When I woke up from the nightmare, my body was covered in sweat. For the fastest updates, please come to me. Of course, why did I have such a nightmare, because that dream also represents my subconscious, and it represents a fear of mine. I
It can be completely analyzed that there are two fears in my subconscious: first, fear of losing Chen Yuan. Second, disappointment with the state of the child.
The fear of losing Chen Yuan is inevitable, because Zhao Menglei has already left this world, and I can no longer accept the possibility that Chen Yuan may leave this world. And for children... each of us cherishes the hope of our own children before they are born.
Fantasizing: fantasizing about his beauty and health, fantasizing about how smart he will be, and guessing who he looks like. In short, in our fantasies, our children are beautiful and cute, because the children represent ourselves.
The future represents the continuation of one's own life. However, Chen Yuan and I's child was born prematurely. Today, I don't see the beauty in my child that I once imagined.
I once heard someone say that a first-time father has no feelings for his child at first, because unlike the mother, the father has not been pregnant for ten months, and has never had a blood connection with the child, let alone a spiritual connection. Now.
, I completely believe this statement. I find that my feelings about children now are like meeting a woman for the first time, and I will only pay attention to the appearance.
Dreams are something in a person's subconscious mind, which can also be said to be a reaction of a person's primitive instinct. However, after I woke up, the emotional things as a human being immediately entered my soul. I began to be truly afraid and sad.
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I suddenly had a terrible thought and conclusion: It seemed that all the women I had been married to were so unfortunate.
I slept in bed until dawn and then got up. The nanny had already prepared breakfast, but she hesitated in front of me. I shook my head and said, "Auntie, don't feel bad about it. I know that Chen Yuan's matter has nothing to do with you."
"Uncle, I really didn't expect such a thing to happen. However, I am the person you invited, and I should pay attention to these issues. Uncle, I'm sorry," she said in a low voice.
"One person has one fate. Alas! Now I somewhat believe in fate." I shook my head and sighed, and then started to eat.
"Uncle, is the lady possessed by evil spirits?" she asked.
I smiled bitterly, "That's not true. Hey! It depends on her luck. I hope she can wake up as soon as possible."
"You two are both good people, why would something like this happen to the young lady? This person just can't be too nice. If he is too nice, the ghosts and gods will be jealous." She sighed and went to the kitchen.
I was still smiling bitterly. I felt that the nanny in my family was too superstitious.
Then I went to work. Although something happened to Chen Yuan, I felt that I still had to go to the department to see if there was anything. If there was anything, I would deal with it first and then go to Chen Yuan.
"Director Feng, here is this month's bonus distribution list. Please sign it. There is also a list of year-end bonuses." The head nurse said to me when she saw me.
I smiled faintly at her, "When did you come back?"
"Yesterday afternoon, I just heard about your wife. Director Feng, don't spend too much time on department matters. I will call you if there is anything. Hey! Director Feng, I noticed that you have been
It’s been a bad year too,” the head nurse said with a sigh.
"It's something that can't be helped." I said, not wanting to talk about this topic.
"I've already taken care of the color ultrasound. Now it's time to collect the money. I set up an account and asked everyone to transfer money into this account, and then transfer the money to the equipment company," she added.
I nodded, "Please give me your account later, and I'll go put the money in. Have the problems of those employees in difficulty been solved?"
"Didn't you tell me the solution last time? By the way, I have all the IOUs they gave you." She said, and then she showed them to me.
I didn't look at the IOUs and said, "I know. I'll just type them in together. Head nurse, I would like to ask you to take full responsibility for this matter. I may have to spend a lot of time with my wife and my children recently."
.please."
"It's okay. Don't worry and go about your business. I'll call you if something happens. People in the department will understand you," she said.
"Head nurse, there is one more thing. Please keep an eye on the trend of the hospital departments raising funds to purchase equipment. If there is no change in the hospital's policy, please pay attention to see if there are any good inspection items. This matter
You should also ask more doctors, they should know what they know. If we carry out more projects, everyone's income will increase immediately." I said immediately.
"Okay. Director Feng, you could just be our head." She said happily.
I shook my head, "To be honest, I always feel that if the color ultrasound project is too big, the hospital will probably take it back. So, I think we should think about an escape route in advance. Small projects are actually very profitable, and they are not too impressive.
