Howard was silent, and after waiting for dozens of seconds, Schiller asked: "Is this all the conclusion you have reached?"
Howard thought about it carefully and then said: "I'm not a person who pays much attention to my own emotions, so I'm sorry that I can't provide more reference factors."
"It doesn't matter." Schiller didn't mind. He said: "Most people do not have the ability to clearly analyze the causes of each of their emotions and the possible consequences."
"Most people always feel inexplicable when they feel uncomfortable. Maybe they know some rough reasons, such as being annoyed by something or hating someone, but they can't analyze the cause and effect in detail.
If you don’t realize what kind of consequences this kind of emotion will have on you.”
"If everyone had an extremely detailed analysis of their emotions, there wouldn't be so many people suffering from mental illness in this world. The vast majority of mental illnesses are actually unnoticed or undetectable.
The consequences of processing accumulated emotions in the heart.”
"So, it's actually normal for you to suddenly feel an inexplicable negative emotion filling your heart at a certain period of time, but you can't find its source."
Schiller did not look at Howard, but picked up the wine glass, looked at the water in the glass and said:
"Many people regard human psychology as something magical or occult. Whenever they suddenly feel sad, they always wonder if there are some mysterious factors affecting them now."
"But in fact, emotional logic is a relatively rigorous logic in logic. It is like a precision-structured transmission system. The rotation of each part will drive other parts."
Schiller explained the matter in a way that was easiest for Howard to understand. He then said:
"Some people have only five parts in the entire system. When the first part moves, the fifth part will immediately follow. At this time, when he directs his attention to the last moving part, it is easy to
Analyze why this part moves."
What he didn't expect was that Schiller didn't ask again, but asked another question: "Going forward in the timeline, before you started drinking, did you ever have similar negative emotions?"
"Let's start with the results first. First of all, if you think the source of your emotions is your guilt for your family and children, then naturally, if you want to analyze this emotion, you cannot do without the situation of your family and children."
"Okay, let's push the timeline further forward. When Stark Industries was at its peak and Tony was very young, how long did you spend focusing on playing with him?"
Howard narrowed his eyes and began to recall, but after a while, he shook his head and said: "Alcohol destroyed my sanity and left me with almost no complete memory, so I really don't remember whether I have experienced anything similar.
Negative emotions.”
Howard nodded. Looking at Schiller's expression, he knew that he must have many stories. However, he was still more concerned about his own problems, so he said, "Just tell me, doctor. I will listen carefully."
"Then, next, please answer my question. You can tell the truth, or you can conceal it, but please answer according to your first reaction." Schiller took out the medical record and started recording.
Howard felt that the reason why he felt sad that night was actually because of his sudden rebirth, which made him feel guilty. However, Schiller pointed out that Howard's negative emotions that night may not have come from what happened during the day.
Probably earlier.
Howard's fingers tapped on the armrest, and the atmosphere in the room began to become a little anxious. Apparently, the two people's differences on a certain conclusion turned their relationship from a doctor and patient to a defense relationship between Party A and Party B.
Hand relationship.
Schiller nodded again, and Howard felt that if he followed this logic, his inference was correct. He didn't feel this way when he was accompanying Tony. Isn't that negative emotion just because he missed the companionship?
Feeling guilty?
However, Schiller did not mean to confirm him at all, but continued to ask: "So, did you have any other negative emotions when you were with Tony?"
“On the one hand, I am suffering from negative emotions, and on the other hand, I feel at a loss because I cannot find the cause of the negative emotions.”
"It's just that the composition of everyone's emotional logic transmission system is different."
"The first question is, before you died, you should have been suffering from severe alcohol addiction for a long time. If I guess correctly, during that time, although you were alive, you were not able to treat Tony Star.
Did you ever have any similar negative emotions during that time?"
"I believe you have your own understanding of logic." Schiller remained gentle, without any impatience to prove his point of view. He first affirmed Howard's level before speaking:
"Almost none, that is to say, there is still some?" Schiller asked again.
Schiller nodded again and said: "So, please compare how the number of annoying things you faced changed when Tony was young and when he grew up? Is it increasing?
?”
"The situation of the Stark family is not complicated. Your parents died young and left an only son. These few words can roughly summarize your situation."
