In fact, I once thought about this question occasionally: What if Zhuang Qing comes back during the Spring Festival? Because I know that Zhuang Qing is very lonely when she is alone outside. (.om pure text) Especially when she
This is the first Spring Festival after leaving Jiangnan. But I only think of this incident by chance, because I deliberately don't let myself think about her.
However, what I didn't expect was that she actually made such a decision, and even said that she was going to live in my house. I couldn't accept her request. This was absolutely not possible. I immediately said to myself. "
Zhuang Qing, my parents are here, and I have taken Chen Yuan and the child home. This is not very convenient." So I said politely.
"Then what should I do? You can't let me stay in a hotel, right?" She said in a very dissatisfied tone, "I'm all alone, it's better not to come back."
I suddenly felt a little soft-hearted, "Zhuang Qing, you can come back? Aren't your parents in Jiangnan? You should go back and see them."[
"I want to go back, but it only takes a few days. My home is in the countryside, and the conditions there are very poor. It is inconvenient to take a bath. I don't want to stay in the countryside all the time. I will go back after the first day of the new year.
Come to the provincial capital. This time we have two weeks of vacation, where will I go for the rest of the time?" she said.
I was also very embarrassed, "Well, let's go home first and then we can talk about it on the second day of the new year."
"Okay. I will arrive in Jiangnan tomorrow morning. You can pick me up at the airport and treat me to lunch," she said.
"Okay." I didn't hesitate. I just forgot about the hesitation.
Originally, I had already decided not to have any contact with her, but now I realized that I simply couldn't do it. I couldn't help sighing in my heart, and then hung up the phone. When I entered the coffee shop, I saw Hong Ya at first sight. She
I sat in a seat on the side of the entrance. With the Spring Festival approaching, there were many fewer people in the cafe. There were only a few people in the spacious cafe, and they seemed to be couples.
"I obviously saw you coming, why did it take you so long to come in?" Hong Ya said to me dissatisfied and a little surprised at the same time.
"I took a few calls. Sorry." I said.
"Oh. What do you want to drink? I'll get it for you," she said.
"Whatever. I've been drinking, so it would be best if I had a cup of tea." I said, then smiled and said, "I wonder if there is tea in this place?"
"There must be some. Tea is available in all the food places in our country. But there are many kinds of tea, including Longjing, Tieguanyin, Pu'er and black tea. Which one do you like?" she asked.
"Just green tea, bamboo leaf green or something. Mainly because I want to quench my thirst." I said, and then asked her in surprise: "Hong Ya, why do you seem different today? Why have you become nagging?"
She glared at me, "I obviously care about you, but you call me nagging. You hate me! Why are you so dissatisfied?"
I laughed immediately, "Don't mention it, I'm not used to you suddenly being so gentle."
"You mean I used to look like a tigress?" She glared at me again.
I smiled lightly, "I didn't say that."
"Feng Xiao, yes, I was not that gentle to you before. To be honest, I just regarded you as my sexual partner. But today I realized that I was wrong, because I felt that I really started to like you.
I’m thinking of you. You are so good to me, not only can you bring happiness to my body, but also give me a kind of support in my heart. I am an aloof person, and there are only two people I really admire in my eyes.
One of them is Sister Lin, because I have regarded her as my idol since I was a child. As for you, at the beginning I just obeyed Sister Lin’s arrangements, but you really made me feel as a woman from the beginning
The pleasure you gave me the first time made me want to stop immediately. So, I only relied on you physically at first. But, just today, I suddenly discovered that my body can
When there are huge problems... Feng Xiao, maybe you don't know, the moment I saw my lower body bleeding, my heart suddenly went cold. Do you know what I thought of at the beginning?
?I tell you, it’s death! Because the first thing I thought of was that I might have cancer! Although I didn’t fully express the fear in my heart, at that moment my heart was on the verge of collapse.
