Felix returned to her room, washed briefly and then lay on the bed. Because the temperature in the room was very comfortable, she was only wearing a loose shirt on her upper body and only her underwear on her lower body.
She turned sideways and hugged the lesbian pillow, burying her face in the soft doll.
Freya's behavior after she regained her memory was not surprising at all. What really surprised Felix was that even the cold, arrogant and calm Shiffrin calmly accepted the fact that she liked Ash after she regained her memory.
It seems that she is the only one who is different.
Whether it was sending several large-scale selfies to Ya Xiu every day starting from Sun Luo Kingdom, or using makeup as an excuse to secretly make out with Ya Xiu a few days ago... Even though I kept looking for excuses to deceive myself at the time, now I re-examine this memory.
, Felix also understood that he really liked Ash.
But now she doesn't want to continue to like Ash.
How could she like this kind of person?
Not to mention that she is unwilling and dare not share favors with Sword Girl and the others. Even if she is willing to join in, she cannot accept this chaotic relationship. She has watched several developer conferences at close range, and on the night of the wedding, she even
It was a startling glance, and she caught sight of the cream flowing out of the puff... Just thinking about being in it made her whole body hot with shame.
She didn't want to lie around and watch Ash having sex with other people!
Just as Freya said, everyone's standards are different, and no matter how she breaks through her own bottom line, her standards remain firm: it must be pure love between two people, anything else is heresy.
It's quite ridiculous when you think about it. Legendary magicians who are stronger than her, and demigods who are far superior to her (now the six-winged god master) can accept this form of emotion, but she is a little
It's almost a bit ungrateful for the Holy Domain magician to be so pretentious... But she is really scared.
She is afraid that she will be ignored and abandoned in a corner, and her passionate love will only move herself in the end;
She is also afraid of being taken seriously, being disliked and hostile by others, and falling into an emotional whirlpool of intrigue;
If she is just wronged, that's it. What if she has children in the future? Not everything can be solved by a miracle. Some things are unfair. Just like the supreme share is only so much. If you have more, I will have less.
One point, the more people there are, the less points there are...the same goes for love.
Sometimes Felix really envies Freya and the others for their love brains. They can love without any scruples and without thinking about the consequences, but she can't do it. Every time she thinks about the future, her children, and the thought of not being able to have complete love.
How pitiful his wife and children are... She herself was born as an illegitimate child, and she knows what it feels like.
She and Dimi, her mother and Mrs. Beverly, and even her father... everyone suffered terribly because of this unblessed relationship, and they couldn't get what they asked for.
How could she make the same mistake again?
Amnesia is the best escape window for her, but recovering her memory now does not mean she will fall into the abyss again. Unlike other people who fully accept their past, she can detach herself and examine these memories from a third-person perspective to correctly
She corrected these wrong feelings with her three views, as if God took pity on her wrong love and gave her a spider thread to give her a chance to escape from the desperate purgatory.
Deny what Ash has done,
Deny what you have done,
Deny all wrong feelings,
This is very simple for her to explain. As long as she thinks more about the tears of the sword girl, the loneliness of the witch, the indifference of the silver lamp, and the grievance of Wei Xi, she can deny their feelings and her own mood from the bottom of her heart. But why?
…
"Why..." Felix hugged the doll tightly, tears soaking the plush on it: "Why do I still want to see him..."
In the Star Bridge Hall, facing the pressure of his ancestor Sword Law Angel, he protected himself and refused to let go...
In the Senluo Kingdom, after seriously discussing various issues in the harem with him, he broke through to the point where he really wanted to repent and stay away from Sword Girl and the others...
In the Blood Moon Kingdom, before the small wedding theater, he saw her loneliness, and specifically told her to close her eyes to satisfy her self-deception, and took the initiative to kiss her forehead for the first time...
Felix opened the light screen and called up the photo album, turning to the photo of the four brides. She rubbed her eyes and saw Ash, who had disappeared in the photo, now back in the photo. He was standing behind the bride, his eyes gentle.
Full of love, the four brides looked at the parade of floats outside, with smiles from the bottom of their hearts on their faces, whether they were coquettish, holy, cute or charming.
During this long journey, she had indeed seen the sad and aggrieved expressions of Sword Princess and the others, but she had also seen more...the beauty of their laughter and touching moments.
She looked at this photo and was fascinated for a moment. Big tears fell on the doll, and she whispered aggrievedly: "Why is it so uncomfortable for me to recover my memory..."
"Because you are both longing for and afraid."
Felix was so frightened that he jumped up from the bed. He turned around and saw Deida Rose sitting next to him. He sniffed hard and stammered: "Come on, Miss Lena!? When did you come?"
"I've been here since you finished taking a shower, but you haven't noticed me the whole time, holding the doll and twisting around on the bed." Deida Rose said calmly: "I'm here to discuss the next plan with you.
"
"Okay!" Felix said immediately, rubbing his eyes and trying to pretend that nothing happened: "What are we going to do next?"
