"First of all, I apologize for rashly agreeing to give it a try with you." Dongfang said softly, with a sincere attitude, "I once told you that I deeply love a woman. She and I were childhood sweethearts, and we have a very deep relationship.
Being together was the happiest and happiest time in my life. Unfortunately, when she died, my heart also died. In order to take revenge, I changed the whole Huoyun."
"I just want to follow her ideas and turn the fire cloud into her fire cloud, and my career into his career. These years, I have been very lonely, living by memories every day. I didn't see it with my own eyes back then.
I am not willing to die with her body. I always live with the thought that one day she will come back and come back to me."
"For ten years, I have been counting the days every day and living very lonely. Then, you appeared. You had a temperament very similar to hers. I felt very comfortable. You were a life-saving grace to me. And
You like me and want to give me a try."
"At that time, I rejected you and told you what I thought. I might not be able to fall in love with another person. Later, maybe because I was afraid of being alone, I actually agreed to you when you asked for the second time."
"I thought I would fall in love with you, I really thought so."[
"I thought that the heart that died for Xueer might still have the ability to love others again, but I found that I was wrong."
"Cheng Mi, you are very good and a very good girl. However, I already have my heart set on my own and I can't continue to try with you. Please forgive me."
What he said was neither humble nor arrogant, and his attitude was very sincere. He made a mistake in this matter. He did not consider it carefully and emotionally. How could he give it a try? He held this idea in itself, which was a mistake.
Cheng Mi chased him closely. He refused, but they met again by accident several times, and they became more involved. People around him always said that Xueer has been dead for so many years, so you should have something.
own a new life.
He was afraid of always being alone, waking up in the middle of the night, and experiencing nothingness, but finally agreed to Cheng Mi that they could give it a try.
The feeling of first love has never been found. He has more kindness than friendship towards Cheng Mi and cannot talk about love. He just feels that if there is no Xueer, anyone can do it, so she is a good candidate for his wife.
"Why..." Cheng Mi's eyes turned red, "Why so suddenly? Did I do something wrong? Is it because I delayed your work this time, so you..."
"You didn't do anything wrong, I did something wrong. From the beginning, I did something wrong." Dongfang knew that it would break her heart. However, if he had to choose between Xueer, he would definitely choose someone else.
This time he thought Cheng Mi had been in a serious car accident. When he was talking to Xiaoxue at night, he thought that he would make it clear to Cheng Mi and then bring Xiaoxue back to him. If Cheng Mi died, this matter would never happen again.
No solution.
Xueer also had a grudge in his heart, and he couldn't forgive himself.
That's why he came back in such a hurry.
He acted responsibly, even if it was about emotional matters, he had to be clear about it. Although perhaps dying like this would make Cheng Mi feel better than knowing that he didn't love her, but he couldn't be so selfish.
"I have always been kind to you. If you need my help in the future, I will definitely help you to the end. I have failed you in terms of feelings, and I am sorry." Dongfang said sincerely.