Not long ago, I met a person who gave me a jar of wine. After drinking it, it can make you forget everything you have done in the past. I was very surprised why there is such a wine. The biggest trouble people have is that they have a bad memory.
Okay, if everything can be forgotten and every day will be a new beginning, then how happy would you say it is?
I don’t know why, but after I left that room that day, I remembered the dialogue in Wong Kar-Wai’s “Ashes of Time.”
I think of that altar where I was drunk and dreaming of death.
I asked Xiao Quanzi to get me a few bottles of wine, which was my favorite Baihuaqingmei wine before I entered the palace. It’s strange that the Baihuaqingmei wine that Brother Sima always brought to Yichun Garden for me was the wine from the palace.
.And it’s one that few people know about. It’s a rare species. If Xiao Quanzi hadn’t paid special attention to it, he probably wouldn’t have been able to find it. As I drank, I remembered the words of the unknown swordsman in the movie: Do you know the difference between drinking alcohol and drinking water?
?Wine, the more you drink, the warmer it becomes. Water, the more you drink, the colder it becomes. I don’t know why I do this. But I can’t control myself.
Does the more I drink, the warmer I get? Why do I feel increasingly exhausted physically and mentally?
Will one day I will say calmly: In fact, "living in drunkenness and dreaming of death" is just a joke played by fate on me. The more you wonder if you have forgotten, the clearer you will remember it. Just like me now
, I have gradually begun to forget that I do not belong here, that I am not from this world, that I cannot, cannot fall in love with anyone here. But in fact, I fell in love, fell in love inexplicably, without even noticing it myself,
Until now, through that hallucination that belongs to drunkenness and dreaming, I have admitted my cowardice and escape. I dare not admit it. Until now, I still fantasize that one day I can go back again, return to the world I know, return to my family,
There is also the person I have loved for 9 years.
I got so drunk that my vision gradually became blurry and my head felt dizzy. Looking at Yun Ying's worried face, I——
Obviously my body has softened, but why did my mind gradually start to clear up in my dreams again when I closed my eyes? It's really strange and extreme, but I know that I am recalling the time when I left that strange house again.
I remember I asked abruptly: I wonder if Young Master Li knows Mu Wanyan, a talented girl?
His face turned pale and his body suddenly shook. I couldn't help but feel a little unbearable.
After a long time, he smiled miserably and said: "The girl must know Miss Mu, so she must know about Li's youthful and frivolous moment, and use this to ridicule Li for not overestimating his own abilities?"
After hearing what he said, I immediately regretted not exposing others' scars out of anger. Then, I couldn't help but feel ashamed and said, "I'm sorry."
He shook his head indifferently, and when he looked at him again, he saw that he had calmed down, and the panic and flash of pain just now were completely gone. However, his face was still pale.
He sighed and laughed at himself, "Girl, you don't have to be like this. It was indeed Li who didn't know his own abilities back then, and that's why he was defeated by Miss Mu. I have to bear the consequences of my own suffering."
I have been looking at him for a moment since just now, and naturally I will not miss the hope, pain, and confusion that flashed through his eyes when he talked about late smoke. Could it be that he couldn't provoke me back then, but he fell in love with me from then on?
A talented woman with both talent and beauty?
The more I thought about it, the more likely it seemed that since he had no resentment in his heart, but he was willing to live in seclusion and hide here, he must have had thoughts in his heart that he shouldn't have, but because he was defeated at the hands of the woman he loved, he didn't have the courage to speak out, so he had to escape.
I carefully probed: "Why don't Mr. Li go far away like Miss Mu and travel to study? It would be such a waste to live alone here for the rest of his life. The young man's great youth has been almost used up. If it goes on like this, it will be really wasted."
This life."
He stared blankly ahead and said softly: "At the beginning, I didn't have the courage and my mind to be open-minded. But when everything became clear and enlightened, I couldn't help myself."
"Miss Mu is indeed special. She is a generation of magnificence, talented and beautiful." I stood side by side with him and sighed.
He gave me a strange look. Why, because of my appearance, he still didn't believe what I said.
"A few years ago, I heard that there was a young man named An Jin who made her willingly give up." He suddenly turned around and looked at me abruptly, "Have you heard of it?"
I was startled by him. After a long time, I laughed and said: "That is a false rumor. How can that person named An Jin be so powerful? It's a talented girl who is too humble. In short, don't believe it." I laughed.
Oh... If I had known that my appropriation of the poems of ancient poets would lead to such results, I wouldn't have followed Brother Sima to break through the border. However, if I didn't go, I wouldn't be able to meet Sister Dangua.
"Do you know him? Are you sure Feiming will humbly let him go?"
"That's not the point of what we're talking about today," I interrupted his speculation, "Are you sure you don't want to go find her?"
"She?! Who are you talking about?!" He looked at me doubtfully.
I looked at him, straight into his eyes, to see if he was pretending, but I guessed wrong. He was a fool, and there was no ambiguous emotion in his eyes. I guess in this era, pedantic scholars,
Often I can’t even distinguish my own feelings. I was never taught this in books. If I asked him, I guess he would tell me this innocently.
It turned out that he himself was not aware of this feeling yet.
I looked at him with some sympathy, patted him on the shoulder without forgetting before leaving, and said: "In short, failure is the mother of success. Be strong, don't be completely defeated just because of one failure. Remember this sentence: From now on
If you fall, get up from where you are." After saying that, she smiled brightly at him and walked away without looking back.
My hint was stronger, I just didn’t say directly, you fell down at Mu Wanyan’s place, you go find her, regain your lost self-esteem, and get up on her. Haha. I just hope he can think of it one day
OK, that way, there will be another golden boy and girl in this world, and they will have a good match for a lifetime.
A dark figure was hiding in the corner, quietly looking at the drunk guy not far away who was acting crazy. He was holding a broom in the yard and twisting her waist in an inappropriate way, mouthing something.
She knew what she was singing, but the song didn't sound like a song and her words didn't sound like words. I really don't know what was in this little girl's mind. She was screaming and dancing at the same time. The most intolerable thing is that she took off her clothes while dancing.
The last piece of white obscene clothing. What's even more outrageous is that she was obviously so drunk that she couldn't stand still, but she was still jumping around and twisting around. I was really worried that she would take off the last piece of thin clothing.
This ghost girl is always so weird. Thinking of the past, she couldn't help but smile.
The body was swaying left and right, and the world was spinning for a while. The man who had been screaming ghostly with the broom staggered, and was about to be smashed into meat patties by claws and claws all over the ground.
Yun Ying, who was standing not far away, saw that the lady was about to fall suddenly, but was unable to catch her for a moment. Just when he screamed "Miss" in annoyance and surprise, a white figure suddenly flashed over from the shadow in the distance.
, just in time to catch the young lady who was about to have close contact with the earth.
"Master Sang." Yun Ying saw the figure clearly. It turned out to be Master Sang Qin, who had disappeared for a long time. It was a close call. Yun Ying patted his chest to calm down.
"Why are you so careless?" Sang Qin hugged the falling person and frowned distressedly, but the person in his arms was not conscious at all. There was no surprise after the thrill. He was still drunk and peaceful, and finally ended up in his arms.
He fell into a deep sleep, not forgetting to make a few unconscious noises.
Seeing the face that was completely similar to hers sleeping peacefully in his arms, Sang Qin couldn't help but press a kiss on her forehead and murmured to himself: "Of course, of course...I finally found you."