It was Shangguan Qin's rhetorical question that aroused my suspicion. [`Novel`] You know, I have never thought about such a possibility, because I have always believed that Lin Yi would not be that kind of person.
If it is really what I imagined, then the world I once lived in will be another reality, and all the good things I once imagined will no longer exist.
This is by no means a moral issue. I will not think too much about this aspect. I am not qualified to think about it because I myself am a person who has been very confused in this aspect. However, this involves their purpose and motivation.
Because if the suspicion that suddenly appeared in me at this moment is true, it can only mean that I am a very sad person, because in their eyes I am just an object that can be used, or even a person in their eyes.
A person who is looked down upon very much. Just imagine: If Shangguan Qin was once Lin Yi’s woman, but now Lin Yi tried every means to give her to me as his wife, who could accept such a thing?
Wu Yaru is different, she is a woman abandoned by him. Moreover, the matter between me and her has no direct relationship with Lin Yi.[
When men think about problems, they don’t think too much about the results. Instead, they pay more attention to cause and effect and what others think of themselves. In a man’s heart, nothing is more important than his own self-esteem. This is true of Kang Demao,
Me too, but I don't take it too seriously like he does.
Shangguanqin was asking me just now: "Brother Feng, what do you mean by this?"
Her question came so suddenly and was so exciting. I think this can only mean that she is guilty because I didn't mean what she imagined.
I said calmly: "I don't mean anything. I just want to express my true thoughts."
She became very angry, but she didn't say anything more. Instead, she poured down a few glasses of wine and drank it. Then she came and said to me, and strangely, her expression changed.
He calmed down and said, "I didn't expect you to think that way. Brother Feng, you can doubt me, but you shouldn't doubt our chairman. He is your father-in-law, and he has always been very good to you. Yes, you are right.
Yes, at first I was unwilling to marry you, but then I thought about it again. The chairman is a great benefactor to me and our family. Since he needs me to be with you, I shouldn't say no.
The reason. Isn’t that what happens in a person’s life? I am a woman, and I have to find a man to get married and have children. And later I found out that you are not as bad as I once thought. You have a good heart, especially towards women.
Okay, very gentle and considerate, but just too philanthropic. But I believe that I can control you in the future. I also thought, isn't a person's marriage just a gamble? If you bet correctly, you will be happy for a lifetime. If you bet wrong, you will be happy for a lifetime.
Just try it again. It's no big deal. Brother Feng, I didn't want to tell you this at first, but you just suspected it, so I have to tell you my true thoughts."
I didn't look at her, I just lowered my head and ate food and drank in silence.
She continued: "Originally, I wanted our relationship to be slower and more romantic. It would be better not to reveal certain things. This will be good for us in the future. When two people live together, in fact, we just need to know many things well.
, there’s no need to tell everything, right? I think I’m pretty good in all aspects, so I should have no problem matching you. Right? Brother Feng, whether you believe it or not, these words are mine anyway.
The most genuine idea. But you don’t have to agree to our things, but you must never doubt our chairman’s love and care for you.”
To be honest, her words made me feel touched, because I thought her words were very true. However, the shadow that suddenly rose in my heart just now has taken root in my mind for some reason.
After I got to the root, I actually had a lingering feeling. I said: "I have no doubt. You said it yourself. What I want to say is not what you just imagined. In fact, what I want to say is
It’s similar to what you just said, because I don’t think we need to marry me because of your gratitude to him. At least I don’t want that.”
She looked at me, "Actually, you still don't completely believe what I said in your heart, do you?"
I was silent, and then said after a while: "Shangguan, my attitude has been very clear. You are right, it is not that you are not worthy of me, but that I am not worthy of you. Moreover, I have always felt that you and I should
We are good friends, so I sincerely hope you can be happy in this life. Also, I have told Uncle Lin my idea, so you don't need to worry about anything. Don't worry, he won't blame you at all.
Shangguan, let’s not talk about this matter, I’m very grateful to you for coming to spend the Spring Festival with me.”
She was stunned, and after a while she smiled bitterly and said: "Well, I know what you are thinking. But do you know? It is not easy for a woman to express her love to a man. I didn't expect it.
