At the entrance of the hospital, people were coming and going, except for a slender figure who stopped for a long, long time.
The man was born plump and handsome, with a tall and straight figure. In the eyes of all women, he was a handsome man who was so handsome that he could be called perfect and charming enough to make people fall in love with him.
However, there is a saying that "you can only watch from a distance but not play with it", and this man falls into this category.
There was an aura about him that kept strangers away from him. Although he did not glare at anyone ferociously, nor did he say evil words to drive anyone away, not only did he not, but he was also very calm, but a little too calm.
He didn't know what he was doing, so he just stood there in a daze. People looked along his line of sight, but they only saw the bustling streets, so many people, and so many cars. They didn't know who he was looking at or who he was looking at.
Know who he is waiting for.
However, his eyes were a little blurry, filled with longing and bewilderment, filled with prayers. The emotion in his eyes was too thick to be resolved, tired and desolate, as if he had gone through a hundred years of loneliness and a thousand years of waiting. People couldn't help but feel...
Heart palpitations.
Faced with the constant attention of passers-by, Bo Anrui was completely unaware.
His whole mind was still immersed in the long-awaited reunion with Jimilan not long ago.
As fate would have it, the place where they meet again is exactly where they parted.
Nine years ago, he walked out of the hospital, got into a taxi across the street, and abandoned her behind him.
And today, nine years later, she walked through the same place and disappeared into the sea of people with a smile under his gaze.
He just wanted to ask her where she lived and if she wanted to ride in his car, but he really didn't have the nerve to ask her.
The mistake he made nine years ago caused her irreparable harm, just like the child they lost.
Several days had passed when he knew everything. That day he went back to the hospital for a review and got medicine, and learned about it from the nurse.
The nurse said that on the day of her operation, she called him many times, but no one answered.
He wanted to say that he lost his cell phone that day, but he knew that was not the reason at all.
He had already been completely and hopelessly wrong.
In order to avoid her, he did not return to Chenxi Community after being discharged from the hospital, but chose to go home to live there.
He didn't see her at school either. He thought she asked for leave because she didn't want to see him because of the breakup.
He thought she... everything was what he thought, his self-righteousness.
By the time he learned everything, it was already too late. He jumped into her house from the balcony, only to find that the building was already empty.
Everything in the room has been moved, but the fish tank on the windowsill is still there. The two kissing fish have lost their vitality and are about to die.
He had never raised fish before and didn't know what to do or whether he should feed them immediately.
Holding the fish tank in his arms, he rushed to the nearest flower, bird and fish market and found an experienced fish seller. It took him five days to finally save the two fish.
No one knew that that night, he hugged the fish tank and cried quietly in his room all night long.
However, he was able to save the two fish, but he could never find her again.
No one knows where she went.
He thought that she should have returned to Japan.
So, he went to Japan every year since then.
Given her identity, it was impossible for him to find her in Japan, but he kept searching.
He remembered that she once said that she had grown up watching Mount Fuji, so he traveled to all places where Mount Fuji could be seen.
Mount Fuji spans Shizuoka and Yamanashi prefectures. He searched there repeatedly for many times, but after nine years of searching, there was no news at all.
He was walking around in this world, searching and searching, just to find her.
Since she left, there are only two things left in his life to do, live and find her.
But he never thought that she was not in Japan, but still in Xihai.
What was originally the most unlikely place has become the most possible.
It turns out that over the years, they have been in the same city for a period of time every year, breathing the same air and looking at the same moon.
However, the moonlight remains the same and everything is completely different.
In fact, he doesn't know why he is looking for her, so what if he finds her? Apologize? It won't help if he says sorry ten thousand times. Begging her to get back together? That would be too naive.
But he kept looking, and kept looking, he just wanted to see her and know how she was doing.
That day at the entrance of the supermarket, he vaguely saw her figure, but he missed her after all. Then he had an insomnia all night, feeling that he must have recognized the wrong person.
It is because I miss you too much and look forward to it too much that I have hallucinations and delusions.
But today, just now, he finally got his wish and saw her.
He was extremely happy, but also extremely frustrated.
He was happy because he finally saw her, but frustrated because he still couldn't change anything after seeing her.
In fact, he should have known long ago that they were no longer lovers, nor could they be friends. Time has passed, experiences have passed, it doesn't matter whether they like it or not, whether they love it or not.
It's just that people are always like this. Only after things have changed and people have changed can they understand how to miss them. Only after they have been hurt can they understand what they have missed.
Over the years, of course, he would have met many other women, many of whom took the initiative to express their love for him, but his heart was still filled with water.
Because in his life, there once appeared a woman as gorgeous as a rainbow, and since then, everyone else has been just a passing cloud.
In the past, he thought that love was a kind of encounter. Only by meeting the right person at the right time could a relationship be achieved.
But reality told him that love is an encounter at the right time and place, and there is no need to wait or prepare.
It was as if their reunion came so unexpectedly and suddenly.
Of course he was very happy to finally see her, but he didn't even dare to express his happiness.
When a woman becomes silent in front of a man and no longer yells at you, smiles at you, acts coquettishly at you, loses her temper with you, cares about you, cares about you, then you have really lost that feeling in her heart.
an indispensable position.
It turns out that the old entanglement, which seemed very annoying, was actually the happiest.
He plucked up the courage and asked for her number. Although she gave it to him, he could tell that she had no intention of contacting him.
The most cruel way to treat a past lover is not to love and hate him, not to cheat and betray him, not to turn a blind eye, but to treat him calmly without loving or hating him.
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