Jason was so frightened that he suddenly woke up, but his head was dizzy. After being forcibly awakened, Jason had a splitting headache. He felt that some clues appeared in his mind, but he couldn't concentrate at all.
Jason hasn't had such a serious illness in a long time. When he was Robin, his body has always been very strong. If he catches a cold, he basically only needs to rest for one night. After that, most of his physical discomfort will be gone.
It's trauma.
Jason has a strong tolerance for pain, so he is even more afraid of this kind of situation where he feels uncomfortable everywhere but can't tell where it is. What consumes more energy for him than headaches is dizziness, sacroarthral joint pain, and more.
What he couldn't stand was the weakness of his muscles. This kind of all-round weakness was as torture as being beaten all over his body.
Jason felt that his throat was swelling at a speed that was visible to the naked eye. Within just a few minutes, he was unable to speak. His nose was completely airtight, and his eyes were swollen and sore.
Rolled out of the eye sockets.
Ben Parker and Aunt May immediately realized that he had a bad cold. Don't think of a cold as a minor illness. It can be fatal if it is really serious.
So they carried Jason to the sofa in the living room with some effort, found him an ice pack for physical cooling, and then began to rummage in the medical cabinet at home, wiping his back and arms with alcohol.
Spider-Man came back soon, bringing fever-reducing medicine and syrup, as well as waffle mix, chocolate and electrolyte drinks.
Jason could only vaguely see a few figures surrounding him, and the rest of his consciousness was always sinking. When he was about to sink to the bottom, he recalled an experience he had when he was very young.
Serious illness.
It’s the cliché of getting caught in the rain again. This is a problem that is difficult to avoid in Gotham. It cannot be solved by holding an umbrella anytime and anywhere, because if you want to make a living on the streets, it is difficult for you to walk around the streets with an umbrella.
Leisurely and elegant, running most of the time.
When the wind blows, the space that an umbrella can cover is really limited. Children in Gotham basically wear cheap raincoats, but the raincoats are not insulating. If it is in a downpour, the washed rain will quickly take away the body temperature.
, until the whole body is cold.
Jason was also in a hurry that day. One of his friends got into trouble and was beaten half to death at the back door of a gang nightclub. He was anxious to save others, so he hurriedly put on his raincoat and rushed out.
It happened that it was raining heavily in Gotham that day, and heavy rainwater kept falling down, but a small figure had no time to walk along the gap under the eaves, but flew in the middle of the road.
Jason couldn't remember exactly how things were resolved that day. He only remembered that after returning to the cellar where he usually stayed, he began to feel hot all over, and was so cold that he felt as if he had fallen into an ice cave. His whole body hurt so much that he couldn't even move.
No.
It was then that Jason clearly realized that he was going to die.
Almost no children in Gotham can survive serious illness, because they are often alone, without relatives to take care of them, lack of medical treatment, and inadequate nutrition.
A small cut, or even a torn foot from running too much, can lead to death due to wound infection.
But Jason was different from them. He never wanted to give up. Even if he knew that he might not be able to survive, he still had to persevere. He had never thought that it would be better to die since he suffered so much.
During the entire process of fighting the disease, he never wanted to give up for a moment. All he could think about was survival, survival, survival.
He had the foresight to store some food, which was the key to his survival, so even though his throat was so sore that it was difficult to swallow, he still bit down the food fiercely, chewed hard and swallowed it in one go, like tearing apart prey like crazy.
The visceral wolf.
There was no clean water to drink, and the rainwater flowing down the cellar door was not undrinkable. It was too cold, so Jason dug a flue from the cracks in the bricks on the side of the cellar and lit a fire for himself.
The cold lasted for a full month, and the fever lasted for more than ten days. But in the end, Jason defeated the disease. When he walked out of the cramped underground space again, Gotham happened to have a bright day.
night.
From then on, he wanted to live even more, because he had survived such difficulties, what difficulties could he not survive? If he gave up later, wouldn't his previous suffering have been in vain?
After being picked up by Batman and brought home, being wealthy gave Jason more space to think, and he began to have time to think about why he wanted to live.
Batman gave him a goal, that is, fighting criminals is to uphold justice. For a long time, this was the purpose of Jason's life. He wanted to make this city better and let more people like him
People don't have to suffer like this anymore.
But things are unpredictable. Jason was kidnapped by the clown again. Amidst the torture in the dark, he began to do his best to survive, until the extreme pain completely distorted his previous goals. He was no longer for justice.
But for revenge.
After that long night, Jason's spirit was restarted by Schiller using therapeutic methods. Those distorted extreme thoughts were about to dissipate, and he returned to a wealthy and peaceful life again, which gave him time to start reflecting.
.