And I was rejected by you. I am so embarrassed."
I immediately breathed a sigh of relief in my heart, "Shangguan, I still say what I said, we are friends, so I hope our friendship can last forever. And because we are friends, I don't want to harm you."
She looked at me, "Brother Feng, do you really think so?"
I smiled and said, "Why did I lie to you? That's really what I thought."
She looked a little moved, "Brother Feng, what if, I'm talking about what if. What if one day you find out that I have deceived you or even caused you harm?"
I was stunned immediately. I have studied psychology, so I know very well in my heart: Generally speaking, people who speak like this have often done that kind of thing, or are about to do it, so they will do it.
I felt uneasy, so I washed it so that I could get the other person’s understanding in advance.
So, I immediately became nervous, "Shangguan, it depends on what it is. But I don't understand. Aren't we very good friends? Why would you do such a thing to me? So I don't believe it."
She had a strange look on her face, "Didn't I say that? I said what if."
I shook my head, "I don't believe you would do something like that to me. Even if you did, I think it would be for your reasons. But I probably won't be able to forgive you, because I can't imagine what kind of
Reasons can make you hurt me."[
In fact, she should know that my words are a warning to her.
She suddenly asked me: "Brother Feng, did your previous wife hurt you? Did your previous wife cheat on you?"
I didn't understand why she asked me such a question, because the question made me feel too baffled. I thought about it and said, "At least Chen Yuan doesn't seem to have it."
She immediately smiled slightly, "In other words, Zhao Menglei has deceived you before, right?"
I immediately felt a heartache, "But she never hurt her. On the contrary, I hurt her, and I also hurt Chen Yuan. Because I often cheated on them and was unfaithful to them."
She immediately apologized and said to me: "I'm sorry, Brother Feng, I shouldn't ask you this question. But I still want to know one thing: If this is the case, do you think they will hate you?"
I shook my head, "I don't know, I don't know... I don't think they will, right? Because they all love me. Unfortunately, I am too... Oh! I won't say it anymore, we
Let’s not talk about this matter, okay?”
But she continued: "Brother Feng, can I understand this? As long as two people get married, they will tolerate each other under normal circumstances, unless they encounter a problem of principle. And the biggest problem of principle between husband and wife should be
It's infidelity. Am I right? Brother Feng, I'm sorry, I know that such a topic will make you feel uncomfortable, but I have never been married, so I really want to know what marriage is all about."
I sighed: "Maybe, what you said is right."
She was looking at me, and then she laughed, "I understand. Come on, Brother Feng, let me toast you. Can we talk about some fun things from now on?"
We drank it, and then I said with a wry smile: "The fun things you deliberately say are no longer fun. But you can talk about it first, I like to hear it."
She smiled and said: "Let me tell you a story. This story was told by the chairman during a meeting in the company: There was a little bird that flew to the south to spend the winter. It was too cold. It froze and fell to the ground.
In the field. While it was lying there, a cow came over and pooped on it. The frozen bird lay in the dung and began to feel the warmth. The cow dung did warm it up. It lay
In the warm cow dung, it was very happy and started to sing. A passing cat heard the bird's call and rushed over to see what was going on. Following the sound, it discovered the little bird under the cow dung and quickly picked it up.
He dragged it out and ate it. After he finished telling this story, he asked us: What can you learn from this story? Brother Feng, tell me, tell me what you learned?"
I smiled bitterly and said, "I'm the worst at thinking about such problems. Just tell me."
She smiled and said: "Anyway, we had everything we said at the time. Later, the chairman concluded that this story can tell us a few things: first, not everyone who poops on you is your enemy; second,
Not everyone who drags you out of the dung heap is your friend; thirdly, when you are deep in the dung heap, it is best to keep your mouth shut. Haha! Fun, right?"
I laughed immediately and seemed to feel much better, "Uncle Lin is actually a very wise man. I am not surprised at all that he can tell such a story."
She came to drink with me again, and asked me with a smile: "You are right. Do you still want to hear it?"
I said, "Okay. This is a good story."
So she told me another story, "There were three people who were going to be imprisoned for three years. The warden gave each of them a request. Americans loved smoking cigars and asked for three boxes of cigars. The French were the most romantic and asked for one.
