"I love Zhan Aoze... Hehe, you're surprised, right? But, this is a fact..."
She raised her neck again and took a sip of wine. You Sisi suddenly laughed bitterly, her voice was very loud, she was laughing hysterically, tears fell from the corners of her eyes, her pretty eyebrows were full of sadness, and her bright red windbreaker could not conceal her inner loneliness and sadness.
sad.
She laughed, she cried, and she said in a low voice: "Really, I fell in love with him. From the moment you brought him home, I started to be obsessed with him. It's very cruel, isn't it? I will treat my sister's boyfriend
Falling in love at first sight, haha, what a ridiculous thing. But, I really love him... Sometimes I feel shameless, how can I love my sister's boyfriend, but love grows crazily in my heart,
I wanted to stop but couldn't. You know, during that time, I hated you so much."
Her tired eyes were closed tightly, and the corners of Yousisi's lips were sour.
At that time, Youjia was so happy, and there always seemed to be a sweet smile on her pretty face. Although they were half-sisters, Youjia was really kind to Yousisi, and she was willing to share everything with her.
things, including her own happiness. She would happily talk about her and Zhan Aoze's happiness, even if it was a small thing. Every time You Sisi would listen to it, her heart would be sour and painful, but there would be an innocent and beautiful smile on her lips.
.
Youjia doesn't know that her sister also loves her boyfriend. To be precise, no one knows except herself. Youjia doesn't know, Zhan Aoze doesn't know, and neither do their parents who always regard the two sisters as a burden.
.
She suppressed this love in her heart and tasted the bitterness alone.
"When you are showing off your happiness, do you know how miserable I feel in my heart? So, I hate you, I really hate you. I wish I could seal your mouth, I wish I could cover my ears... But, from the bottom of my heart, I
Li knows that I am wrong and you are not wrong. I live in contradiction all day long. I am eager to see him but afraid of seeing him. But his eyes always revolve around you. In his eyes, I
She has always been just your sister. I am so eager for him to look at me with even a little bit of heat, but it's a pity..."
The sarcasm at the corners of her lips became stronger and stronger, and You Sisi drank the last of the wine in one gulp. Even though she wasn't a big drinker, she even started to smell drunk.
With a random wave of his arm, the wine bottle fell into nowhere. You Sisi stared at the photo of You Jia with blurred eyes, feeling a heart-wrenching pain in his heart. He murmured to himself: "Just when I felt like I was going crazy, you suddenly
I fainted, and the doctor gave the result that it was blood cancer. Do you want to know how I felt at that moment? My heart hurt, it really hurt. But, it was really just a moment. I don’t know when, my heart felt
A demon entered her, and she screamed at me with all her teeth and claws: My chance has come. Youjia, you must hate me to death after talking about it, right?"
In a daze, she seemed to see the sadness in Zhan Aoze's eyes again, and she seemed to see the heartbreaking love in Yujia's eyes every time she looked at Zhan Aoze.
A pair of fateful mandarin ducks, at such a moment, their hearts ached beyond measure. But the devil in her heart was telling her that once Youjia died, she would have a chance.
"Brother Ze was very sad during that time. When he saw you, he kept smiling and encouraging you. But when you fell asleep and were alone, his eyes were more empty and helpless. You are just like your mother.
, the blood type was too special, and it was impossible to find a suitable bone marrow match. Even my father and I couldn't. When he knew the result, the hope he had accumulated in his heart seemed to disappear. He went to the bone marrow bank to check, but there was still no one who could.
The one who was successfully matched with you...you know, unlike him, when I learned the news, I was very calm, without any hint of sadness, and even...a little bit of joy."
She really drank too much. She smiled bitterly and could spit out everything. Her ugly heart seemed to be exposed in front of Youjia's grave. She even wanted to point at her heart and curse: You are so vicious!
"Maybe God is really punishing me, who made me so bad. I originally thought that if you died, I would get him. Knowing that he likes you, I even kept the same hair as you, shoulder length. , always noodles with clear soup, neither dyed nor permed. Oh, my hair is long now, but I still haven’t permed or dyed it. I wear it straight and loose, just because he likes your straight hair. I even went there secretly. I went to Korea and took your photo with me. I sharpened my chin a little to make me look more like you. But...hehe, it’s so ridiculous, right? You must be laughing at me, right? It’s even more ridiculous. Yes, he still didn't love me. He fell in love with another girl. He really loved her. I saw with my own eyes that he was not afraid of death for her. He just rushed towards the truck, then For a moment, my heart was so painful that it felt like it had been torn out. I loved him, but I almost killed him. Fortunately, I learned in the hospital yesterday that he was fine, otherwise, I would have died for my love. , do you believe it? In this world, I have nothing left to miss. You are gone, he is gone, and I am the only one left in this bustling world..."
In the early morning of winter, the sun broke through the last line of defense and shed its light without hesitation. You Sisi, who had been sleepless all night, silently stroked You Jia's tomb over and over again, with tears flowing freely:
"Now I have nothing. Haha, Youjia, you are happier than me. Although life is short, I have enjoyed his true love. But as for me, I have nothing. I don't have him now, and I don't even have a home. , I dare not go home, the police are arresting me everywhere. I thought I would still have him without you, but even if you are gone, even if I become more and more like you, he still doesn't love me... ...No, not only will he not love me, he will also hate me!"
You Sisi suddenly stood up and said "goodbye" to You Jia drunkenly. She took two steps forward, then paused and walked back again: "By the way, I forgot to tell you, Zhan Aoze You and Yun Duo have a child. Youjia, after hearing the news, will you cry or laugh? I can even imagine their happy life, with lovers and children, what a beautiful thing. I think you will laugh. Right, you are so kind and always hope that he can find someone to love and have a happy life."
She suddenly laughed softly a few times, but her tears rolled down even harder. One after another, they fell to the ground, feeling lonely and painful.
happiness?
These two words that are so desirable are so far out of reach for her.
You Sisi kicked the empty wine bottle that was thrown on the ground, turned around and left, and never looked back. In fact, she didn't dare to look back. The addiction left by the drug was flowing in her blood. She was just holding back, She didn't want Yu Jia to see her taking drugs.
There were some drugs in her bag that she bought at a risk last night. As soon as she left the cemetery, she couldn't wait to find a corner to sit down and smoked like crazy.