In fact, many things are like this. It may not attract too much attention if it is there peacefully, but suddenly thinking that one day something will no longer exist, the regret in your heart will arise spontaneously. Please update as soon as possible, even to the bone.

pain.

Just like a flower that is always blooming in front of you, when you think about it being picked by others, a kind of sadness or even pain will arise in your heart.

Although I feel that I am not worthy of Chenchen because there is a big gap between us, Principal Wu’s words still make me feel a pain in my heart——

The one who looks exactly like Zhao Menglei will belong to someone else...[

However, I can only sigh and feel sad in my heart, because I know one thing very well: there are many regrets in this world that we cannot make up for on our own, and there are also many wishes that cannot be realized.

Life is a way of moving forward without looking back. The things we have experienced will never be erased from our life. My two marriages and several adultery records will always be in my memory.

My self-esteem is not about what others will think, but my own inability to face it one by one.

This is the price of indiscriminate love - it makes me unable to look back and makes me unqualified to pursue true love.

But there is still a small piece of innocence in my heart, which I left for myself during the struggle - my marriage. I told myself that without pure love, I would never consider my marriage again.

, always keeping that small place vacuum.

Because I know very well that once I decide to get married again, I must abandon everything I have. It must be like this, and it can only be like this.

So it must be worth it. And whether it is worth it or not can only be weighed with two words: true love.

After being sad, you have to face reality, because reality is something you can touch, not a hazy illusion. When I left the medical university, I found that I was drunk. I only drank two bottles of beer at noon, but

But it actually made me feel like this, and I also had an uncomfortable feeling of being hot inside.

I went home and rested for nearly two hours before going to the office. The discipline of the unit is only for the general personnel below. There is nothing wrong with this. It is just like the difference between commanders and soldiers in war. Soldiers must go

Fight and fight, and the commander's responsibility is only to strategize.

Especially as the head of the unit, all I need to take care of is major issues, so that the entire unit can operate normally, and at the same time create a better future for the unit. Other than that, anything else is not particularly important.

In fact, the most common things I do in the office on weekdays are to review and approve documents and sign various invoices. However, such things do not take me much time.

After finishing the work, I wanted to sit with the old director several times. The purpose was of course to find out some things about Chenchen from him, but then I felt that I was very chatty, and I felt like a toad wanted to eat swan meat. I shook my head.

After giving up the idea with a wry smile.

I couldn't help but think about the matter of Principal Wu and Director Song. I thought to myself: I have to find an opportunity to do the best for Lin Yujiang in this matter, as much as possible "by the way." At the same time, I thought of Yu Min's matter.

I feel that I should give her some help immediately, which is also my responsibility. No matter what, she will always be the mother of my child. Although I cannot give her and the child some help in a high-profile manner, as a father

As for me, I have to fulfill my responsibilities.

Yes, it is a responsibility. To be honest, I have no feelings for that child, and until now, I still feel that this thing is incredible in my heart, and even has a dreamy feeling. But suddenly in my mind

The child's special look emerged, and it suddenly felt so wonderful——

How could a child who looks so much like me not make me feel close to him?

After thinking about it, I finally decided to call Tang Zi because I believed she would be able to provide me with a very reasonable suggestion.

The call was dialed, but she hung up immediately.

She was still angry with me. I couldn't help but smile bitterly in my heart.

Immediately, I sent her a text message: Tang Zi, I want to talk to you about something. About Yu Min and the child. Please give me this opportunity.[

But she still didn't reply to me. I thought to myself, this must be because she hates everything I have, so she doesn't want to pay attention to me immediately. This is an emotional reaction that anyone may have. If this is really the case, then she is not willing to pay attention to me right now.

She must be hesitating, or waiting for me to call her again.

She should still have some feelings for me, otherwise she wouldn't have slapped me like that last time.

At this moment, what she needs is a step up. And this step is for me to take the initiative to call her again.

I hope my analysis is correct.

I called her again and got through. I suddenly felt excited, "Tang Zi..."

Her cold voice came from the phone, "Do you still have the nerve to call me?"

I hurriedly said: "Tang Zi, I know I'm sorry for you, but I really need your help now."

However, she exploded at this moment, "You called me when you needed help?! Do you think I will definitely help you?! Yu Min's child had a fever every day not long after he was born. At three months,

She can't raise her head, can't turn over at six months, and can't sit up at eight months. Now the child can't walk yet... She hugs the child all day long and sheds tears. Where were you then?!

Why do we have to help you when you need help?! Feng Xiao, who do you think you are?! You are the most heartless and affectionate bastard in the world!"

Her words were fired at me on the phone like a machine gun. She was so emotional and angry that I was immediately speechless. I didn’t know how to respond. Then I felt ashamed and panicked. When I suddenly woke up and tried to explain to her, I found that

She has hung up the phone.

I was stunned and sighed. I was just asking for trouble and scolding. But I don’t know why, but after being scolded by her just now, I felt a lot more comfortable. I thought to myself

:This is better than her completely ignoring me. Maybe she will agree to meet me after venting her anger.

I believe I know Tang Zi quite well. Her character changed a lot after what happened to her uncle, and she became irritable and extreme. However, her weak character itself is not easy to change. Besides, I believe she hates

The fundamental reason for me is still the emotion deep inside my heart. After all, I have sincerely helped her.

