On this day, Xianyue once again stood under the crabapple tree. From time to time, she could see bright red petals falling like gems, but the focus of Xianyue's eyes was not on these flowers, but on an unknown distance...
When Hongli came, he happened to see Xianyue standing under the crabapple tree, facing him sideways, her eyes staring into the sky lacked their usual brightness, revealing a void that seemed to be filled with dissatisfaction with anything.
At this moment, he was a little flustered for no reason, because he was afraid that when Xianyue saw him, her eyes would be so empty. Fortunately, when Xianyue saw him, although there was no joy in her eyes, there was a little more sparkle in her eyes.
color.
Before she saluted, Hongli quickly stepped forward to support her and said gently: "What were you thinking about just now?"
Xianyue gave a faint smile and said softly: "It's nothing, it's just that the sunset is so beautiful that I can see my God."
Hongli followed her gaze, looked at the sunset that was gradually becoming silent in the distance, and said softly: "The sunset is infinitely beautiful, but it's just near dusk. In comparison, I prefer the morning sun. Tomorrow I will accompany you to watch the morning sun rise."
How about getting up?"
Xianyue said calmly: "The emperor likes it, so I naturally have no objection."
Hongli frowned slightly, held Xianyue's hand, and said: "What's wrong with you recently? You smile less than before, and people are silent. Is there something on your mind?"
"I don't think I have anything on my mind. Maybe... I'm tired recently." Facing Xianyue's words, Hongli shook his head and said, "No, you must have something on your mind, tell me."
At this moment, Xianyue wanted to say what she was holding in her heart, but in the end, she resisted the urge and shook her head and said: "It's really not true. It's just that the queen always has trouble getting rid of misunderstandings about me. I really don't know what to do."
What should I do? I know that what the emperor wants to see most is for me to reconcile with the Queen. Speaking of which, it’s all my fault. I was the one who failed the Queen first.”
Hongli was silent for a moment and said: "I said that the past things are in the past and no one should mention it again. As for the queen... I don't blame you, and don't worry too much. I will find an opportunity tomorrow and I will talk to you again.
Queen, please tell me."
Xianyue knelt down and said, "Thank you, Your Majesty."
Hong Li gently pinched her chin and said, "If you really want to thank me, smile more at me. I like to see you smile."
Xianyue's heart ached, but a smile that was brighter than the spring light appeared on her face, and she said: "Is this good?"
Hongli smiled forgivingly, and after holding her in his arms, he said with some emotion: "Xiayue, I really want to be like this with you for the rest of my life."
The pain in Xianyue's chest became clearer and clearer, but the only thing she could show on her face was a smile, "I and the emperor will be like this for the rest of their lives, unless the emperor dislikes me."
Hongli caressed her delicate jade cheek and said: "My Concubine Xian is so beautiful, how can I dislike her?"
Xianyue's heart tightened, but she pretended to be calm and said: "The emperor's implication is that when I grow old and my beauty is gone, I will be disgusted with you, right?"
Hongli raised his sword eyebrows and said with a half-smile: "You are really asking a tricky question. If I answer yes, I will become a person who values beauty; if I say no, you will say that I am cheating.
You, no matter how I answer, it's wrong."
Xianyue turned her head and said, "Then which one will come first, Your Majesty?"
"I don't choose either one." Hongli stroked the long pearls on Xianyue's temples and said in a deep voice: "As long as you always have this kind of heart and wisdom, even if you get older and ugly, I will not
I despise you."
Xianyue had always stared at Hongli's eyes, so the moment Hongli said it, she judged that he was not lying and those words were true.
At this moment, the pain in my heart slowly receded. It was an indisputable fact that she had lost the right to be a mother, and it was useless to complain. Fortunately, today's Hongli treated her with sincerity. There must be gains and losses, and her
This should be the gain and loss.
After standing quietly for a moment, Hongli remembered something and said, "I heard that you haven't been taking the medicine prescribed to you by Dr. Song recently. What's wrong?"
Xianyue secretly took a breath and said with a smile: "To be honest with the emperor, I have been drinking the medicine from the imperial doctor of the Song Dynasty for so long, and I am really afraid of drinking it. You don't know, everything I take now tastes like medicine, so I plan to first
Stop, stop.”
Hongli nodded and said: "That's true, but...these medicines are used to regulate your body. If you stop drinking it now, what will happen to your body? Don't you plan to have children for me?" At the end of his words,
When he said this sentence, Hongli's eyes were extremely complicated, and guilt and pain flashed in his eyes.
"I think, I really, really want to." Xianyue murmured, her eyes gradually becoming confused, but after just a moment, she regained her original clarity and said, "But this kind of thing,
You can’t force it, it’s my concubine’s, no one can take it away; if it’s not my concubine’s, even if I drink all the medicine in the world, it won’t be of any use, everything…just let it take its course.”
"Have you really thought about it?" Hongli didn't notice that his voice was trembling. Although he never mentioned it, he didn't forget that he was the one who caused Xianyue to be like this. When he thought about it occasionally, he always had a lingering feeling.
I will regret not going.
Xianyue endured the twitching pain and nodded vigorously: "Yes, I understand."
Hongli didn't speak, he only squeezed Xianyue's hand tightly, so tightly that Xianyue felt a little pain. This lasted for an unknown amount of time, and the breeze brought a soft dream-like word into his ears, "Yes, you will
Those with children.”
That night, Hongli stayed at Yanxi Palace. The next morning, after accompanying Xianyue to watch the beautiful scenery of the rising sun, he went to court.
After Hongli left, Aluo said: "Master, I will help you go back to sleep for a while."
"No need, I'm not sleepy." Xianyue glanced at the sky outside and said, "You can accompany me for a walk outside."
Since that incident, apart from going to the Cining Palace and Kunning Palace to pay her respects, Xianyue has never stepped out of the Yanxi Palace, nor even the Yangxin Palace. It was rare that she took the initiative to take a walk outside today.
Naturally, A Luo would not refuse and said: "Master, the weather is so good today, why don't I help you to feed the fish in Linyuan Pond?"
Xianyue thought for a while and said, "Okay, let's go get some fish food."
A Luo Yiyan went to fetch it, and then he helped her walk all the way. In the spring of March, it was the time when flowers were in full bloom and the grass was growing and warblers were flying. Along the way, from time to time, willow warblers flew by, leaving behind a series of soft calls.
It's really satisfying.
After walking all the way, when they arrived at Linyuan Pond, they saw someone already feeding the fish. A Luo took a careful look at the back and said uncertainly: "Master, that person seems to be Concubine Zhe?"
Xianyue also felt that it was very similar, and immediately said: "I don't want to feed the fish anymore, let's go."
A Luo agreed and was about to help her leave, but Concubine Zhe, who was standing by the lake, had already heard the voice and turned around. After seeing clearly that it was Xianyue, she raised her voice and said: "Concubine Xian, why are you leaving right after you come here?"