Yes, why would I ask such a question? How could I ask him whether he was Shangguan Yun or Ah Hao?
Am I really crazy?
But if I am really crazy, then I was driven crazy by Shangguan Yun.
"You...just say it." Shangguan Yun's choked voice sounded in my ears again.
I swallowed, I didn't dare to look at his expression, I was scared, I was really scared, scared...
"I...I, Shangguan Yun, I...I didn't mean it." I lowered my head and said apologetically.
"Xuanxuan, you really hurt my heart too much. Xuanxuan...you...this...is this intentional or not?" Shangguan Yun's voice was still choked with sobs.
When I raised my head and looked at him, I found that his eyes were already red, and there seemed to be a thin layer of mist in his eyes, like a liquid. Could it be that I was being blinded?
Shangguan Yun hurriedly turned his head and said, "It hurts me." Looking at his lonely back, my heart hurt like a knife.
Why am I always so kind-hearted, but I still feel sorry for him, and my heart aches for him.
I myself want others to sympathize with me.
I should feel more heartbroken for myself, but instead, I feel heartbroken for him.
Isn't this what I want him to be like?
Don't I just want revenge? Don't I just want Shangguan Yun to experience that pain?
Now I can say that my goal has been achieved. I should be happy. Why does my heart hurt so much?
Because I still love him very much and I still can't let him go.
The deeper the love, the deeper the hatred will be...
Looking at his back, I was helpless, but had no words to say. I pulled the quilt, slowly moved to the bed, picked up the messy clothes on the floor, and picked them up one by one and held them in my arms.
Then he slowly climbed out of bed and went to the bathroom, locked the bathroom door, and started rinsing his body.
At this time, I hated my body. I felt that my body was so dirty, really dirty. No matter how much I washed, I still couldn't clean my lower body. The "dirty" could no longer be washed away.
Finally, I cried again. I sobbed silently. I didn’t want Shangguan Yun to hear it. I squatted on the ground and sobbed silently. In the end, I burst into tears and sat on the floor. It was so cold. Even though the hot water was still there, I cried again.
I'm leaving it, but it's still very cold...
Waves of coldness hit my whole body and enveloped my whole body...
After crying for a long time, I got up weakly, washed my body again, put on clothes, and walked out...
When I went out, Shangguan Yun was still lying on the bed with his hands on his head...
I glanced at him and said calmly: "You have forgotten what happened last night, and thank you for taking me in last night. If nothing happens, I will leave first."
Shangguan Yun turned to look at me while I was talking. His eyes looked sad, sad, sad...
Shangguan Yun never spoke.
"Then I'll leave first." After saying that, I ran away as if I was running away. Shangguan Yun didn't call me to stop me, and I had no intention of staying.
After leaving the room, I saw Yun Xuan sitting alone at the door of the bathroom. He looked so pitiful, so pitiful...