The bodies of Yun Tiancai and his mother were discovered in the afternoon, downstream not far from our city. (.om plain text) It is said that when someone discovered their bodies, Yun Tiancai’s mother was still there
on his back.
I didn’t go to see Yun Tiancai’s body because I didn’t want to see such a tragic situation. Also, I thought it would be pointless to go and it would only make me feel sad. I will not doubt the authenticity of this matter because
This is what the police told me.
The police also told me that with the consent of Yun Tiancai's relatives, his and his mother's bodies had been cremated.
I have lamented this matter for a long time. Since ancient times, people have praised the greatness of love when couples or lovers are buried together, but like Yun Tiancai and his mother, their ashes are completely mixed together and then buried together.
Unique. I would rather believe that Yun Tiancai's soul and body have returned to his mother's arms again just like they did before he was born.[
The donation made by the hospital to Yun Tiancai's relatives was done openly. After we secretly told various departments about this matter, everyone in the hospital actually donated money, totaling more than 300,000 yuan. Yun Tiancai has since
His character was respected by everyone after his death.
The money that Director Zou asked me to donate on his behalf was also put into the donation of the whole hospital. I know that what Director Zou donated was not actually money, but his inner guilt. People nowadays are so strange.
, cannot be judged casually in terms of good or bad. Although he is as greedy for money as other officials, I think he still deserves my respect, because he at least still uses the most basic conscience as a human being. As a department-level cadre, this point
It is already extremely rare. What moved me very much was that the magazine affiliated with the Department of Health also donated a sum of money.
One thing I didn't expect was that Yun Tiancai's wife actually insisted on returning the thousand yuan to me.
Of course I couldn't accept it, but she said to me: "This is what I was specifically told in the genius's suicide note. He has been such a virtuous person all his life, although I have scolded him more than once for being a coward and claiming to be aloof.
, but I can’t let his spirit in heaven scold me.”
I just accepted the one thousand yuan. However, I have been feeling guilty about it ever since. I don’t know why, but I always feel that Yun Tiancai did this on purpose. Maybe he just wanted to make me feel guilty.
Because as the dean, I did not do my best to help him.
Maybe this is just the regret and guilt in my heart.
But I still think he shouldn't do that, because I also think it's an escape and a cowardly behavior.
And now I am also in a dilemma: How should Yun Tiancai’s memorial service be held?
Anyway, he used to be the vice president of our hospital. Although the transfer order has been issued, he has not reported to the new unit yet, so this memorial service must be held. And the problem I face now is that he died abnormally.
, and also committed suicide.
If we don't hold this memorial service, it is likely that the employees of the unit will think that we are too sentimental and too inhumane. But if we hold this memorial service, it seems a bit inappropriate. Holding a memorial service for a person who committed suicide
, isn’t this encouraging such behavior? You must know that we are a national hospital, and everything must be done according to rules. It is very likely that someone will be put online if you are not careful. Once such a situation occurs, it is very likely that my
The seat is no longer guaranteed.
This is not just a question of whether I should be the dean or not, but more importantly, if my ideals and future are ruined because of this, it will be too unworthy. Moreover, people will not have any sympathy for me and will only think that I am stupid.
, deserve it.
I went to discuss this matter with Jian Yi, Shen Zhongyuan, and Deng Feng. They also felt that this matter was a bit difficult to handle.
Jian Yi suggested asking his superiors for instructions. I shook my head and said, "The superiors did not give us specific instructions, which already showed their indifference. The problem we face is how to prevent employees from feeling
It’s chilling, but we can’t let the leaders above have any opinions about us.”
Jian Yi said: "Let's just not hold the memorial service and let the department directors explain it to everyone when we get down."
I thought to myself: If this were the case, it would be easy, and I wouldn’t have to be so embarrassed.
Shen Zhongyuan said: "Lao Yun was very respected by the employees during his lifetime, which can be seen from everyone's donations this time. This is the human heart. If we use it well, this kind of human heart is more powerful than any other force, which will be beneficial to us."