Feng Xiao, it was you who made me go from death to rebirth. You may never be able to understand this feeling of mine. That’s why I thought of telling you everything, everything I have been, because I don’t want to go back to
The relationship with you is only physical. Do you understand what I mean?" She gently stroked the edge of the coffee cup with one hand, and gently stirred the inside of the cup with a small spoon in her other hand.
After returning to my hometown to rest for a while, I went to Shanghai with a very small amount of money. When I left the Shanghai train station, I only had a few hundred yuan with me. Not to mention looking for a job, this little money was not enough for a round trip immediately. I
I deliberately cut off my escape route in order to carve out a bloody path. That night, I stayed in a low-end and dilapidated guest house near the train station. When I went to bed at night, rats crawled over my face, treating my face like a piece of wood.
Your potential is limited. When there is no way back, there are roads everywhere in front of you, and the mountains and seas also become roads.
A few days later, I went to work as a promoter in a bar at the train station, which was actually a solicitation girl. The boss was very smart. Of course he knew that I was unfamiliar with Shanghai, but he knew that I was a sight to behold once I stopped in front of the bar.
A money tree for him. The bar is a mixed place. If you want to survive in this kind of place, you have to become like a goblin, unable to change, and you have to pretend to be feminine on the outside. Of course, I will always be pure in my bones.
My personality is not content with having a little fun in such a small pond. I know that sooner or later I will become a surfer in the ocean.
Unfortunately, a car accident almost changed my life. One day, I went out to do errands. Near the Shangri-La Hotel, I was hit by a car and injured. For a woman, my injuries were very tragic. My ovaries
Rupture is something I would never dare to imagine in my nightmares. As an obstetrician and gynecologist, you should know that this kind of injury will affect a woman’s endocrine system. If not properly treated, it will cause a woman’s appearance to become dull. So
, this kind of pain is almost the same as death to me. When I had a car accident, a Hong Kong man happened to be passing by. He took me to the hospital. He paid several thousand yuan for me on the first day and continued to take care of me afterwards.
For a strange man, the reward he wants most for helping a beautiful woman is undoubtedly her body. And since I can't pay back the money, although I am reluctant to repay in this way, there seems to be no other way.
There is a better way. Just like that, after I was discharged from the hospital, I had a loveless sexual relationship with a Hong Kong person. Of course, sex without love cannot last long, and we broke up not long after. But this experience made me appreciate human beings and
**With a new understanding, I began to feel that men’s reality is reflected in sex, and women’s reality is reflected in money.
After I left Hong Kong, I was quickly hired by the boss of a large company as the secretary to the chairman. At that time, I was still a bit naive and thought that if I did my job well, I would have a future. I later found out that he hired me as his secretary.
He also came here because of my beauty. Although he praised me many times for being smart and capable in front of others, I had no idea at the time that he turned out to be a drunkard who didn't care about drinking. He liked to play golf and asked me to accompany him every time.
He went to relax. Once, I had dinner with him, and he tried his best to toast me. In a private enterprise, who dares to offend the boss? It’s too late to curry favor, it’s impossible not to drink. Finally, he got me drunk. That night
, he forcibly had a relationship with me. After that, I became his secretary on the surface, but actually became his lover. And this kind of lover who was made through some kind of transaction, naturally there is not much love at all. So some people say
, Lovers are the most affectionate people in the world. As the saying goes, if you don’t want others to know you, you have to do nothing yourself. Since I have a relationship with him, I have to endure the strange looks from my colleagues in the company every day. This kind of life is not comfortable at all.
, let alone happiness. After a while, I took the initiative to ask the chairman to work in the marketing department. The income of the marketing department mainly depends on business commissions, which is much harder than being a secretary, but I am very happy. On the one hand, I want to rely on my own
I worked hard and relied on my own ability. On the one hand, I wanted to get rid of the strange eyes of my colleagues. After my repeated requests, the chairman knew that I was not very interested in him, and finally agreed to let me work in the marketing department. When I arrived in the marketing department,
I tried my best to avoid the chairman, thinking that by doing my best in business, I could rest easy, but unexpectedly, I was forced to lose my job again. Because after the chairman knew that I didn't like him, he found an unfounded charge and fired me.
