What was once a young baby has become a middle-aged man.
But the regrets and regrets in my heart are becoming more and more. As I get older, more and more relatives around me are passing away.
Whether they are closely related or dislike each other.
They are all getting sick, aging and dying one after another.
The pain of separation between life and death, the sadness of separation between yin and yang, the silence of a noisy family, the loneliness of emptiness and loneliness, the nostalgia of missing relatives, the helplessness of regretting the past...
All kinds of joys and sorrows, ups and downs, come unexpectedly.
Temper and sharpen that young and immature heart.
However, the various invisible pressures from society are becoming more and more numerous and complex, making him more and more silent.
I no longer like to talk, and I no longer feel confident.
It's like a completely changed person.
But more importantly, as one grows older, physical diseases also follow one after another and become more complicated.
Even living a good and healthy life has become an unattainable luxury.
…
…
In the long night.
It's late at night and the smog is thick.
This middle-aged man was sitting alone in the yard, holding a bottle of beer and drinking it one sip at a time.
Looking up at the sky, I can't see any stars.
Even the moonlight, which should have been bright and bright, became dim and hazy, looming, and full of disgusting and filthy feeling.
The difference between the bright starry sky and the dazzling galaxy in my childhood memory is too huge.
It also made him feel more and more unfamiliar with this world.
"I regret it!"
"How great would it be if I could come back to life with memories?"
Looking up at the vast starry sky, all I see is haze covering the sky.
I can no longer see the beautiful starry sky that I once had.
…
…
Until this person is on the verge of death.
The world in front of me suddenly froze.
Si Yuan, who felt the same way as him, suddenly woke up. The part of his memory that had been erased by the Six Paths of Reincarnation returned at this moment.
He truly recalled his past life.
In his eyes, this guy who was a straight man and a fool was actually the same person he once was.
"This is...my life, full of regret and pain."
"But it's so real."
Si Yuan stayed in this frozen world, his heart full of longing and love.
The body that was originally uncontrollable could be completely controlled and influenced by him at this moment. The body that had died of illness walked down from the bed on its own.
Walking alone in this familiar world that is frozen and still.
He swept past the passing vehicles and pedestrians and didn't care. As he walked by, the world behind him became illusory and hazy.
Like flowers in the water or the moon in the well.
It is also like a deserted castle, crumbling and disintegrating as the waves of time wash away it.
He walked through the hospital where life and death were separated, the various companies where he worked hard and tired in his previous life, and also walked through the university campus, high school campus, junior high school campus, elementary school campus and even the earliest kindergarten school when he was in school... In the end, he
Back to where the high school campus is again.
Everything here has long since changed.
On this land, there are now many unfamiliar buildings and various decorations, making them far different from the impressions in my memory.
Even the faces of the teachers and students in the school are so unfamiliar.
"Crash...!"
Wherever the intention arises, time goes back.
All the unfamiliar sights here are quickly returned to the past, back to the high school that Si Yuan is familiar with.
Some are shabby and some are crude.
But it is the most impressive school memory.
The familiar faces and figures appeared in front of me again.
They are young and energetic, full of vitality and vitality. Their young and beautiful faces are full of innocent laughter, and have not been contaminated by the dyeing vat of society at all.
Si Yuan's steps moved slightly, as if he was teleporting.
Appearing out of thin air in front of the beautiful female classmate who had the deepest impression on me.
Watching her turn her head to look at her previous life when she was also young, with a shy and sweet smile on her beautiful and pure face.
His clear eyes were filled with envy and admiration.
There is also pure love that cannot be concealed.
"You make me like and make me angry at the same time!"
Vaguely, Si Yuan seemed to have heard such a cute and innocent words again.
Now, he has completely understood this sentence. She really likes him, but she is also angry that he is a tough-headed, steely straight man.
No matter how tempting she was, she just didn't accept her hidden love.
Sometimes I even find her annoying.
"After all these years, how are you doing?"
Si Yuan whispered secretly.
The frozen scene in front of me began to switch at an extremely fast speed.
Time began to flow forward, and everything was moving forward at a faster pace. After a while, she was frozen in the same middle-aged period.
The passage of time and the growth of age.
and the stress and torture of life.
The beautiful appearance that still amazes everyone even without makeup has become a little swollen and ugly.
The mandible has sunk in a lot, and the bone structure of the mandible can be vaguely seen. The bags under the eyes are swollen, and the eyes are cloudy and bloodshot.
My skin, which was as fair as jade, also became dark and yellow with spots.
The once full head of jet-black hair now has a lot of withered gray hair and often falls off. Even the tall and beautiful back is unconsciously curved.
Pingting is so talented that she is already old and wan.
There were wine bottles, dirty clothes, etc. randomly thrown away at her feet, there were even broken furniture, blood stains on the clothes and the ground, etc.
All of them indicate that she is suffering domestic violence from her husband in her life.
"We both missed each other in our best years."
"That one miss is a lifelong miss."
Si Yuan unconsciously raised his right hand and gently touched the face.
It was swollen and rough, much uglier than before. But through the remaining traces between the eyebrows and eyes, some shadows of the past could be vaguely seen.
When she was young, she was a rare pure beauty.
"I hope we can meet again in your next life."
A brief moment of stagnation and pause.
Everything in front of me suddenly disappeared and became nothing.
Si Yuan's figure flickered and changed, and he appeared in a new place again.
There are weeds all over the place and there are many graves. An ordinary small mound is the end and record of a person's life.
Just as time goes by.
Even the small mounds of soil that remain will disappear and be erased, leaving no trace at all.
"Wow...!"
Time changes, stars change.
In the end, the scene in front of me once again appeared in multiple freeze-frames and switches.
It was one grave after another.
Buried inside are my grandfather, grandmother, aunt, uncle, grandpa, grandma, father...
He has seen tombstones one after another, weathered by the vicissitudes of life.
Finally, Si Yuan stood in silence in front of the grave of his closest relative in his previous life.
Tianyumu reminds you: Remember to collect after reading this