It’s the first anniversary of the release of this book! Summary·Thank you
On January 19, 2022, a new Qidian writer named Yu Mu Shaosheng opened Qidian Writer Assistant and uploaded about 10,000 words of novel content.
As of January 19, 2023, this book has been released for one year!!!!
On the occasion of the Spring Festival and the first anniversary of this book, you must be curious to know the details of the author's creation, so I will share with you what preparations I did before writing this book...
The answer is no preparation at all.
I also know that everyone must want to know how the idea of this book was constructed in the early stages of creation?
The answer is that there is no idea at all.
I just want to try the Qidian Writer Assistant to see if it works!!!!
Why have I already written almost 4 million words?!!!!!!
What the hell am I doing now?!!!!!!!
I don’t know if you have heard of a famous theory called – “throw your hat over the wall first”.
It roughly means that if you feel that you are not determined to do something, then throw your hat to the other side of the wall first. Then there will be sunk costs, and you will have to climb over the wall to pick up the hat.
The author threw his hat across the Himalayas.
When I started the book, I was full of ideas. I finished writing 10,000 words in three hours, and I was really happy. A year later, I was scratching my head and scratching my head in order to fill in the gaps. I couldn't finish 2,000 words in four hours, and I was really embarrassed.
Digging a hole is fun for a while, filling it for a crematorium!!!!
Every day at two o'clock in the middle of the night, when I wake up from my dreams at midnight, I have to ask myself, who gave me the courage to write a novel instead of writing an outline??!!
I think you may have never seen any starting point writer express regret in the anniversary summary of his first book.
Why on earth did you add so many settings in the first place?!!!!Why why why why why why why?!!!
In order to provide a reasonable origin explanation for the setting that I randomly added in my head at that time, I have almost read through the books on psychology and behavior, especially the behavioral motivation part!!!!
Why should I write a system?!!!
Why do I need to add an umbrella setting?!!!!!!
Why should I write about autism spectrum disorder!!!!!!
Why is it more difficult to write an American comic book fan than to write an essay?!!!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
Okay, thank you for listening to my rant, let's get down to business.
First of all, the author's own evaluation of this book is that overall it is okay, but there are also many dissatisfactions.
80% of these dissatisfaction points come from the fact that I didn't think about it at the time, so I uploaded the text without writing an outline.
So why didn’t I write an outline then?!!!!!
Due to the structure and setting problems in the early stage of the article, too much writing and ink was spent later to fill in the loopholes. This also made it impossible to realize the relatively sophisticated and fast-paced unit short drama that I originally envisioned.
If I want to write a unit short play, I need to strengthen the details, weaken the main line, and enhance the sense of immersion in each short story. However, because many of the previous settings were added casually when I was writing the main text, I had to spend a lot of time.
Time to explain what is going on.
When this part is reached, the author feels like he is in jail. On the one hand, he is anxious and anxious, and on the other hand, he is full of regret for his youth and frivolousness.
Because the pressure to fill in the pits was really great, the author took too much into account when developing certain plots, and was unable to create freely.
And because the author's emotional stress will be reflected in the text, the content level of this part is not satisfactory, and these authors know it.
Many readers will find that their long suggestions have been deleted. Some of them may have been swallowed by Qidian, or may have been deleted by assistants, but many of them were deleted by the author himself.
Or there are many reviews, but they are not negative reviews. They just stated a fact, such as a certain part of the plot is written like shit.
When the author saw this review, he didn't feel angry, he just had a very ridiculous feeling, as if someone finally recognized the product.
So why would I delete these reviews?
This returns to the first question, why should I open a book?
I just wanted to try out the Qidian Writer Assistant client to see if it works well.
The answer is that it’s really hard to use!!!!
When I reply to these comments in the backend of Writer Assistant, the person who replied to the comment cannot see the reply reminder, and the same goes for the likes I clicked.
Unless I open the reading client of Qidian, find your comment in the vast sea of articles, and then reply, you can see the reminder.
The problem is that some of the chapters where some of the comments appear are from a long time ago. When I looked at the sentence you commented on, I didn’t even know where it appeared.
However, you have worked so hard to write such a long article and your opinions are very pertinent. I will not give you any feedback because I always feel guilty.
