Chi Xiaowan suddenly felt that Sima was very pitiful. He must have been trying to avoid these last words, trying hard to forget Yi'er's request before his death, asking them to forget each other and never remember that they would never meet again and there would be no entanglement!
"Sima——" Chi Xiaowan said softly with some embarrassment, "I'm sorry."
Sima held the empty wine glass with an expressionless face, as if Chi Xiaowan was not in front of him at all, and he was completely lost in memories.
Chi Xiaowan stayed there awkwardly, neither leaving nor staying.
"Even so, I still have the right to wait for you, right?" Sima's voice suddenly sounded again, full of tenderness and sadness, "You can forget, as long as you are happy, I can remember, as long as I think it is worth it, that's fine."
, no matter what, it’s fine. If you insist on refusing to come back and refuse to forgive, I won’t blame you. But to me, you will always be the only one, the irreplaceable one, the only reason for my existence. At least we have memories.
,Yes or no?"
Chi Xiaowan lowered her head and recalled that now, for Sima, there were only memories, and they were incomplete memories. It took a thousand years to slowly remember the past. This was his only happiness. She shed tears.
Cong Yier, can you really forget? Can you forget such a man who treats you sincerely?
If you can, please remember, please meet again, please entangle again, okay? In the face of love, everything is worth it!
Apart from crying, Chi Xiaowan couldn't find anything else to do. And she didn't dare to cry. She could hear Sima's heartbroken voice. She felt a little regretful. Shouldn't she reveal this old story? Yes.
Shouldn't he pretend not to know, so that Sima can get a little warmth from the deception, and believe that Yi'er is always there, but he just can't come? Instead of forgetting?
"No need to say sorry, no need to feel sorry." Sima turned around and looked at Chi Xiaowan quietly, this woman who had always cared about him, a kind of care that he never looked back on, that he could not ignore completely, there was always a vague feeling in his heart
Touched. "This is an old thing that I have never wanted to think about. When I think of it, I think of Yi'er's helplessness. She said this at the time. It was the Daxing Dynasty that broke her heart. It was my calmness that hurt her. It has always been
, At that time, I was dedicated to the great prosperity of the dynasty, and I only gave her the extra time, and used all my efforts to fulfill our love for each other. She thought this way, and it was the most normal thing for her to want to give up."
Chi Xiaowan couldn't speak and could only look at Sima with tearful eyes and listen to what he said.
"At that time, I was under the control of drugs, and Yi'er, in order to stay by my side for one more minute, would rather endure every move I made." Sima sighed and poured himself another glass of wine.
The light looked unusually deserted, "If she insists on forgetting this relationship, I have no right to ask her to remember it again. If she lives a happy and peaceful life after forgetting, my thoughts are my own private matter. To me, it is a kind of
Painful joy is also a kind of happiness."
Chi Xiaowan lowered her head and said softly: "Sima, I'm sorry that my appearance has disturbed your peaceful life. Now that I'm withdrawing, your heart is only reserved for Yi'er. I can't disturb this with my love."
Jing Jing, if Yi'er doesn't want to come back, we really can't ask her to come back, but if she knows that your heart is only reserved for her, she will definitely be willing to face the past again and come back to you.
, if she is a woman worthy of you, she will definitely not forget you just to live a peaceful life, so I will leave and just watch from a distance, in all your lonely time, I just
An unintentional intruder."
Sima was slightly startled and paused.
"You have never really liked me. It's just that I remind you of Yi'er. Your approach is just for this simple reason." Chi Xiaowan tried her best to stay calm and leave her favorite man to fulfill his wish.
Falling in love with another woman is easy to say but helpless to do. "I don't want to let myself become an obstacle for you and Yi'er to reunite, and I don't want to be the reason for Yi'er to give up on you. I can get close to Yi'er,
I can feel her helplessness and confusion. She must not have forgotten you. Although she said she will forget you, if she can forget, I will not be troubled by her contradictions. Sima, I must let Yi'er
return."
Sima looked at Chi Xiaowan. She indeed looked like Yi'er in some places, her expression and demeanor, and even her calmness in her smile. Yi'er, is she there? Is she always there, but he can't see it, can't
Perception?
Chi Xiaoman opened her eyes. There was warm light in the room, shining on her face. There was a gentle smiling face, looking at her quietly, with eyes full of care and love.
"Xiaowan, are you here?" Chi Xiaoman sighed, why didn't she leave this world?
"Yes, I'm here." Chi Xiaowan said softly, "You slept for two days and two nights, and just woke up. Sima said that there is nothing serious about you, you just need a good rest."
"Why do you want to save me?" Chi Xiaoman said tiredly.
"It's not worth giving up your life for a man like Du Hui." Chi Xiaowan said softly, "If he was worthy of you, I would not save you, nor would I let Sima save you. He saved you, if not
He, even if I find you, I still can't save you."
Chi Xiaoman closed his eyes and sighed, "Whether it's worth it or not, for me, no matter how unbearable the world looks at him, they can't make me look down on him. Sometimes, women are like this. Xiaowan, I love him, he
He was the first man who made my heart beat. From then on, there was no word love in the world."
Chi Xiaowan sighed slightly in her heart, her voice still gentle and soft, "Okay, we don't say whether Du Hui is a good man, we only say, you gave up everything for him, in exchange for what, his pity? Or the tears of your family?
All of this will disappear in the face of time. What have you gained from this past life, love? Family affection? Sister, live for a few more years until you can give up your life calmly, okay?"
Chi Xiaoman remained silent, closed her eyes, and shed tears.
Chi Xiaowan stopped talking, covered her with a quilt, and just watched her quietly.
