"Where are you?" The beautiful pictures in my mind suddenly shattered because the nurse's voice sounded in my ears.
"I don't know either." I said, "I have never walked this road."
"Iron bridge!" She suddenly shouted, "Master, stop the car! We have to get off!"
The car screeched to a stop. She stood up and said, "Let's go, get out of the car."
I couldn't move because the pictures in my mind just now made my blood boil, and my body had also changed.[
"Let's go? What's wrong? Are you stunned?" She glared at me and pulled me up from my seat.
"If you want to get off, hurry up? Don't wait!" the driver yelled impatiently. I had no choice but to follow Zhuang Qing out of the car. She got off first, but when I was at the door of the car, the driver suddenly slid the car forward.
When I got up, I jumped down suddenly in panic, but my body lost balance and I immediately bumped into Zhuang Qing's body.
"Slow down, you are so stupid." She said to me with a smile, and then looked at my crotch, "You, you are so bad!"
I suddenly felt ashamed, "This... is a natural reaction."
"Feng Xiao, they say you're not in love, why don't I think it's different?" She looked at me and smiled.
This is an iron bridge built on a wide river. It has two floors, and the bottom floor is a railroad track.
I was extremely embarrassed when I got off the bus, but Zhuang Qing laughed at me without caring about my face. It was ridicule, not ridicule. Fortunately, her attention was diverted immediately.
She kicked off her sandals, ran barefoot to the edge of the iron bridge, and then sat on the ground with her legs hanging out of the iron bridge. The iron bridge had railings, so I didn't worry about her.
"Come on. Come and stay with me." She said to me, "It's very fun here."
What a child. I walked over to her with a wry smile, took off my shoes, sat down, and stretched my legs outside the iron bridge.
Her fair and round calves swayed outside the bridge, "How's it going? Isn't the scenery here nice?"
The broad river surface was peaceful, the water was very blue, and there seemed to be no sign of flowing. Suddenly I felt a cool breeze blowing by, and I felt a coolness in my heart. At this time, layers of wrinkles appeared on the river surface.
I feel great immediately. At least it's cool here.
"You used to come here often?" I asked her.
"Yeah. I like to come here when I'm in a bad mood," she said.
"Are you alone?" I asked, "Aren't you afraid of coming here alone?"
"Why are you afraid?" she asked me.
I thought so. So I smiled and said, "If a painter or photographer happens to pass by when you are here alone, you will definitely let him stay."
That beautiful picture appeared in my mind again.
She turned to look at me, with a beautiful smile on her face, "Feng Xiao, you are quite good at pleasing women."[
I also laughed, "I'm telling the truth."
"Is this your first time playing with a girl like this?" she asked.
"Everything is the first time." I smiled. I don't know why, but my heart was deliberately avoiding my relationship with Zhao Menglei.
"Look, the boat is coming!" She smiled strangely at me, but suddenly pointed to the distance in front of us and said.
Looking towards the place pointed by her slender finger, just in front of us, on the river, in the distance, a black spot was slowly moving in the direction of us. Its speed was too slow, so slow that it made people feel uncomfortable.
I don't feel it is moving. But I know it is moving, because the black spot is slowly getting bigger.
"What's so good about a boat?" I asked with a smile. I found that there was a generation gap between her and me, and she was so interested in a place like this.
"Why doesn't it look good?" She turned to me and said with a very dissatisfied look, "I remember my mother said to me. She said that a person's life is like a ship sailing from a distance. At first, it feels like it can't move very well.
It's very slow, but as it gets closer and closer to me, I feel that it is too fast. So I come here every time to watch the boat. However, I still don't understand what my mother means."
"Of course you don't understand. In fact, I don't fully understand either. No, I understand, but I don't feel that way yet." I said.
"Do you understand? Then tell me." She said to me, her hand already holding my arm.
Suddenly I had a warm and strange feeling. I said: "Perhaps, after a person reaches the age of fifty, he will find that there seems to be such a pattern in his life: from birth to elementary school, there is almost no time.
Concept, although I have had the concept of time from elementary school to high school, I have never paid attention to its existence. I am not talking about specific time, but in terms of the life process of a person. Then there is the youth of a person, that is,
At this time of your life, you will feel that your daily life is very long..."
"Aren't you the same as me? You are not much older than me. However, I think you are quite right," she said.
"I'm going to be thirty soon." I said, and then smiled, "But I feel the same way. I feel that every day passes very slowly, and a year feels even longer. However, I heard someone say that a person
Once a person reaches the age of thirty-five, he will feel that time is slowly speeding up. After he reaches the age of forty, he will feel that time is flying by. He will feel that a week is like a day or a month in the past.
Just like a year when I was young, and the further back I go, the faster it passes. It is said that after the age of thirty-five, a person will feel that the speed of time will accelerate exponentially every ten years, and he will feel that the speed of time will accelerate exponentially.
I feel that I am getting closer and closer to the end of my life.”
"I don't understand." She shook her head and said.
"You'll feel it when you reach thirty-five." I said with a smile.
"I want to be thirty-five soon. By then I will have my own family and my own children. Sometimes I wonder, what will my future family be like? What will my children be like?"
What does one look like?" she said, thoughtfully.
I laughed when I saw her unbelievable attitude for her age.
"Why are you laughing?" She looked at me, somewhat annoyed.
"Zhuang Qing, I think you shouldn't think about these problems now. You are so young and you should enjoy life at this time. As a woman, your current age is the golden period of your life. Don't be so sentimental, okay?
?" I looked at her and said softly.
"Feng Xiao, I finally know the reason why you haven't been in love." She looked at me and said suddenly.
If other girls talked to me like this, I would definitely be angry, but I wouldn't be angry with her. Because she is already familiar with me and I know her character. Moreover, she is holding my arm.