So, my little brain had an idea. As long as I delete the comment, you can see the prompt that your comment has been deleted, which means that you will know that I have read your comment.
Am I a genius?
Well, actually, it’s because there were some big pitfalls before that made the author feel very desperate. In the middle of writing this book, the author’s anxiety disorder once reached the point where he needed medication.
During that period, my mental state was not very normal. When I saw any comments with more than three lines, I thought they were scolding me, so I deleted them all. For a while, I even swiped all comments indiscriminately and squatted.
Three hours of comments were mechanically deleted in the author's backend.
I think the probability of accidental positive reviews is about 50-50. If you find that your long review has been deleted, it may be the product of the author going crazy in the middle of the night without taking his medicine.
I was wrong. I will take good medicine in the future. I am very sorry to the readers whose comments were deleted or accidentally hurt. The author will try to reduce the number of times he goes crazy in the future.
Of course, some comments you write that are too long may be swallowed up by Qidian. That is beyond the author's control. If you really feel that your suggestions are very pertinent and useful to the author, you can join the group and then type
Contact me via Window.
On the Internet, reviews of this book are generally mixed.
But there is a very interesting phenomenon. Half of the people said that I wrote like a piece of shit in the first 30 chapters, and the other half said that after 30 chapters, I wrote like a piece of shit.
This is not a simple product of network duality, but represents two groups of readers.
Although there is no outline in the first part, and the overall plot is relatively thin, following the route of traditional linear online novels, there is not much room for writing, but the pace is fast and refreshing, making it more suitable for readers who are accustomed to fast-paced reading.
In the second half, when the author begins to reorganize the plot and turns to unit drama writing, this type of reader may feel that the pace becomes sluggish and that there are too many descriptions and lyrics that are meaningless to advance the plot.
Readers who like to read the second half may appreciate the author's pen power and writing style. At the same time, they are also more receptive to unit drama narratives, so they may feel that the protagonist in the previous part frequently switches worlds, making an emotionless plot advancement.
The tool man is a bit thin.
To say which one the author prefers, each type actually has its own praise and criticism. If the whole book unfolds in this way for the first 30 chapters, the author will be very comfortable.
As someone who has been proficient in some cool writing websites, writing a single-line narrative that is fast-paced and filled with a lot of cool writing is a no-brainer.
Those methods of building cool points seem to be engraved in my genes. I once held this knife and dominated some websites, breaking through the siege and achieving good results.
If you adopt the second method, the time and energy required are completely different. The author's outline and outline mostly contain the main plot and character settings.
All the call backs, ambushes, foreshadowings, the use of certain repeated sentences, the repeated reactions of certain characters, and progressive reactions that you see in the article are all recorded in the author's mind.
On the one hand, my brain has to bear the very trivial task of recording, and on the other hand, it has to bear a lot of emotional pressure to perfect the plot. Although the author has not left home this year, it has been a life of ups and downs.
Magnificent waves.
In some previous plots, the author said that he drank, but he really drank.
And the degree of drinking may be more serious than you think, especially when writing Gotham, in many cases it is the prelude to unconsciousness.
Many people may think that Batman's transformation process in this book is interesting, because it is actually the author's recovery process.
Most of the paranoia, stubbornness, and confusion in the first half were caused by the paralysis of alcohol, while most of the rationality, persistence, and sudden ideas in the later period were written under the influence of sufficient drugs.
For a long time, I didn't know what I was doing.
Some people may think that I am forced by life to make money, but this is not the case.
My family situation is not bad, there is no family pressure, no brothers and sisters, and no complicated interpersonal relationships. The money I earn from working and writing novels is enough for me to live very comfortably in a city with prices comparable to first-tier cities.
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So, what am I doing? Why do I make myself so miserable? Why do I choose the most thankless path between easy and difficult?
I couldn't sleep in the middle of the night. When I got up and thought about it carefully, I realized that there were two words densely packed in the words - "love".
You may feel a little nauseous, but in fact, all authors of novels will not make enough money to buy medicine if they are not supported by love and creative passion when they create.
The premise is to create seriously, not to make shit like I used to do.
In fact, I have also carefully analyzed it. Most of the sources of my anxiety are that I know that this is a book that is destined to be imperfect. Just like Schiller, the protagonist of this book, was born with an almost incurable disease.
mental illness.