The future development of the hospital will be more favorable. I think Director Feng is also considering this factor, right?"
I nodded, and I suddenly had the same feeling as him as a hero.
At this time, Deng Feng suddenly said something, and his words immediately helped us solve this problem. He said: "Let's hold a farewell ceremony for the body."
Jian Yi said: "It has already been cremated, so why do we need to hold a farewell ceremony for the body?" [
I think Deng Feng's idea is a very good one, "Although his body has been cremated, his ashes are still there? Aren't there still people who can't even find the body? In ancient times, there were tombs and so on. In fact,
In the end, what we want to express is just a kind of condolences."
There is something I haven’t said: the purpose of doing this is not only to commemorate the dead and express our grief, but also to show the living people. In fact, isn’t this the case for people since ancient times? In this world
How many people in the world really believe in ghosts and heaven?
After I said this, everyone no longer objected. I was also secretly happy: From this point of view, I am still the one who ultimately plays a decisive role. From this, I concluded another point: Maybe many leaders are
What you are doing is using all available factors to achieve your own goals. This is not shame, but means and methods.
After asking Yun Tiancai's wife, we learned that the ashes of Yun Tiancai and his mother are still in the crematorium for the time being, because she has not chosen a cemetery yet.
I immediately called Ning Xiangru and asked her to help choose a better cemetery. After she heard me explain the whole story, she told me that they only charge the cost of the cemetery, and she also joked with me:
"Dean Feng, you have been promoted and you haven't invited me to dinner yet."
I smiled and said, "I've been too busy lately, let's talk about it later."
She immediately said to me: "Okay, anyway, I remember that you owe me a meal. How about it? Are you in love?"
I didn't expect that she would suddenly ask me such a question, and I immediately felt that she was just asking about me accidentally. I said, "Yeah."
Unexpectedly, she suddenly shouted loudly, "Really? Who is it?"
I lowered my voice and said, "Maybe you know her. It's Shangguan Qin."
She stopped talking immediately. I was very surprised and said, "Xiangru, what's wrong with you?"
Then she said: "You don't want such a good girl like Dong Jie... Oh! What a pity."
I couldn't say anything else, but I was thinking in my heart: Isn't Shangguanqin bad? I said: "Xiangru, let's talk some other time, my place is a mess. So, I will ask the family members of the deceased to come directly
Looking for you."
But she still sighed, "Feng Xiao, I really don't know what you think. Forget it, just think it's appropriate. Alas! Our Xiaodong will definitely be sad for a long time after knowing this...
Well, just ask her to come to me directly."
I don’t know what women think. I always feel that the way they think about problems is different from us men. Isn’t it? You think Dong Jie is good, but I don’t have any feeling for her at all? Suddenly, I remembered
Zhong Xiaohong once introduced Xiaohui to me. At that time, Zhong Xiaohong said that she was very well-behaved.
Can't help but smile bitterly.
Randomly, I personally called Yun Tiancai's wife and told her that I had contacted her about the cemetery. At the same time, I also discussed with her that our hospital was going to hold a farewell ceremony for her man.
Yun Tiancai's wife immediately burst into tears. At the same time, she kept thanking me on the phone.
The hospital rented the largest farewell hall in the crematorium. "Pure Text First Release" In the front of the farewell hall are black and white photos of Yun Tiancai and his mother. In the center of the farewell hall are the urns containing the ashes of Yun Tiancai and his mother, surrounded by
They are all white wreaths. The names of various departments in the hospital are marked on the paper streamers of the wreaths, and there are also wreaths sent by individuals inside.
Many people went to the hospital. We did not organize it, but everyone went there spontaneously. There was no eulogy, but I led everyone to bow three times to the urn, and then everyone walked around the urn, and then offered a
A white flower made of paper.
I let Jian Yi go first, followed by myself.
After coming out of the farewell hall, I saw the long farewell team slowly moving towards the farewell hall amidst the sad music. I thought to myself: This is the human heart...[
The matter passed like this, and the Department of Health did not ask about it at all. This was exactly the result I needed, and their lack of inquiry also showed their acquiescence attitude.
