Loki returned to the dormitory prepared for him by Thor. As soon as he returned to the room, he threw himself directly into the soft bed, then covered his eyes with his hands and lay there silently.
Helen ran over with a bang, jumped up on the bed, grabbed Loki's arm and started shaking it: "You're not crying, are you? Stop crying! Don't be angry for her, let's go to the backyard to play.
Bar!"
Loki's arm was pulled away by Helen. In fact, he didn't cry, but the expression on his face was very complicated. He suddenly straightened up again and sat on the edge of the bed. Helen looked at him blankly. After a while, Loki
Ji turned to look at Helen and said, "Later, don't say anything I say to anyone."
Helen immediately slapped her chest and said, "Don't worry, I have the strictest mouth, as strict as Dr. Schiller!"
"I just knew you were like him, so I asked you not to say anything." Loki rolled his eyes and said, "I know the reactor on your chest can record, please turn it off quickly."
Helen lowered her hands in frustration, coughed twice, the light of the reactor on her chest went out, and muttered in a low voice: "Damn it, that trick Pikachu taught me doesn't work anymore."
Loki put his arm around her. This was actually just a gesture of intimacy and traction, but when he felt Helen's body temperature, he seemed to be frightened and withdrew his hand with a "swish".
Helen also sat on the edge of the bed, her legs hanging down and swaying. She put her hands on the edge of the bed, looked up at Loki and said, "What do you want to say? Don't worry, you can talk to others if you can't.
I said, I won’t tell anyone else, we can guarantee it by hooking up!”
"Nothing." Loki shook his head slightly, he frowned slightly, his expression looked very complicated, and he said: "It seems that Her Majesty the Queen should have met more than one Loki, but maybe it's normal.
…”
"The Loki she possesses, that is, Sylvie, is very special. Perhaps other Lokis who have entered the Time Administration also want to find her in order to take revenge on the director of the Time Administration."
"But now, I find..." When Loki said this, he was silent for a moment, as if he didn't want to say the next words.
"Actually, I'm really weird..." Helen crossed her arms and stared into Loki's eyes and said, "Can I ask you a question seriously?"
"You are willing to spend time and energy to accompany me, no matter whether you really love me or just want to use me, the time and energy you spend is not fake, and the happiness I get from companionship is not fake either...
…”
Helen was stunned for a moment. She did not expect that Loki would say these words. In the past, although Loki liked to use words to hurt others, he rarely used a calm attitude to accuse others.
"I thought I was in a hurry to save Asgard and felt anxious about the Ragnarok that I didn't know when it would come, but maybe that's not the case."
He looked intently at Helen's eyes shining in the light, as if he were seeing the most beautiful gems in the world.
Helen slowly leaned back, showing an expression of "Don't take me with you if you die." Loki patted the back of her head gently with his hand. Helen chuckled, and Loki also showed a smile.
Helen crossed her arms and looked very proud. Loki gently stretched out a hand and touched her forehead. Then, he bent his fingers and flicked her brain.
"I know you all take me as a joke. You actually don't think I'm your daughter at all. It's just because I'm very important that you take the time to act with me."
Loki looked at Helen in silence, but did not see any resentment or dissatisfaction in her eyes. Helen pretended to be mature and sighed, saying:
"But I actually don't care at all, and I don't think it's my problem. Do you know why?"
Helen showed a smile, waved her hands and shouted:
Loki maintained his thinking expression and said, "Actually, it's not that I don't have power, it's just that I've never used it. So, why am I useless?"
Loki was a little stunned, because what Helen said was so sure, and her tone didn't sound like a child at all.
"But if I want to take the initiative to fight for it, I can neither tell Odin, 'You should give me your son's rights,' nor can I tell Thor, 'What you gave me is not enough, you must
Let everyone respect me'..."
"You think that I am the link between you and the Steel Demon God. If something happens, he will help you for my sake. That's why you maintain your relationship with me. You actually don't care about me.
He doesn’t love me either.”
"There is only one God King and one Prince. If they treat me better, will it tire them to death?"
"Thor is right. The Asgardians said that I was not worthy, and I felt that I was not worthy. So, when they showed that I was not worthy, although I would question them on the surface, in my heart, I felt that I was not worthy.
I really don’t deserve it, and I think they did the right thing.”
"Her Majesty the Queen told me a very important truth." Loki lowered his eyes and said, "I don't need to wait for anything, and I don't need to fight for anything."
"But it seems that they failed to get any benefits from Her Majesty the Queen, but this is normal..." Loki sighed softly and said: "She even achieved more amazing military exploits than Odin.
And those of me who can only yell cannot be her opponent."
Loki touched the spot on his face where Helen had kissed him with some sadness. Helen stared at him and asked, "Do you know what the most heinous crime in the world is?"
Helen touched her face with her hand, and then said: "I think arrogance should be like Dr. Schiller. Whenever something goes wrong, he must look for problems from others."
"dad!"
"Thor already has a stable rule. I am his only brother. There are only a few royal members of Asgard. The father and queen of the gods have long since stopped doing things and have not even shown their faces. Sif and
Thor is not married yet and has no formal status, so am I the only one left?"
