"If you can really put it down, there is no need to rely on these boats. Everything is just deceiving yourself and others." At this point, she handed the paper boat in her hand to Jingxue. The distant characters were invisible under the spring sun. "The princess likes it."
Is it Dr. Xu’s right?”
There was no surprise, no strange color, just a touch of sadness that could not be eliminated no matter how good the spring was. Looking back, I wanted to laugh but couldn't. Only the sound that burst out from between the lips and teeth resounded in each other's ears.
"It doesn't matter if he is happy, he only cares about Niu Hulu Lingruo."
"You..." Ling Ruo's expression changed in horror when the secret hidden deep in her heart was revealed. Before she could say anything, Jingxue said quietly: "Don't worry, I won't tell anyone this secret."
For some reason, there was a convincing power in her words, which gradually calmed down Ling Ruo's frightened heart. "How did you know?" This question was equivalent to admitting Jingxue's words. If Jingxue had the intention to trick her, she would have fallen into the trap.
However, in his heart, he subconsciously thought that Jingxue was not that kind of person. This feeling was very strange. This was the first time that Ling Ruoshang trusted someone without any reason.
Jingxue smiled silently, stroking her aching chest and said, "In those days when you were crazy, I followed Dr. Xu to another hospital to treat you. Although he hid it very well, I still noticed that he treated you differently.
, that kind of focused and deep look, I have never seen in his eyes before."
"The princess is extremely intelligent and unparalleled." With just one look, Ling Ruo could see so much. Apart from the words "incredible intelligence," Ling Ruo couldn't think of anything else.
"Are you smart? Sometimes it's not a good thing to see too clearly. I'd rather be a little dumber, and I'll be happier living like this." Jingxue took the paper boat she handed over and slowly opened the folded part.
It was a piece of flower paper as light as peach blossom pink, with only a small word "Far" on it. Her fingers slowly stroked it, her eyes were so gentle, and the spring light fell on the side of her face, showing a kind of crystal clearness, like
This woman's heart.
"I still remember the first time I met him. It was also a day like this. It was extremely clear, and there was no cloud in sight. He was making medicine at the entrance of the Taiyuan Hospital, and the sun was shining down on him. He was so bright. Do you know?
?I felt so warm at that moment. I had never felt this kind of warmth in the palace. It was involuntary.
I wanted to get closer to him. So I used the pretext that I loved medical skills and frequently visited the Imperial Hospital. I even asked Emperor Ama to leave the palace, just to see him more and get to know him better. However, the more I saw him, the less happy I became.
"When he said this, his bright eyes gradually dimmed, like a candle flickering in the wind.
"Can I call you Ling Ruo?" she asked suddenly.
"Of course." Ling Ruo replied quickly, and then asked: "Did Imperial Physician Xu talk a lot to the princess?"
Jingxue shook her head, her temples were decorated with purple and gold tassels hanging from her bun, "He doesn't talk to me often. To be precise, he only talks a few words when I ask him about things. Astragalus, Atractylodes, Atractylodes,
Gastrodia elata, typhoid fever, dysentery... medicine
Materials and pathology became all the topics between me and him. At that time, I didn’t think too much about it, I just liked talking to such a warm person, but as time went by... I began to not be able to distinguish what I just purely cared about.
Nuan still cares about him
Until I saw him hurriedly leaving the palace with the people sent by his fourth brother, it was the first time I saw him acting so gloomy after knowing him for so long. I was puzzled at that time, until I saw him in another courtyard.
You, see the way he looks at you..."
He glanced sideways, his eyes filled with a sad and misty look at some point, "I know that even if you are crazy all your life, he will stay by your side. It's a pity that you are the fourth brother's woman, and you will have no choice but to live or die."
No one can escape this identity."
Ling Ruo looked at her silently, what kind of woman is she? Everything in the world seemed to turn into crystal clear before her eyes, leaving nothing to hide. However, the clearer you see things in the world, the more painful they become. As she said
, would rather be stupid.
Because... many times, stupidity is also a rare blessing.
"It is true that I have known each other since we were young, and we had made a lifelong commitment, but that was all in the past. From the day I was pointed out to Si Age, I have nothing to do with him anymore. His marriage
The marriage has nothing to do with me, so the princess doesn’t need to feel sad about it.” When it came to this point, there was no need to hide it anymore.
Jingxue quietly looked at the lake surface that was rippled by the wind. The boats that had drifted far away were blown back by the wind. She let go of her hand and the paper was carried away by the wind blowing across the lake surface and floated in mid-air.
Circling and flying, "Look at this piece of paper, if it's folded, it's folded. No matter how you think about it, it's folded."
There will always be traces of the law, and the same is true in life. You will always exist in his heart, and no one can replace it. What's more..." The red lips curved, outlining a bitter arc, "I am in heaven, and I am married.
How can I be free if I get married? Everything is just wishful thinking on my part."
She seemed to know something after listening to her words. Sure enough, she continued: "Huang Ama once mentioned Prime Minister Zhang's son to me. Do you know what this means? It means that Huang Ama wants to point me out to him."
Wife, otherwise I wouldn’t mention it for no reason.”
The paper boats had floated back to Jingxue's feet, stopping there in groups. The sorrow could not be let go and continued to linger in the heart of Mei Jian.
A brightly colored butterfly flew over the lake from a distance, flapped its wings and circled around Ling Ruo and Jingxue before flying away. I don't know where it is going, and I don't know which flower it will stop on...
Jingxue's eyes followed the butterfly all the way away, with endless longing in her eyes, "Look, how beautiful this spring is. I really want to build a cage to lock the spring tightly, but in the end, the only one who can be locked is myself."
Ling Ruo didn't know what to say. In front of such a smart woman, any comfort was useless, because she had seen through everything and knew exactly what path she was going to take.
Until she returned to the Old Summer Palace, she still felt like there was a big stone pressing on her chest, making her unable to breathe. Life was inherently helpless, and it was even more pitiful to be born in the Heavenly Family. Under the appearance of being unattainable, there were heavy constraints, even if she was the king of a country.
I'm afraid Kangxi also had many uncontrollable problems, let alone Jingxue.
After that, Ling Ruo once looked for an opportunity to talk to Rong Yuan, but he never had the intention to do so. He was forced to say that he had already made up his mind not to marry for the rest of his life.
As for Jingxue, to him, it was more like a burden that he was forced to carry. I guess Jingxue also understood this, so she never forced him to do it.
The goddess has a heart, but Prince Xiang has no dreams. Everything is ultimately undestined...
Or perhaps, their fate does not belong to this life.