After this matter was settled, I went to Ning Xiangru's company, because I found that I had almost forgotten her for a long time, and it didn't matter that I forgot her, the more important thing was that I had forgotten her.
Pay her back the money.
Ning Xiangru didn't expect that I would go, so she was surprised when she saw me, "You are such a noble person, you haven't been here for a long time."
I smiled and said, "What kind of noble person am I?"
She couldn't help laughing, "You nobles forget things a lot. Haven't you forgotten me a long time ago? If your vice-dean hadn't needed a cemetery, you wouldn't have thought of me until now."
Only then did I realize that she was joking with me, and then she said: "Don't tell me, I really forgot about you. Xiangru, let me tell you, I am here to pay you back today. Last time
I'm sorry that I haven't paid you back the money I borrowed from you. I really forgot about it. I didn't use the money at all, and I hope it didn't affect your capital turnover."
She immediately shouted exaggeratedly, "My interest!"
Although I knew she was joking with me, I still felt very embarrassed and said, "I'll pay your interest."
But she immediately suppressed the smile on her face and said to me seriously: "Feng Xiao, you are wrong. I originally gave this money to you, and I told you at the time that you don't have to pay it back.
.”
I shook my head and said, "No, I have to pay it back. I definitely can't take the money that's not mine."
She waved her hand at me and said, "You are looking down on me by doing this. We are good friends, why are you so serious with me?"
I didn’t want to talk to her more, because I felt that we would never be able to argue clearly on such a matter. I took out the card and handed it to her, "The password is... Could you please give me the financial account?"
Transfer the money to your company's account. If I need it in the future, I will come to you to borrow it. If you don't want the money, won't you block the opportunity for me to ask you again in the future? "
She then took it and said, "Okay. But I will still treat this money as your shares. It's up to you to do whatever you want."
I smiled bitterly and shook my head. I thought to myself: It’s up to you. Anyway, I won’t ask for your money in the future.
She picked up the phone on her desk and dialed, "Dong Jie, come here."
My heart suddenly started beating faster for no apparent reason.
Soon Dong Jie came in. She seemed startled when she saw me for the first time, and then her face turned red. She greeted me softly, "Feng, Doctor Feng..."
Ning Xiangru said with a smile: "Xiaojie, you are wrong, I am now Dean Feng."
Dong Jie's face turned redder. She looked at me again but immediately looked away and went to Ning Xiangru, "Chairman, are you looking for me?"
Ning Xiangru said: "Take this card to the finance department..."
After she finished her instructions, Dong Jie took my card and left. She looked at me again before leaving, and I felt a sense of shame in her eyes.
Ning Xiangru looked at me, half-smiling but not smiling, "Feng Xiao, I haven't told her about you and Shangguanqin yet."
I smiled bitterly, "You'd better find a chance to tell her."
At this moment, I couldn't help but feel a little strange: Did Wu Yaru not tell her too?
Ning Xiangru sighed: "I asked her and she admitted that she likes you very much. You want me to tell her? Forget it, I don't want to make her sad."
I immediately said seriously: "Xiangru, please tell her. I don't know what you think, why are you like her aunt? I really don't mean anything to her in that way. What you do can only make her
It will be even more painful in the future. Xiangru, I am not joking with you. Really."
She shook her head and said: "I didn't expect you to get along with Shangguanqin at all. This thing is so unexpected..."
I was very surprised, "Xiangru, how much do you know about Shangguanqin? Why do you say that?"
She replied: "Yes, I really don't know her very well. But I have met her a few times, and she gives me the impression that she is too smart and capable. Feng Xiao, do you know? The difference between a man and a woman
The relationship between the horse and the saddle is like the relationship between the horse and the saddle. They must be matched. Otherwise, not only the rider will feel uncomfortable, but the horse itself will also feel uncomfortable. I am a person who has been here and I have a lot of experience with this kind of thing.
