"Are you awake?" I finally pressed the answer button and asked her softly.
"Where are you? Why is it so noisy?" she asked me. Her voice was lazy on the phone, and I guessed she might still be in bed.
I said: "I went to put gas in the car, and then found a teahouse to drink tea. What else would I do?"
Her voice suddenly seemed to become tense, "Come on?" [
Maybe it's because of my own inner doubts that I felt nervousness in Shangguanqin's voice. Because I believe that fables like the suspect stealing the ax are entirely possible in our reality.
But no matter what, I just felt that there seemed to be a kind of nervousness in her voice, so I immediately became nervous because I didn't want her to know that I found the gun in the car.
I said: "Yes, I found that there is not much gas in the gas tank of the car. I want to wait for you to wake up and we will go to eat. After eating, we will set off."
She said: "You, you really have a lot of money. We can take back the gas we put in when driving and claim it. By the way, have you issued an invoice?"
Now I felt that what she said was a bit redundant: Since we came out as individuals, of course we should pay for the gas ourselves. Neither she nor I lack this money. As for whether it is me or her who pays for it.
There is no need to distinguish it so clearly. So, I immediately felt that her words were testing me. You know, if I put such a thing in the car, I would feel nervous and nervous because of it.
worried.
Regarding this matter, I seem to have a clearer picture in my mind at this moment: Shangguanqin brought a pistol when she went out this time. Perhaps this gun is something she must bring every time she goes out. But she dare not carry it with her.
Because I am next to her, and we may have to be intimate at any time, so it is easy for me to find out. So she can only put this thing in the car, and the place where she puts the gun must be easy to take out at any time, because this
The purpose of things is just in case.
Maybe she would bring this gun with her every time she went to that village. That was because she was alone every time she went there, so she felt very insecure.
There is another possibility: She didn't put the gun in the storage box originally. Maybe she didn't expect that I would go to refuel, so she safely put the gun in that place.
Indeed, I found that there was an element of chance in this matter. If I hadn't hit the truck today, the lid of the storage box would not have been lifted. If I hadn't accidentally taken a look inside or
If I hadn't been so curious, I still wouldn't have discovered this thing.
But there's one thing I still don't understand: Since she came with me this time, why does she still bring this thing with her?
She is definitely not targeting me. I am very sure of this. Because from the process of being with her, I can completely feel that she has developed some feelings for me. As she said, her person
It was all mine, so she tried her best to cultivate a relationship with me. Therefore, if I suspected that her purpose of bringing that thing was to deal with me, there was no reason. And there was no need for her to use that thing at all.
something to deal with me.
In a country like ours, women generally have an inherent concept in their bones, that is, they are always full of a special emotion for the first man in their lives. Shangguanqin told me
Her first love, but her first love did not allow her to give herself completely. To be precise, her first love gave her pure feelings. But I was different in her life, because from a traditional perspective
, I am the real first man in her life.
The reason why too many women cannot forget the first man in their lives is not only because that man made them change from a girl to a woman overnight, but also because that is the first memory in their lives. Every woman
There is only one first time in a person's life. Everything can be repeated, but the first time will never happen again. That's why that man becomes so special and important.
From my contact with Shangguanqin, I felt that she is actually very traditional at heart.
So, what is she afraid of?
Of course, such doubts can only be made when the thing is hers. From this, I suddenly had an idea in my mind: If that thing is hers, then I will probably be with her after we go back.
Find it in your residence.
But now, she was blaming me for such a small thing as cheering. Although I felt very surprised and strange, I had to give her a credible answer. I said: "I didn't think of that much at all.
.Isn’t it just a matter of a few hundred dollars? What’s the difference between taking it back and paying it back in Uncle Lin’s company, and doing it myself?”
She immediately laughed, "That's right. What you said made others suspect that I often take advantage of the company. Laugh, you won't doubt me in the same way, right?"
I also laughed, "Would your Assistant Shangguan be interested in a matter of a few hundred dollars?" [
She couldn't help but giggle, "That's right. Oops! I'm hungry. Come back quickly and let's go eat together."
I agreed repeatedly, "Then why don't you get up quickly? Let's find a place to eat first, and then we can go back early."
When I passed the parking lot under the hotel and saw the Buick business car we drove in, I felt a sense of fear again, and I almost couldn't help but want to tie the knot on the bag again.
, because I always feel that the knot I tied in front of me is not quite right. The fastest update please come. But I restrained myself, because I recalled it again in my heart, but found that I really couldn’t remember the knot when I opened it.
