I really didn't expect that Kang Demao would be so honest. You know, the things he told me were the biggest traumas he had ever suffered in his heart. {Free novel} Moreover, he now talks about the things he has suffered.
Talking about those injuries is simply adding salt to the wounds I had in the past.
Remember what Freud said - if a person is hurt in childhood, he will feel a strong sense of insecurity when he grows up.
Freud compared the conscious part of a person to the tip of an iceberg above the water, while the subconscious is the huge part of the iceberg below the water. Although the subconscious is unknown, it often controls people's behavior unconsciously.
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He also proposed the "childhood shadow" theory, which believes that people's traumatic experiences, especially childhood traumatic experiences, have an important impact on people's lives. Most of these traumas are suppressed to the subconscious area because of people's self-protection mechanisms. Although
We think it is gone, but if you are accidentally touched by something, it will jump out and make you miserable, and even lose control of your emotions and behavior. The subconscious mind is generally suppressed by consciousness. For example, although desires control what we do
There are many things happening, but our consciousness always suppresses them.[
So, at least I can feel that Kang Demao has always been insecure, such as his suspicion of Lilac. It is precisely because of this that he is so eager to become stronger and stronger as soon as possible. Therefore, he behaves too much.
Pursue shortcuts.
In the past, I only knew that he had lived in a very poor family since he was a child, so he had always suffered from low self-esteem. And that was why I sympathized with him.
His words just now made me suddenly feel a sense of extreme sadness - doesn't his personal experience illustrate the sadness of education in our country over the years?
Many people say that the failure of our country’s education is due to insufficient investment. Some people say that there are problems with the examination system. Others say that there are problems with textbooks, educational methods, etc. But now, I finally realize that the real problem with our education is
Where is it——
What is really lacking in our education is respect, respect for everyone as a human being. That is, worship of human dignity.
In fact, as long as we pay careful attention, we will understand a very important fact - today's government is a government with economics as its core mission. In the eyes of the government, people are also purely economic animals who make and spend money. For example, official textbooks
Said: Our main contradiction is the contradiction between the people's growing material and cultural needs and backward productivity... This is actually materializing people and turning them into desires. Maslow's five-level theory of human needs believes that people
The needs are arranged in a certain order according to importance and hierarchy, from basic to complex, and are divided into: physiological needs, which are the basic needs for personal survival. Such as food, drink, shelter; safety needs, including psychological and material
Safety guarantees, such as freedom from the threat of theft, prevention of dangerous accidents, job security, social insurance and retirement funds, etc.; social needs, people are members of society, need friendship and a sense of belonging in the group, interpersonal communication requires mutual sympathy
, mutual assistance and praise; respect needs, including the requirement to be respected by others and having inner self-esteem; self-actualization needs, which refers to realizing one's own expectations for life through one's own efforts, so that life and work are truly meaningful. This
The theory is one-sided. For example, it cannot explain why there are many socially responsible poor people in our world from ancient times to the present. Even if they are poor, do they necessarily list material needs as the most important value? The official saying is that material is the most important.
While Mandarin is spreading, it also spreads this materialistic view to many Chinese people, shaping many Chinese people's concepts and thinking. So let's open the Chinese textbooks and see what our traditional concepts are like.
: There was a great famine in the Qi Dynasty. Qian Ao laid food on the road, waiting for the hungry to eat. Some hungry people came with their clothes in their arms to trade. Qian Ao served food on the left and drank on the right, saying: "Hey! Come and eat."
!” He raised his eyes and looked at it, and said, “I will not eat the food that came to me with a sigh, so that’s what happened!” Then he thanked Yan, and finally died without eating. Zeng Zi heard this and said, “Weiyu! This is a sigh that can go away.
, its thanks are also edible.” This is
I nodded. I was very touched by his words and at the same time very happy, because I felt that we seemed to have returned to the friendship we had in the past. I said, "De Mao, you are right. On weekdays we
We all wear masks and live in lies, but in our hearts we still long for real things, including our emotions. In fact, I am still not married until now. The most real reason for this is that I don’t want to give up on the true love.
pursuit. Because I know that if I get married again, I can only have the last marriage in my life. Now I regret it very much. I regret that I was sorry to Zhao Menglei and Chen Yuan in the past, so I
Cherish your future even more. Hey..."