.Shangguan Qin is so smart and capable, you may not be able to control her. Feng Xiao, I have no intention of belittling you, please don’t be angry. I am saying this entirely for your own good. I think, like Shangguan Qin
For such a woman, only a man she admires can marry her."
I shook my head and said, "Xiangru, I know you are doing it for my own good, and I have no doubt about it. But maybe you really don't understand her, because I have already felt from my contact with her that she is not what you think she is."
That kind of woman, because she is very nice to me now."
She said: "Really? I hope I'm wrong. Well, you can handle your own affairs by yourself. I won't let you talk about what I said earlier. Feng Xiao, if you really feel that way, then you must not accept what I just said.
The impact of those words. Otherwise, my sin would be great."
I smiled and said, "No, don't worry."
She randomly asked me with a faint smile: "It seems that your relationship with her is already very unusual, right?"
I felt embarrassed again, "Xiangru, let's talk about something else. How are you doing lately? You also talk about yourself. Are you satisfied with your marriage to him?"
Her face blushed slightly, "He is very good to me."
I understood immediately, "So, you are very satisfied with the saddle on your horse?"
She burst out laughing immediately, "Feng Xiao, why are you so annoying?"
I couldn't help but laugh. At this moment, I feel as if we have never had that kind of relationship, as if we have always been very good friends. To be honest, I like this feeling.
Immediately, she asked me about my recent work situation, and I briefly told her. She looked very happy, "Feng Xiao, you must treat me to a meal today. It is a double blessing for you. Not only is your career successful, but also
The personal relationship has also come to an end. By the way, when are you going to marry Shangguanqin? You must inform me then, and I must come to drink this wedding wine."
I said: "Of course..."
However, when I was just halfway through my words, I noticed that she was suddenly looking in the direction of her office door, and at the same time I heard her whispering: "Yes, she heard me."
I turned around quickly and immediately saw Dong Jie standing at the door of the office. Her face was already pale.
Ning Xiangru reacted quickly, and she immediately asked her, "Is it done?"
Dong Jie came over and handed my card to Ning Xiangru.
I stood up in a hurry, "Xiangru, Xiaodong, I'm leaving. By the way, Xiangru, let's talk about the meal later. There are still a lot of things waiting for me in my unit."
Ning Xiangru sighed softly, "Okay. It's your card."
I took the card and didn't dare to look at Dong Jie at all, so I turned around and left. I don't know why, but I found that my steps were in a panic when I left.
I really didn't dare to go see Dong Jie, because I was particularly afraid of seeing a little girl crying. After getting in the car, I couldn't help but smile bitterly: In the final analysis, this matter was caused by Wu Yaru and Ning Xiangru, otherwise how could it be like this?
I couldn't help but think again about the time Zhong Xiaohong introduced me to my girlfriend. I really don't know how women think about such things. I find that they are sometimes stubborn and can be scary in their enthusiasm.
Now, I felt very uneasy. After thinking about it, I couldn't help but call Ning Xiangru, "How is she? Is she okay?"
She said: "She went back to her office. She cried. Alas!"
I suddenly felt guilty towards Dong Jie, "Xiangru, I think so. Please find a way to send her to study. Maybe this way she can get in touch with more outstanding people of her own age."
She said: "But now you have to pass an exam to go to college."
I said: "Nowadays, many universities are offering preparatory courses for junior colleges. If you pass the exam, you will have the opportunity to go to undergraduate school in the future. If you can't afford it, you will still get a technical secondary school diploma. This is better than what she is doing now."
She said: "Okay, I'll ask her for her opinion before talking."
I felt a lot more relieved now.
After returning to the hospital, I was still sighing, and I couldn't help blaming Wu Yaru for the inexplicable idea at the beginning, and at the same time blaming Ning Xiangru for adding to the flames.
I hope she can go out. I secretly wish Dong Jie this in my heart.
In fact, I am very clear about one thing: I am not that good, but Dong Jie has too little experience, so she falls into the illusion I gave her. Whether it is a girl or me
Even when we are young, we are all confused sometimes.
