Chapter 131: The Root of Lei Shaoyang’s Nightmare 2
"What?" Lei Shaoyang never thought that things would turn out like this.
After listening to Ding Xilan's narration of the entire incident, Lei Shaoyang was speechless. After a long while, he said: "Now, is Sanniang feeling very uncomfortable?"
"Sanniang is very calm, and my mother is with her, so nothing will happen to her." Ding Xilan looked at his concerned expression and said, "Don't you bear any grudge against Sanniang?"
Lei Shaoyang didn't speak, just stared at Ding Xilan coldly. Ding Xilan blushed at his look and was about to speak, but he smiled, picked up the wine jar, drank a few more sips, and then said: "In your mind
I, Lei Shaoyang, turned out to be that kind of person."
"Don't get me wrong, what I mean is..." Ding Xilan was afraid that he was in a bad mood again, so she wanted to explain, but she heard him say: "You don't need to say it, I know. In the eyes of the world, I, Lei Shaoyang, am a spendthrift.
A dandy who only cares about eating, drinking and having fun, he has a glamorous appearance but no real talent in his chest. He only has an embroidered pillow and a straw bag. No wonder you think so."
After he finished speaking, he stared at her pretty face again and said: "However, I can still tell which one treats me sincerely and which one is fake. Yes, Sanniang was sorry for my mother back then, but she also cared for me.
I treat Sanniang as my own son. Tell me, which position should I take? Who is greater, biological mother or adoptive mother? Who can tell the difference? I have no reason to blame Sanniang. What’s more, my mother has already forgiven me.
She is dead, why should I hold grudges?"
Hearing what Lei Shaoyang said, Ding Xilan's eyes shone with surprise. Could it be that she had really misjudged Lei Shaoyang? "You are right. If you think so, I feel more relieved.
"
"What? Do you think I can't think about it?" Lei Shaoyang questioned her motive for coming.
"No, no." Ding Xilan was afraid that he would know, "Everyone was worried when they saw you rushing out, so I came out to look for you."
"Are you also worried about me?" Lei Shaoyang went straight to the point. Ding Xilan Leng might as well ask this question, rolled his eyes and said with a smile: "Nonsense, who told you that you are my friend? Of course I will be worried."
Hearing this, Lei Shaoyang was silent for a while, took a few more sips of wine, and then said: "I'm glad that you are willing to treat me as your friend." Avoiding the topic, he added, "Why didn't you ask me that day?
Why don’t I go to the Buddhist temple with you?”
"I don't think it's necessary anymore," Ding Xilan said, "Now that the truth of what happened back then has been revealed, the reason is also obvious." She always thought that Lei Shaoyang refused to see her because of his misunderstanding of his mother.
Lei Shaoyang's facial muscles twitched slightly, he put down the wine jar and leaned against the wall behind him, "You are wrong. I don't go to see my mother, not because I have a misunderstanding about her, but because I am afraid."
?Ding Xilan never thought that there would be people in the world who were afraid of seeing their own mother.
"It's funny, isn't it?" Lei Shaoyang said to himself, "After that incident happened ten years ago, I started to have nightmares at night, and I always heard the cries of children. I heard the servants in the house
She said that if mother killed Sanniang’s child, the child would definitely come back to take revenge. At that time, I was very scared. I was afraid that my brother would come to me. At night, I always covered my head with a quilt to sleep. During the day, I tried my best to sleep.
Go to crowded places, play with other children more often, and never be alone. Only when I am happy can I forget those things."
"During the day, I can go there happily, and everyone can see me laughing happily, but at night, who knows, I am hiding in bed alone, shivering..."
Listening to Lei Shaoyang confiding his thoughts, Ding Xilan looked at Lei Shaoyang's expression carefully and saw that he was calm and steady, without his usual impetuousness. Could it be that he was just pretending, and everything was just an illusion?
?
"Finally one time, after I had a nightmare, I was so scared that I cried. That night, there was lightning and thunder, and it was a very scary night. I retreated to a corner of the bed and covered myself tightly with the quilt, but my body was
I kept shaking. At this time, someone came over to pull my quilt, and I was even more scared. How could I dare to let go? Later, the person spoke and it turned out to be Sanniang. After she heard my cry, she came over to see me. Then
At that time, I lived in Nanyuan. The house was very close to my parents. However, my father did not hear my cry. Only Sanniang knew my fear. She patiently comforted me and stayed with me...
…”
Lei Shaoyang just narrated the past events so calmly, with an expression as if he was talking about other people's affairs. "Later, when I got older, I also learned some truths, and I no longer believed so strongly in things about ghosts and gods. Maybe it was in my childhood.
The imprint is too deep, and I will have nightmares at night when I think of those things. So, I try to forget that thing and everything related to it. However, the habits developed because of that are no longer something I can change.
."
After listening to these words, Ding Xilan finally had a deeper understanding of Lei Shaoyang. She could even imagine how frightened he was as an eight-year-old child when he had nightmares at night!
"Now that you understand the truth of the matter and the knot in your heart has been resolved, you shouldn't have nightmares anymore, right?"
"I don't know." Lei Shaoyang said with a smile, "But it probably won't happen. Even if he has nightmares, it will be fine for such an old man." Looking at the sky, Lei Shaoyang has probably arrived.
It's late at night. "It's already very late. You should go to bed. You don't have to stay with me here. You have been traveling for the past few days and you haven't had a good rest. Don't exhaust yourself."
Although this was not the first time she heard Lei Shaoyang's caring words, Ding Xilan had a strange feeling this time. However, he was right, she should have a good rest. She is indeed no longer the same person as before.
"Okay then, I'll go back first and stop drinking. Drinking too much is still not good."
Lei Shaoyang nodded, stood up and helped her up, "I'll take you back to Xiyuan."
Ding Xilan saw the determination in his eyes and did not refuse.