"Is Xiaohui feeling better?" It took a long time before Chi Xiaoman's weak voice was heard.
"She's pregnant." Chi Xiaowan's soft voice said, "Yesterday she suddenly fainted and was sent to the hospital. The doctor said she was pregnant. She lives in the same hospital as you. Her parents were taking care of her and they didn't dare to tell her mother.
As for you, I just said that you were in a bad mood and went out to relax."
"Pregnant?" Chi Xiaoman opened his eyes and stared at Chi Xiaowan, "Is it Mou Jialin's child?"
Chi Xiaowan nodded slightly, "Mom calculated the time and it should be true. The second sister does not want this child, but the doctor told us that if we abort the child, it will kill the second sister. This is fate."
, she can’t give up this life she doesn’t want.”
Chi Xiaoman smiled bitterly, "What happened to us? What wrong did our Chi family do to make us do this?!"
Just as Chi Xiaowan was about to speak, the door outside was pushed open gently. Chi Sen walked in, closed the door, looked at her daughter lying on the bed, and asked softly: "Xiaoman, are you feeling better?"
Chi Xiaowan stood up and quietly walked out. His father was much older. When he returned home yesterday, his mother was sitting on the sofa, completely stunned. His father stayed by his mother's side, hugging her shoulders and comforting her softly,
Love, with them, has become a kind of family relationship that depends on each other. Maybe his father's heart is only weak for Yun'er, but his life was given to his mother, who has accompanied her until now. Are love and family relationships dependent on each other?
sister?
It was still raining outside, very quietly, and the temperature was much lower. She tightened her clothes and hugged her shoulders, hoping to get some warmth. Without an umbrella, she walked slowly along the curved corridor.
.
She wants to leave Sima, she wants to bring back Yi'er, she doesn't want Sima to have the slightest apology for her, she wants Sima to accept her efforts calmly, and feel at ease. Therefore, she cannot love Sima, she wants Sima to believe that,
She can finally let go, and she can accept other men calmly. In this way, her leaving will not make him feel guilty and make him feel the slightest sadness in his heart because of her. He wants her to be happy, happy and carefree.
happiness.
She believed that with her life, she could get Yi'er back.
After calling Sang Yue, she must find out how to proceed to the next step through this woman. She believed that Cong Yi'er must exist somewhere. Cong Yi'er died under the Qingfeng sword. Can Cong Yi'er be retrieved through that sword?
?
In Sang Yue's small shop, Chi Xiaowan sat in a secluded corner, hiding behind the dim light, completely hiding her body from the sight of others. There were not many customers in the shop, only two or three.
, chatting in low voices without disturbing anyone.
"Have you decided?" Sang Yue was surprised by Chi Xiaowan's decision, "You are very stupid to do this."
"Only in this way can everything return to normal and the chaotic things return to the normal track." Chi Xiaowan said calmly, "I am not a noble person who completely forgets myself. I just want the man I love.
He can be happy, as long as he can be happy, that’s fine. And after I exchange my life for Cong Yier, all my memories will disappear and I will no longer exist. So, what will happen after I leave, for me?
, meaningless. So, if Sima believes that I no longer love him and have begun to accept other men, he will no longer have the slightest guilt in his heart. It seems unfair to myself, but I love him
, as long as he is happy, it’s not fair or unfair.”
Sang Yue sighed, "But one thing, I have to tell you, not just anyone can pull out the Qingfeng Sword or Liuyun Sword. Even Sima, he can't even think of pulling out the Qingfeng Sword now, let alone
Forget about the Liuyun Sword. The spirituality of these two swords may not even be matched by ordinary people."
Chi Xiaowan looked at Sang Yue and hesitated, "I don't understand."
"These two swords are the most spiritual weapons in the world. From the moment they existed in the world, everything was doomed. These two swords are like a pair of lovers who stay with each other. There is no room for any inconsistency.
Injury and deception, even though Sima accidentally injured Cong Yi'er, the successor of Liuyun Sword, with the Qingfeng Sword because he was poisoned, it means that Qingfeng Sword betrayed Liuyun Sword, and now only the successor of Liuyun Sword can draw it.
Drawing any one of these two swords, that is to say, only in this way can it be proved that Liuyunjian forgave Qingfengjian. At present, Cong Yier is the last successor of Liuyunjian, and no one can do it except her.
Sima can't do it, we can't, and you can't do it either, unless Cong Yi'er himself." Sang Yue sighed and said slowly, "And the most evil thing is that even if we can understand the three lives and three lives,
, but there is no way to know the secrets of these two swords. They have nothing to do with Sansheng Sanshi, they exist independently."
"Three lives and three lives?" Chi Xiaowan looked at Sang Yue with confusion on her face.
"Cong Yi'er's body is the reincarnation of the soul. You may not understand this. In other words, Cong Yi'er is the stopping point of the soul's third reincarnation." Sang Yue tried hard to explain, "The soul does not have its own body.
, she is wandering, she is different from Sima, she has her own body from life to life, so she is always looking for him and he is waiting."
"Maybe she died under the Qingfeng Sword, and when she came back, she would have her own body, and she would keep this fate for the rest of her life." Chi Xiaowan said thoughtfully, "I just exchanged my life for her to come back, but I didn't say anything
I want to lend her my body."
Sang Yue smiled and said, "There's nothing wrong with borrowing your body. It can bring Cong Yi'er back and let your body come into contact with Sima. It's the best of both worlds."
Chi Xiaowan smiled bitterly and said: "Are you still in the mood to joke at this time? I'm serious, you have to help me, and remember not to tell the little boss about this, otherwise he will definitely object. If
I can let Cong Yi'er come back, and you two won't have to accompany Sima for the rest of your life."