"Why?" I smiled slightly, but my eyes were looking at the ship that was slowly getting bigger in the distance.
"Because you are too old-fashioned. Let me tell you, girls should be pampered, instead of always criticizing others like you." She said.[
I smiled bitterly, "You are wrong. I don't even have the chance to criticize others."
She looked at me in surprise, and then laughed suddenly, "I heard that Dr. Zhong introduced you to a girlfriend? I heard that you ran away after taking one look at her?"
I smiled bitterly again, "Stop it. It's a shame she could imagine such an ugly woman and introduce her to me. Zhuang Qing, after all, I'm not that bad, right?"
"Tell me, what does that girl look like?" She suddenly became interested.
I didn't want to comment too much on the girl's appearance, "It's not the image in my mind anyway. She's so short, and... forget it, stop talking, I'm not even interested in taking another look at her."
."
"Haha!" She laughed, "Actually, I've heard it told by others. The nurse on night shift told me that night. This Dr. Zhong is really serious. Why did you introduce such a person to our handsome guy Feng Xiao? You are a gynecologist.
Obstetrician, do you see too few beautiful women every day?"
"That's not the reason!" I declared hurriedly.
"Yeah, don't I know?" She pursed her lips and said, "Don't talk about our obstetrics and gynecology department, just the doctors in the surgery department. Look, don't any of their wives or girlfriends be beautiful?"
I smiled bitterly.
"Feng Xiao." I heard her say, and at the same time I felt her hand holding my arm leave me, and then she held my hand, "Let's pretend to be lovers for a day today, and I will teach you how to fall in love."
."
I looked at her, feeling even more strange in my heart, "Zhuang Qing, can this kind of thing be faked?"
"Why not? If you look at the underground gangsters in movies and TV series, don't they pretend to be husband and wife? Although we are not underground gangsters, I can teach you how to fall in love. What do you think? You won't object, right?" She
He glared at me and said, then pointed to the river below, "What a beautiful scenery. We are sitting here, just the two of us. Do you know what this is called? Do you know that girls like this the most?"
"What's this called?" I asked stupidly.
"This is called romance. You know? What we girls like most is this kind of romance," she said.
"Oh." I said, still stupid.
She looked at me and smiled, and then laughed. The ship on the river was already in front of me, and I could see it clearly. It was a passenger ship, and there were many people standing on the deck. They seemed to be
Looking at us, I seemed to see their envious expressions.
The ship's whistle suddenly sounded, reaching into the sky. And she was holding my hand tightly.
If my feeling of being with Zhao Menglei is a kind of responsibility, then now I really feel a kind of warmth and tenderness. Unfortunately, it is just a pretense. I sighed in my heart.
Now, I am with Zhao Menglei whenever I am off work. Of course, there are exceptions when I am at work. For example, now. I find that my feelings towards Zhao Menglei are very complicated. On the one hand, she is my dream girl in middle school.
On the other hand, her beautiful memories in my heart still exist, and some parts have become deeply ingrained. In addition, she loves me, and she no longer has a husband. Once I asked her: "You don't care that I am a woman."
Obstetrician?" She replied: "What I like is you as a person, your profession is not important. Besides, I am a married woman, don't you not care?"
I was silent at that time.
However, I know that I still care a little in my heart.
Now, when I am with Zhuang Qing, I realize that I still like girls like her in my heart. Because being with her makes me feel a different feeling. I know that I really like girls like her.
What I yearn for is youth and liveliness.
Unfortunately, we are just pretending.
Zhuang Qing told me that we were pretending to be a couple today. I didn’t answer her “yes” or “no” but I smiled at her. She pinched my arm and said, “Really, why do you like to play deep so much?
Since it’s a disguise, it should be like the real thing.”
She pinched me so much that I couldn't help but scream, "Come on, why are you pinching someone?"
"If you keep doing this, I will pinch you." She glared at me and said.
I quickly said: "Okay. I agree. However, since I want to play it real, I will take advantage of you."
"It's hard to say who took advantage of whom," she said, and then burst into laughter.
I couldn't help but smile bitterly: What's wrong with girls nowadays? Why have they become so open-minded? However, I found that I still couldn't let go, because I could never regard her as my girlfriend. There was an inferiority complex in my heart, and
It was this inferiority complex that made me feel that there was a gap between me and her that could not be bridged.
"The train is coming." I was thinking wildly in my mind when I suddenly heard her say.
I looked around, but there was no sign of the train.
"The bridge is already shaking. Don't you feel it?" she asked me.
"I didn't feel anything except my heart beating." I said boldly.
"Feng Xiao, you actually really like me, don't you?" She looked at me and said.
"I..." I found that it seemed wrong to say "yes" or "no" now.
"Kiss me." she said, her voice low.
I looked at her and found that she had closed her eyes. I hesitated and didn't know what to do, "Zhuang Qing..."
"Kiss me..." she said again, her voice very seductive.
I looked at her, and slowly moved my lips to hers. As soon as I touched them, I suddenly felt her strong kiss. Her lips were so hot, and my tongue suddenly inserted into my lips.
She felt guilty, and then wrapped around me like a snake. The sudden passion caught me off guard, and I found that my body was stiff, but my tongue had already begun to dance with her.
The iron bridge began to shake violently, and with the deafening sound of the whistle, a train rolled past us...
She and I kissed crazily along with the trembling caused by the train. I felt my blood began to boil, and the passion that had been accumulated in my heart for many years began to burst out with the roar of the train.
Slowly, our rapid breathing began to slow down, because the train had gone away, and the ship under our feet had reached the side behind us...
"How are you? Look, you are hard again." I heard her say, and then I felt my crotch being lightly tapped by her hand.