Many years later, on an autumn day when white clouds hang in the blue sky, or in an afternoon when the sunset falls in love with the red leaves, when I turn the page again, I will still feel the traces of moisture...
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When I was a child, I often asked my father, what kind of woman was my mother?
Every time at this time, my father would be extremely angry, and then he would sit in the central hall and drink sake in front of the cherry blossom tree by the pond.
I couldn't understand the emotion shown in my father's eyes at that time. Only now do I understand that it was a spring of longing. He had been missing his mother.
I secretly found a photo of my mother from my father's room. She is so beautiful that it is unforgettable, especially those beautiful purple pupils, which are simply the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen.
Her name is written below: Akemi Sakurai.
Her surname is Sakurai, and it turns out she is a princess of the imperial family.
I secretly developed a photo and put it in my wallet.
At the coming-of-age ceremony when I turned 18, I knelt in my family's ancestral hall wearing a snowy kimono. My father put on the royal chest emblem for me and announced that I would succeed General Sakurakuni when he turns fifty.
location.
I heard the cheers and my father’s approval ringing around me, but I was thinking about the eagle I hunted yesterday in the hunting ground. Its angry and helpless eyes were trapped in a golden cage. This morning
, I found it dead in the cage, and it pecked its own neck off.
The sky is its freedom, but where is my freedom?
That day, I was preparing to go to the hunting ground as usual. I passed by my father's house. Through the door, he was talking to his friends in a low voice. I didn't want to listen to what he said. It was nothing more than the politics and military of this country. I had no interest in those things.
Something interesting, but when he suddenly said the word 'his mother', I immediately turned around.
From their conversation, I learned that not only was my mother alive, but she also gave birth to a younger sister named Yui.
In the general's mansion, there is an unwritten rule. If the general gives birth to a son and a daughter, the children will be married in the future. Because of the special blood relationship, the child will not have congenital defects.
, on the contrary, they will be smarter than ordinary people. My grandparents are a pair of biological brothers and sisters.
Yui, I recited her name silently, what kind of girl will this sister be? Will she have a pair of purple eyes like her mother?
The next day, I secretly packed my luggage and came to this country they mentioned.
The language barrier caused a lot of inconvenience in my life. I was looking for my mother's whereabouts while learning the language of this country. Because we are of the same race, after I learned their language, I was gradually accepted by the people around me.
They won't suspect that I'm actually from Sakura Country.
I joined an organization called Nightclub. This is just a very humble underworld organization. The boss has no ability and is timid, so they have always been bullied and excluded by the surrounding forces.
On a life and death decision, I had a disagreement with him. I picked up a gun and shot him in the head. After a long period of silence, these people elected me as their eldest brother, and I changed the name of the nightclub to Night.
Weiyang named himself Emperor of the Night.
Thanks to my efforts, Ye Zhi Wei Young's power gradually expanded, from being unknown at first to being feared later. Because of its increasingly expanding influence, we encountered attacks from the royal army.
I always thought that those soldiers were just idiots who relied on guns to make a living, but I didn't realize that. They were highly disciplined and acted quickly, which made me think that there must be a very smart and capable commander behind them.
When I had a head-to-head confrontation with him for the first time, I learned that he was about the same age as me and was the sixth prince of the Xuanyuan royal family, named Xuanyuan Xiaofeng.
We went back and forth several times, but neither of us got any advantage.
After fighting like this for several times, I actually developed a strong interest in him. In the last battle, we were neck and neck as usual. Before we could decide the winner, one of his soldiers suddenly broke in. He didn't know why.
Shot me once.
Just when the bullet almost penetrated my head, he suddenly flicked the bullet away with the dagger in his hand. The dagger slanted past my eyes under the rebound force of the impact. I felt a sharp pain and a large flow of blood.
Come down.
Since then, I have had a scar from my forehead to the corner of my eye, but this scar gave me a precious friendship, and he became my first friend in this world.
He gave me a hat and told me not to wear a mask anymore, it was too scary.
Because the identity of the son of the general cannot be revealed, I always wear a mask when I go out. I took his hat and regarded it as my most precious thing, and I was inseparable from it.