But this may take time.

Let her do whatever she wants, after all, I am at fault for this matter. Just as Tang Zi scolded me, I am really heartless and heartless. I do owe Yu Min and her son too much, and what I have to do now

The thing is how to compensate.

After waiting for two days, she never had any contact with me. I also called her several times but she didn't answer. Only then did I understand something: she hated me so much. But I

I understood in my heart that maybe she didn't hate me so much because of her own affairs, but she saw my feelings from the affairs of Yu Min and her son.

What else could I do? She didn't give me a chance to explain, and even if I explained to her, would it definitely be effective?

There was no call from Tang Zi, but she received a call from Dai Qian, "Did Zhuang Qing call you?"

I replied: "No. What? She's back?"

She said: "She will arrive tomorrow. I said I would pick her up but she said no need. But I really want to see her as soon as possible because there are a few things I want to communicate with her. That's why I asked you."

I was secretly wondering, but what I said in my mouth was: "You should contact her yourself about work matters. By the way, how is the loan matter now?"

She said: "Director Zou from the Department of Health came forward, and the situation seemed to have changed. After all, our hospital's procedures were complete at the time, and the collateral was in line with the loan amount we prepared at the time. It would be unreasonable for them to suddenly cancel the subsequent loans.

It makes sense. I have thought about it. If the progress of our project is affected because of their problems, they should bear full responsibility for the losses caused. If that doesn't work, we will sue them in court."

I hurriedly said: "What's the use of suing them? China Construction Bank is the country's bank, and even if they lose the lawsuit, the country will suffer the consequences. The problem is that such cases often have no results in the end, and out-of-court mediation is the most likely.

.However, the relationship between you and China Construction Bank will be completely stalemate, and the final problem will not be solved at all. This is also not conducive to the next construction of the hospital."

She asked me: "Then what do you think we should do? Are their banks superior to others? We borrow money, the collateral is there, and we have to pay them such high interest. On the contrary, we suffer losses everywhere. This is too unreasonable."

Already?"[

I smiled bitterly and said: "There are so many unreasonable things in this world. Dai Qian, I can give you an idea. I just thought of this idea, but I still hope you can use it with caution.

Don't take that step unless you have to. Because my idea will still offend them, but the effect will definitely be better if you sue the court."

She said hurriedly: "Oh? Then tell me quickly."

I said: "If they still don't give you a loan, write a letter to the provincial leader in charge of finance in the name of the hospital and report to him the difficulties and situations you have encountered, especially the possible consequences of this matter."

Serious consequences."

She immediately became happy, "This is a good idea. Nowadays, some people are not afraid of the law, but they are very afraid that their leaders will know about the bad things they have done. That's great, thank you!"

I immediately said, "Don't thank me. I don't know anything about this."

She is a smart woman and immediately understood the meaning of my words, "Don't worry, I will bring it up at the dean's office meeting, and we will do it after everyone's research and approval."

In fact, I didn't want to give Dai Qian this idea, but I thought that the hospital project was designed and planned by me personally. I didn't want it to become an unfinished project, otherwise it would be rumored even if it was not my responsibility.

It is the mess I left behind, and it will definitely have a negative impact on me. In addition, I feel that Chang Bailing did go too far in this matter. What she did was completely irresponsible to avenge public and private revenge.

But there is one thing that is very strange to me: Lin Yi and China Construction Bank also cooperate. How come the conflict between me and Chang Bailing did not affect Jiangnan Group?

I immediately thought of Lin Yi's business methods, so I believed that he must have used certain methods to prevent Chang Bailing from turning his back easily.

Then I thought about it and decided to call Zhuang Qing, because I felt that she had some changes in her feelings for me. Otherwise, why didn't she tell me about her return to Jiangnan? Maybe she hadn't had time to tell me yet.

Call me, maybe I'm too sensitive.

I know in my heart that the most fundamental reason why I am sensitive to such things is because I care. I really care about my emotions and hers.

After the call was connected, I immediately asked her: "Zhuang Qing, I heard that you are going back to Jiangnan recently?"

She said: "Do you know about this? Yes, I am going to Jiangbei Province to shoot a TV series recently, so I will go back to Jiangnan by the way. After all, there is a female vagina in the Jiangnan Provincial Obstetrics and Gynecology Hospital.

shares, and that project was something you were doing when you were here, so I can’t ignore it. It’s just a matter of convenience anyway.”

Her words made me feel a kind of warmth immediately, and they no longer made me doubt the relationship between us. Then I asked her: "Do you need me to pick you up? Or make other arrangements?"

She said: "No, the crew will pick me up at the Jiangnan Province Airport. I went to the Obstetrics and Gynecology Hospital to attend the event and then went directly to Jiangbian Province."

I suddenly felt a sense of regret in my heart, "You mean we won't meet this time? Zhuang Qing, I really want to meet you, is that okay?"

She then asked me softly: "Do you miss me?"

I said, "Yeah. I miss you. I really miss you."

She laughed softly, "Well, let's do this. I'll try my best to arrange the time, and then we'll find a place to meet quietly. No, just meeting is not enough. I want you."
To be continued...