Showing water."
"No way?" she asked me with her mouth wide open.
"Of course it won't be taken back immediately, but I think it will be hard to say in a year. By then the infertility center has been built, and the hospital's funds will no longer be so tight. The situation will be uncomfortable by then. But
We don’t have to worry, at least each of us has our capital back, and there will be objective income. But my idea is not to do a one-time deal, but to have several projects for a long time. It’s best to take precautions for these things. Head nurse,
I really don’t have time recently, so I would like you to discuss this matter with everyone. Okay?” I explained.
"Director Feng, I understand. You think long-term and think about everyone in our department. We are very lucky to have a good leader like you." She said to me with a smile.
A lot of goosebumps suddenly appeared on my back. "Head nurse, that's it. I'll go to my wife's place right away. I'll leave all the department matters to you."
What makes me feel frustrated is that Chen Yuan is still unconscious as before.
She will wake up after a few more hyperbaric oxygen treatments. I said to myself. Regardless of comforting myself or not, I still insisted on sending her for treatment.
According to the hospital's treatment plan, hyperbaric oxygen therapy is provided six times a week, one hour each time. I waited outside the hyperbaric oxygen chamber for an hour and then the nurse took Chen Yuan out. I hurriedly stepped forward and asked, "How is it?"
They are shaking their heads.
I was disappointed again. If I do this a few more times, I will wake up, I am sure! I said to myself, and then followed the nurse and Chen Yuan to the ward.
The instructor was waiting for me in the ward, "Feng Xiao, I want to tell you something. Come to my house for dinner at noon."
I shook my head, "Teacher, you are at work. It takes a lot of time to cook. Let's go out to eat."
"Zhuzhu is cooking at home. She worked night shift last night and has today off. Let's go, there are a few things I want to talk to you about," the instructor said.
I Faci, and immediately went to her home with my instructor.
Azhu looked very happy when she saw me, "Feng Xiao, you can taste the food I cook today."
"Zhuzhu, why aren't you older or younger? You should call him brother. Also, your brother Feng Xiao is in a bad mood now. Don't be naughty in front of him. Please update as soon as possible." The instructor immediately criticized her daughter
road.
Ah Zhu made a face at me.
I had no choice but to smile bitterly and say: "Teacher, some things have already happened, and there is nothing we can do about them."
She immediately asked me to sit down, and Ah Zhu went to serve the dishes. After a while, the table was full. I asked, "Where is Teacher Tang? He won't come back at noon?"
"He ate in the cafeteria of his unit at noon. This old man would die doing scientific research." The instructor said with a smile, "He doesn't have any other hobbies, so let him do whatever he wants."
"Feng Xiao, you taste the food I cook." Azhu said, with a bright smile on her face, very cute.[
I picked up a piece of fish and put it in my mouth...I almost spit it out! It was too salty! But I held back and ate it slowly.
"How is it?" Azhu asked me, with a cautious expression.
"Not bad." I smiled and said, and then asked the instructor: "Didn't you say you wanted to tell me something?"
"I just want to tell you about your wife." The instructor said, and then he went to pick up a piece of fish... "Azhu, what kind of food did you cook? The salt shaker was overturned? It's too salty.
!”
"No way?" Azhu said, and then he took a bite and ate it, "Ah! Really, why is it so salty? Feng Xiao, why do you still say it's good?"
"Okay, let's eat other dishes. I'll finish explaining the matter to Feng Xiao." The instructor said, "Feng Xiao, have you thought about one outcome? That is, your wife will never wake up. Today I will do it again
I checked her over and found that the problem was serious. Although the MRI results of her head did not reveal any major problems, you should know that functional damage to the brain does not necessarily have organic changes. Feng Xiao, although I am in the department
Inside, you can take care of part of the cost, but it will be very troublesome in the long run. She can live there for a year and a half, but have you thought about the situation of living there for a long time? It will cost at least hundreds of thousands a year.
And the effect of treatment is also unknown. In our medical community, we call patients who wake up from long-term coma a miracle. You know this. Why is it called a miracle? That’s because there are too few patients who can be revived.
It’s not even one percent, or even one thousandth, or one ten thousandth. And your children. Have you considered these issues?"
The instructor was very nagging, but I completely understood what she meant.
