She didn't leave, even though she didn't know what the point of staying was.
He had already made his decision, and his words were so clear and understandable, but she still didn't want to leave him just like that.
She turned back to the small glass room and mechanically continued what she had not finished before. She put away all the items and pretended to be busy.
It seemed that only in this way did she feel that she still had the value of existence.
Originally, she was very upset that her movements were too slow, but at this moment, she wished she could go slower, even slower!
Because she doesn't know what else to do after she has done this.
The random stickers on the glass wall were removed one by one until only the last one was left, which recorded her arrangements for tomorrow.
She planned to accompany him home after being discharged from the hospital, and then have lunch together. In the afternoon, he would submit a report, and she would go home to pack her things. She planned to move in with him so that she could take care of him more conveniently.
It was rare for her to think of so many things and plan so carefully, but looking at it now, none of them were used.
All the random stickers on the glass wall were removed. The wall was empty, and so was her heart.
Outside the window, it was pitch black, and her only thought was that it would be nice if the sun never rose tomorrow morning.
But, of course, that can only be her whims and wishful thinking.
After a night of confusion, dawn will finally come, and what is supposed to come will still come.
"Ms. Ji, please sign here, and then you can go through the discharge procedures." The nurse handed her a pen.
She took it tremblingly, his name was on the list, and she signed her name in the lower right corner.
After signing, she looked at the piece of paper with nostalgia several times.
Perhaps, this is their last intersection.
From then on, time passed by and everyone went their separate ways.
The corners of my eyes are so sore, but I don't know why. The circles under my eyes have been wet over and over again, but the tears have never fallen.
Maybe it's because she hasn't given up yet? She's still holding on to her last glimmer of hope?
She deceived herself and wanted to linger a little longer, because she knew that as soon as she walked out of this door, it would really be over.
"No, it's not over yet, not yet." She said to herself, almost grabbing the hospitalization card from his hand, and rushed to help him go through the discharge procedures.
They haven't broken up yet, not yet!
Under his helpless gaze, she stumbled out of the ward.
She also deliberately delayed time and took the initiative to stand at the end of the line when she went through the discharge procedures, giving up her seat in front to others.
"Auntie, please do it first, I'm not in a hurry."
Although the strange aunt thanked her, she felt strange and looked at her with suspicion.
She quickly lowered her head, it didn't matter, it didn't matter even if she thought she was crazy, she just didn't want it to end so soon.
After waiting for more than half an hour, she was the only one left in front of the window. The nurse inside couldn't help but urge her, "Can you do it or not?"
"……manage."
We pushed it to the last moment and couldn’t put it off any longer.
Then, she went to take off the hospital clothes and deliberately took off two buttons on the clothes, and got into an argument with the staff.
She knew she was in the wrong, but she was still unreasonable and refused to apologize or pay compensation.
Finally, the staff had to find him.
"I'm sorry for causing you trouble." He apologized and paid the compensation.
She stood aside and let people point at her.
"What kind of qualities are they? Today's young people are really shameless!"
"Who says it's not the case? You don't understand any rules!"
However, there were also well-meaning people who seemed to have noticed the problem between them and kindly advised her, "It's just a disagreement between the young couple. Don't let your emotions get the better of you!"
She was miserable, if only it was as simple as having an awkward moment.
He dealt with the aftermath, completed the last formalities, and it was all over.
Her love is also over.
He went back to the ward to take out his luggage, and she followed him unconsciously like a wandering spirit.
Sometimes people are very strange. They know clearly that there is no way, but they still move forward because they are used to it.
However, she didn't dare to follow him too close, but she also didn't dare to fall too far away. She was afraid that he would wander away and leave her behind.
So, she kept following, following nervously and cautiously, until she left the ward and the hospital.
There was a queue of taxis waiting across the road, and she suddenly felt that those cars were scary, especially the one at the front, because it would take him away and take him away from her.
Sure enough, he walked to the car in front, the driver opened the trunk, and he put his luggage.
She rushed over and opened the door on one side, trying to get in.
"Milan..." He finally spoke to her again, but what he said was not what she wanted to hear.
"Milan, that's enough, don't embarrass yourself anymore, take care of yourself!" He pulled away her hand that was opening the car door and felt the trembling of her fingertips.
His hand paused slightly, and when he lowered his head to see her red and swollen eyes, her pleading look made him feel distressed and helpless, but also made him even more angry.
"Jimilan, you will only make me feel that my choice is right! What I want is not a girlfriend who will always hold me back. She is ignorant, disobedient, loves to get into trouble, stupid and naive, and makes me suffer."
Worry about her all the time and solve her troubles!"
After saying that, he got into the car and drove away.
He left, but she remained where she was.
His last roar left her unable to move for a long time. Her mind, eyes, ears, mouth... were all numb.
She stood there blankly, feeling that the whole world was frozen and solidified.
Until another taxi behind her honked at her, and the driver lowered the window and said displeasedly, "Miss, are you leaving? If not, don't block my way!"
She was stunned, not knowing how to answer.
Go? Not go? Where are you going? If you don’t go, where are you going?
I originally thought that the worst thing in life is losing the person you love, but it turns out that is not the case. In fact, the worst thing is that you lose yourself because you love someone too much.
She is now, not only lost him, but also lost herself.
She was at a loss and didn't know what to do.
She unconsciously took two steps back and failed to notice a motorcycle approaching quickly around the bend.
"squeak--"
"ah……"
She fell to the ground, her stomach suddenly hurt, and moisture quickly gushed out from under her body.