humiliate him. It turns out that Lily has already thought so, right?
No one knows what kind of inner psychological construction Snape went through, and finally looked for Lily to apologize.
But it was useless. This was not a problem with the swear words, but the completely irreconcilable positions between the two people behind the swear words.
It can only be said that he met the wrong person at the wrong time and met Lily for the rest of his life.
Snape is a smart man, but he is not good at emotional matters, but precisely because he is smart, he becomes more stubborn.
The sand that cannot be grasped in the palm of the hand...
Then you need to grip it harder and squeeze it into your flesh and blood.
Countless examples of powerful wizards tell us that when there is a person living in our hearts who tortures us every day, our magic will become extremely powerful.
Grindelwald is like that.
Dumbledore is like that.
So did Snape.
When magic and emotion were completely integrated, Snape easily reached an unprecedented level. No one knew that it would only take one day for him to invent the 'God's Edge Shadowless Curse'.
No one knows that the counter-spell was invented earlier than this one.
This is my father's teaching.
Anyone with the power of regret is kind.
Even if it's black magic.
Although this old man with a slovenly beard was treated for white moss and survived, he quarreled with his mother lively and lived like a bed bug in the gutter.
Of course, since the top small group in the school planned to follow in Voldemort's footsteps, Snape, who had already gained enough benefits, sent his parents out of the country extremely cunningly.
Give them the wealthy and easy living conditions they desire. Maybe in that environment, they will no longer argue about the difficult life. Maybe they will give birth to a younger brother or younger sister?
Who knows.
After all, Snape, who liked to harm himself, cruelly used potions to completely erase most of his memories of his parents, so that no one could find traces of them through himself.
Neither can Voldemort, he has this confidence.
On the road to becoming more powerful in magic, the price is always shocking.
This kind of spell that comes from emotions, the magic that controls everything with the mind, made Snape understand a truth deeply.
——Wizards are not gods, wizards are devils.
Muggle perceptions are correct.
The devil should be tied to a wooden frame and burned to death.
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Mind, magic, magic, this is a set of frightening recipes.
When everything is calm, we can easily use magic to control everything and make everything follow our will.
But...
When the flaws in our hearts are exposed, the magic power will turn into the devil and in turn corrode everything.
Snape sometimes envied those simple-minded people. Their stupid thinking could not interfere with magic at all, and they could choose the path that least affected themselves.
Bravery, love, hate, protection, killing...
Only someone with such a complicated mind like him can easily reach the deep realm of magic and easily touch the realm of the devil.
But this also means that the devil is also spying on him all the time.
Is black magic dangerous?
No!
Yes magic is dangerous!
The moment Lily fell completely into Potter's arms, this intense and painful emotion instantly inspired a lot of magic.
Emotions lead to more magic.
The magic consumes more emotions.
Unknowingly, Lily and the black magic merged into one in the magic.
He also thought about giving up. Who didn't have a first love that ended in vain when he was young, but no, the magic power that had been combined together would not allow it.
The magic power could not tolerate his betrayal, and quietly swallowed up his heart, quietly changing his heart.
He could only savor this emotion day after day, year after year, which brought him strength but also pain.
The more torture, the stronger it becomes.
Until the moment Lily died.
It stands to reason that losing Lily would bring powerful magic power, and completely losing Lily should bring even more powerful magic power, but it doesn’t. (This sentence is not his idea.)
His magic power completely stopped.
The torture in his heart also stopped.
In his heart...
There is nothing left.
This seems to be the most malicious mockery of fate.
This is magic, powerful magic, terrible magic, disgusting magic, terrifying magic.
But if his father asked him again.
"Hey kid, do you like magic?"
He would nod firmly, "Yeah!"
As for why, it's because of magic and because of Lily.
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Does Snape really love Lily? Of course!
Is it really so heart-breaking love? Of course!
Is there a relationship influenced by magic? Yes!
Is it because of the magic power that I love you so heart-wrenchingly?
Answer: I don’t know!
Yes, although it is a bit cruel to say this, it seems to be saying, oh, Snape, your love is not loyal and your love is not pure.
But, how can human emotions be defined by just a simple psychological activity?
Magic power relies on emotions, amplifies emotions, melts emotions, and counterattacks emotions. Wizards are creatures that cannot be analyzed separately from magic power.
After all, wizards are magical creatures.
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The time turner took Anton to follow the memory and came to Snape's repeated attempts to save Lily.
Once, again, and again.
After every despair, there is more powerful magic and more crazy plans.
But without even a single success, everything seemed to be in vain.
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It's hard to even call this kind of more powerful magic power powerful.
Snape's dark magic has even reached the very deep realm step by step, reaching the realm of figures like Dumbledore and Voldemort.
But the cost is also terrible.
If wizards are a combination of humans and magic, then Snape is the point where magic is about to engulf humans.
If magic is a manifestation of the wizard's control of magic, then Snape is completely controlled by magic.
But the efforts to save Lily are still going on.
This is even a bit like some kind of obsessive earth-bound spirit creature, except that the place of binding is time.
Anton watched all this in silence.
Snape used his own experience to teach him a hard lesson and told him what the price of magic is.
All the memories of the past quietly surfaced. He looked at other people's stories and savored his own path of learning magic.
Wizards are gods, and their will commands everything. (Old Wizard Fiennes)
Only madmen can become wizards, and shortcomings create firmness. (Voldemort)
Desire creates everything. (Professor McGonagall)
Understanding what you want is more important than exploring magic. (Rozier)
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These words, when you first taste them, mean that wizards must understand their true nature and have firm beliefs.
But looking at Snape, Anton understood more deeply what a wizard was.
The wizard's emotions affect magic. The wizard's magical emotions also affect himself. Snape's black magic started because of Lily, died because of Lily, and now he is going crazy because of Lily. It has long been completely blended together.
This can no longer be simply described as "because of love".
Anton even thought of Snape's deer. In addition to love and protection, that thing was a reflection of the deepest emotions in the wizard's heart. It was also a shackle.
Our desire for magic creates a patron saint, and magic uses this patron saint to lock us in.
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Anton turned to look at Dumbledore, "Is this the essence of magic?"
Dumbledore just shook his head sadly, "This is the price of having magic."
The Snape in front of him, who was not tortured by Lily's death, was so different from what he imagined.
Tom always said that he saw his own shadow in him, that's why he was so wary of him. In fact, Tom was really wrong. Dumbledore never felt this way. He really just didn't like this child.
Only Snape, a child, yearned for magic and longed to follow the Demon King to change the world. In the end, he was imprisoned on death row by his beloved woman for the rest of his life...