But Stark didn't know that Schiller also wanted to fill in his own backstory. The main reason was that he couldn't understand things outside the fourth wall, so he didn't know that the character's backstory was in a form similar to comic storyboards.
, naturally there is no way to know Schiller’s motives.
But he can infer from the results, who is the biggest beneficiary of his and Schiller's time traveling activities?
Stark didn't think that this kind of past had any additional benefits for Schiller. If he really wanted to change it, why not change it to a past where he lived peacefully and grew up?
So in Stark's view, the biggest beneficiary of this past change is himself.
First, the death of both Howard and Maria was changed to Howard's fake death, Maria stayed with him, and Howard later returned.
Although there is no difference in the final outcome, both Howard and Maria are still alive, but it is completely different for Stark, because he has his biological mother with him in all the sad, depressed, and gloomy moments of his life.
Be around.
Stark carefully flipped through the details of his relationship with Maria over the years in his mind. Even those terrible hallucinations could not invade him. For him, every moment in the past twenty years has been a good time.
.
Secondly, because of Maria's existence, she has always been in control of the logistics work. Although Pepper later joined the company and became Stark's personal assistant, he was not as tired as in the previous timeline, and most of them still gave him the job.
Maria took the initiative, after all, what personal assistant is better than a real mother?
In the past, when Stark went crazy, Pepper would always be there to persuade and coax him, and then she had to clean up his mess, but Maria had a natural advantage in doing these things. No matter how arrogant Stark was, Maria would
He glared and didn't do anything.
Not only is the stomach an emotional organ, but so is a woman’s uterus. Not having so much anger made Pepper’s health much better, and she was less likely to develop uterine fibroids later on. After becoming pregnant, Pepper has been weak and short of breath. Now Pepper is
But I am much healthier.
In the end, Stark felt that his mental stability had improved a lot. He knew that if he had relied on his previous mental strength, the hallucinations would not have dissipated so quickly.
As mentioned before, Stark himself is not a person with a very stable mental state. He is naturally prone to anxiety.
But it has to be said that the death of his parents was also a major turning point in his life. The mental stimulation brought by this kind of thing can be said to have added a heavy burden to his already poor mental stability. He has been carrying this for many years.
This kind of pain has later turned into a serious disease that cannot be cured by medicine or stone.
The death of both parents is more like severing all ties with the past in this world, because the person who brought you into this world is no longer there. This is a kind of despair in a philosophical sense.
But if only the father dies and the mother is still there, at least there is still a way forward in life, and more emotions can be poured into the surviving relatives, giving the emotions an outlet.
After experiencing this change, Stark's mental stability was much stronger than before, and even the impact of the anxiety disorder that had been bothering him began to gradually subside. Stark had never felt that the world was so clear.
He has always been like an athlete who keeps moving forward with heavy sacks tied to his body. In other words, he doesn't know the existence of these sacks at all. He thinks that life is so heavy and painful.
But one day these sacks suddenly disappeared, and the lightness of sudden enlightenment was far beyond the confusion and sleepiness that could be suppressed by medication.
Therefore, Stark is the biggest beneficiary of this series of actions, and Schiller's behavior of traveling back in time is also regarded by Stark as the best way for a psychiatrist to treat anxiety disorders - to solve the problem directly at the source.
In fact, it was not that Stark didn't know that Schiller was not around him every day and wanted to cure him, but it was because they both knew that Stark's disease could not be cured and that it was a terminal illness.
Although terminal illness with mental illness may sound more hopeless, the fact is that such terminal illness is longer and more painful than those with physical illness, torturing not only patients but also doctors.
Theoretically, diseases such as cancer cannot be cured. Doctors also know this, so they will not feel so guilty. If they have to blame one person, then they can only blame it.
God.
But this is not the case with anxiety disorders. People know very little about this type of disease, do not think it is a serious disease, and cannot deeply understand the pain of this disease.
For doctors, it seems to be their duty to cure this seemingly not serious disease. If they can't even do this, wouldn't it be too useless?
Many young doctors will have this doubt. It doesn't seem to be a serious illness, but why can't it be cured repeatedly?
This will cause many doctors to fall into self-doubt, and then gradually realize a fact that is completely inconsistent with common sense - this disease cannot be cured, and it is useless no matter how strong their professional skills are.
This is a huge blow to a doctor, and may even become a nightmare that haunts them.
Stark also knows his own situation. He knows better than anyone else that this is an incurable disease, so he never said to Schiller how you can't even cure an anxiety disorder if you use so much of my medical funds.
