I couldn't see clearly at that time because I was blinded by too many things.
Now……
When everything was settled, he was able to calmly think about what happened in the past.
"Do you know why Faxia died?" Xia Dongye stared at Sikong Jingqiu for a moment before speaking.
"Isn't it because of Su Lan?" Sikong Jingqiu raised his eyebrows in surprise.
Xia Dongye shook his head, his eyes suddenly turned deep, like a pool of bottomless black water, "Faxia was pregnant at that time."
Xia Dongye said, his voice was very hoarse.
"Pregnant!" Sikong Jingqiu looked up in shock and looked at Xia Dongye in shock.
He had no idea that he had been pregnant since Faxia!
No wonder Xia Dongye was unable to touch the scalpel after Faxia's death!
Because of that operation not only made him lose Faxia, but also made him lose his child!
Sikong Jingqiu had no idea what he should say to express his inner shock.
"Yes." Xia Dongye nodded, and his thoughts gradually drifted away. "Faxia's health has always been poor and she can't get pregnant at all."
Sikong Jingqiu was silent, his eyebrows were deeply locked, and he didn't say anything.
He didn't know what to say.
"His parents didn't agree with us being together." Xia Dongye's eyes dimmed, "At that time, we were about to break up."
"Because of your family background?" Sikong Jingqiu asked.
"Yes." Xia Dongye picked up the wine glass and drank the wine inside. "I never thought about being with Faxia back then. It's just that her parents' attitude was too arrogant and domineering, which made me, the young, unable to swallow it.
That tone……”
“…………”
"In order to arouse Faxia's parents, I deliberately let her get pregnant." Xia Dongye's face showed a regretful expression, "At that time, I knew that her body was not suitable for pregnancy at all..."
"Faxia will die." Xia Dongye closed his eyes, "It was because I was indifferent to the consequences."
That's why he collapsed after Faxia's death and did not dare to take a scalpel, nor did he dare to approach any woman again.
He was afraid of causing harm to them.
Xia Dongye never forgot that he had killed a very good girl and his own child because of his rashness.
He has been hurting others all his life.
Faxia, their children, and Sikong Jingqiu and Haiyue’s first children…
For a long time, so many lives were almost completely breathless when he was pressed on him.
"Have you ever loved Faxia?" Sikong Jingqiu did not talk much about the death from Faxia, but instead asked Xia Dongye.
"I don't know." Xia Dongye shook his head, his expression full of confusion. "I don't even know if I was with Faxia in order to revenge on Faxia's parents, or because I like her."
This is also the reason why he has been unable to get rid of his guilt towards Faxia for many years-
Faxia died because of his rashness, but he was not sure whether the reason he could not forget was because of love or guilt...
Xia Dongye lowered his eyes and his expression was obscure.
"But it cannot be denied that you like Faxia." Sikong Jingqiu said affirmatively.
Xia Dongye was silent and had no answer.
Sikong Jingqiu was right. He did like Faxia back then.
But before that love can be deeply rooted in love, it has become no longer pure because of external factors...
Finally, I slowly walked on an uncontrollable path.