Suddenly I no longer had the mind to think about work, because I was already upset. I noticed the magazines on the table, so I picked up the top one, "Jiangnan Party Building".
Just started reading.
There were some theoretical articles in it, and I had no intention of reading them at all, so I flipped through them quickly, and then I was about to put them back to where they were... Suddenly, I stopped my hand
, because I felt like I just saw a familiar name in the magazine.
This is a conscious feeling, or impression, but I felt that my impression was so real. I quickly flipped through the pages from beginning to end, not looking at the specific contents.
content, but looking for the name that just seemed vaguely familiar to me.
I found it, on the page at the back of the magazine: The recent appointment and dismissal of cadres in Jiangnan Province... Lin Yu's name was on it. No, there was also the name of Director Zou.
However, their names are very different, and Lin Yu's name appears twice.
The previous situation is the removal: Comrade Lin Yu was removed from the post of Secretary-General of the Jiangnan Provincial Government Office.
The following is the appointment information. Lin Yu's name is in front of Director Zou: Comrade Lin Yu is appointed as the executive deputy director of the Organization Department of the Jiangnan Provincial Committee; Comrade Zou xx is appointed as the party secretary (concurrently) of the Jiangnan Provincial Department of Health.
I'm not interested in Director Zou's appointment, but Lin Yu's incident gave me a complicated feeling: Her appointment has been approved? Why didn't she tell me?
No one can understand my mood at this moment, and even I can't concretely understand my true inner feelings at this moment.
I thought about it for a long time and finally picked up the phone. I found that my hands were shaking a little. I didn't know why I was so excited.
The phone call ended, and my words immediately blurted out, "Sister, I saw your appointment. It was in a party building magazine."
But she said to me, her voice was very soft, "I'm in a meeting, I'll call you later."
I said: "Oh." At the same time, I also heard the voice of someone talking on her side from the phone. I regretted my excitement and impulsiveness just now: if I had known earlier, I should have sent her a text message.
She hung up the phone, and the excitement I felt just now came to an abrupt end.
I didn't know when she would call me, so I started to become irritable. I didn't know why I became so irritable, I really didn't know why.
I started pacing irritably in the office. I was thinking, maybe it’s because I care about her too much, because everything I have now is given to me by her. Maybe it’s because of Shangguan Qin, because I really don’t know what the future will be like.
How to continue to contact Lin Yu and maintain the relationship.
Lin Yu once told me: Relationships can be maintained in many ways. His words are simple to say, but I feel it is so difficult at the moment.
Of course, the easiest way is to no longer have an intimate relationship with Lin Yu. I thought in my heart: I hope she will no longer have such demands on me from now on. However, I know that this is completely self-deception on my part.
I am an obstetrician and gynecologist, and I certainly understand what the biggest needs of a woman, a lonely, lonely woman are.
Lin Yu is an official, an official with a high rank and position. Although she must pay attention to the influence, as a woman, she is equally afraid of loneliness and loneliness. Because of this, she always stays in situations where she thinks it is safe.
Want me to go to her because she needs it.
For me, to be honest, from a purely sexual perspective, I have no special needs for her, but I do have feelings for her. I know this very well in my heart, because every time I am with her,
There was no feeling of disgust when we were together, and I never felt disgusted afterwards. My body and heart will not deceive me. I have no doubt about this.
She called me about an hour later. She smiled and asked me: "Feng Xiao, why do you read a magazine like that?"
At this moment, the restlessness in my heart just now disappeared. "Sister, I just wrote the application for joining the party."
She continued to laugh, "Really? That's great. You know you've made progress, I'm so happy."
I said: "Sister, were you really transferred to the Organization Department? When exactly did it happen?"
She smiled and said: "Not long ago. You were reading the latest issue of the magazine, right?"
Then I hurriedly looked at the cover of the magazine and said, "Yes. It's from the latest issue."
She said: "I guess so. Feng Xiao, how are you? Are you getting used to the work in the new unit?"
