"Shangguanyun, it's not that I don't want to keep your child for you. It's true that I don't have the ability. I really don't. I know you have the ability, but I can't do anything. I am more than willing but not strong enough." I choked and said.
I put my hand on my lower abdomen. How could I not feel heartache?
Do I just have the heart to abort this child?
This is the child I had with Guanyun. This is the first child I had with Guanyun.
Once upon a time, I fantasized about having my first child with Shangguan Yun.
Watching my belly grow day by day, watching the child being born, and then slowly watching him grow up little by little.
Watch him smile, watch him talk and walk, watch him...
I have fantasized about these scenes in my mind many times.
I really didn't expect that this child would come so soon, but when we were incapable of doing so.
When I found out I was pregnant, I was very determined to abort the child.
I never thought about letting Shangguan Yun know, because I knew Shangguan Yun would be very reluctant to let go.
In the past, Shangguan Yun would always caress my belly gently and tell me that from now on, there will be his child in my belly, our child, the crystallization of our love.
But now that he really has one, he has to be aborted.
Let me ask, who can bear it?
"I know, I understand. I don't blame you. Really, I will accompany you to abort the child tomorrow." Shangguan Yun's voice was still choked with sobs.
"Shangguanyun, are you willing to give up?" I asked with tears in my eyes.
Shangguan Yun raised his head, looked at me with a smile and said, "You are more important. In my hard work and frustration, you are the most important."
"Shangguanyun, I can't bear it." My tears finally fell, and they were so cold across my face.
"Okay, you have a baby in your belly now. You are still crying, so you are not afraid of being laughed at." Shangguan Yun said with a smile and gently wiped the tears from my face.
When Shangguan Yun said this, I suddenly leaned into his arms and burst into tears.
To be honest, I don’t know why I’m crying, why I’m crying, or what I’m crying about.
I just want to cry, I really want to cry.
"Okay, don't cry anymore. It won't look good if you cry. How about you stop crying? Our family of three will be reunited today." Shangguan Yun coaxed me gently and said.
When Shangguan Yun said this, I wanted to cry even more. I really wanted to cry.
So, just like that, I leaned in Shangguan Yun's arms and kept crying, and kept crying...
I don’t know how long I cried until I was tired. Shangguan Yun looked at me lovingly and said with a smile: "Okay, don’t cry anymore, okay? Do you know? Every time you shed a tear, my heart will
After a severe pain, I behaved and stopped crying."
Shangguan Yun wiped the tears from my face and said to me.
With tears in my eyes, I nodded and said, "Yeah."
In fact, now, I really can't bear to abort this child in my belly.
Originally, my attitude was very strong. Even if Shangguan Yun kept begging me not to abort the child this afternoon, my heart was not shaken at that time. However, now when I see this baby room,