"Let's treat her for a period of time first," I said. "She was in a coma before and later woke up. I believe a miracle will happen to her again."
"Oh? What was the reason before? How did you treat it?" the instructor asked.
"The situation last time was different from this one. She was hurt last time and it was mainly psychological factors. But I think she still had psychological factors this time because she has been very nervous since she was pregnant.
"I said.
The instructor shook his head, "It's completely different. This time it's very obvious that she suffered brain tissue damage due to cerebral ischemia."
I put down my chopsticks. To be honest, none of A-Zhu's dishes were delicious. "Teacher, if you have anything to say, just say it."
Azhu was looking at me, and she smiled sheepishly, "Feng Xiao, I'm sorry. I've never cooked before, and the taste is really bad."
I shook my head, "It's okay. I'm so upset that I have no intention of eating. Haha! I'm sorry you still want to go to the kitchen."
"That's right. You should stop cooking from now on. It's a pity that these things are useless. Hey! From now on, you can just find a chef." The instructor said.
"Mom, Feng Xiao is asking you. Why did you come to my place?" Azhu said dissatisfied.
"Feng Xiao, what I mean is this, do you think it's okay? First of all, let your wife stay in the hospital for a period of time, mainly for hyperbaric oxygen treatment. Our care must also keep up and try not to let her get bedsores. Secondly,
, I arranged for the nurse to wake her up regularly. But I don’t know the effect, so I won’t say more about it. My idea is that if your wife stays in the hospital for a period of time and it still doesn’t work, I
I suggest you take her home and ask a retired nurse to serve her in your home for a long time. In this case, the cost will be much cheaper, and you won’t be in as much trouble as you are now. Feng Xiao, you are still young, although your family
The problem is like this now, but you can’t leave your career behind? Don’t you think so? So, I think the method I just proposed is the best.” said the instructor.
I was stunned for a moment, and then shook my head, "Teacher, let's not talk about the future now. What if she wakes up?"
The instructor was sighing, "You kid! It's okay, let's wait for a while to treat it. Hey! How come such unlucky things have happened to you? Although rh-negative blood is rare, the blood bank should have it? Why is it needed?
Will it be gone by then?"
"It may be that no one needs blood of that type for a long time. It costs money to save them. Now everything has to be about efficiency." Azhu said beside him.
"How much will it cost?" the instructor said dissatisfiedly, "In the final analysis, everything is about money. Hey! Isn't this the case in our hospital now? Don't talk about it, it makes me feel annoyed just talking about it. A few days ago, our department came to
I got a patient from a very poor family. Because the patient did not pay the medical fee in advance, the hospital refused to admit her. Later, I saw that this patient was really pitiful, so I went to the admission office to try to accommodate her. As a result, she is now better. Ten thousand
Only our department is responsible for the huge medical expenses. It makes me feel like a human being."
"Teacher, don't worry. My wife will not owe a penny for her expenses. No matter how long she stays in the hospital, she will not owe a penny." I said hurriedly.
"Mom, you are going too far. His wife's family is rich, why do you say this? Even if Feng Xiao has no money, you shouldn't be like this?" Azhu said dissatisfied.
"I didn't say anything about Feng Xiao? I just mentioned it wherever I thought." The instructor said hurriedly, and then said to me apologetically: "Don't worry, I really didn't mean what I said to you.
.”
I smiled and said, "I know. Teacher, don't worry so much. What I said is also true. I still have some money on hand. It's my own money. I can guarantee that my wife's treatment will be fine for a few years."
"Even if you sell your car, you can still keep it for several years." Azhu said.
"That's not the case." I smiled, and then I went to the instructor and said, "Teacher, the cost is not an issue. I just want the results, which is to wake Chen Yuan up as soon as possible. No matter how much it costs."
The instructor nodded, "Okay, I'll arrange a consultation with experts from all the hospitals this afternoon. If necessary, we can also invite experts from Beijing and Shanghai."
"As long as it works." I thought for a while and then said.