What does the knot look like? Moreover, I am still worried about another thing: What if Shangguanqin suddenly comes down at this time? If she is already suspicious of me, then she is likely to come down soon.
.Besides, maybe she has already come down.
I'm not sure about this.
I restrained my inner impulse and continued to walk into the hotel. And I tried my best to only take a first look at the car, because I was worried that she was quietly watching me somewhere in front of me.
I entered the hotel lobby and looked around pretending to be carefree. I couldn't find her anywhere.
Then I went upstairs to the door of the room. I started knocking on the door.
The door opened and she appeared at the door. I saw that she had changed her clothes, and her hair was still a little messy at the moment. She was looking at me and smiling, "You, you are so leisurely that you went to drink tea alone."
!”
I still had some fear in my heart, but I kept convincing myself in my heart: She is so beautiful and kind-hearted, how could she be like that? That gun must belong to someone else.
This kind of self-persuasion made the fear in my heart disappear a lot, and the way I looked at her became more natural, and I suddenly felt a kind of tenderness in my heart. I know why, because from my heart
Deep down, I don't want her to be the kind of person I suspect. Maybe this is a kind of self-deception or self-narcosis, but I really hope that's the case.
I smiled and said: "You are sleeping, and you specifically asked me not to wake you up. As you know, I have the habit of getting up early every day, and I will wake up naturally at that time. But I didn't know it after I went to have breakfast.
It was time to go and do something, so I thought of refueling. But after refueling, I didn’t know what to do. I happened to see a teahouse, so I went in. Not to mention, it’s really nice to experience the local customs in a place like that.
good."
She looked at me and smiled, "You really don't look like a doctor. I think you are suitable to be a poet."
I laughed and said, "I can write poetry. Wait, let me think about it... Haha! I remember, when I was in junior high school, a classmate in our class wrote a poem like this
As for the poem, listen to me recite it to you... I'm not afraid of the sky or the earth, I'm just afraid that the teacher will come to my house. Sit on my bed, drink my tea, and my mother will beat the teacher as soon as he leaves. How about that?"
She laughed and said, "No, didn't you say you can write poems? You can compose one yourself and listen to it."
I thought about it, looked at her randomly and said with a smile: "If you don't take a shower at night, mosquitoes will bite you everywhere. If you turn over in the middle of the night, you'll get crushed to death."
She laughed even more, "I took a shower later."
I said: "I'm talking about my own past."
She was still laughing, and then came over and held my arm, "I didn't expect you to be so funny. Come on, I'm hungry. Let's go eat."
So I took our things and went downstairs. I believed that she would not doubt me anymore. Of course, the premise was still the same: the gun was hers.
Originally, I said we should go to eat first and then come back and drive, but she said that would be troublesome. She said: "Stop when you see a restaurant with a better environment, and then leave after eating."
I think so.
When we got to the car, I handed her the car keys and said, "You better do it."[
She looked at me, "Why don't you open it?"
I said, "There are so many people on the street that I'm afraid I'll bump into them."
She laughed again, "Your skills are suitable for driving straight ahead, and there must not be many people or cars coming."
I hurriedly said: "That's not enough. My reversing skills are also very good."
I kept paying attention to her while we were talking, and found that she had never even looked at the storage box between us. I couldn't help but think to myself: Am I really wrong?
There were too many people on the street. We saw a pretty good-looking restaurant on our way out of the city and then parked the car. I got out of the car first, and then went to close the door. But at this moment, I
I found her looking at the storage box, her eyes fixed for just a moment.
My heart almost stopped immediately, and the fear that had appeared before suddenly surged through my body. Suddenly I felt her raising her head, and her eyes were looking in my direction. I turned my head quickly,
Then he closed the car door forcefully. The car door suddenly made a loud "bang" sound.
She immediately criticized me and said: "Smile, what are you doing? Why are you working so hard?!"
I thought to myself: It's over, I lost my composure. But I had to force the panic in my heart and apologized to her: "I'm sorry, I..."
She smiled brightly at me and said, "You, I really don't know if you are so rough when operating on patients."
I smiled bitterly at her and said, "How could that be?"
She got out of the car, came to my side, and put her hand into my arm. At this moment, my body couldn't help but tremble.
She asked me in surprise: "What? Are you cold?"
I nodded hurriedly and said, "Maybe I had a slight cold after sitting in that teahouse for a long time today."
