The coughing affected my whole body, and every cough seemed to take out my lungs.
Shangguan Yun has been sitting next to me. I didn't turn my head to look at him. I just stared outside blankly and opened the window. Even though it is winter, I still want to open the window and open the window wide to let in the cold wind.
Blow in, even though I'm shivering from the cold, I still want to blow the cold air.
I'm afraid that my mind won't be clear. I'm afraid that my mind won't be clear. I'm afraid...
Especially when he's sitting next to me...
I need the cold wind to wake me up...
"Close the window." After a long time, I was shivering with cold, my lips were purple, and Shangguan Yun's faint voice sounded in my ears.
I didn't listen to him. I pretended not to hear him at all. I just looked outside, blowing the cold wind...
When he said these words, my mood began to become complicated again. Just because of his words, my throat began to choke again. Tears were already rolling in my eyes. My heart was sour and my nose was sore.
acid……
Why am I still so useless? I feel cowardly and want to cry because of his words.
"I'm very cold, could you please close the window?" Then, I heard Shangguan Yun's voice again, and it was still very light, very plain.
I'm not used to hearing this kind of voice from him.
Very unaccustomed, very unaccustomed...
His words were so strange and unfamiliar, and his tone was also unfamiliar. He was basically talking to a stranger.
That's right, the two of us are strangers, right?
Just because of these words, my tears fell silently.
I still didn't close the window and turned my head outside, letting the strong wind blow on my face.
I didn't reach out to wipe it. I was afraid that Shangguan Yun would find out if I wiped it like this. I didn't want him to know that I shed tears for him again. This was a sign of cowardice. I hated myself for it.
I really don’t understand how he could curse so loudly, bitch...
I want the crazy wind to dry my tears, but even if it is dried, what is the use?
Tears will still flow out, and my heart will still hurt.
Could it be that if the wind dries my tears, my heart will no longer hurt?
No, no...
When I was staring outside and crying, Shangguan Yun reached out and closed the window door.
Suddenly, the feeling of the biting cold wind disappeared. I only felt the air was very heavy and stuffy, so stuffy that I almost suffocated.
Even though the window was closed, I still kept coughing and coughing and kept coughing...
Sitting next to Shangguan Yun, smelling the familiar smell on his body.
Thinking of his warm embrace that only belonged to me, my heart felt empty again, so empty.
It was originally my exclusive embrace, but now it has become so strange.
Just like strangers...really strangers from the same profession...
I miss his warm and strong embrace, I miss him crazily.
I want him to give me care and love, but now he won't give it to me, not anymore.
Even if he gives it to me, I won’t take it, I won’t take it anymore.