Although my performance was outstanding, it could not save my fate in the company. I finally realized that once a woman, especially a beautiful woman, has that kind of relationship with her boss, she is walking on the edge of a cliff.
It's beautiful, but it's actually very dangerous. You may fall into the valley at any time. I'm looking forward to the appearance of the right man in my life...
I am physically and mentally exhausted, and I am no longer as ambitious as I was when I first came out. At this time, what I hope most is that I can live a plain life for the rest of my life, and I can finally understand the philosophical connotation of "plainness is the truth". I also hope that I can
I found an ordinary man who could marry me and grow old together. Later, I finally met a boy as old as me. The boy moved me just because he accidentally said, "I want to marry you."
. He was very simple and didn’t have much money, but he fit my criteria for a simple life, so I fell in love with him. I devoted myself wholeheartedly to him. At his request, I threw away all my business cards and business records.
I posted the contact information of those people. I closed the door, cooked for him, and washed his clothes. I thought I could be a good wife and mother by doing this, but a few months later, I discovered that I was wrong again.
Because I accidentally discovered that he was dating several girls at the same time.
So, I was completely disappointed with the so-called love. I found strangely that when a person no longer believes in feelings, it becomes much easier to do other things. I soon had my own career and I was making more and more money.
Of course, all this was because of Sister Lin’s help. I met her accidentally when I was most disappointed. After she learned about my situation, she asked acquaintances to use her connections to help me do business. Later,
I finally understood that the world is actually balanced. When a person loses something, he will gain something else. Feng Xiao, look at Sister Lin's situation, isn't she exactly like this?
She stopped when she said this, then raised her head and looked at me, "You know what happened later. Feng Xiao, do you think I am stupid? Logically speaking, my family conditions are not bad, maybe back then
Just stay at home honestly, then find a job in a state unit, receive a monthly salary to eat, get married and have children, maybe this life will be better."
I sighed in my heart and shook my head at the same time: "Each of us has our own dream, which has nothing to do with a person's gender. You were also a person with dreams back then, so you were not willing to remain mediocre like that. No matter what, you have fought hard.
It has passed, and at least you have succeeded in your career. Although you have been scarred emotionally, I think you still shouldn’t give up. Maybe God wants you to solve your career problems first and then satisfy your emotional needs. Hong Ya, actually
True love still exists. Although it is difficult to find, it exists after all. I think that as long as you look for your love like your career, you will definitely succeed. The key is that you should be discouraged, let alone wrap yourself up.
.”
"I understand all these principles. The key thing is that I can't do it because I get scared when I think about the things I did in the past," she said.
I suddenly felt sad because I understood one thing: it is not that easy to untie a person's heart knot. Suddenly, I remembered something, something she mentioned just now when she was telling the story.
So I hurriedly asked her: "Also, have you fully recovered from your injuries after the car accident? After the ovary ruptures, the ovaries usually need to be removed."
"One side was removed, and the other side is still there. But I always feel that my body is no longer complete, and I am also worried about whether I will be able to have children in the future," she said.
I immediately breathed a sigh of relief, "No problem. As long as one ovary is present, it is no problem to have a baby. Most people have two ovaries crossing over to produce eggs. If this month it is the right ovary that produces eggs, then the baby will be born."
It will be the left side in one month. After the ovary on one side is removed, the other side will fully take on this task. Our human body is the most perfectly evolved, just like removing one kidney will not have a big impact on the human body.
.In fact, this is also a kind of compensation.”
"Compensation? What do you mean?" she asked.
"The compensatory nature of the human body is simply the backup function of the human body. It refers to a self-regulating function of the human body. When the function or structure of an organ becomes diseased, it is replaced by a healthy part of the original organ or other organs to compensate.
Its function. For example, in chronic glomerulonephritis, some nephrons are damaged and destroyed, the glomeruli undergo fibrosis, and the renal tubules to which they belong atrophy and disappear. At this time, the function of the undamaged or slightly damaged nephrons increases.