She immediately stretched out her hand to test the temperature on my forehead, "You don't have a fever?"
I was still worried and uneasy, "You don't necessarily have to have a fever if you have a cold. Come on, I'm hungry. Let's go in and order food."
She glared at me and said, "I haven't had breakfast yet."
I said, "It's not easy to feel hungry if you don't have breakfast."
She asked me in surprise: "Why is this?"
In fact, I wanted to talk to her about this topic as soon as possible, because in this way I could temporarily forget the panic in my heart. I answered her: "If you don't eat breakfast, your stomach will not be activated and it will still be in a semi-cold state."
In a state of inhibition. I ate breakfast, and my stomach began to secrete digestive substances from then on. It is always active, so it is easier to feel hungry."
She immediately chuckled, "So there is some truth in this. You medical students are so good, and I am really lucky to be able to live with a doctor like you. I don't have to worry about my health in the future.
Problem."
Of course I understand what she means, she is talking about our future.
It was already after four o'clock in the afternoon when we returned to the provincial capital. After lunch, she continued to drive, and I fell asleep after fastening my body with a seat belt. Maybe I was really tired, or maybe I was
I am escaping, escaping from the fear in my heart.
I was worried that I would have nightmares while sleeping, but fortunately I didn't.
When she woke up, we hadn't entered the city yet. When she saw me waking up, she immediately said to me with dissatisfaction: "You are really, very boring. I am so tired driving like this alone, and there is no one to talk to."
.”
I hurriedly said: "Didn't you sleep for so long when we went there? Wasn't it me driving alone?"
But she became even more dissatisfied, "Why do you always argue with me? You are a man."
I had to apologize to her hastily, "I'm sorry. I won't do this next time. The main reason is that I got up too early today, and I had cerebral ischemia just after taking the Fa, so I felt sleepy all of a sudden."
Her expression improved and she said, "It's rare for you to believe in me and my driving skills."
I regarded her words as a test. So I hurriedly said: "Don't you think my skills are poor? Even you believe in me. You can't resist drowsiness no matter what.
of."
She smiled and said: "I know that. But you have slept for too long, haven't you?"
I thought to myself: When I went there, you were the one who could outlast me. But I didn’t dare to say this out loud because I was afraid that I was going tit-for-tat with her. I said, “I won’t do this in the future.
Alright. Is it okay?”
But she immediately turned to look at me, "Smile, why do I feel like you are afraid of me? Why is this?"
My heart suddenly thumped, and I hurriedly answered her: "Don't tell me, I'm really afraid of you."
She looked at me again, with a half-smile on her face, "Why?"
I smiled bitterly and said: "Now, I realize that I am very worried about losing you, so I am afraid."
She looked at me, still smiling, "Really?"
Of course it's a lie. I said to myself in my heart. Moreover, when I just said those words to her, I immediately felt a layer of goosebumps on my back! I said: "It's true.
.Don’t you believe it?”
The half-smile on her face immediately turned into a real smile, "I believe. In fact, you don't need to smile like this. You are the first real man in my life, and I can't live without it in my heart."
It's off to you. You know what? So, you don't have to worry about this."
My heart had already become complicated, and I was far more frightened than moved at the moment. I said: "Oh..."
She looked at me and smiled, "You look so stupid."
We parked the car downstairs where she lived, went shopping for groceries, and then went back to cook a lot of delicious food. After dinner, she insisted on going to the movies with me.
I don't want to go, "I'm too tired. Let's go to bed early today."
But she insisted on going. I had no choice but to reluctantly agree to her. In fact, in my heart, I didn’t want to go to a movie at all, and I didn’t even want to continue living in her place. But I knew this was not possible.
After watching the movie, we went back to her place, took a shower and went to bed separately.
She came into my arms and nestled against my body. I looked at the ceiling with a dull expression. At this moment, I still couldn't get rid of the gun. On the contrary, the feeling in my heart at this moment
This fear is getting stronger and stronger. I also tried not to show it, but I found that I couldn't do it at all.
No, I have to ask her, I have to ask her what exactly is going on. I thought in my heart.
However, immediately there was another voice rising from my heart: Don't ask, otherwise you may be in danger...
She felt my indifference. She stroked my chest with her hand and asked me at the same time: "Smile, what are you thinking about? Why do you become so worried?"
No, I can't ask her, I can only pretend not to know about this matter! I made such a decision at this moment, and I immediately found a very good excuse, "Xiaoqin, I feel that I can no longer be like
This goes on."