He nodded and said: "Yes. Feng Xiao, in fact, I also regret it. My two previous wives betrayed me, and I have suffered so many insults since I was a child. The betrayal of those two women made me feel sad."
The sense of humiliation became even stronger, so I still couldn't trust Ding Xiang, and I also did some things that made her feel very sad. Now I understand that Ding Xiang is a good woman, and my parents were so harsh to her, and I was so
I hurt her, but she is still so considerate to me and can forgive me for the things I did, so I feel that I should cherish her even more from now on."
I became even more happy and immediately raised my glass to him, "De Mao, that's right."
After we drank together, he said: "Actually, I should be happy that I have gone down such a downward path in my official career. Really, Feng Xiao, I didn't lie at all. To be honest, if I hadn't left because of
If it's such a downhill road, I definitely won't be able to calm down and think about many issues, let alone reflect on my past mistakes. So, I'm really glad."
I completely believed what he said, because today I clearly felt that he was different from before, no longer false, more real and sincere. I said: "De Mao, I believe you will gradually become smoother in the future.
. In fact, a person who has such a process is also a very valuable asset."
He smiled and said: "I agree with what you said. Come on, Feng Xiao, let's drink. I'm very happy today. In fact, I've wanted to drink with you for a long time. It's not that I can't lose face... Actually, I
I have long put aside things like face, let alone between you and me? Feng Xiao, I know that there are some things that you have no choice but to do. If it were me, I would do the same thing, so now I want to
I understand that I shouldn’t blame you at all, let alone the leaders. Sometimes I think about this question myself. If I were the leader, I would definitely make the person who tried to betray me even worse. Haha
!I’m talking about trying, because I really never thought about betraying Governor Huang, but I really wanted to take a shortcut. At that time, I thought, if there was one more leader to help me, wouldn’t it be smoother in the future? But I didn’t.
I made one of the lowest mistakes, that is: in fact, leaders often regard their trusted subordinates as their slaves. I have been a county magistrate and have personal experience of this, but I don’t
I just forgot about this. Hey! I was really dizzy at that time, so I felt that it is best for a person to experience some setbacks. Feng Xiao, I don’t mean that I also hope that you will suffer some setbacks, but
I hope you can take this as a warning, and my setbacks may be a mirror for you, which can help you avoid detours in the future."
I was really touched by his words, but I knew I could only bury the feeling in my heart. Friends don’t need to use too many words to express their gratitude. In fact, friendship
It is also a spiritual connection.
We drank a lot of wine, and then Kang Demao proposed to end it. He said: "You have just arrived at a new place, and you must have a lot to do. Although tomorrow is the weekend, I believe you will not have much free time. We will stop here today.
That's it. Feng Xiao, although we haven't seen each other for a long time, I have been paying attention to your situation. It's just that I learned about your family's affairs a little later. You didn't notify me about my uncle's death at the time. I still don't know about it until now.
You are very opinionated. But later I heard that you did not publicize this matter at all, so I understand you. It is true, we are still very young, and some things are better kept low-key."
I was very ashamed, "De Mao, it's not like that. It was my father who specifically told me to do that before he died. You also know that my father couldn't bear the pain caused by liver cancer, so he did... Hey! Now I
I realized how stupid I was at that time. Why didn’t I think that my father would do it that way when he told me that? Now that I think about it, I understand that he had actually already thought of ending it in that way.
My own life. My father...forget it, let's not talk about it. Demao, that's right. I will talk to Secretary Chen in the city tomorrow morning. Let's stop here today. I hope
We can be together more often in the future. In fact, friends don’t need to drink much. The most important thing is that we communicate more and help each other. Do you think so? But I have almost drunk today. Let’s go, you
Go back earlier and spend time with your wife and children. Demao, I am so happy today, haha!"
He had to go to the checkout, and I didn't care much. Anyway, this little money is nothing to me and him.
I didn't ask him whether Ning Xiangru gave him the money, because I thought it would be disgraceful for the two of us to talk about such things today.
We broke up outside the restaurant and drove away.
I felt very excited, and I was always thinking about Kang Demao's money. So I immediately called Ning Xiangru.
"Xiangru, I had a meal with Demao today. I didn't want to ask him whether he received the money. Xiangru, I didn't mean anything else, just because I had a good conversation with him today.
, we have become good friends as before, so I don’t want to create a gap between us because of money, or I want to feel at ease. Haha! I drank too much, and I can’t express myself a little bit, but I
I believe you should understand what I mean." I said to her directly after the call was dialed.
