"My father dotes on me because he dotes on my mother, but because I was poisoned by the red lotus poison, I know that I will not live to be 25 years old."
"Although I am gentle and polite to everyone, I am extremely resentful and jealous of them."
"I'm jealous of them, why they won't be poisoned, why they are healthy, but I can only be sick."
"I read many, many books, but I felt more and more desperate because my disease was almost incurable."
"My heart has become dark!"[
"But after seeing your smile, I realized that I had been wrong all along."
"I only see my pain, but not the happiness I have!"