"Who can guarantee that?" the instructor sighed, "Feng Xiao, you are also a doctor. You should understand that there are some things that we can do our best. You may not have discovered it yourself, but in fact you know the result in your heart, but you
I just can't bear to give up. That's why I proposed this plan. At least you can feel at ease after our efforts. Feng Xiao, maybe you think my words are cold and unfeeling, but we must be scientific. Many things we
The wish is good, but the result may not be what we imagined. Feng Xiao, you will definitely not be like this when facing other patients, right? So, I hope you can be calmer and more realistic. You make money
It’s not easy, there’s no need to be so wasteful.”
I shook my head, "No. As you said, I must try my best. Otherwise, I will not give up."
"Mom, Feng Xiao is so affectionate and righteous, please stop trying to persuade him. Mom, I find that you are getting colder and colder. It's true," Azhu said.
"I'm doing this for Feng Xiao's good. I'm too lazy to say this to other patients," the instructor said.
"I know. Thank you, teacher." I said. In fact, I completely understood what the instructor meant, but it was about Chen Yuan, how could I give up casually?
In fact, I now understand the meaning of the tutor calling me here: firstly, to prepare me for the worst, and secondly, to worry about the cost of Chen Yuan’s treatment. I don’t think the tutor is that kind of snobbish person, because she mentioned
The problems are very real. The tutor is a master's degree supervisor and an expert in obstetrics and gynecology, but first of all she is a human being, an ordinary woman. She spoke to me completely from the perspective of an elder. I am also a doctor, so I know
What she said was completely sincere. If I wasn't her student, she wouldn't necessarily tell me. So, I don't think there's anything wrong with it.
Next, we won’t talk about Chen Yuan anymore. The instructor has been nagging about A-Zhu’s cooking skills. The strange thing is that A-Zhu doesn’t seem angry. I guess she may have been used to it.
But I still encouraged Azhu, "Yes, it's my first time cooking at this level. At least it's cooked."
Azhu suddenly became dissatisfied, "Feng Xiao, you might as well criticize me directly."
I laughed.
This was the first time I laughed in the past two days, a real laugh. After laughing, I felt much better, at least the depression in my heart was relieved a lot.
After finishing the meal, Azhu sent me out and said, "Feng Xiao, let me invite you to go out and eat something. I see that you haven't eaten anything at all. It's all my fault. I originally wanted to cook a few dishes for you to eat more.
As a result, I ended up like that."
I shook my head, "No need. I'm going to talk to Chen Yuan for a while, and then I have to go back to work."
"I haven't eaten enough myself. Let's go, you can accompany me." She said, and then whispered to me: "Mom must be eating noodles down there."
I immediately laughed and said, "Then you can go back and eat noodles with her."
"Feng Xiao, I didn't want to bother you at this time, but I think you may be the only one who can help me. So, I hope you can give me some time, just for a meal, okay?" She immediately said to her.
I said, looking extremely serious.
I looked at her and asked, "What's going on?"
She turned around and looked at the door of her house, "Wait a minute." Then she went into the house, and I heard her say loudly in the house: "Mom, I'm out."
After a while, she came out and closed the door, "Let's go. We'll talk about it later when we have dinner."
My curiosity aroused, "Tell me first, what exactly is going on?"
"I will tell you slowly about my father when we sit down later," she said.
She and I were sitting opposite each other in a restaurant at the back entrance of the hospital. Ah Zhu insisted on asking me to order food, and said that she must treat today. "Feng Xiao, I have to pay the bill today, otherwise I will be angry."
I smiled and immediately ordered three dishes and one soup: twice-cooked pork, mapo tofu, fried bean sprouts, and tomato and egg soup.
"They are all dishes for dinner. Feng Xiao, it seems you are really hungry. I'm sorry." She looked at me and smiled.
"It's a pity that the fish was free in the river, but it was fished out. That's all. I didn't expect you to make it taste so unpleasant. I feel wronged for that fish.
"I said.
"Feng Xiao, you're annoying! Have you said that about anyone?" She suddenly became angry. Of course she was pretending to be angry, because she laughed immediately and said softly: "Feng Xiao, I'm very happy to see you in a better mood.
So happy for you."
I was deeply moved by her words, "Azhu, thank you. By the way, what did you say about your father?"
"You have been to our house twice recently, but you didn't meet my dad once. Don't you think it's strange?" she asked me.
I was startled, "Didn't your mother say that he is engaged in scientific research?" After finishing speaking, I thought to myself: It seems that the instructor is not lying when he speaks. What does Azhu mean by this?
