"I don't know where you are, or what you are doing, and I don't know if you still remember the black girl you often laughed at as a fool. You disappeared from my world so suddenly, leaving me with nothing
A little preparation. I still clearly remember the day before you disappeared, the two of us were sitting under the big locust tree in front of my house origami cranes. Your hands were always so skillful. At this time, the uncles and aunts in the village would
I smiled and praised you, saying that you, who are gentle and shy, should give birth to a girl. But I, who is careless and naughty, should give birth to a little man! Hehe, it seems that we should really switch sides... it will definitely be great.
Interesting…”
March 25th, cloudy day!
"Today is your birthday. It has been ten years, three months and twenty-five days since you left. Every year at this time, I skip school and go to sit under the big locust tree in front of my house.
Last day. Because you once said that you would personally weave a wreath for me on your birthday! I was waiting, always waiting..."
May 16th, cloudy!
"Every once in a while, I have a dream, a very strange and strange dream. I dream of a familiar stranger trapped in the sand, struggling violently, shouting for help. I want to help, but I can't reach out.
Take action. Only after a long time did I suddenly realize that the stranger who gave me a familiar feeling was actually you. Are you going through any hardships in the distance? Your she, that is, I will always give you
Praying…”
June 6th, thunderstorm!
"I was woken up by a loud thunder. It was raining heavily outside, and the big raindrops knocked on the windows. I huddled up alone in the bed, feeling helpless. I remember when I was a child, whenever there was thunder, I was always laughed at for being timid.
You would always sneak out of the house and run into my room, holding your chin and quietly coaxing me to sleep...I really miss that feeling...Are you okay?"
July 31, light rain!
"Today a boy confessed his love to me and vowed to take care of me for the rest of his life. To be honest, he is very good! Well, but you are still a little better than him. Guess what I said to him in the end?
Hehe. I told him that if he can beat my boyfriend, I will agree to it. Haha, he keeps asking me who my boyfriend is, but I just won’t tell him... because in this way, he will never be able to beat me.
I have a boyfriend... Isn't that a rogue? Haha. I just want to be a rogue. Who made me already have a bastard in my heart? Boyfriend? I still like to call you a coward... a coward. It's time to go home with my sister for dinner...
…”
August 2nd, sunny!
"Today I was criticized by the class teacher. It seemed like the first time I had been criticized since I started school. The reason for being criticized was because I drank. I was very drunk. In the end, I was carried back home by the class teacher personally. Hehe,
Don't be jealous, the class teacher is a woman, and she is a famous female butcher in the school. She is always unkind. However, in my eyes, the class teacher is so cute. She is even closer to me than to my daughter. By the way, she
My daughter is my classmate and my good friend. She has been saying sourly that I am actually her mother’s biological daughter..."
"I don't know why, I really want to drink today. Maybe it's because I think of you, and in addition, I accidentally saw a poignant story about waiting but ending with sadness, which aroused the resentment in my heart... Why on earth did you
You left without saying a word, without even saying hello? Where are you now? Do you still remember our original vow? I have been waiting for you, have you also been waiting for me? "
"I have been stuck in your memory before you were three years old. Now more than ten years have passed. Is the memory still clear? Maybe I have been ignored from that vague memory, or erased...
What will be the final result of waiting? Will you still be as worthy of everything I have to sacrifice as before? Are you still my coward?"
"After I sobered up, the head teacher severely criticized me. He said that I was a complete fool, so stupid that it was unreasonable. Hehe, it seems that I have always been stupid...but being stupid for you is worth it.
…”
"Xiao Shi secretly told me afterwards that I cried a lot when I was drunk that day, and even murmured a name. Xiao Shi said that she didn't believe at all that I, who was as strong as a man, could be so weak.
By the way, Xiaoshi is very dissatisfied with you. She said that if she sees you, she will give you a good meal... By the way, Xiaoshi is the daughter of my class teacher, a very cute and lovely girl
girl……"
"Okay, it's time to go to class, so I'll just write this now."
"pray……"
September 1st, sunny!
"Today was originally a good day, because I was going to the famous Huaxia University to report. However, on this great day, I had to say goodbye to my grandparents, uncles and aunts in the village. Because my parents didn't trust me alone.
You must accompany me to go to Kyoto for a while. The most uncomfortable thing about moving my family is to say goodbye. I really don’t know when I will come back... I cried again, looking at those familiar faces, I couldn’t bear to leave them.
…I’m afraid that I’ll never see such good people and relatives again in the weird and bizarre world outside…I’m also afraid that I won’t be able to keep my heart and become who I am no longer…”
October 1st, light rain!
"It's the National Day, and I originally wanted to go back to the village to take a look, but because my family happened to be opening a small shop. I was so busy with everything, so I had no choice but to give up. The small shop opened, and the business was booming. Of course,
, I also have some reasons. Who made me look too prominent? Hehe..."
"I have been in Kyoto for a month, and I am not as shocked as I imagined. Instead, I feel a sense of fear in a cage. For me, everything here is strange. It is like being in another parallel world with light tones and no emotions.
Here, there is an indifference between people from the bottom of their bones, just like there is huge hatred. This is not the world I expected. I still like the life in the village, quiet and warm. In that small world
Here, you can be enveloped in warmth everywhere, I miss you so much... If possible, I would spend my whole life there..."
December 7th, heavy snow!
"It snowed, very suddenly, and there was a long-lost surprise. I unconsciously remembered the two of us wrapped in thick cotton coats and hats playing snowball fights in the wheat field when we were children. It seems that you have been bullied by me... Hehe
...I really want to have another snowball fight with you and see how miserable you are... Sigh..."
At the end of a certain month of a certain year, the weather is unknown!
"I picked a leaf from the locust tree that we planted together and put it in my favorite collection of poems. Every year after that, I would pick a leaf with my own hands and use it as a growth ring of memory. It's been a long time since you left.
It has been eighteen years, it seems very long, but it also seems very short. It feels so contradictory..."
"Eighteen yellow leaves, eighteen years of spring and autumn. Maybe I will no longer wait for you; maybe, I will wait for you for another eighteen years; maybe, we have already met but don't know each other; maybe, we are destined to never be destined in life...
"
——"What I'm waiting for is just a promise!" (To be continued...)