"I'm going to work hard in the direction of becoming Ash's angel. It would be best if he takes me to the kingdom of heaven, and secondly, if I cultivate to a demigod level and then join them." Deida Rose said: "There is no news about the Four Pillar Gods, Ya
Xiu is ready to challenge the Supreme Throne, and I want to follow him and witness how he burns the world."
"Oh, then we-"
"There is no us, only me." Deida Rose shook her head: "I never asked you to act with me. I don't mean to dislike you, but if you don't want to continue to follow Ash, you can leave at any time. Recall
I like Ash, isn't it hard for you?"
Felix was dumbfounded and blushed to the base of his ears. He looked away and did not dare to look at Deida Rose: "I didn't... I just..."
"Escape, denial, entanglement, pain, the way you like people is exactly the same as sister Yin Lina." A look of reminiscence appeared on Deida Rose's face: "When she liked that guy back then, she was in exactly the same state as you are now."
Felix was startled and asked, "Don't mother and father love each other?"
"That guy has been engaged since he was a child, and he met sister Yin Lina later. Do you think Yin Lina accepted so easily that she could only be the third party?" Deida Rose smiled and said, "She also struggled and worked hard for a long time."
"Since my mother was in so much pain, why did they stay together in the end? Why did they still give birth to me?" Felix couldn't help but said: "If they had separated a long time ago, and if it wasn't for me, maybe my mother wouldn't -"
"The first time I saw you, it was also the first time I saw that guy and Yin Lina together. I still remember that the sun was very good that day, and the warm golden sunshine shone on the hospital bed. Yin Lina held you in her arms, and she and Yin Lina
That guy looked at you tenderly... I pretended not to know him, so I went over and touched your little head." Deida Rose came over and sat on the edge of the bed, raised her hand and touched Felix's head, as if she had traveled back in time.
That day twenty years ago, "The guy behind did let down Yin Lina, but you are not a child without blessings... You are indeed the fruit of their love and their best wishes for the future."
"At least before he took over as Duke, that guy really worked hard." Deida Rose said softly: "But before his feelings could deteriorate, he accepted the blessings of the stars and left when Sister Yin Lina needed him most.
Even if Yin Lina wants to hate him, she can't hate him no matter what."
Felix was stunned, and suddenly connected many things together, and murmured: "That's why, Miss Laina, you are willing to do whatever it takes to promote the plan to shatter the sky..."
Deda Rose wiped the tears under Felix's eyes with her thumb and said: "I tell this story not to influence you or push you, but I just don't want you to misunderstand Yin Lina. No matter what decision Yin Lina makes, it has nothing to do with you.
, only you can be responsible for your life."
"But the reason why you and Yin Lina are struggling is the same, that is, you are afraid of the worst possibility, but you are willing to believe in the person you love. No matter how reasonable and difficult it is, you both still feel that... he will create miracles
.”
Deda Rose stood up and glanced at her: "Yin Lina trusted the wrong person. Do you think your vision will be better?"
After Deedalose left the room, Felix stared blankly at the starry sky outside.
After a while, she took out her star diamond necklace, held it in her hand, and prayed for peace to her mother who turned into a star.
Is it to avoid suffering or to pursue happiness?
What should I do, life...what is the correct answer?
At this moment, Felix felt a glimmer of light in her palm. She let go of her hand and saw the star diamond necklace turning into a cocoon, and the starlight from the outside poured into the cocoon, forming the stars in her palm.
With the sound of the shell breaking, four starlight wings broke through the cocoon, and a graceful and shining magical spirit emerged from the cocoon and stayed in Felix's palm.
Four-Winged Magical Spirit·Nianxing.
A four-winged magic spirit summoned independently, a door of truth leading to Ruby Mountain.
Felix stared at the magic spirit blankly, and after a long time he held it tightly in his hand.
I see.
It is better to believe in yourself than to believe in others. If you are confused or entangled, then stride forward. Don’t let your emotions fetter your pace. Try your best to reach further places and see more scenery. There is still more in life.
There are countless beautiful things waiting to be explored.
Only hard work will not be disappointed, only hope will not be extinguished.
She breathed a sigh of relief and lay softly on the bed. Destiny gave her a perfect and correct answer. She would no longer have any worries and hesitations. She just had to follow this path to the end. Everything had been arranged.
Thank fate, thank the stars.
Without further ado, Felix immediately activated the Gate of Truth of the Star Reading Spirit, establishing a connection between his consciousness and the distant virtual realm.
After a brief absence of consciousness, when she opened her eyes again, she had arrived at a huge ruby mountain.
Magician’s Holy Land, Ruby Mountain!
From today on, she is a legendary magician!
Instead of chasing after the backs of talented sorceresses, she might as well become a talented sorceress herself. This is the answer that fate has given her! Everything about Ash, what love, it's all——
"Little Philly?"
Felix suddenly turned his head and saw four sorceresses behind him, and three of them were familiar - Veela Freya, Blood Saint Shivrin, and Witch Annan.
There was another girl who was holding a heavy weapon like a shield and axe, but was wearing a strapless tube top with translucent sleeves, and a transparent skirt over sports shorts. Felix could guess who it was without asking: Black
Crow Tamashi!
"It's really little Feili!"