Azhu was shaking his head, "Feng Xiao, I'm just worried about this matter. My mother doesn't know that, in fact, my father lied to her. My father has a woman outside."
I was immediately startled by her words, "Azhu, don't talk about your father like that. As far as I know, your father is a good man."
She sighed, and then said quietly: "I only found out about it yesterday. No, I just saw it yesterday to be precise."
I looked at her in surprise, "What did you see yesterday?"
"Yesterday I went to the mall and saw my father and a woman together. The two of them were very affectionate," she said.
I immediately laughed and said, "Maybe it's someone from your father's workplace. Isn't this normal?"
She shook her head, "That woman is indeed from his work unit. I know her. She is my father's assistant. Although she is not beautiful, she is very young, only in her thirties. When I saw them, the woman was holding her arm.
He grabbed my dad's arm. I was startled at that time and hid in a hurry. Later, I followed the two of them quietly and found that they bought a lot of things in the mall together, and then went to eat together.
In the end, the two of them went to see a movie together. Feng Xiao, you don’t think their relationship is normal, do you?”
I was stunned for a moment, and after a while I asked: "Did your dad come home last night?"
She nodded, "I saw them returning home after entering the cinema. My father came back more than two hours later. So he went home after watching the movie with that woman."
"Does that mean your father has no further relationship with that woman? Maybe they are just friends." I said. In fact, I don't really believe what I said now.
"Feng Xiao, I didn't sleep well last night." She shook her head and said, "I have been thinking, how could my father, such an honest and responsible person, become like this?"
I suddenly remembered something: Azhu didn't continue to follow her father and the woman last night. It seemed that she was really scared. She was afraid of seeing what would happen next. But fortunately, her father came home. So
, I felt that although A-Zhu was depressed now, there must be a kind of luck in her heart. So I said: "A-Zhu, sometimes what a person sees may not be the truth. Do you think so?"
She did not answer my question. She continued: "Feng Xiao, my mother nagged me for a long time after I came home last night. What I hated most in the past was her nagging, but last night I
I’m not impatient at all, because I found my mother to be very pitiful. I was thinking that my father must have done that because he was tired of my mother’s nagging. Feng Xiao, do you think that’s the case?”
"Azhu, didn't I just say that? What you see may not be the truth. Sometimes what we see or hear may not be the truth." I said again.
"Does it have to be when they are caught in bed for the truth to be true?" She suddenly became angry.
I was startled, and then sighed: "Azhu, I hope you can calm down. Really, sometimes our senses can deceive us. Wasn't that what happened to you last time? Oh, I'm sorry, maybe I shouldn't mention that.
Something happened. Azhu, you should understand what I mean, because I simply don’t believe that your father would do such a thing. Firstly, he and your mother have been married for so many years. Secondly, your father’s age
It’s so big, it’s impossible. Do you think so?”
"Feng Xiao, I saw you were so kind to your wife, and I was thinking, are there any men as good as you in this world? Feng Xiao, it's not that I don't believe my dad, and the second thing is that you haven't seen my dad and
The way that woman looked when we were together. My father, the happy expression on his face, his happy look made me have to doubt that everything I saw was real. You don't
You know, my dad, he never, oh, no, never, I haven’t seen him look that happy for a long time when he was at home. He rarely talks to his mother at home, and the same goes for me.
Ignore it. Feng Xiao, you know my mother's character. Although she is nagging, she is a very face-conscious person. I am really worried about what will happen to her after she finds out about this matter.
So, although you are very annoyed now, I have to come to you, because now I realize that I have no friends I can trust except you. Feng Xiao, what do you think we should do about this matter?" she said
, looking sad.
"I..." I suddenly felt that this matter was very difficult, "Azhu, what do you want me to do?"
"Can you go talk to my dad?" she asked me.
I was shocked by her words, "Isn't this... inappropriate? Why should I go talk to him? If he asks me how I know about him, how will I answer? Also, you and I
I don’t know dad very well, that is, I have met him a few times when I came to your home before. How can I go and talk to him?”
"You must have a way." She said.
I smiled bitterly, "Maybe I can go talk to him. But what do you mean? Let him break up with that woman? No, this is appropriate for you. If what you say is true, if your father really has that kind of relationship with that woman
relationship, but he hasn’t filed for divorce from your mother until now? What does this mean? Doesn’t this mean that your father doesn’t want you and your mother to know about him? So I think it’s better to pretend that there are some things that are nothing.