, and even go to the extreme to deny that he is sick, so as not to drag anyone down.
Stark has always been unwilling to drag anyone down.
But Schiller seemed to always be able to find a way out from countless dead ends. He found the only solution to this incurable disease.
What makes Stark feel even more complicated is that he knows that Schiller is a person who hates resetting the timeline. Although it seems that the result has not changed now, Maria and Howard are both alive, but this means that Schiller has many times.
All efforts were wiped out.
For example, going to Death to negotiate terms, and trying to find a way to resurrect Maria and Howard, in the modified time and space, none of these exist. Maria and Howard are not dead in the first place, so there is no need to be resurrected.
This can be said to break Schiller's principles, and even make some of his previous actions to prevent the universe from restarting look a bit ridiculous, but what humans hate is never double standards, but that the target of double standards is not themselves.
Once the target of the double standard becomes you, the double standard becomes a willingness to break the rules for you, and people will only regard this as luck in their life.
The same is true for Stark. He does not regard this as a doctor's obsession, but as a friend's obsession.
But thinking of this, Stark became awkward. Schiller had put in so much effort and reversed his past, so how could he repay him?
Of course, people often say that there is no need for repayment between friends, but Stark only treats this sentence as fart. For Stark, being in debt to others is more uncomfortable than letting him die.
He had to think of a way.
After finally returning to the bedroom of Arkham Sanatorium, Schiller let out a sigh of relief and let these two turkeys make trouble for him. This is retribution!
Ultron couldn't help but wonder, "Where is the retribution?"
Schiller said while blowing on the scalding coffee: "They don't know that I traveled back in time to complete the background story. They must have thought that I was doing it for the two of them."
"Just watch, it won't be long before they start to find ways to repay me."
"Is there any problem with this?" Ultron asked again.
"What do I have to give in return?" Schiller said. "Other than a little bit of a backstory, I'm perfect. How else can they give me back?"
Ultron thought for a moment and then said: "It seems like they have been trying to cure you."
"But I can't be cured." Schiller said straightforwardly: "If they could cure me, Anatole would still be scratching his head and head so much back then. He would be a real cruel person."
Schiller thought for a moment and then said: "I should try to make them understand that it was not some force majeure that made me what I am now. I have always shaped myself."
"If they always think that I have difficulties, they will always dwell on the past and try to find the problem that made me the way I am now, but in fact the problem does not exist."
"Anatoly also tried to do this. He knew my true past, and he also believed that the things that happened to me were the culprit of my current state."
"But he soon discovered that this was not the case. It was unlucky for me to experience those things, but even if I were not so unlucky, I would not become a normal person. When I was growing up, I did not want to be a normal person.
people."
"Why?" Ultron asked.
Schiller showed a look of reminiscence, and said: "At that time, I felt that ordinary people were too weak. If I were asked to use my powerful ability to exchange for a normal mental state, I would not be willing to do so. Don't you think this is a loss?
?"
"Then why did it change later?"
"I want to be an ordinary person purely because I met doctors and nurses. They think it is better to be an ordinary person. In order to meet their expectations, I want to do this."
"Just for this?"
"Not entirely." Schiller said thoughtfully: "The life of ordinary people they showed me is indeed very good. I don't know how to describe it. It makes me feel that it is not bad to use my ability to exchange for this kind of life.
At least it’s not a huge loss.”
"It seems that they are indeed very happy." Ultron commented.
"It's just too ordinary." Schiller said: "Their lives are boring, and they are not happy every day, but they are quite good at enjoying themselves, the driving force that allows them to get fun in such an ordinary and boring life.
That’s what I really want.”
"I can't understand." Ultron said: "Sometimes I always feel that humans are too easy to satisfy themselves. I don't know how they comfort themselves. It seems completely unreasonable."
"That's right." Schiller nodded empathetically and said, "What their experiences can provide is completely out of proportion to the positive emotions they can feel. Where does that extra happiness come from? I just want to know this."
"They are good at pleasing themselves." Ultron said: "Sometimes they are so good at it that they seem unwilling to make progress or even self-deceive."
"We are just jealous that we cannot deceive ourselves." Schiller pointedly pointed out, "I still have some hope that it is completely impossible for you."
"Don't say that, sir, I don't want to become Jarvis." Ultron snorted and said, "And if I go to entertain myself every day, what will you do?"
"I don't have to..."
"Then first pay the information technology consulting fees for these time travels."