She stared at the child, Yi Xiangxi stared at her.
"wheat……"
She looked at him indifferently, and he suddenly reached out and grabbed her hand holding the cup: "Mai Ma, I really want to talk to you. It's not about Xiaobai, but I have something to say to you..."
"..."
What else could he say to her alone?
She moved her hand away, but he continued to talk: "Xiaodong and I were often bullied when we were young. Because we had no parents to stand up for us, we were bullied miserably. I remember one year, a group of children from the military compound came to beat us every day.
Xiaodong asked him to imitate the barking of a dog and called him a son of a bitch... At that time, Xiaodong was very young and ignorant, so he really lay there and imitated the barking of a dog. When I came back and saw it, I beat the leader.
Fist. This stirred up a hornet's nest. The next day, that child brought more than a dozen children with him, beating Xiaodong and I to a bloody head... It was a big winter, and our brothers were so cold that their blood froze.
Scar, but Xiaodong was so frightened that he had a fever and almost died. I hated it so much that I secretly took a steel drill and hid it in the place where the leader of the child must pass. It happened to snow heavily that day, and there was another man next to the boy.
In a large group of people, I always couldn't find an opportunity to strike. My hands and feet were almost stiff from the cold, and I hid for more than four hours until he was alone. I seized the opportunity without hesitation at all, and with a steel drill
I swept him over and almost broke his leg bones... I knew I was in big trouble, so I rushed home and ran away with Xiaodong overnight..."
That was the first time he told outsiders about his past.
"All we had was a few pieces of clothing and five yuan. We didn't know where to go, so we hid in the waiting room of the train station, shivering... That night, I will never forget it..."
Qiao Xiaomai looked at him blankly.
He was completely immersed in the past, his voice was very helpless, like a weak child. All the malice and calculations were gone.
"Because we had no parents, our relatives didn't take much care of us at that time. The hardships Xiaodong and I endured were unimaginable. We were in arrears with tuition fees, looked down upon by teachers, didn't have enough to eat, and the house leaked. Xiaodong was often beaten in the middle of the night.
Waking up from a nightmare... Xiaodong can cry, but I dare not... I don't even dare to cry, because if I cry, he will be frightened even more..."
He would never tell anyone these words in his life, but he told her that he had a trace of luck and extravagant hope in his heart... Why did he hate her father so much in the first place? Why did he take such cruel revenge?
means?
He didn't dare expect her to understand, but he hoped she would understand - understand his situation at that time.
With extremely humble feelings.
"After that fight, I became very ruthless. No matter who provoked me or Xiaodong, I would fight with all my strength. As the saying goes, those who dare to be aggressive will risk their lives. Those kid kings in the past did not dare to risk their lives with me.
I just hid. After beating me for a long time, children near and far were very afraid of me. No one liked me, and no one dared to approach me. Their parents warned them that I was a second-rate person and asked them to stay away from me...until they went to college.
Now, I don’t want to fight with anyone. It turns out that there are some things in this world that cannot be solved by force alone. There are some methods that are far more effective than force..."