At that time, she just told the old housekeeper that the child was Ruyu and said nothing else. This was the first time that she told the past in full. She felt relieved and felt heavier...
Su Ruhua looked at Ruyu who was covering her eyes, her heart was clenched, and she couldn't help hugging Ruyu, "Xiaoyu, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry..."
Ruyu never cries.
Even when she thought her child was dead, and she thought she and Mo Shitian had deceived and betrayed her, she never cried. In all her years, she had never seen Su Ruyu cry.[
Su Ruyu's whole body was stiff, her mind was muddled, and she was very groggy, as if she were a poor person floating on the sea, unable to find her direction, and tears kept flowing down her fingers...
Back then, she loved Mo Shitian, her family, and her sister deeply, but they all gave her a fatal blow. When she was hesitant, helpless, and full of hatred, no one helped her.
Instead, it pushed her further...
Now that all the truth is revealed, why are you crying?
For the sisterhood they had for so many years, for the joy that Mo Shitian didn't betray her, or for the child's grievance for not calling her mother for so many years... Su Ruyu couldn't tell the difference anymore.
Su Ruhua burst into tears and felt even more ashamed of her.
"Xiaoyu, what do you want, sister has nothing to say, as long as you feel better." Su Ruhua's purple eyes were filled with tears. For so many years, she only dared to shed tears of regret at night when no one was around.
A single mistake, one mistake after another, caused irreparable consequences. She didn't know how to make up for it. If Ruyu didn't die, she couldn't get a word of forgiveness from her, and she didn't even have the face to see her parents.
Therefore, after so many years of wandering around, I didn’t even dare to return home.
Who can understand the pain and suffering in her heart, but Su Ruhua also knows that she is doing her own fault and has to bear everything by herself, but Ruyu...
Su Ruyu wiped her tears and pushed Su Ruhua away, "Don't touch me."
"Ruyu..."
"Why didn't you say it back then, ah? Why didn't you say it back then?" Su Ruyu's face was still wet with tears, and she couldn't help shouting angrily, "If you had come back and told it, would what happened next have happened? Why didn't you dare to face it?
To me? If you want to leave, why don’t you go far away? Why don’t you disappear in front of me forever? Why do you have to be found by me? If you want to hide it from me, why don’t you go far away..."
Su Ruyu didn't know what she wanted to express. Her mood was ups and downs. The tip of her nose was sore and red. Her breath was held in her throat, and she couldn't swallow it or get it out.
She looked at Su Ruhua, who was also in tears, and became even more angry...but then, she also felt a little pity and...pain.
Back then, she pushed Ruhua...
If she hadn't pushed it, maybe she wouldn't have been born prematurely and the child wouldn't have died.
Su Ruyu turned her face away, her tears falling more quickly. Her heart was colder than anyone else's. When she got angry, she really didn't recognize her relatives, and even more cruelly, she really wanted to die with Mo Shitian. However, she never forgot the mistake she made unintentionally.
…
"Xiaoyu, blame your sister alone. Mo Shitian doesn't know anything. He doesn't remember what happened at all. It was my sister's greedy fault." Su Ruhua said, almost kneeling in front of Su Ruyu, begging her for forgiveness.[
Su Ruyu stood up suddenly, wiped the tears on her face, gritted her teeth and said, "I will not forgive you, I won't... Su Ruhua, our family of four has been separated for more than 20 years because of you. If it weren't for you, I would
There won't be so many misunderstandings with Shi Tian, he won't be that crazy, and his parents won't die. Those children... I have the same pair of children as I don't have. Have you seen the way they look at me? It's hatred.
Yes, it’s hateful..."
"no no……"
"Why not? Am I a fool? I can't see this clearly?" Su Ruyu said angrily, "This is all caused by you. My husband and I have been separated for almost 27 years, and I have never enjoyed the pride of being a mother for a day.
, I haven’t given my children any care. I don’t have to think about it, and I know what kind of life they are living with Shi Tian. If I just look at the eyes of the second child, he will not be good to the children. Su Ruhua, the four of us
Who caused the pain? You want me to forgive you, how can I forgive you, ah, sister..."
Su Ruhua raised her head, tears sliding down her cheeks...
Sorry, these three words seemed too pale. She knew that what Ruyu said was the truth, completely the truth. The pain of the four of them was all caused by her...
Su Ruyu opened Su Ruhua's hand that had been holding her wrist, one finger after another, and opened it...
"Xiaoyu..."
Su Ruyu turned a deaf ear and turned to leave. Outside the garden, everyone was waiting. They could not hear what their sisters said. They could only hear Su Ruyu's roar and Su Ruhua's cry, but nothing else.
Mo Shitian looked at the wet tears on Su Ruyu's face, and his heart twisted, "Ruyu..."
She smiled coldly, Mo Shitian, you... damn hereditary disease! Should she be angry? Should she be angry? He couldn't remember anything. No wonder, when she asked him, he said he didn't know...
No, it's impossible for him not to know. He doesn't remember what happened between him and Su Ruhua in those days, but he always knew that he would get sick if he drank, and he didn't tell her the truth back then.
"Master, are you okay?" Eleven, Ye Wei and others looked at her worriedly. They had never seen Su Ruyu like this.
Brothers Mo Ye and Mo Jue rushed into the back garden like a gust of wind. Su Ruyu looked at their backs and almost couldn't help but shed tears that she had just stopped... Her children...
These are her children! She should be happy that they are still alive. She should be really happy, but why is the pain in her heart so severe?
Although they are her children, the mother in their hearts is Su Ruhua... The person they respect and love is also Su Ruhua. She gritted her teeth to prevent tears from falling...
As a mother, although she has never gotten along with them, she has forgotten the past twenty years. For her, these past twenty years are blank. In her memory, it seems that she gave birth to a child, and then the child
Suddenly growing up, her love for her child has not disappeared... just like the grief she felt when she thought her child had died...
But the person the children love is not her.
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I beg for a gold medal... (*^__^*) Hee hee... I am begging for a gold medal for the Demon Concubine...