Accompanied by a beautiful woman. The Jew said he wanted a phone to communicate with the outside world. Three years later, the first person to rush out was an American, with cigars in his mouth and nostrils, and shouted: "Give me a fire."
, give me fire!" It turned out that he forgot to ask for fire. The Frenchman came out next. He was holding a child in his hand, and the beautiful woman was holding a child in her hand, and she was pregnant with a third child.
The last person to come out was the Jew. He held the warden's hand tightly and said: In the past three years, I have been in contact with the outside world every day. Not only has my business not stopped, but it has increased several times. To express my gratitude, I will give you a labor truck.
Schless!”
I thought this story was very interesting, so I asked her, "So, what does this story mean?"
She didn't laugh anymore, but came to drink with me, "Brother Feng, I'll tell you after we drink this glass of wine."
I smiled and said, "You, what are you talking about? Come on, let's drink. But Shangguan, we have to drink less today. I'm already a little drunk now."
She smiled and said: "It's Chinese New Year, can't you drink more? Brother Feng, are you out of wine here?" [
I laughed "haha", "At least we can't finish the wine here tonight."
She smiled, "That's great. Come, let's drink! Brother Feng, I'm so happy today because I don't feel so lonely anymore."
I sighed and said, "Yeah, two people drink to feel better."
After we drank the wine, she said: "Brother Feng, the moral of the story just now is: what kind of choices determine what kind of life. Today's life is determined by our choices three years ago, and our choices today will
Determine our life in three years. So, today I decided on something, hoping that it will allow me to live a brand new life in the future."
I suddenly became very curious, "Oh? Can you tell me? What have you decided?"
She did not answer me, but picked up the bottle and shook it, "Brother Feng, there is no more wine. Please go get another bottle."
I didn't move, but looked at her, "Shangguan, stop drinking. Let's talk for a while, or go watch the Spring Festival Gala."
She immediately laughed, "Brother Feng, who watches the Spring Festival Gala? Only people of our parents' age go to watch it! There is singing and dancing, and everything is peaceful! Haha! Is reality like that? Look at it
Among those officials, which one is not corrupt? Which one is not corrupt? I find it funny even when I see programs like that!"
I don't think what she said is wrong, but I think it's not good to say such words from her mouth. After all, she is Lin Yi's assistant. She has contact with so many officials, and if one of them is not good, something may happen.
So, my immediate feeling is: she seems drunk.
"Shangguan, don't say such nonsense. You might cause trouble." So, I reminded her immediately.
She smiled charmingly at me. This was the first time I saw her eyes like this. The charming smile of beautiful women is very lethal. This may be a weapon specially given to them by God. She was talking to me, her voice was very
Rourou said, "Brother Feng, aren't we just the two of us here now? Do you think I would still say this outside? But what I said is the truth. I never watch such programs, and I don't like to watch any TV series.
Very fake."
I thought so, so I asked her with a smile: "So, what do you think is true?"
She smiled and said: "I am real, and you in front of me are real. Of course, my work is also real, because I really come into contact with the real work one by one every day, and I am still
Complete them one by one. Only when I do those things can I feel my true existence."
This is a negative concept, and I know it very well, because the most fundamental reason for her thinking is that she is disappointed with her future, or she is unable to look back on her past. However, I am not like this myself.
?Whenever I sometimes think about the things in my past, I really can't believe that all of them ever happened.
I said: "Yeah. Sometimes people are like this, and many things feel like they can only happen in a dream. For example, tonight, until now, I still can't completely believe that you will appear in my home. Life is like
Meng, this is so well said."
She immediately stood up with a smile, "In that case, why don't we continue drinking? When we get drunk, the new year has begun. Brother Feng, if you don't go get the wine, I will go get it?"
I stopped her in a hurry and said, "I'll get it myself. But Shangguan, I have to tell you something while we're still drunk. If we get drunk today, you must stay away from me. I
I'm worried that I will make a mistake. Shangguan, in my eyes you are my friend, just a friend. I don't want to taint you, otherwise I will never be able to forgive myself for the rest of my life. What's more, Chen Yuan left
You seemed to be here that day, right? I think she is here now, too, in our home. So, I don’t want that to happen. I was already sorry for her when she was alive...