I said: "It's okay. It's just that a lot of things have happened recently, which has made me very busy. A vice president was double-checked because of the incident involving Secretary Qiu of the Department of Health, and there was also a vice president who was a few years ago.
God committed suicide. Alas!"
I don’t know why, but I suddenly became talkative.
She said: "I know about your vice president who was double-regulated. What? You also have a vice president who committed suicide? How come I didn't know? The Health Department should have reported this to us. Although your hospital
The vice-president is only at the division level, but as the Organization Department of the Provincial Party Committee, he should keep abreast of the latest developments of cadres? What is the Department of Health doing? "
I said, "Maybe they have already reported it? It's just that you haven't seen it yet."
She smiled and said: "That's probably it. By the way, are you free tonight? If you are free, come to my house, around 9:30 in the evening. Oh, I have someone here, someone is knocking on the door. That's it.
That’s settled, you can take care of other things.”
Before I could speak, I heard her suddenly loud voice coming from the phone, "Come in!" Immediately, she hung up the phone.
At this moment, I suddenly regretted: Why did I make this call to her? But then I thought: This will happen sooner or later. What I need to consider urgently now is how to face her tonight and how to reject her.
.Also, at nine o'clock in the evening...what should I tell Shangguanqin then? How can I prevent her from doubting me?
After thinking for a while, I picked up the phone and called the deputy director of the hospital office, "Please give me a call at nine o'clock in the evening to remind me. I'm worried that I will forget to discuss the project with the district government.
.You must remember it.”
I went to Shangguanqin's residence immediately after get off work. She had already bought the groceries, and I quickly made dinner. While eating, I told her: "I can't go to the movies with you tonight, I can only go for a walk." .”
She asked me in surprise: "Is there any difference? Why?"
She asked me two different questions, and I answered: "In the evening I am going to discuss the project with the mayor of the district where our hospital is located, and we have made an appointment to have tea. If I want to watch a movie, I'm afraid
If you don't finish it, you have to leave, and taking a walk is what you call it."
She said: "Oh. Well, let's go for a walk."
At this time, I suddenly remembered what Ning Xiangru told me today about her analysis of Shangguan Qin. After thinking about it, I asked her in front of me, "Xiao Qin, do you think we can really last long?"
She immediately looked at me with alert and doubtful eyes, "What do you mean? Why are you asking me this question?"
I suddenly became nervous. I found that I had been impulsive just now, and my impulsiveness came from worry. I said: "Xiaoqin, I find that the longer I am with you, the more worried and scared I am, because I
I already like you. You are so outstanding, but I am so mediocre. Besides, I am a man who has been married twice and has children. I am really afraid of losing you now."
She looked at me and immediately smiled, "You are so stupid, how could you suddenly think of such a problem? I am already yours, what are you worried about?"
I shook my head slightly, "Xiaoqin, no one in this world is really the same person. Only two people can have each other forever, and it's not just physical possession, but spiritual communication. Physical communication.
Possession is only temporary, because that kind of happiness is also temporary, and our bodies will grow old one day. Do you think so?"
She looked at me and said, "What you said is so good."
I sighed, "Xiaoqin, I have been married twice, but I still cheated on my wife in both marriages. Now that I think about it, there is a part of me that is dissolute, but more importantly, I have no real responsibility.
shoulder the responsibility as a husband. Why don’t I have that responsibility? In fact, in the final analysis, the relationship between me and them is not that pure. My first wife was Zhao Menglei, she was my middle school classmate and the most important person in my life.
The first woman I liked, but when we met again, she was already married. Although I married her later, and I believed that I loved her, there was always a shadow in my heart because of her.
She is a married woman. And it was this shadow that caused me to betray her. And because of this, she indulged in my indulgence. Xiaoqin, our situation is also the same now, I can be sure
, there is also that kind of shadow in your heart. I have really experienced this kind of thing myself, and because of this, I am particularly worried that my past will happen again between us."
She looked at me with tenderness in her eyes, "No, I won't. There was indeed a shadow in my heart at the beginning, but it's different now. I really regard myself as your woman.