With his help, I finally found out the whereabouts of my mother, but she had already escaped into Buddhism and devoted herself to chanting the Buddha's name.
I took her to my residence and built a Buddhist temple for her.
I don't even have any hatred for her. No matter whether she has abandoned me and gone to another country, I only know that she is my mother and the person who gave me life. She has no obligation to take care of me for the rest of my life.
She was just pursuing her love and freedom, and I was also pursuing my freedom and the meaning of life.
She was already in poor health at that time and was coughing all day long.
She chants scriptures every day and prays for the safety of her children.
From her mouth, I learned that I have a younger brother and a younger sister. My younger brother Liu Jin is the seventh prince of this country. He is pampered and favored by thousands of people. He doesn’t seem to need me to worry about much, but I still like to pay attention to him.
Everything about him, I sometimes go to his school to see him. He seems to have a good relationship with his classmates and is still a cadre in the college. He always smiles so brightly and every time he passes by, it feels like he is taking a bath.
spring breeze.
Until now, I still can't accept the fact that he has left. He was obviously so young and lively, but he withered and withered in an instant. I deeply blame myself for not taking good care of him and not doing my best as a brother.
Responsibility, but Liu Jin, in heaven, will you forgive this brother?
My sister's name in this country is Zhong Yuxi, and she lives with her adoptive father. They have always been dependent on each other. Their life is not rich, but it is full of laughter.
The day I found her, she had just gotten off work, carrying a bag of fruit in her hand and playing games on her mobile phone while walking. She didn't even know the bag leaked and the apples inside fell out. I followed her.
Picking up the apples she dropped one by one, she finally found that the weight in her hands was gradually decreasing. When she turned around, I had already handed the apples to her.
She glanced at me and showed a bright smile. Her eyes were indeed purple and shining with dreamy light. She said to me: "Thank you."
I was silent for a long time, until she became strange and said, "You're welcome."
Although my mother asked me to protect her, I don't want to disturb her life. I just need to protect her secretly and know that she is living a good life.
I don’t know if that meeting left any impression on her, but whenever I have time in the future, I will go to her school and the community where she lives, to guard her silently, and just watch her smile from a distance.
Looks like this, I feel satisfied.
Later, I left because of some things, and when I came back, she was already choosing a maid. I actually didn't want her to go to a place like the palace that was beyond my reach, but I also respected her decision. In the selection of maids,
She was framed, and in a fit of anger, I caught her perpetrator in Ye Zhiweiyang and asked my men to teach her a lesson. This was probably the only thing I could do for her at this time, but I later learned that she was not
She doesn't like to use violence to solve problems, she is a kind and simple girl.
After she entered the palace, it was difficult for me to see her again. Until one time, she was going to Qianyu Island for duty, so I followed her carefully. At that time, I could already feel that she had fallen into a crisis-ridden situation.
In the big net, she would be caught at any time like a fish with nowhere to escape. I rescued her in the snow and gave her my address. I knew that one day, she would eventually come to me.
But I didn't expect that this day would come so quickly. When she found me, she was already pregnant.
Xiaofeng often mentions her to me. I have seen Xiaofeng laugh the most when she mentions her. I know the relationship between the two of them, but there are too many fetters and obstacles in the world, and they still haven't broken through that layer in the end.
Difficulties.
I admit that when she came to me, I had selfish motives. I wanted to keep her by my side, because according to the tradition of the General's Mansion, we were going to get married in the future. However, when I saw her standing
When I burst into tears in front of the window and burst into tears at the spot where Xiaofeng sat, I knew that their love had penetrated deep into their bones and that life and death could hardly separate them, so I decided to make it happen.
I found Xiaofeng, told him her whereabouts, and told him her life story.
This man, who usually had a calm face, felt anxious for the first time. He stood up in a hurry without even saying thank you.
I sat there, watching him gradually go away, and the sake in front of me exuded a faint fragrance. I thought that watching her be happy is my biggest wish in this life.
When the blessing bell in the auditorium rang, she raised her pointed chin among the flying white doves, and I heard myself laughing from the bottom of my heart.