She immediately asked me: "Then where are you now?"
I replied: "I'm driving. Getting ready to go home."
She said: "I have saved his money on a separate card and gave it to him. He didn't say anything. Feng Xiao, I'm very happy that you can reconcile with him, but to be honest, I found that
He has changed a lot now and has become much more real than before."
She felt the same as me, which made me very happy, "Yes. In fact, I had a lot of problems myself before, and now I also feel that I am very sorry for him. But all this has passed, and I am very happy that we can still be together
Become good friends.”
She immediately chuckled, "I don't know whether you are sorry or sorry for him, but you are definitely sorry for me."
I was stunned for a moment, "Why do you say that?" [
She was still chuckling, "Because you haven't come to see me for a long time."
My heart suddenly started to surge, but I still had at least some restraint, "Xiangru, let me take time to see you after I have been busy for a while. But I just came to see you, after all, you are married now
You are married, and I don’t want to be the one who destroys your marriage.”
She sighed: "What's the point of my current marriage? It's like being a widow. I don't know what's wrong with him. I can't make his thing stand up with my mouth. His heart is not very good, and I don't dare.
Let him take that kind of medicine. Hey! Feng Xiao, why do you think I am so miserable? Since you called me today, come and comfort me. I want you."
I hesitated immediately. To be honest, what she just said was full of great temptation for me, and I thought that my relationship with her was different from other women after all. I knew very well that Ning Xiangru would never get entangled.
For me. In other words, it is the safest thing for me and her to do that kind of thing.
Yes, because we should be considered very good friends, and she needs physical outlet and satisfaction just like me.
"Where are you?" I finally asked her.
She immediately said in a happy voice, "I'm working overtime in the office. Come on. I have a bed here, we can just sit on the sofa."
I stepped on the accelerator suddenly and quickly turned around...
We hugged each other tightly as soon as we met. At this moment, I realized that I really needed the comfort of a woman, mainly because my body needed it.
Her left hand held my hand around her waist, and she turned to me and said, "Feng Xiao, I feel very excited every time I see you. Do you know?"
Her soft words made my arousal grow stronger. I tightened my arms around my waist and said to her, "I know. Let me touch and see if you are wet down there?"
Her face was red and she didn't speak. I immediately laughed, and with a gentle movement of my arms, her body immediately fell weakly on me. My hands gently squeezed her abdomen, and slowly
Moving upward, I held her left breast with my palm, and finally my hand held her entire breast, and beads of sweat appeared on her forehead.
My palms caressed the plump breasts through the clothes, pinching and softening them alternately on both sides. Her fat breasts were stretched into various shapes, her cheeks were flushed, and her frown was eye-catching.
Feeling pity, as I kept playing with them, the two fleshy beads on the breasts gradually protruded, piercing my palm through the bra and shirt. I pressed the fleshy beads with my palms and kept rubbing them.
Suddenly I heard her snort, and when I looked up, I saw that her frown had relaxed, and she began to enjoy the pleasure from her body. She was twisting her body unbearably, and I quickly retracted my hand and pulled her away.
The shirt on the left waist was tucked into the skirt, and my hands quickly got in, and held her left breast through the bra. After squeezing it for a while, I lifted the bra up, and finally grasped the tender flesh ball with my palm.
Her vagina was so huge that I couldn't hold even half of it with my hands, so I had to knead the two balls, hold them from the bottom and squeeze them toward the middle. She moaned slightly under my teasing. Looking at her
Looking like she was enjoying it, I suddenly grabbed her breasts and pulled hard. She twisted in pain, and a trace of liquid flowed to my fingertips. I pulled out my hand, and there was white stick to my fingertips.
Liquid, I moved my fingertips in front of her eyes and asked with a smile: "What is this?" She turned around shyly and buried her face in my chest. I still couldn't spare her and turned around.
She put her finger up to her nose, smelled it and praised: "It smells so good!", then added in her mouth: "It's so sweet!", and leaned into her ear and said: "I understand now.
, why should we promote breast milk?”
Seeing the evil smile on my face, she stretched out her hand and punched me, her face full of shyness, "Let's go inside."
So we hugged each other and went to the rest room in her office. I found that the inside was very warm, similar to the rest room in the leadership office. From this, it seems that rich people often imitate the enjoyment style of leaders. Maybe it is
Leaders are imitating rich people.