, cell proliferation and hypertrophy. If one kidney is removed due to disease, the other kidney will become hypertrophic, and can even double in size to compensate for the function of the removed kidney. Blind people can use their particularly developed hearing and touch
The ability to recognize various objects, and even be aware of the mood of the speaker; people who have lost their arms can write with their mouths or toes. These are all examples. Just imagine, if the blind and disabled adopt an attitude of not caring about everything and passively retreat from the world,
It is absolutely impossible to have those abilities that are beyond ordinary people. As the saying goes, what you lose is what you gain, and this is what it means to make up for the loss within the dike. However, we can also understand a truth from the compensatory function of the human body, that is, we
Any dissatisfaction encountered has a dual nature: it can make the weak strengthen themselves, but it can also make them abandon themselves. Hong Ya, do you understand what I mean?" I said.
She was stunned for a moment, and then said after a while: "Feng Xiao, what you said is so good. I never thought that medical knowledge can be connected with life."
I smiled and said: "In the final analysis, life is the body and soul, plus society. Our body and soul are the subjects, and society is the object. The three complement each other and make up each of our lives. In fact, I don't understand, but it's just
That’s all it feels like.”
"What you said is very good." She said, and then looked at the time, "Feng Xiao, it's getting late. There are still people at home, so you should go back early."
"I'll take you home first and then go back." I said.
"I mean, let's go to my house first. You have to finish what you haven't finished in the afternoon before going home. It's only after nine o'clock, and when I say it's not early, I mean the time when we finish things. You understand
?" she said.
Me: "Hong Ya... you, aren't you like that? You should have a good rest today and take some Chinese medicine. We will talk about it later."[
"No. You feel good today, but I'm still feeling uncomfortable." She looked at me with charming eyes and said.
I started to hesitate...
"Let's go, don't cheat!" She stood up immediately and called the waiter in the distance to pay.
I couldn't help but smile bitterly, because I found that it would not be fun when such a thing is regarded as a task to be completed.
At the same time, I found that I no longer felt guilty, because that phone call from Zhuang Qing today made me completely depraved again. And deep down in my heart, I have always believed that: a person's body and soul can be
As long as my soul doesn't betray Chen Yuan, it's fine. Because I know that I will never give up on Chen Yuan. That's enough.
I'm still very young now, in my early thirties. If Chen Yuan stays in a coma like this, I can't possibly have sex, right? As long as I don't go to prostitutes or anything like that, it'll be fine? I defended myself this way in my heart.
Of course, the reason why I defend myself is because Zhuang Qing will be back tomorrow, as well as Su Hua. In fact, many of us are like this, doing things we shouldn't do while looking for reasons to defend ourselves.
In the process of living. Especially in modern society, self-deception is also a way of life for many people. It has only one purpose, and that is to achieve psychological balance.
The car driven by Hong Ya. On the way to her residence, I saw the bank where I held my card and hurriedly asked her to stop.
"What for?" she asked me suspiciously after stopping the car.
"I'm going to transfer the money to renovate the house to you. There is a self-service bank there." I said.
"It's really unnecessary. Money doesn't mean much to me now. As long as you are sincerely good to me," she said.
I shook my head, "No. I'm not the kind of man you imagined."
She tilted her head and looked at me, "What kind of man do you think I imagined you to be?"
The author's digression:
Today: "Beautiful Female Director: Game within Game"
Liu Zhiyuan, a staff member of the Municipal State-owned Assets Supervision and Administration Commission, fell in love on the Internet, and he went to check out a room with a female netizen without realizing it. What was unexpected was that the woman he had been romantically involved with for a night turned out to be his future boss, Yun Xier, deputy director of the Municipal State-owned Assets Supervision and Administration Commission. The unlucky man Liu Zhiyuan was wrong.
He accidentally fell in love with this hot and sensual female boss, and broke into her life. With the help of his ambiguous relationship with the female boss, he got his own promotion.
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