This feeling of discomfort and loneliness made my brain go blank for a while, so that it took me a while before I said, "I won't go to your restaurant. {Free novel} Let's go find a place by the river.

Bar."

She asked me softly: "What's wrong with you?"

I felt that my throat was bitter and dry, "No, it's nothing. Let's go to the riverside. There is a Jianghu restaurant there that tastes pretty good."

She said: "Okay then."

Only now did I realize that there is still a place for her in my heart. Otherwise, why would I have such a reaction when I learned that she was about to get married? At this moment, I suddenly understood: From now on, I

I will truly lose her in the future.[

However, I can only let her lose because now I am not qualified to enjoy marriage at all. But I don't want to go to her restaurant because I don't want to see that man.

I'm afraid my heart will hurt even more.

According to the time we agreed, I arrived at the riverside restaurant on time.

In the past year or two, many Jianghu restaurants have appeared in Jiangnan Province in a short period of time.

The so-called Jianghu cuisine, in the words of cooking experts, refers to dishes relative to authentic dishes. It is rooted in the folk, based on one cuisine, learned from many teachers, and cooked in an informal way. Jianghu cuisine is the largest

Its characteristics are "earth", "coarse" and "miscellaneous". "Earth" means that Jianghu cuisine has an extremely strong local flavor. Some Jianghu dishes originate from roadside shops and are cooked by fishermen and village girls.

The person who eats it accidentally finds the heart, which is actually a natural skill, and thus achieves a surprising effect; "coarse" refers to the rough and unrestrained temperament of Jianghu. In cooking, he does not follow the usual methods, sprinkle a large amount of chili pepper, add pepper to a large ladle, and paste

Diced chicken is hidden in the spicy shell, and crucian carp swims in the red oil soup. The form is informal, with earthen stoves, thick bowls, large plates for meat, and large basins for soup. The diners are rough and bold, drinking heavily, devouring meat with large mouths, and breathing.

Five invites and six, eat Malatang, taste refreshing and fresh, for no other reason than to stimulate, just to satisfy your taste; "Za" refers to the eclectic "hybrid" technique of Jianghu cuisine, using weird and bizarre cooking techniques: compound

Seasoning, northern ingredients cooked in the south, southern ingredients cooked in the north, Chinese dishes cooked in the west, western dishes cooked in the middle. The cooked dishes make people feel familiar, but they can’t figure out how to cook them. Sometimes they are incredible, but they are also amazing.

Absolutely.

After all, what Jianghu cuisine pursues is the extreme stimulation of the taste.

For me today, I feel that I need such stimulation, because I find that my emotions and nerves seem to have become numb.

When I got there, she had already arrived. When I entered, I found her sitting in the hall, in a corner. As soon as I entered, she saw me and immediately waved to me, "Here!"

I saw her and immediately walked towards her and sat down opposite her.

She was looking at me, the smile on her face was a little unnatural, "I've already ordered the food. I didn't order wine. Let's not drink today."

I nodded, "I won't drink."

She looked at me, "What's wrong with you? You seem worried?"

I smiled bitterly and shook my head, "Nothing. Tell me, what do you want to say to me?"

She looked at me, her face turned red, and then she asked me softly: "I'm getting married, will you come?"

I shook my head slightly, "I won't come. But I will bless you in my heart."

She was still looking at me, with tenderness in her eyes, "Feng Xiao, you actually like me, don't you? I can tell, that should be the case."

I shook my head, "Zhong Feng, I'm sorry. It's impossible for us to be together. I've told you this a long time ago."

She immediately became excited, "Why?! You have to tell me the reason? You have to make me completely disappointed in you?! You told me before that your life was very hard, and I didn't believe it at all! Even if you

What I said is true, and so do I. Anyway, I have already died once, so what should I be afraid of? I just want to be with you, and I just want to have a child for the two of us, even if I die soon

Just die, it's worth it. Feng Xiao, why don't you understand my feelings for you?"

My heart was already desolate, "Zhong Feng, don't ask me, I won't tell you. It's my fault... Well, since I'm not drinking today, I'll toast you with this cup of tea."

You go, I wish you happiness forever in the future.”[

She shook her head and started to cry at the same time, "Feng Xiao, you are the same as the man before. Forget it, I won't ask you anymore. I don't blame you either. Anyway, I owe you this life. You saved me."

My life, whether it was God's will that you saved me or it was your duty at the time, I know that I must repay you this kindness in this life. I have already got the money, Lin

Yi did not transfer his donation to my account. Maybe I was wrong. I will donate the money to you in the near future. I must go and repay this wish, otherwise I will never be able to live forever.

It will make you feel at ease. I don’t want to eat anymore, so I’m leaving first.”

After she finished speaking, she stood up immediately and left quickly. I stretched out my hand towards her, but withdrew it halfway.

Just like that, I watched her back disappear before my eyes.

The dishes have arrived, and they are all what she ordered. On the table are a pot of spicy and sour shrimps, a large plate of spicy eel segments, and several side dishes.

She ordered all these dishes. Originally, the two of us ate together, but now, I am the only one left here. At this moment, my heart feels even more desolate, and an indescribable pain has already filled the air.

All over my body. In this corner, I feel even more lonely.

Although I didn't feel hungry, I still picked up the chopsticks. These were the dishes she ordered, and I should eat them.

The taste of the eel segment was extremely spicy. I started sweating immediately after eating a little bit, my lips were numb and throbbing, and my mouth was suddenly stimulated by the spiciness and felt a dull pain.

Then I ate some other dishes, but I felt that every dish was so bitter. It turned out that I was already crying silently, and the tears followed the tear ducts to the throat. At this moment, for the first time, I

I felt that my tears had such a bitter taste.