What can extreme violence bring? Jason thought of Spider-Man standing alone at the entrance of the alley, and he paid the price for Jason's momentary anger.
Ordinary people don't have that much room for revenge. They have to spend more time and energy on survival. Once they do something beyond their ability, it means there will be losses and it will only make them face more problems.
How difficult.
Batman can unscrupulously avenge criminals because he is Batman, and he is Bruce Wayne. His genius, wisdom and wealth make him have no worries, but ordinary people cannot.
Ordinary people will make mistakes and have to spend time paying for their mistakes. Ordinary people will struggle and spend more energy to make up for the consequences of their hesitation. Ordinary people don't have that strong willpower and need a longer period of entertainment and relaxation.
In order to maintain mental stability, they have little time and no ability to engage in some illusory revenge. If they insist on it, they will either go crazy or die.
He should know this better than others, Jason thought, because he is just an ordinary person, a poor little guy who climbed up from the bottom of society.
In this case, he should probably learn to live like an ordinary person, instead of engaging in illusory things that have nothing to do with survival, making himself extremely uncomfortable and dragging down other people.
The most important thing is the last point. Spider-Man told him that the arrangement for the Parker family this afternoon was supposed to be that Uncle Ben would repair the car while Aunt May did the general cleaning. After Peter finished his homework, he had to clean up the house with Uncle Ben who came back.
The Christmas tree was moved into the house.
But when Jason got sick like this, their plan was completely disrupted. Jason couldn't do without people, so at least Spider-Man and one other person had to be left behind, because Spider-Man didn't know how to take care of the sick.
, but he was the only one who could move Jason, and the only remaining person could not leave in order to take care of the food and daily life of these three people.
Their pre-Christmas decorations were all ruined, and Jason blinked slowly as he thought, tonight they would have had a decorated tree, a fridge full of Christmas dinner ingredients, and maybe a family gathering.
Talking about those happy topics, this was a rare time of relaxation for them in the year, but it was all ruined by themselves.
Because he sees himself as a great detective who insists on finding out what is going on with Bruce, because he sees himself as a thinker who stays up in the middle of the night and runs to the riverside to blow in the cold wind.
Jason wasn't even sure whether Batman wanted to live an ordinary life like him after so many years of revenge, or he didn't dare to think about this question because he had the answer in his heart.
The same applies to all superheroes. A small episode in their fight against criminals may be the catastrophe of ordinary people. The destroyed cars and smashed windows may have been bought by ordinary people at a large price.
Fire trucks, emergency vehicles, and employees who are rushing to deliver documents may all change the fate of many people because of the traffic jam.
Do their contributions to this society really outweigh their destruction? In other words, can this contribution and destruction make up for each other? The fate of a specific person who fell because of them can be determined by the success of the grand narrative perspective.
Was it so easily hidden?
Jason believes that it is not possible. This cannot be interoperable and can never offset each other. The development of the times and the changes in social conditions are sometimes not affected by the general public, but if everyone does not pursue this, they will never regard people’s livelihood as a priority.
That's right, the macro level will never develop in a good direction.
Jason's mind, which had been turned into a mess by high fever, kept thinking about these thoughts, and then he came to the conclusion that the world needs heroes, but it doesn't need so many heroes. Live your life as an ordinary person, and you are not also Batman.
A way to escape reality?
In this case, it was more important to solve his own dilemma first. Jason finally relaxed the muscles in his back and curled up on the soft sofa. He swallowed the medicine with some difficulty, drank a large glass of warm water, and then fell asleep.
.
The sleeping Jason was awakened by the aroma of waffles. He smelled the aroma of egg cream and pancakes, and seemed to have some sweetness of maple syrup. It was obvious that his nose was completely blocked, but these smells lingered in his mind.
around.
Jason slowly opened his eyes and saw Spider-Man holding a piece of muffin dangling over his head. As soon as Jason woke up, Spider-Man showed a big smile and said, "Are you awake? I
Just say that Parker’s muffins are a special medicine for colds, do you want to eat some?"
Jason struggled to prop up his body with his arms, keeping his upper body slightly upright, and said in a dry voice: "Can you give me some water first?"
"Happy to oblige." Spider-Man immediately handed a large glass of warm water to Jason. Jason had just taken two sips and didn't feel it yet, but he soon tasted the sweetness and saltiness in the water.
"I put a little glucose syrup and salt." Spider-Man said: "You sweated a lot when you were sleeping, I wiped it for you several times, and you seemed to have been having nightmares, always talking about bats.
Xia, how do you feel now?"
"I'm pretty good."
Jason was not being arrogant. When he realized that if he was not Robin or a superhero now, but just an ordinary person, he found that he had nothing to do.
All I can do now is to be a patient quietly and cultivate myself with peace of mind.