Helen shrugged her shoulders, looked at Loki and said: "You and Tony are both very busy. Pepper and Frigga are actually busier than you. You are willing to take time out of your busy schedule to accompany me who jumped out of the cracks in the rocks.
The monster is already pretty good.”
"Then what are you still struggling with?" Helen's voice was always crisp. She said very simply: "You are better than them all, what are you still worried about?"
Loki straightened his arm, and then slowly raised it up until Helen was sent into the light.
Loki looked at her blankly and said, "Compared to me and Tony, don't you think you are more like another person?"
"I feel that I must have a bargaining chip for them to respect, either the ability to compete with Thor or Odin's approval, so that they will respect me and treat me like Thor..."
"I won't."
"Ouch!!!" Helen covered her head and screamed, taking two steps back. Loki looked at her with a smile and said, "You have seen how powerful the God of Deception is."
What surprised Loki was that Helen retorted very simply. She jumped out of bed, walked up to Loki, looked at him and said:
"Isn't it?" Helen asked.
"Of course not." Loki shook his head and said, "They should respect me. No matter I am a prince or a prince, as long as I am a member of Asgard's royal family, I should enjoy all this."
Helen shook her head and said, "Do you mean Dr. Schiller? He actually doesn't think as much as I do. He is so torn between wanting you to get sick every day and wanting you not to get sick at all..."
Loki looked at her face and was silent for a while, then slowly stood up and held Helen in front of him. On a face that was almost identical to his, he saw the setting sun shining through the window of the Asgard.
Loki put his hands on the edge of the bed, raised his head and said, "You know what? If you live in an environment where everyone thinks there is something wrong with you, you will also feel that there is something wrong with you..."
"It's precisely because I don't know that I feel irritable." Loki pursed his lips and said, "I feel that I want power, and only by getting it can I save Ragnarok, but I don't know what to do.
Got the power...to question Thor? To question Odin?"
"I know that everyone thinks so. I was not born by you, but jumped out of the cracks in the rocks. I just appeared in your lives suddenly. If you don't find me annoying, that's fine.
Already."
"It doesn't matter if you love me because of profit. It doesn't matter if you don't love me the most."
"So, I start to think, how do I deserve all this? But after thinking about it, there is no room for advancement. There is only one throne, where can I rise?"
When the setting sun also shone on his body, the luster shining on the edge of the armor became hazy and soft.
"Don't make trouble, I'm talking about business." Helen rubbed her forehead and said:
"I have long accepted the fact that I am not the most important. Everyone has to accept this fact, sooner or later."
Golden light shone into Helen's eyes, and when she blinked, her eyelashes seemed to be embracing the sun.
Helen laughed. She jumped on the bed again, jumped into Loki's arms, kissed him on the face, and said:
"I don't care at all whether I am your biological child, nor do I care whether you love me sincerely, or in other words, giving itself is a proof of love."
Loki retracted his arms and hugged Helen tightly.
"Why is it that when I want to get something, all I can think of is waiting where I am, and if I think of trying to get something, I can only think of pleading with others?"
"I am the prince of Asgard, the younger brother of the God-King. This is my inherent identity, and as a royal, I should have the power."
Loki took a deep breath, rubbed his cheek with one hand, and said, "Before I was taken away by the Time Administration, I felt very anxious. At that time, I didn't know where the strange anxiety came from, but
Later, I gradually figured it out..."
Helen hesitated and said in a tactful tone: "They always say you are arrogant, but I think you are actually quite humble..."
"What is it?"
"What do you want?" Helen asked.
"Others have paid so much to create beautiful memories for you, but you are questioning every day why they paid so much for you and wasted all the good time. In the end, you still blame others for not loving you..."
"If I struggle with these issues every day during the time you can accompany me, it will obviously be a very happy time, but when I recall it, it will be full of pain..."
After hearing what he said, Helen blinked and said, "What if? Are you planning to use force to overthrow them?"
Seeing Helen's slightly surprised expression, Loki looked at her and said, "You are also wondering why I have never thought of this before, right?"
"Human energy is limited, and no one would hang around another person every day unless there is something profitable to do with him."
But soon, he still said: "Thor is right. The society of Asgard has the same impact on me and Thor. Thor has become arrogant because of their admiration and praise."
It’s reckless, what about me?”
"The reason why I feel like I don't have it is probably because of what Thor said, that I am always seeking approval from the Asgardians."
Loki nodded, and Helen looked at him with a very puzzled look and said, "Did you really just think of finding problems from them?"
"Should I stand there and wait for them to reward me with everything I want?" Loki shook his head slightly and said, "When should I wait? The day before Ragnarok?"
Loki looked around and lowered his voice and said, "Stop talking. If he hears it, we will both be in trouble."
Loki blinked, but did not ask a question. Helen looked into his eyes and said, "You have obviously lived for so long, but you are not as mature as me. I am not talking about you, the God of Deception, but that's it."
"Thor already has everything she wants, the throne, the honor, the admiration of the Asgardians, but what about me?"
Every wanderer who leaves his hometown thinks that he can only take away a pillow of tears.
But for thousands of years, our ancestors who ran away alone and crossed other people's rivers took root in this strange land, extending their solid roots into the distance until they left behind fruits related to their own blood.
It is their extension, their destination, proof that they are no longer alone in this world, and also their new link with this beautiful world.