Howard blinked and said, "So, can psychiatrists accept questions from patients? I thought you talked and I listened. I can't speak until you complete the diagnosis."
Howard turned his eyes to one side, recalled it, and said, "...probably not."
"And when the last part moved, he turned around to find the reason why the part moved, and all he got was a blank look."
"At this time, after one of the parts is moved, the final result may be that the other part does not move until half a year later."
"So, please tell me, when you and your son were doing something together, how long was it when you were completely distracted and didn't think about these troublesome things at all?" Schiller asked again.
Howard nodded. This inference was correct and basically summarized the logic that he believed caused negative emotions.
Howard's expression suddenly stiffened, but then he shook his head and said, "No, there are almost no negative emotions. Those are very good memories."
Howard listened very carefully and looked into Schiller's eyes. But for him, the examples given by Schiller could be said to be straightforward and simple, and they were really easy to understand.
"In that case, you can listen to my reasoning. If there is any part of it that you think is illogical, you can interrupt me immediately and refute it. I won't be angry."
Schiller's expression looked helpless, and he continued: "Among the patients I have come into contact with, you are among the best I have ever seen in terms of IQ, patience, and mental stability."
"Because no matter how talented a person is, without professional training, there is no way to deduce the reasons behind tens of thousands of parts through the results."
"You feel that because you died young, you missed a certain stage of Tony Stark's life, causing him to fall into pain and decadence, and making him spend an extremely sad time. But now, you are back intact.
, you think this is unfair to Tony."
This time, Howard was silent for a long time, about five or six minutes, and the expression on his face gradually became serious. Apparently, he found that the answer was different from what he expected.
"The cause of many mental illnesses is actually that people who are emotionally sensitive and have tens of thousands of parts suddenly find that one day they have a lot of negative emotional parts and start working non-stop, but they can follow the flow of negative emotions.
I kept looking for parts, but couldn't find anything."
Howard fell into a long silence again, and after a few minutes, he finally said, "No, it's exactly the opposite."
"For example, difficult business opponents, the pressure of scientific research and innovation, disagreements with Maria over some trivial matters, etc." Howard cited some examples intermittently, all of which were very common things.
"Mr. Howard, I think you have overestimated the quality of the patients I met. In fact, there are very few patients who can calmly listen to what I have to say."
"However, some people's transmission systems may have 50,000 parts, and they are divided into several parts, nested together. In addition to physical bite and collision, there may be remote signal control."
"How did you arrive at this judgment?"
Howard's eyebrows gradually wrinkled. Schiller looked into his eyes and said very seriously:
"It is very possible that this is the result of tens of thousands of parts being transmitted. The transmission process may be more complicated than you think, and the time when the first part starts moving may also be earlier than you think.
many."
"for example?"
Schiller nodded and began his own deduction.
"I'm a human being. I can't only be happy. Even when I'm with my son, I will definitely have all kinds of troubles." Howard spread his hands and explained.
It wasn't until Schiller knocked on the table that Howard came back to his senses. He looked into Schiller's eyes and said:
Schiller finally stopped looking at the wine glass and looked directly into Howard's eyes and said: "You think that the negative emotions you suddenly felt that night were due to the information you received during the day, but that is probably not the case."
"When Tony was very young and not very sensible, I could even play with him for five or six hours, forgetting all my worries and not being able to think of anything that bothered me. It was the happiest time in my life."
At this time, Howard's recall was a little difficult. It could be seen that he seemed to have thought of some answers, but he didn't know whether he should say it. After a while, he almost gritted his teeth and said: "A few minutes."
Bar."
"There are only five parts originally. Even if you use the exhaustive method and check them one by one, you can still make a rough guess."
"When Tony was still very young, Stark Industry was just in its infancy. At that time, I faced a lot of pressure, and I didn't even know where the future would be..."
"And during the period before I was entangled by the military, Stark industrial politics was at its peak, and I was very proud. At that time, I had almost no opponents, and I wasn't even that busy at work."
The more Howard spoke, the more serious his expression became, and in the end it even turned solemn. He asked softly: "...Why?"
"Why, when Tony was very young, I loved him so much that even playing with him became my spiritual sustenance to survive a painful day. But after he grew up, every time we started a topic, we couldn't talk about it.
In five or six minutes, I think of those annoying tasks again?"