Freya seemed to have forgotten that she was crying because of her just now. She rushed over to hug Felix and said happily: "Are you coming to join our team too!? That's great. Let's have an adventure in Ruby Mountain together!"
Felix knew from the diary that they could form a team, but they themselves didn't know how to form a team, so she never had extravagant hopes. She didn't expect that she would have such luck: "Is it really possible?"
"Of course you can. In fact, even if you don't want to, you will team up with us next time you enter the virtual realm." Shifflin looked at her with subtle eyes: "You are directly teleporting around our team.
Whatever appears in any way will be bound to us."
Going on an adventure with this group of talented sorceresses? Felix's heart was pounding. He felt as if he was sleeping on a pillow, hungry and fat, "Of course I would!"
"Okay, we finally have five people!" Veela cheered: "One more person than the queen group!"
"Queen's group?" Felix blinked.
"Sword Princess and the others are the queen group, and we are the princess group. This is the name given by Freya." An Nan said in a strange tone: "Actually, we had two more cruel and direct names for this group before..."
"That is already a thing of the past!" Freya said with her hands on her hips: "Since the bath, there is no longer a difference between victory and defeat, only the difference between the queen and the princess!"
"Hello, I'm Black Crow Tamashi." Tamashi greeted shyly.
"Hello, I am...Duchess Felix?" Felix was not sure of his code name for a moment, so he made up a random one.
Although the name Queen and Princess made her feel weird, it was just a title. Anyway, she was just following their adventures.
"Now that we have five people, we will definitely be able to defeat the queen group next time, right?" Tamashi asked.
Freya was full of fighting spirit: "Of course, how could the four of them defeat five people!"
Felix was a little scared when he heard this: "Everyone, Sword Lady and the others are now the six-winged gods. Even if we are legendary magicians, I'm afraid we won't be able to--" in a short time.
"What are you afraid of? Love war has nothing to do with strength." Freya waved her hand: "Sincere feelings are the decisive factor, love can melt everything!"
Miss Vosloda was startled: "What love war?"
"The war for Asher." Freya hugged Felix's arm, looking innocent as if she was playing house: "Now we have one more person than them, and it's just around the corner to get Asher to our side!"
"Ah?" Felix was shocked and quickly shook his head: "I won't participate!"
"Why? Five is better than four. We have a great chance of winning. If we win, we will distribute it again!"
"Because of me, me," Felix stammered: "I don't like Ash! Why should I fight for him?"
Everyone looked at each other, and Freya said to Shiffrin: "It turns out that little Feili is a tsundere just like you."
"I'm not arrogant!" Shiffrin and Felix retorted in unison.
"There is no one else here, so you don't have to hide it." An Nan said, "There seems to be only one threshold for joining this team, and that is having a love for Ash."
"But I really don't!" Felix was going crazy: "What I hate the most is a scumbag like Asher who climbed out of the trash can. He is shameless and unrepentant. He insists on making everyone feel wronged and sad to satisfy his own desires.
, I won’t—”
"Don't speak ill of Ash!" Tamashi frowned and took a step forward with murderous intent: "Otherwise, don't blame me for being rude."
"Oh Tamashi, you don't understand," Freya stopped Tamashi and explained seriously: "The so-called tsundere means that no matter how much you like it in your heart, you still have to show an attitude of extreme disgust on the surface -
—”
Before Felix could make a move, Shiffrin hugged her first. The latter looked like she was watching a show, "Look, it's your turn now", which made Felix look depressed.
"Okay, let's just assume that you really don't like Ya Xiu." An Nan said, "But we will hold developer conferences with Ya Xiu regularly."
Felix was stunned: "What?"
"○○Party."
"He's not in Ruby Mountain—"
"The Fifth Pillar Goddess Firefly will pull us into the space of longing," Shiffrin said: "Last time it was a bath scene, and I don't know what it will be next time."
"Don't be nervous. You don't have to participate. Ash isn't forcing you to do it anyway." An Nan said, but before Felix could relax, she continued: "You just need to watch from the side."
Watching from the side...
Looking at...
Thinking of the shocking glimpse on the wedding night, Felix's face felt as hot as burning, and he felt like steam was coming out of his head.
"Huh?" Freya's IQ suddenly returned to a high level: "You have been following Ash for more than half a year, and you haven't...?"
"No!" Felix explained hurriedly: "I told you I hate him——"
"Liar, you always stick to Ash, you must have passed."
"I also feel that since we saw her and Ash being inseparable during the gospel broadcast, even if they haven't crossed paths, they have definitely crossed paths."
"A few days ago I saw her coming out of Ash's room with a happy face..."
"The most I've ever done is kiss Ash!" Felix loudly defended his reputation: "Other than that, there's really no further progress!"
The air of Ruby Mountain fell into silence for a while, and the sorceresses blinked and stared at her together. Felix opened his mouth, unable to say anything. His face was so hot that he could no longer think. He turned around and wanted to run away, but
Freya rushed over to hug her first and congratulated her happily: "Welcome to the princess group!"
The stars are hurting me, I'll pray to the Four Pillars next time, Felix thought to himself.
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