"Where are the green thorns, where are the green thorns?! Grandma's cannabis flowers, are you all mute?! Answer me!!" I seemed to be going crazy, grabbing a few of them by their collars and yelling.
This was the first time they saw me so angry and gaffey, but they didn't dodge in any way. Because they understood how painful my heart was. Including, their eyes were full of tears at this time, and they all
In heartache.
I finally collapsed on the ground helplessly, and for the first time I was helpless and confused: "How can my King Xuanwu disappear? How can he be gone?"
I grabbed my hair in pain and murmured: "It's all my fault, it's all my fault. If I hadn't been so willful, if it hadn't been for me... how could he... how could he... it's all my fault
, why did you save me?! Why?!" I blamed myself painfully.
I didn't expect that he would make such a big sacrifice for me!
When I wake up, he disappears from this world.
It's the disappearance of the thorns.
I still remember what he said to me at the end: "Master, sometimes I think that if I had never met you and saved you, then you would not have chosen to enter the palace in order to fulfill me, then you would have
I won’t suffer so much anymore. I won’t be so painful that I force myself to forget everything. Master, I’m sorry for you, everything is my fault. You have done too much for us and sacrificed too much. You have done so much for us.
To protect Junjin, to protect Jinguo, to protect everyone who is warmed by you, you have given up everything. Young Master, I will not let you die. It is time for Qingsheng to repay you." At the end of the sentence, I said
In my sleep I heard soft and suppressed sobs.
I covered my cheek with ten fingers in pain, and tears flowed down my fingers in the astonished eyes of everyone.
Qingtao, Qingtao, why are you so stupid? I'm not worthy. I'm not worthy.
I suddenly remembered a familiar conversation, as if it happened yesterday.
"Chen Ningyuan, I want antidotes to many, many poisons, especially those that women in the palace are good at administering." My tone was rogue.
"What are you doing?" he asked doubtfully.
He yelled impatiently: "What to do?! Of course it's to survive." It was as if he had heard a big joke.
"Have you been poisoned?" He said in a worried and nervous tone.
He pursed his lips and rolled his eyes: "That's a common occurrence, okay? I use my energy to induce toxins, but the residual toxins staying in the body for a long time are not good for my body. Your medicine must be very effective.
Otherwise, I will die before I can be saved."
"Don't talk nonsense. I will ration it for you as soon as possible. Don't worry, I won't let anything happen to you." It's a promise.
"I know. Alas...this cold palace is not clean at all." He held his chin and sighed in boredom.
"Who makes you so special?" Chen Ningyuan muttered slightly to himself, secretly saying in his heart.
"What?"
"……fine."
This was the last time she called him Chen Ningyuan.
In the palace, the woman... looks so familiar and strange.
With a sad expression and numb demeanor, the girl said in a cold tone: "I'm leaving."
Qingqi's face was full of heartache, and he said guiltily: "Young Master should have left long ago."
The girl sneered and suddenly said: "Before leaving, I want you to develop a medicine."
"What medicine?" in a surprised tone.
"After taking it, the person will be silent for seven days, as if dead, with no breath or heartbeat. No one will doubt it. After seven days, he will wake up."
"Young Master - Could it be...?" Qingqi looked strange, frowning and guessing.
"Yes. You are right. What I want is to fake my death and leave the palace." The girl's eyes were a little hopeless.
"But what about the young master's body?"
"I have a way to get my body out of the palace intact. Then all you have to do is look for me downstream of the river outside the city." The girl's tone was calm, as if she was talking about something that had nothing to do with her.
"Master, that's too risky."
"Don't worry. Xiao Qi and Ge Kong know what to do. You just need to prepare the medicine I want." The girl ordered calmly.
"Young Master—" Qingqi looked at this young master with a face full of pain.
The girl said casually: "I have planned everything. My death can exchange for the safety of the Xie family, and it can also allow me to leave here, and I can go to a wider sky. Qingqi, you don't need to feel sorry for me, you should be happy for me
."
Qingqi choked and said: "Qingqi is happy for the young master, but the young master does not have to be so aggrieved. If the young master wants to, he can make them all disappear without a trace without the young master taking action."
The girl turned her head and said calmly: "Do you think I don't know the tricks of those people? I just don't want to care about them. As the emperor's women, they are already pitiful and pathetic. Why should I care about them? Moreover, those are all
It was caused by that person, and I just wanted to do my best to atone for his sins. So, I don’t want to care about it.”
"Master——" Qingqi said worriedly.
"You all leave early. I have made arrangements for you. You all leave the palace. Just let me face it alone. I want to end things with him. I also want to leave here quietly. You don't have to worry." The girl.
commanded.
Qingqi was helpless, but still said respectfully: "I understand, young master."
Some messy memories flashed through my mind. I couldn't see the faces of the people inside clearly, and I didn't know who they were. I only heard their voices echoing in my mind, and I had a headache that was killing me.
I sat paralyzed on the ground for a long time, speechless.
He just twitched all over in pain and choked. He didn't want to make a sound, so he could bear the pain in his chest.
Suddenly, Lian stood up and said respectfully to me: "Young Master, when Qingqi leaves, let us tell you that he has no regrets."
Xiaoqi's face was full of pain. He was the person who had been with Qingqi for the longest time.
"Before the young master woke up, Qingqi had already gone to Kunlun Mountain with the Nandu Divine Monk to be ordained as a monk. He became the Divine Monk's only disciple." Xiao Qi said with difficulty.
Without saying a word, he carved a deep scar on my heart like a knife. Each cut was more piercing than the last. It was bottomless, could not be healed, and the blood would not stop.
The scar on my left chest and heart, where the holy rod had been pierced, was always burning, causing me to almost bend my body in pain.
It wasn't until I woke up that I realized that after I was stabbed by the holy staff, my bleeding continued. There was no way to heal me. Everyone was helpless, but I kept bleeding and fell into an endless coma. In the end, I entered a state of death.
, leaving only a trace of breath so that I still didn't die completely, and it was only when I held the Tianshan Snow Lotus in my mouth that I left a trace of breath, but I could still die at any time.
Then one day, Qingqi suddenly disappeared for three days, and came back three days later, bringing with him a monk in shabby clothes and an ugly appearance. That monk was the wandering Nandu monk. Qingqi had been a doctor since he was a child, and he was a rare genius.
A few years ago, he was valued by the divine monk and asked to accept him as his disciple and also to become a monk. Qingqi refused. However, in order to save me this time, he agreed to the divine monk. As long as he is sure that I am fine, he will do it.
His disciple became a monk and stayed with him all his life.
In order to save me, he was so stupid!
He actually became a monk and stayed as a monk for the whole life. His six roots were pure and his heart was clear. He forgot about the past and present life and followed the Buddha. How could he live a life with a pure heart and few desires, guarding the Buddha with a dead lamp?
Can every kind of trauma really become a passing cloud and disappear into ashes?
Who said that today's persistence will cause tomorrow's pain.
Qingqi, I'm sorry. It was my persistence that hurt you. I'm sorry. I groaned in pain.