However, a very important manifestation of anxiety disorder is the tendency of perfectionism, which is commonly known as obsessive-compulsive disorder.
For a while, I sat at the table and looked at the wine bottle on the table, as if there was another me sitting across from me.
That me is incomplete and cannot become perfect no matter what method I use. Like this novel, it is also like the life experiences of many people.
She kept telling me that if you continue, you will only increase the suffering for everyone, just like those patients who were born with mental illness but came into this world.
Others were reluctant to let him die, but he couldn't live well either.
There will be a voice in your heart urging you to make a decision that should be extreme, but she tells you that it is a decisive and judgmental decision.
So why didn't I make this decision at that time?
Because I turned over and over again and thought about it, but I still felt reluctant to let it go.
Many people may know that my writing practice work on a certain website is no longer updated due to various reasons. When I made this decision, I felt a very strong sense of guilt, not for the readers, but for the characters in the book.
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I put a lot of effort into making them so vivid. Every action they take in the plot is done by them in my mind, not by me controlling them.
And once I decide not to write this book, it means that my children are dead and will never come back.
I don't want to experience this feeling again.
This is the single most important reason why this book has been able to stumble to this day.
After all, it is difficult for you to make me think rationally about the gains and losses when my mental state is not normal.
Only more extreme emotions can move me, including my love for every character in the book.
In recent times, many people may not understand the portrayal of greed, but in fact it is a portrayal of the author's heart.
In order to continue to shape these superheroes I love and give everyone the best ending, I have to write even if I can't continue, and even if I can't continue, I still have to write. Even if my mental state is uncontrollably declining, I still have to write.
And I want to ask, how did the author recover from this disease...
Do you think I would say it's because of you?
Okay, I know that by saying this, some people will be deceived and moved. After all, the review area of this book is always full of little fools who are fooled by the plot from time to time.
However, as an author dedicated to popular science psychology and psychiatry, I must tell you that the main reason why my condition improved was adequate medication, and there is no other answer.
I have also seen many comments in the comment area sharing their own inner trauma, or wanting to seek psychological counseling from the author.
But first of all, the author is not licensed, so it's impossible to give you any treatment advice. All I can do is tell you, don't be afraid to see a doctor.
When some people hear that they take medicine because of mental illness, they think it is drug abuse, which is outrageous. But in fact, maybe what you think is only a mental and emotional problem has already affected the physiology, and it is just an excessively low mood.
, making you ignore this point, and getting medical treatment and taking medicine as early as possible will open the door to a new world for you.
Of course, I have to admit that the development of psychology in China is still not perfect. The distinction between psychologists, psychological counselors, and psychiatrists is not clear enough, which has led to many people being deceived.
The author says again that most so-called psychological counselors do not have the right to prescribe. They are not doctors and cannot treat illnesses, but they can comfort you.
A psychiatrist has the right to prescribe medicine and can also be responsible for comforting you.
Psychiatric doctors have the power to prescribe, and they may be able to comfort you, but they may not be able to. Some doctors are only responsible for diagnosing mental illness, and are not responsible for "talking" in the traditional sense.
Therefore, don’t expect psychological counselors to prescribe medicine for you, and don’t go to a psychiatry department. Just grab a doctor and let him comfort you.
The correct procedure is to register with a regular psychiatric department and follow the procedure for examination and diagnosis.
If the doctor determines that you do not need medication, but you still feel uncomfortable, then go to a professional psychological counselor and listen to his advice.
And if it is judged that you need to take medication, then you must follow the doctor's instructions instead of thinking that the disease will disappear naturally as long as you listen to a psychiatrist for a few words.
Moreover, most of the reactions to mental illness that I describe in the book come from what I have seen with my own eyes.
The purpose of writing these contents is to hope that everyone will not demonize mental illness. Like ordinary diseases, it has causes, symptoms, pathology, and can be treated and cured.
At the same time, I also hope that everyone will have enough patience for patients with mental illness, especially those with long-term illness or congenital diseases. These people are really suffering.
The autism spectrum that Schiller, the protagonist of this book, suffers from is a very typical innate mental problem whose cause is not completely clear, and there is currently no very scientific and complete cure.
