She said: "I tried hard, tried various methods, tried hard to seal up those memories that were brought up, but it was so difficult. As soon as I closed my eyes, I would see the memories on the DVD.
Those images, those unbearables, those humiliations, those fears, those... Chang Mian... I can't do it, I can't do it, what should I do?"
She said: "Why is life so tiring? Always so tiring? Endless disasters?"
She said: "After giving birth, I lived secretly on the island; after giving birth, I still stayed here without leaving home... It's all like this, so why don't you let us go?... What's the next step?
, what do they want to do next, hurt my Che'er?"
She said: "I am not strong, I am not strong at all. I just want to live an ordinary life. I want to live the ordinary life that I used to have. The world is full of sunshine, I can go shopping freely, and I can stand somewhere freely.
Looking at the scenery under a billboard, I can be very fulfilled and do what I like without any scruples..."
There are two regrets in a person's life that are the most tormenting: one is not getting the one you love; the other is the one you love not getting happiness.
He tried hard to think back on the past, and really found that he did not bring her much happiness, but instead kept bringing her disasters.
Over and over again, never ending.
Her pain and disaster were all caused by him. It has been almost two years since she got married and she has never lived a stable life with him.
Is it because Chang Mian is too useless?
Yes.
It was because he was too useless and could not give her a stable life or real happiness.
Everything was caused by his incompetence.
At that moment, he seemed to feel that he really didn't deserve to have her, and she didn't deserve to have her who kept bringing him sunshine and warmth like an angel.
"Chang Shang, I really owe you so much."
His heart was full of butterflies in his stomach.
Afraid of seeing Chang Sang's disappointed eyes.
Although she looked weak and weak, her heart was stronger than anyone else. He kept prepaying her strength and squandering it, but he never asked her, would she feel safe by his side?
Is there any?
In the past, he could brazenly say that she didn't feel safe being around him, so who else in the world could give her a sense of security.
But now he realizes that he is the most unworthy person in the world to say this word.
"Did I make you feel wronged?"
"Are you particularly disappointed in me?"
"What should I do? Even if I make you feel wronged, even if I make you disappointed in me, I can't bear to let you go. I can't let you go. I can only shamelessly ask you to spend the rest of my life with me."
Go on."
Chang Mian said these heart-wrenching words to himself, but he felt that his heart was empty and he couldn't tell what kind of mood he was feeling.
"Dad...Mom...Mom...Dad..."
Little Cheche didn't know when, her little body fell to the edge of the bed, with one calf hanging outside the bed, as if she would fall off the bed at any time. Chang Mian stretched out his hand to retrieve it in fear, put it down gently, and then said
: "Che'er, my father is relying on you now. You must make your mother happy, do you understand?"
"Giggle, giggle..." Che'er just laughed, laughing so much that his saliva flowed out. Such a young child didn't understand anything, but his laughter was just right, and it was a good medicine to heal people's heartbreak.