Shangguan, do you understand what I mean?"
As I was talking, I saw her face suddenly change, becoming pale and frightened. When I just finished speaking, she immediately said: "Stop talking. Aren't we drinking? You put me
Who do you think he is? I came here to offer myself to you today? Am I that despicable?"
I didn't expect that she would be so angry, and I also felt that what I just said was indeed a bit excessive. But the purpose of saying that was just in case, because I know that sometimes anything is possible after drinking.
It will happen, not to mention that it almost happened between me and her. But now it is even more different, because both she and Lin Yi mentioned one thing to me: marriage. So I have to be cautious, I have to
Get vaccinated in advance.
But that was enough, so I immediately apologized to her: "Shangguan, I didn't mean that. I was worried that something would happen to me, because I really didn't want to blaspheme you. You are so beautiful, and you are still single. From now on,
You should have the kind of happiness you want. Therefore, I don’t want you to regret it for the rest of your life because of my drunkenness. It’s not like you don’t know that I am a person with weak willpower and often become immoral after drinking.”
She stopped talking, but continued to walk towards the wine cabinet, and then took out a bottle of Moutai and opened it. She returned to the coffee table in front of the TV, opposite me. "I'll drink by myself, so don't
Drink it. Is that okay?"
Now, I think she is really a little strange, because it is not normal for a woman to want to drink. But I thought about last night, Tong Yao and I drank so much wine together, didn't the same thing happen?
In fact, this kind of thing is very simple. In the final analysis, it is a matter between both parties. The woman must take the initiative or approve it before the man is attracted to it.
Thinking of this, I said: "That's all, I'll drink with you."
She looked at me, "Aren't you afraid of making mistakes?"
I smiled bitterly and said, "Making mistakes also requires opportunities. Since I don't have that opportunity, I won't worry about it anymore."
Her face immediately turned red, "Brother Feng, that's not the case. I think you are very self-controlled. Now I understand that you are really good to me in your heart, and I also understand that you
The reason why I was with those women before was because I never thought of being responsible for them. Am I right?"
I sighed: "Maybe that's it."
She looked at me with her eyebrows, "So, you care about me. Is that right?"
I found that she confused the concept, "I care about our friendship."
She smiled and then poured me a glass of wine, "Then, why can't we become husband and wife? There is no contradiction between friendship and marriage, right?"
I raised my head and drank it, and she drank it too. I said, "Tell you the truth. I don't want my marriage to be arranged by others."
She smiled and said: "I understand. In fact, what's wrong with being arranged by others? As long as the person being arranged is suitable for you."
I shook my head and said: "You have never been married, so you have no experience or feelings about marriage. Although my first marriage was not arranged, it was unfortunate because Zhao Menglei paid too much to be with me.
Too big, so in the end she had to use that way to leave this world. In fact, this matter can be thought of from another angle. If I had not married Chen Yuan, if I had been waiting for her, then she might have
I won't take that step. In the final analysis, her death was due to my marriage to Chen Yuan, and our marriage itself can be regarded as an arrangement. You should be very clear about this matter without me saying more.
Of course, I don’t blame Uncle Lin at all, because he is Aunt Shi’s husband. I understand his thoughts at the time. But precisely because of this, I don’t want my marriage to be arranged by others again. Besides, I
Now I have no desire to get married."
She said: "I understand, you mean you don't want to be controlled by others, right? Being arranged by others will make you feel that you are being controlled by others, right?"
Maybe I was drunk, so I nodded. You know, I did have such thoughts, but I shouldn't admit it in front of her. However, I nodded and admitted it.
She added: "Brother Feng, do you know? No one is controlling you. Tell me, what is the use of controlling you? You are not an official in charge of huge public resources. Why does the chairman want to control you? In fact,
After all, you don’t completely trust him, right?”
I suddenly became alert, "No! How could I not trust him?"
She looked at me with a fixed look in her eyes, "Then you don't trust me."
I immediately smiled bitterly, "Shangguan, do you know that there is something wrong with your logic? I don't have that idea."