When we got to the bed, I took advantage of her and raised her buttocks.
My hand touched her belly again, circling around her round belly button. While talking to distract her attention, I tried my fingers on the hem of her skirt. Just when she was talking most passionately, I gave her a swish.
, penetrated the inside of her skirt, broke through the panties inside, pressed her entire slit with the palm of her hand, and her middle finger had already lightly penetrated the wet inside. She let out a soft sigh, and grabbed my hand with her left hand.
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Her slit was already very wet, and the slippery liquid had flowed out. I gently turned my fingers inside and slowly pulled them out. More and more fluid flowed out, and it was sticky all over my hands. When my fingers were inside,
As I kept rubbing the fleshy beads at the top, her whole body leaned against me softly.
Her swollen meatball was getting bigger and bigger. I wanted to catch it with my hands, but it always slipped away. I finally pressed it with my fingertips.
As if she was trying to press the meat beads into her flesh, her gasping gradually became louder. As she gradually played with it, all the fingers penetrated her body, and the tender flesh wrapped around my fingers layer by layer.
I rotated my fingers and squeezed the warm tender meat inside, feeling like a tentacle inside massaging my fingers.
I moved my fingers back and forth, and felt that the tip of my finger was touching the opening of her uterus, which was her ovary... Every time I poked my finger lightly, her body kept shaking, and the inside of her hole was shaking.
The liquid kept pouring out, my palms and her entire slit were wet, and her little underwear was so wet that it was sticky to my hands.
Her body couldn't help but twist in my arms, and that part of mine stood up hard under her stimulation, pressing against her buttocks through the skirt. After adjusting her posture slightly, I loosened the belt.
I grabbed her right hand and pulled it into her pants, and pressed her hand on the thing that made me angry... We comforted each other, and our lust rose higher and higher.
Entering her body was a wonderful feeling: without any help, my already hard thing slid down her thigh and into her body. I immediately felt like I had entered a hot quagmire, which was filled with
So soft, so smooth, with no resistance at all, I stirred wantonly inside her body. Her face was flushed, her hair was messy, she was sweating, and her two white breasts were shaking in front of my eyes.
I couldn't believe that this usually dignified, mature, and very reserved woman could be so sexy and sexy. He turned her over, held her breasts, lowered her waist, pushed inward with force, and made a squeaking sound.
Insert it all the way. I rubbed along the edge of her slit, feeling the chinenbi there. I held the two plump buttocks with my hands behind and rubbed them. Her buttocks were very smooth, like ceramics, without any flaws.
, plump and sexual. Her whole body began to tremble, and she hummed in comfort. She hugged me tightly and involuntarily swayed her waist to cater to my movements, with a charming and charming look on her face. I came back again and again.
As I thrust hard to the end, I suddenly felt a contraction inside her, and my head felt a distinct warmth. She hugged me tightly, clamped me tightly, and I also felt a tingling sensation.
I changed my position, sat up, lifted her legs and put them on my shoulders, so that I could see the front of her whole body and the process of myself moving in and out of her body. This position excited me the most. She was twisting
My body began to moan louder, and my thrusts became more powerful.
...
I finally gushed out. She lay beside me and didn't move. I had no strength in my limbs and no feeling below the knees. I hadn't had such a pleasant feeling for a long time. I found her crying and suddenly felt a little strange, so I lay down
I stood next to her and asked her what was wrong. She cried and said to me: "Feng Xiao, thank you. I feel like a woman again today."
I couldn't help but sigh in my heart...
We lay on her bed and talked, and after about half an hour of rest, we came again. To be honest, if her legs were not so short and stubby, this woman would be perfect.
Before we started for the second time, she kissed my lower part with her mouth for a long time, until that part of me was as hard as the first time. While kissing that part of me, she said: "Feng Xiao, I love it to death.
This is your thing."
I burst out laughing immediately, stood up immediately, then spread her legs, and entered her body at once. Before entering, I looked at that part of her carefully, and I suddenly felt something in my heart.
I am amazed: God’s creation is so great. He has made that part of a woman as beautiful as a flower.
Later, when I left, she was sleeping on the bed, but I heard her say something to me, "There is a file bag on my desk, take it back and look at it."
I immediately went to her desk outside, and sure enough I saw a big document bag somewhere. I didn't leave in a hurry, but sat down in her soft boss chair in one fell swoop, and then went to open the file bag.
file holder.