Of course, the fact that it cannot be completely cured does not mean that it cannot be cured in stages. If you start to conduct network-style screening among the people you know and the people you know, you will find that the number of children with the spectrum in the past is,
There will be a lot more than you think.
But they are just like ordinary people. Living in this society, certain behaviors may cause some abnormalities.
If you notice some abnormalities in your life, or find reactions like some of the details described in this article, please don't make a fuss or be overly concerned. You are just an ordinary person.
Of course, in the end, I must thank the readers. Although medicine is the main reason for my recovery, the biggest difference between psychological and mental problems and other diseases is that they require a better recovery environment.
For a long time, the reason why I recovered quickly was because every time I opened the book review area, it was like entering a praise group. Many people came to praise me with a determination that made me feel confused.
I.
It's a little bit difficult for me to fix.
I don’t know why they are so determined, why they are able to discover so many shining points in works that are destined to be incomplete, and it is even worthy of them typing so many words to praise me.
This made me feel like "Is this a normal person?"
Patients with anxiety disorders feel like they are in a sea of nothingness all the time. On the one hand, they are swimming forward desperately, not wanting to drown, but on the other hand, they know that the ship will not come.
If the ocean where ordinary people with anxiety disorders live is a sea of emptiness and confusion, then the author is lost in a sea of praise.
You may think that the moment the comment is posted, your emotional value is released and disappears into the air, but in fact it does not.
Through every sentence and every word, I can figure out the psychology of everyone posting, and feel this emotion more deeply than you.
This ability has brought disaster to me. Even though I have not suffered any major blows and my family is happy, I have always been troubled by mental illness. It is precisely because of my strong empathy ability.
And at this time, it became my boat.
If there really was a tower in my mind space, the drugs just glued it back together, but you, all the readers of this book, all your subscriptions, comments and likes, painted the surface to look like me.
The perfect look that I have always wanted but could not achieve.
Although I know that nothing in this world is perfect, what people with anxiety disorder are looking for is illusion.
The reason why they cannot be cured is that in the cruel real society, most of the time, they cannot even get the illusion.
I am very lucky. All readers use their every action to weave a utopia.
As long as I click on the Writer's Assistant, I can put aside all my worries and watch the many imperfect people in this world, and my heart is shaken by every word of the imperfect works I created.
Therefore, on this first anniversary, I would like to solemnly thank all readers of this book, including readers who may not have the money to read the original version, or who have posted suggestions for this book on other social platforms.
Thank you, my good medicine.
In addition, I would like to express my special thanks to all the readers who have rated this book.
I really can't figure out what kind of mood you have. After spending money to subscribe to this book, you actually spend extra money to reward it?!
Your behavior shocks me much more than the money you reward me with.
Of course, there are also people who really brought me a small financial shock, such as the 45 alliance leaders so far in this book.
Alliance leader! Friends! One alliance leader costs 1,000 yuan!!!
Whenever I think about this, I feel that my current living situation of having no worries about food and clothing may be just because I have not seen the world.
What makes me feel like I have never seen the world even more is the current Silver Alliance member Kratias and the Silver Alliance member Sain.
How come there are two Silver Alliances in this book?!!!
I didn't even write an outline when I started the book!!!!
…Why don’t I write an outline when I start a book?!
In addition, when the first Silver Alliance boss Kratias appeared, I had just finished 20,000 per day. My mental state was relatively poor at that time, so I did not complete a single chapter or give special thanks. I am really sorry!
And the other thing is!!! Boss Chenyi is the eternal god!! The first silver alliance!! The whole site banner!!! Thank you very much!!!
I said before that after the emergence of the Silver League, more updates will be made. However, after the full liberalization, the author has to commute three hours to work every day, and it is really impossible to finish writing.
Therefore, you guys can wait for me to be free and make additional updates, or you can just make comments and I will write whatever you want.
The number of words is uncertain and depends on the complexity of the plot. You can write CP, but it is basically impossible to include marginal content because it will not be reviewed, and the same goes for certain sensitive topics.
Of course, since I am a die-hard fan, there may not be much room for appreciation of this kind of customized extra, but I will definitely write it seriously and I will definitely write an outline in advance.
…So why didn’t I write an outline in advance?!!!!
Well, on the occasion of the first anniversary and the Chinese New Year, I would like to wish all readers and friends good luck in the Year of the Rabbit!