She said: "Then I don't understand. For example, let's take what happened between us. I think I am a relatively good woman, and I am still single and have never been married. Since I am willing to marry you, what do you do?
Why don't you always agree? And you said it yourself, you don't dislike me, right? Unless you already like another woman."
I think she was also drunk, because her words became so bold, so direct, and still so illogical. I said: "Shangguan, you are still a woman, have you never thought about it? Marriage is necessary
Emotional. This feeling is not the kind of emotion between friends, it is love. Do you understand?"
She burst out laughing immediately, "Do you still believe in love?"
In fact, when I said the word "love", I already felt my vest tingling, because this word has become a disgusting word for me. But I don't want to say it in front of her.
She said that I no longer believed it, so I immediately asked her, "Don't you believe it?"
She shook her head, "What is love? Is it because a man talks sweetly in my ear when he likes me? But when I need him, he disappears without a trace? Haha! Love! What is love?! Isn't it just a man?
Is it one of the ways to coax a woman into bed?"
I seemed to understand: It turned out that she once had an unforgettable relationship, but the end result was that she was deceived.
She continued: "Tell me, do I still believe in love? If I hadn't had some sense at that time, I would have been deceived by him. After my mother became like that, when I needed his help the most, he
Suddenly disappeared. Haha! Love! Is this love?"
I was immediately infected by her emotions, so I comforted her softly: "Shangguan, you can't give up your pursuit of pure love just because you meet a man like that. In fact, I know that in this world
There are still a lot of sincere people online. Maybe you haven’t met the person who really likes you yet.”
She shook her head and started to cry, "But, I love him very much. Brother Feng, you don't know how much I loved him at that time. It was my first love. I gave all my heart to him, but he
But he treated me like that. He ran away and disappeared when I needed him most. If it weren't for the chairman, I can't believe what state I would be in now, and I'm not sure whether I would still be living here.
In the world. But, he ran away and disappeared... Wuwu!"
I knew she was drunk. When she said "He ran away, he disappeared" over and over again, I knew she was drunk, because only drunk people do this. At the same time, I also understood in my heart: She actually
I still care about that man very much. It just fulfills the saying: as deep as the love is, as deep as the hate is.
Obviously, the woman in front of me has been hurt so much that she no longer believes in love. In fact, I know that she does believe it, but now she is afraid, so she holds that belief tightly.
Wrapped up. Maybe for other people, they may think that the kind of injury she suffered is nothing, but I understand her very well, because it can be seen from her performance at the moment that her contribution at that time should be
Wholeheartedly. As for what she said about not being deceived into losing her body by that man, of course I can only listen to it as a joke. Besides, such things have nothing to do with me, right?
I could only sigh. Then I looked at her and said softly: "Okay, Shangguan, stop drinking. I think you are almost drunk. I am almost drunk too. I will take you back."
She raised her head and stared at me, "Are you driving me away?"
I smiled bitterly and said, "Well, let's go for a walk. I think it must be very lively outside today."
She immediately laughed and said, "I think this suggestion is good."
In fact, what I mean is very simple: stop drinking and leave my home. Only in this way will nothing happen between us.
After what happened to Tong Jiumei, I was even more worried about myself. I clearly knew that some things should not be done that way, but they continued to happen again and again. This was a kind of sadness to me. I remember someone said: A person can't control himself.
A man with that part of his body will never be very promising. I firmly believe this, and I also hope that I can change from now on.
I stood up immediately and said, "Then let's go."
She said: "Wait a minute, let me help you clean up these things. It will be next year soon, what a mess the house looks like!"
At this moment, I couldn't help but start to wonder: Is she drunk?
Soon, we cleared the things on the table, and there was still half a bottle of wine left. I put it back in the wine cabinet. I obviously felt drunk, because when I was putting away those things, I felt my
There was not much weight on my hands, and I could clearly feel my excitement.
I also noticed Shangguan Qin's appearance, and I noticed that she staggered a little when she walked. I couldn't help but feel relieved: at least we all still had the most basic sobriety. To be precise, our wine today should be just right.
After packing those things and we were getting ready to go out, she said, "My clothes."
I hurriedly went to get her clothes from the sofa, but found that her back was facing me. I immediately understood that she wanted me to put them on for her.