I found that it actually contained Dong Jie’s information, because the top was Dong Jie’s photo. I suddenly wondered: Why did Ning Xiangru let me see Dong Jie’s information?
I hurriedly looked at the next page. This was an introduction to Dong Jie's parents. I found that Dong Jie was nothing like her parents. Suddenly I remembered what Ning Xiangru had told me before, and hurriedly looked at Dong Jie's photos again...
...Not to mention, she really looks a bit like Lin Yi.
My heart suddenly moved, and I immediately looked at the information at the back. There were two paternity test forms at the back. One was from Dong Jie and her father, and the conclusion was that they were not biological father and daughter. The other one was from Dong Jie and her mother, but the conclusion was that
The relationship between mother and daughter. I immediately understood: Ning Xiangru had always suspected the relationship between Dong Jie and Lin Yi, so she found a way to do this.
But what I can't understand is: why did she do this?
I know Ning Xiangru relatively well. Her company can achieve such performance not only because of her trustworthiness, but also because of her intelligence. You know, as women, they have encountered many difficulties when working hard in the business world.
She may have faced more difficulties than men. But she succeeded, which explains everything.
Therefore, I believe that Ning Xiangru must have her reasons for doing this.
She said that this information was meant for me to see, so I felt that she must have more important intentions than I could imagine.
I didn't want to leave right away, so I immediately returned to the rest room inside. In front of me was her naked body lying on her back. I remember that I covered her with a towel and quilt when I came out, but now she pulled her aside.
I couldn't help but feel a little funny: This middle-aged woman can be as naughty as a child sometimes.
"Hey!" I reached out and patted her leg gently.
She woke up, but did not open her eyes, "Feng Xiao, please let me rest. If you need anything, ask me tomorrow."
I smiled hurriedly and said to her: "How can you let me go back to sleep like this? No, get up quickly. I have to ask you right away what's going on."
She said softly: "No, I want to sleep."
I immediately put my hand between her legs and rubbed them gently. She laughed suddenly and sat up...
I immediately asked her: "Tell me, what is going on?"
She tilted her head and asked me, "What's going on?"
I went to tickle her, but she couldn't help but dodge and laugh, "Okay, I'm the most ticklish. Feng Xiao, have you read the information?"
I glared at her, "Then what else do you think will happen? Tell me, what exactly is going on?"
She acted coquettishly towards me on the bed, "Then you promise to stay with me tonight. Okay?"
I hurriedly said: "If you don't go home, won't your husband doubt you?"
She pursed her lips and said, "He is not at home. He is on a business trip."
I was very surprised, "Isn't he a teacher? Teachers also go on business trips?"
She immediately laughed, "Who says teachers don't go on business trips? He is an excellent teacher and went to participate in a teaching observation meeting held in another province."
I suddenly felt that I should care about her, "Xiangru, tell me, do you have feelings for your man? I feel a little sorry for him when we are like this. I have met him and I think this person is very good and honest.
Divided."
She sighed, casually pulled the towel and covered her body, "Yes, he is indeed a good person, and he is also very good to me. It would be perfect if he was normal in that aspect. I think, he and I are like the same person.
For companionship, we talk together every day, so we won’t be too lonely. Maybe he came to me to find a companion for himself, right? So I have no other ideas. Human life is actually very simple.
When you gain something, you will also lose something else. So, now I accept my fate. Feng Xiao, don’t feel sorry for anyone. The two of us are just satisfying each other. As for me, I’m not ugly.
Right? And I also think it’s very happy to do such things with you. It’s as simple as that. Don’t you think so?”
I nodded. I think what she said makes sense. In fact, each of us is very simple to begin with, and we should be simpler, but most of the time we make ourselves too complicated.
Then I said: "That's okay. I won't leave. Just tell me. What's going on with your information?"
The author's digression:
Today's "Medical Career: Female Medical Representative"
Content introduction: The fifth part of "The Official Path of Medicine".
How far is the distance between a man and a woman? Some people say: maybe it is just the distance of a chest.
Breast surgeon Lin Jie's hands roam around women's breasts every day, but he finds that he is so far away from love.
This is an era of high drug prices. Lin Jie has been experiencing this bizarre era from an ordinary surgeon to the director of the Provincial Food and Drug Administration. He clearly understands the causes and secrets of high drug prices, but he finds that he has no fundamental ability to
To change all this, because there are too many benefits in it
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