I didn’t drink, nor did I ask the waiter to bring me wine. Now that I have passed the youthful stage, I will not use alcohol to make myself more worried. I know very well that alcohol can certainly make me feel miserable.

You get temporary anesthesia, but it only makes you feel hurt inside and increases your physical pain.

I couldn't eat any more, so I called the waiter and asked her to pay the bill. The waiter looked at the almost untouched dishes on the table in surprise, opened her mouth and was about to say something, but I immediately interrupted her.

Prepare to say, "It tastes good. I'm just in a bad mood."

She said: "Then let me pack it for you?"

I shook my head and immediately paid the bill according to the number she said.

When I returned to my new home, I suddenly felt that my current home was so strange, and this strange feeling made me feel even more lonely.

When the child saw me coming back, he immediately ran towards me with a smile. He stood in front of me, tilted his head, and looked at me with his big eyes, "Dad, it seems that today is not Sunday, right? Why are you back?"

He looked so cute, but I didn't feel like hugging him today, but I still smiled slightly and answered him, "Dad is here for a meeting today, so I went home by the way."

The child stretched out his little hand to hold me, "Dad, grandma bought me a new toy today. You go and have a look. It's very fun."

At this moment, I really wasn't in the mood to play with my child. I said to my child: "Daddy is too tired today, let's play tomorrow."

The child suddenly looked disappointed and said, "Tomorrow, when I come back from kindergarten tomorrow, you will be gone again."

At this time, the mother spoke, "Just stay with the child. It's rare to see you back once in a week. Many people say that father's love has a great impact on children."

I smiled bitterly and said, "Mom, I don't feel very well today and I want to go to bed early."

Only then did my mother look at me carefully, "Ah? There seems to be something wrong with your face. Then you should go to the hospital and have a look."

I shook my head and said, "It's okay. I'll go and have a good sleep and then I'll be fine."[

My mother looked at me worriedly. I smiled at her and went to my room.

I really should spend time with my children, but I can't control the sadness inside me.

In fact, I know that what my mother said is right. Father's love plays a very important role in the growth of children. Now my children lack maternal love, but as the father of my children, I cannot give my children enough father's love. Regarding this, I

Of course I felt very ashamed.

American psychologists have found through surveys that children who do not receive enough love from their fathers have very prominent emotional disorders, and behavioral defects such as anxiety, loneliness, willfulness, hyperactivity, dependence, low self-esteem, weak self-control, and strong aggression are more common.

, and even have a certain relationship with bad living habits in adulthood. Psychologists have proposed the concept of "lack of father's love syndrome" based on this. Children suffering from "lack of father's love syndrome" will develop neurosis, psychosis or

The rates of psychological diseases such as personality disorders and crime-suicide rates are higher than those of other children, and may affect their ability to correctly handle gender relationships as adults, leading to unhappy marriages. Longing for father's love is the deepest and most urgent psychology of boys.

Needs. He longs for a strong and humorous, rough and gentle, confident and caring, wise and humble man to be by his side and inject real "manliness" into him. The boy needs to stay with his father to help him

Establish a sense of security and self-confidence in the world around them, and learn to be a man from their father. Girls need to understand men through their fathers and learn the skills to get along with men. The negative impact of bad family factors on children's psychology cannot be ignored, especially

Fathers are very important in the growth process of children. Children who are often rejected and denied by their fathers are prone to anxiety.

Psychologists have even pointed out that boys have a "father's love hunger syndrome", that is, when boys reach adolescence, they are often alienated and even disgusted with their father. This alienation and disgust are mixed with the disappointment and misery of not getting father's love. He blindly goes to

Try various possible remedies, including smoking, drinking, even sexual indulgence or drug abuse. Longing for father's love, which is the boy's deepest psychological need. Being with his father, the boy develops a sense of security in the world around him and confidence in his personal future.

Heart. Psychologists believe that father's love is the starting point to help boys move towards health.

In addition, psychologists and educators also point out that when children grow up, parents should use different educational methods to shoulder different educational tasks due to differences in gender roles, social division of labor, and family division of labor. Generally speaking, mothers

He focuses on life and emotions, while his father focuses on spirit and psychology; his mother emphasizes stability, and his father emphasizes innovation and development; his father passes on to his son masculinity such as strength, bravery, and endurance, while his mother passes on delicacy, care, and compassion.

Wait for the feminine side. The two complement each other and work together to create a child's sound psychological quality. On the contrary, if one aspect is excessively strengthened or weakened, it will affect the child's psychological maturity and character perfection.

For example, children who grow up in an environment with insufficient fatherly love and excessive maternal affection are prone to develop timid, weak-willed, lack of innovative spirit, and over-reliance on others. Especially for girls, the "nanny style" of being overly caring

"Father's love can even lead to obstacles in children's emotional and psychosexual development.

Another example is that when a child asks a question for his or her parents to answer, the father rarely has the patience to explain everything in detail, and always lets the child see and think for himself, leaving the child with confusion and doubts. However, the mother will tell the answer in full.

Conclusion. On the surface, the father's method is a bit "rough", but it is a good will exercise to encourage children to think more. It can be seen that strengthening father's love plays an important role in cultivating children's sound psychology and making boys truly become men.

How important is the role of mother's love? This role cannot be replaced by maternal love.

Fathers should not be simple and rude when educating their children. Many fathers are not patient enough when dealing with their children, especially when they see their children's shortcomings, such as poor academic performance, procrastination in homework, etc., they become anxious and can't help but

Children have to be beaten and scolded. Therefore, many children report that they are afraid of their father. Under such high-pressure control, not only do children not get rid of their shortcomings, but they also become less confident, have a withdrawn personality, or have a rebellious and irritable temper, which is difficult to control. Therefore,

,Fathers must learn to make friends with their children, so that they can educate their children.
To be continued...