I stretched the coat behind her, and she reached into the sleeves and put it on. Then she turned to me and said, "Thank you. You cooperated well."
I couldn't help but smile bitterly, "It seems to be like this in the movie."
She smiled and said: "I like men who are very gentlemanly. Brother Feng, you should take the initiative in such things."
I couldn't help laughing, "I know. I'll definitely do it next time."
I don’t know why, but at this moment, I suddenly felt a warm feeling: Isn’t this a scene that may only occur when a couple goes out together?
"Brother Feng, let's not drive. Let's just walk on the street together. Okay?" She said to me when she went downstairs.
Of course I wouldn't object. So we went downstairs.
Today is New Year's Eve, there are very few people and cars on the street, and the night seems bleaker than usual. She and I are walking side by side on the street, the cold wind blows from our cheeks, and behind us are
Two long shadows. I don't know why, but I immediately felt that in such a cold night, our hearts were so close to each other.
Perhaps, we are all hoping for each other's warmth.
But then I reminded myself clearly: You can't do that, there is some warmth that you can't bear.
As I walked forward like this, I suddenly remembered that night a few days ago, when I was walking on the street with a woman like this. However, I didn't know where she was at the moment.
I couldn't help but sigh, and actually felt a little longing for her in my heart.
Suddenly, I heard Shangguanqin beside me say something, "Brother Feng, I feel a little dizzy."
I hurriedly said: "It's easy to do this if a cool breeze suddenly blows after drinking. Shangguan, let me hail a car for you. You go back and rest first."
But she shook her head and said: "I don't want to go back. I don't want to go from this year to next year alone."
I suddenly became embarrassed, "Then..."
She turned around and said, "Brother Feng, there is a park not far ahead. Let's go there and sit."
I said: "Okay."
She immediately became happy and came over to hold my arm. I was about to break away but finally gave up: Why bother? Let’s do this for today.
Her hand held my arm, and her body began to lean against mine. I believe that as long as someone sees us, they will think that we are a couple. At this moment, I began to doubt my stubbornness.
Come: Feng Xiao, why can’t she?
Of course not, I don’t want her to become the next Chen Yuan, nor do I want to be arranged with her again. Immediately, I said to myself in my heart. I know that this is the one that will never be solved in my heart.
Knot.
Soon, we arrived at the park. In my mind, there should still be a long distance from my home to this place, but I never expected that we would arrive so quickly today.
This city park existed many years ago, but in recent years the government has renovated the place, planted more trees, and opened the original walls. Of course, there is no longer a fee. This place has become an old place.
It's a good place for old ladies to exercise in the morning and evening. In fact, purely from this place, the government has allowed the people to enjoy some of the achievements since the reform and opening up.
We walked inside. Although the lights in the park were not very bright, they brought out the greenery in the night just right. The greenery in the night has another kind of beauty, which makes people feel a poetic feeling.
Warm.
"Brother Feng, my head feels so dizzy. Let's go there and sit down." She said to me next to me.
"Yeah." I said, and couldn't help but reach out to her waist and squeeze it gently. Her waist was very soft and thin, and her body was very close to me. At this moment, I actually felt something inside me.
Tremor.
This is a quiet place, with a bench between two big trees. We went over and sat down, and her head immediately rested on my shoulder, and at the same time she made a long and beautiful voice, "Feng
Brother, this is great."
I said, "Yeah. It's nice. It's so quiet here."
However, as soon as I finished speaking, I suddenly heard a "bang bang" sound coming from the distance. Immediately, several such sounds rose into the sky, and brilliant flowers suddenly bloomed in the sky.
It will be midnight soon? I thought to myself. Yes, it is so. People in the city do this every year. At this moment of bidding farewell to the old and welcoming the new, they will use fireworks to express their happiness and expectations for next year.
But the two of us are hiding here, quietly watching the beauty lit by others.
The sky has become a sea of flowers, and we are all looking up quietly to watch.
She said: "It's so beautiful."
I stupidly said: "Yes, it's so beautiful."
She said: "I'll just go and put a few flowers in there anytime."
I immediately laughed, "Isn't that easy? Let's just buy it and put it away now."