Laugh, don’t worry, I will never do anything to make you sorry. You are a man, and I know that as men, your face is more important than anything else. This is the most fundamental difference between men and women, so,
I won't do that. Laugh, you are still an obstetrician and gynecologist. Why do you understand us women so little? Do you think we women can sleep with other men casually? Yes, the society now is not the same as before.
, a lot more open-minded. Many women just go to bed with other men casually for money or other things, but I won’t. Laugh, I admit that the first time I did that with you was out of necessity, in order to complete what the chairman gave me.
The mission is to repay his kindness, but I also want to be with you? To marry you? At that time, I thought, since I have to hand myself over to you sooner or later, why not do it earlier? So, you don’t have to worry at all.
This is true."
I felt a little more at ease in my heart. At the same time, I thought to myself: Now that I have said everything to this extent, I should continue to ask her the question that I have always been confused about, "Xiaoqin, I really
I don’t know how you overcame your dislike of me. Do you know? I have been rejecting you because I don’t want to blaspheme you. I am really too ****, but you are...
I just had a relationship with that woman and you gave yourself to me, and you were still a virgin at the time. Xiaoqin, I really can’t imagine how you overcame that disgusting feeling. Now,
Every time I think about this, I feel even more sorry for you."
Her expression turned gloomy, "Smile, stop talking. I know it all. It was my fault that night, and I shouldn't have drugged you. I know the reason why you rejected me, because I completely understood you before.
What kind of person you are, but the more you do that, the more I appreciate you because of your sincere respect for me. And I was very worried about you that night, worried about what big problems you would have after taking that drug.
In fact, I was driving behind you. When I saw you taking a taxi and leaving, I continued to follow you, and then followed you all the way to the hotel belonging to our group. Laugh, you don’t know, I cried in the hotel lobby at that time.
It's so awesome... Later, I also went to ask for a room, right next to yours. At that time, I really wanted to die. Fortunately, you are very good to me now.
Okay, so I’m satisfied. Laugh, let’s not talk about this matter again, okay?”
When she said this, tears were streaming down her face, and then she knelt down on the dining table.
I suddenly felt heartache.
But I thought to myself: Since the topic has been opened, and since we have talked to this extent, it is best to finish everything. So, I immediately hardened my heart and continued: "Xiaoqin, you
Listen to me slowly. I want to say everything I want to say to you at once today. From now on, we will never talk about such things again. Okay? Because I know that if the psychological shadow between us is not
If we eliminate it, sooner or later there will be problems between us."
She didn't speak. The fact that I put her in this situation was her tacit consent for me to continue talking. I looked at her hair where she was crawling and said: "I talked about Zhao Menglei earlier. Now I will say
Let’s talk about Chen Yuan..."
However, as soon as I said this, she suddenly raised her head, her eyes full of tears, "Smile, please stop talking. I beg you, please stop talking, okay?"
I fell silent for a moment and couldn't help but sigh secretly.
She stood up immediately, and then silently cleared away the dishes on the table. I was still looking at her, and then I went to clear away the dishes with her.
When we went to the kitchen together, she wiped away her tears quickly, and she said to me: "Smile, I'll do it. I'll finish washing it quickly. Let's go for a walk later."
At this moment, I regretted it again. I felt that I should not have told her those things today. However, her reaction and attitude at the moment made me very happy, because she did not change anything because of it.
I said, "You go out and rest for a while. I'll wash the dishes."
She was really obedient, washed her hands immediately, and then went out. Before she went out, she smiled lightly at me.
However, I found that her smile just now had an unspeakable sadness.
I washed the dishes carefully and slowly in the kitchen, just as carefully and meticulously as I did when I had surgery. This is not my habit when doing housework. I was thinking about things.
Now I am thinking: What should I tell Lin Yu when I go to her place in a while?
But I painfully discovered that I had no idea at all, and there was still some hesitation in my heart. I knew very well that this was the desire deep in my heart that was at work. In the so-called ideal and love
On the scale, I am still swinging.
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