She immediately raised her upper body, looked into my eyes and asked, "What do you mean?"
I said: "Since I was transferred to the Provincial Obstetrics and Gynecology Hospital, my major has almost been lost. I have not been in the ward for a day, have not seen an outpatient clinic once, and have never had an operation. Also, I was once in
The scientific research project undertaken by the Medical University has also been completely stopped. Although there were factors that were obstructed by my leadership, it was also the main reason why I did not pursue it. Now, I have not even consulted the relevant departments of the Department of Health.
, and I have never been to the Provincial Science and Technology Commission. In fact, I know that I am lazy. Alas!"
Then she lay down again, and then came to my arms and snuggled up again, "Smile, you are now the dean, so you can do such things or not. I think so."
I shook my head and said, "I don't think so. Being a leader is only temporary. If one day I make a mistake and the organization fires me, then I will have nothing. I am a doctor by training, so I cannot fully
Throw away your own business. I have been studying medicine for so many years, and I have managed to accumulate so much clinical experience. Now I am at the golden age of doing surgery. It would be a pity to give up my profession and scientific research like this.
.”
Her hands were still rubbing my chest, "Smile, what do you mean?"
I said: "I think we can't continue to be entangled like now. From now on, I have to spend a few days a week to go to the ward, or go to the outpatient clinic on weekends, and I should try my best to do some scientific research in the evening."
She raised her body again and looked at me, "Smile, are you tired of me?"
Her reaction was expected by me, but I had to do this because I had to find a suitable and reasonable reason for not being with her every day. I thought: If she is really like that
As a person, maybe we can become indifferent to each other in this way. Although I know that this is probably a futile effort on my part, I really can't find another way.
I went to gently hug her body and said, "Xiaoqin, why do you say that? We will still have a long time together in the future. Look at us now, I have almost completely given up on my business, and what about you?
?You have hardly participated in any of the company's entertainment. Think about it, can we continue like this for a long time? It's impossible, right? So I thought, since it's impossible, let's start living a normal life earlier.
Get used to that kind of life earlier. What do you think?"
She whispered: "You always have a point."
I immediately breathed a sigh of relief in my heart, and then smiled and said: "That's because I told the truth. You think so?"
She said: "Smile, you like me..."
Immediately, she hugged my body tightly and started to kiss my lips.
I really didn't have that kind of interest at the moment, "Xiaoqin, I'm too tired today. Let's get up earlier tomorrow morning and do it again."
She immediately became unhappy, "I wanted to sleep in the morning, but it was very dry down there."
I kissed her cheek and said, "I'm really tired. And I haven't fully recovered from drinking yesterday. I feel a little sore."
Her hand immediately went to my crotch, "Aren't you already hard?"
I smiled bitterly, "But, I really don't want to move."
Her lips came to my ear, "How about I come up?"
I smiled bitterly and said, "Then come on."
So, she really came up and immediately took off her pajamas and everything inside them, and then gently pulled me into them. She looked at me and smiled, "You are so lazy."
I didn't feel much joy, "Do you feel comfortable?"
She moved a few more times, then turned over and said, "Forget it, you are like a piece of wood and boring. Go to sleep. By the way, you have to make up for it tomorrow morning, otherwise I will think that you must be bored."
Me."
Now I was most worried about her thinking this way, so I hurriedly said: "Then let's continue now."
But she immediately went to pull up her pants, "Forget it, I see you are really tired. We have a lifetime to live. Let's enjoy it slowly in the future."
I no longer insist.
I knew in my heart that she was still reminding me of one thing: we still have a future.
Immediately, she snuggled into my arms and fell asleep deeply. However, I found it difficult to fall asleep because my thoughts always went to the business car downstairs and the people inside that car.
Inside that storage box, that cloth bag always pops up in my mind, as well as the black, scary thing inside the cloth bag...
The author's digression:
Today's "The Road to Power"
Introduction: The promotion trajectory of a master of smoothing things out. Some people say that leveling is the standard in officialdom. Zhao Qingling, who was extremely unlucky, was sent to a poor village when he first entered the officialdom. His career could only start from smoothing things out, such as "collecting food and collecting funds, dilation and curettage, and miscarriage."
A special mission like this begins. Hundreds of officials at all levels appear on stage; dozens of turbulent official career turmoils; more than a dozen job adjustments with uncertain futures; a group of lively beauties with very different personalities; a dangerous official career.
, he can only settle them one by one with his tactics and skills.
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