She said: "No. I hope to light them with my husband and children one day. That would be great."
I was speechless for a moment.
She said: "Brother Feng, are you still doubting that I have that kind of relationship with the chairman? Do you think there must be conditions for him to help me like that?"
I still didn't speak.
She continued: "I don't want to say anything more, but I can tell you. Until now, I am still a **. If you don't believe it, you can check it. You are an obstetrician and gynecologist. If it is repaired, you must check it.
Come on. Brother Feng, I don’t mean anything else, I just want you to understand that I am not the kind of woman you imagined."
I was shocked, and my body immediately froze.
The stiffness of my body brought my thoughts back to reality. At this moment, I felt very strange: while we were talking just now, beautiful flowers had been blooming in the sky, and it was only now that I heard the sound in my ears.
The whole thing was accompanied by the deafening explosions made by those flowers blooming. I couldn't understand why I could hear what she said just now, and I heard it so clearly. Was I just dreaming just now? Otherwise, why?
I can eliminate those deafening explosions, but I can incorporate every word of her into my mind?
But now, at this moment, her head is still on my shoulder, and there is a sound between us. Am I really dreaming? Did I fall asleep just now?
I can't imagine what kind of state I was in just now, but I don't believe that I fell asleep just now, because her real existence is so clear to me, especially what I said.
The scene in the sky and everything I saw are now in my eyes, and the words she said to me are still echoing in my ears at this moment.
This dreamlike feeling makes me feel scared. It is often a scary thing when a person has doubts about his own feelings, such as when he clearly hears someone talking to him in his ear but cannot see it.
When there is no trace of this person, the feeling of fear is indescribable to ordinary people. For people like me who study medicine, the only explanation is: I have auditory hallucinations. This is a type of mental disorder. Of course
, there is another situation that can explain this phenomenon, that is the legendary supernatural being.
So, I suddenly got scared and hurriedly asked her: "Shangguan, what were you talking about just now?"
However, I didn't hear her response. I quickly looked sideways and found that she had fallen asleep on my shoulder. When did she fall asleep? Did I really dream just now?
I gently moved my shoulders to wake her up. It was cold in the night and I was worried about her catching a cold.
She opened her eyes and moved her mouth towards me. I couldn't hear her because the deafening sound continued, and the flowers in the sky bloomed more brilliantly and beautifully.
It seems that I really fell asleep just now, or at least entered a state of false sleep. This is the effect of alcohol. I am very happy, because this reality can better explain the strange phenomenon I felt just now, and
, this explanation also shows one thing: there is nothing wrong with my mental state.
It was an illusion, an illusion in a dream, and this illusion reflected my subconscious, and it represented a good wish of mine. Deep in my heart, I had such an expectation: Shangguan Qin is pure, and she
I don’t have the kind of relationship with Lin Yi that I suspected. In other words, how much I don’t want them to deceive me...
【Class reunion. Just got home. Sorry!】
The author's digression:
today:
1. "The Officialdom of the Little Man: The First Secretary of the Provincial Party Committee"
Introduction: A young man enters the officialdom for the first time. Faced with the dangerous and unpredictable officialdom fights, the intrigues of competitors, and the emotional entanglements of several women, Song Sanxi falls into a dual game of emotion and power.
Sanxi took this as an opportunity to deal with many women; he was like a fish in water in the officialdom.
Directly search for "The First Secret Number of the Provincial Party Committee: 183187", then open a link to any book and replace the number in the address with 183187.
2. "Promotion of Grassroots Doctors: Medical Career Career"
Introduction: Ouyang Zhiyuan, a grassroots doctor, got drunk. When he opened his eyes, he saw a noble and elegant beautiful dean lying in his arms, and there were bright plum blossoms dotted on the bed sheets. From then on, he relied on his exquisite traditional Chinese medicine acupuncture to make a breakthrough.
Entering the ever-changing and dangerous officialdom, in front of his career, there are beautiful and sexy female reporters, shy and smart nurses, mature and charming female bosses, and the avant-garde and tricky Taiwanese eldest lady, all smiling at him.
Directly search for "Medical Career", or write down the book number 167925, then open the link to any book and replace the number in the address with 167925.
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