Good to know. What do you think, Azhu?"
"Just because he didn't bring it up now doesn't mean he won't bring it up in the future. By the time he does, it will be too late! Feng Xiao, I'm not worried about anything else. What I'm most worried about is my mother's feelings. Think about it, if
What will be the consequences if my mother finds out about this? Feng Xiao, I couldn't sleep last night. I have been having nightmares, always dreaming that my mother jumped from our house. It's so scary.
"Feng Xiao, do you believe it? If my mother knew about this, she would definitely do that! Woohoo! Feng Xiao, I get scared when I think about this..." She
He said, and then started crying.
I thought to myself: Yes, this is hard to say. I do know the character of the tutor. Although she is nagging, she is really a person who cares about face. The nagging of a person is actually because she is very fragile inside and always
Worry that something is not perfect. Also, worry about others. Generally speaking, nagging women are mothers or wives who are lonely, dissatisfied, and feel that they are not loved or appreciated by others. In fact, this is
It is also a kind of inferiority complex and an inner fear.
However, I really don’t know how to deal with this matter now. After thinking about it, I said to Azhu: “Let’s do this. Give me some time and I’ll think about it carefully before I talk about it. Okay?”
She immediately broke down in tears and smiled, "Feng Xiao, thank you. I'm so sorry, something like this happened to your wife. I shouldn't have bothered you in the first place."
I smiled and said, "Azhu, don't be so polite. Your mother is my mentor. It's my job to find a way to handle this matter. But what you said is true. Now that something like this happened to Chen Yuan, I
I'm exhausted both physically and mentally, so please give me some time to think about it."
She was silent for a long time, then raised her head and looked at me and whispered: "Feng Xiao, why can't I meet a good man like you?"
I was startled, then shook my head and said, "Azhu, you don't understand me. I'm not a good man, let alone a good husband. Alas! It's hard to explain in words."
"No, you are." She said, and then put some vegetables in my bowl, "I believe in my eyes, you are a good man."
I smiled bitterly and shook my head, "Azhu, you got it wrong this time."
She immediately laughed and said, "What did you misunderstand again? I didn't say I wanted you to be my boyfriend."
I smiled faintly and thought to myself: You silly girl, when will you grow up?
"Feng Xiao, I think mom is right. You should think about your wife's affairs in advance. What will you do if she is unconscious for a long time? There is also the matter of your child." She said to me after a while.
"Just do what your mother said. If it doesn't work, take her home and hire a retired nurse to take good care of her. Child...child, hey! Let's talk about it later," I said.
"Feng Xiao, I didn't expect that you are also a miserable person." She sighed.
"It's all fate. It's also my own retribution." I said, and my heart suddenly felt hurt.
"Feng Xiao, don't say that. You are such a good person, how can you have any retribution? By the way, I think so. Anyway, I work here. I will go visit your wife more for you in the future." She
explain.
I shook my head, "It's different."
Then we finished our meal in silence and walked toward the hospital together.
As soon as we entered the hospital, we met a person, Dou Huaming. He was looking at us in surprise.
I suddenly became nervous, but Ah Zhu snorted coldly, and then came over and took my arm.
Dou Huaming's face suddenly became panicked, he turned around and ran away.
"Rogue!" Ah Zhu cursed in a low voice.
"Azhu, what happened to him afterwards?" Seeing Dou Huaming run away, I felt relieved immediately, so I asked.
"His wife came to the hospital and had a big fight with him. She seemed to have heard that they were divorced." She said, and then said to me: "Feng Xiao, why do you think you men are so bad?"
"Men are all like this. They like the new and hate the old, and the more women they like around them, the better." I said.
"Is this the case for you too?" she asked me, her hand still in my arm.
I nodded, "Yes. We men are all like this. Including myself. That's why I just said that all the results I have now are retribution."
What I told was the truth. Of course, I said it on purpose because I had to nip it in the bud.
However, what I didn't expect was that she immediately said something faintly, "Feng Xiao, do you think my father is like this too?"
The author's digression:
Sorry, there was something urgent at home today, so the update time is a little late. Friends, please forgive me.
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